After I divorced from chaos step

I have a headache.

The mystery that has troubled me for more than ten years was revealed, but the unexpected answer caught people off guard.

I wandered alone outside the truth for many years. With my stupid mind, I couldn't go inside, and I thought I would never know the truth until I died.

But it doesn't mean that I didn't grit my teeth and thought about crushing the person who caused me bit by bit, let him see the process of his own shattering, let him collapse in despair, and then die with endless regret.

I attribute all these misfortunes to the supernatural ability that suddenly appeared that year, which ended my ordinary and happy life, and I never lived a carefree life after that.

But on the day when I saw the truth, I wanted to see the face of my enemy full of malice and purpose, but what I saw was the scene of harmony in the world, and what I saw was the childhood of my lovely husband.

It shouldn't be like this.

But he was the one who opened that box and changed the trajectory of my destiny.

I scratched my head, unable to think any further.

I hurriedly thanked Ango Sakaguchi and ran out.After I ran half a street away, I heard someone calling me from behind.

It's Rosalie.

The little girl ran very fast, with fine sweat hanging from the tip of her nose, her expression looked very depressed, and there was a little sympathy in her eyes.

...Probably sympathizing with me.

"You forgot to take your glass bead." She passed a glass bead with her left hand.

I reached out and took it.

This is the man that Ranbu called his uncle, and every day he would give Ranbu a glass bead as a reward for his obedience.

I don't know if Ranbu liked glass beads before, or because of his uncle.We have a lot of these things in our house, and he will try his best to get out even the small glass beads stuck in the bottle of the wave soda he drinks.

"You also dropped your glasses, it must be a gift for Mr. Ranpo." Rosalie said with a smile, "Qingxi sauce looks brave when drinking vegetable juice."

It’s okay not to mention the vegetable juice, but when I mentioned it, my stomach was churning and I almost vomited.

It's still hard.

"Are you going to avenge your friend?" she asked suddenly. "Are you going to kill that girl?"

I was a little surprised, I just wanted to watch the process of getting my supernatural power, not really wanting to avenge someone.

Rosalie glanced at me, hesitated and said: "My ability is to transmit the memory that others want me to convey, but the prerequisite is that it must be a real memory—"

"Huh?" Then what?

"In the process of communicating, I will inevitably see those memories." Rosalie paused and said, "Although your friend and his companions were all killed by that girl, the girl's alien After all, she was released from the magic box, and she is also a victim. Wasn't she pushed off the cliff by that boy in the end? It's not sure whether she will be alive or dead, can you find her?"

"What did you say?!"

I almost crushed the glasses in my hand, almost.

Why didn't I see the scene she said?

I didn't see me kill those people, and I didn't see Rumble pushing me off the cliff.

The scenes I saw were fragmented.

But after listening to her description, all the scenes can be connected together.

Ranpo opened the box, I got the power, then I killed everyone, and finally got pushed down by Ranpo.

We've been killing each other since we were kids, after sharing a piece of birthday cake and a bottle of pop.

"Huh? Didn't you see it?" Rosalie scratched her hair, a little embarrassed, "My ability will be a little damaged during the transmission process, you may not have read it all, or we will go back to An Wuchan Shall I see it once?"

"No, don't bother." I put away my glasses and glass beads, and said softly, "Thank you and Mr. Sakaguchi, I should go back."

"Remember to say hello to Mr. Ranpo for me."

"Ok."

I looked at the back of Rosalie bouncing away, feeling a little disappointed.

I turned my head and walked towards home.

The thinking in my mind is very chaotic, and I can't help but assume many things.

If I hadn’t run to Moon Ying Mountain that day——

If no one explores there that day—

If Ranpo hadn't opened that magic box——

If there were no supernatural powers in this world——

and many more.

This is not the fault of supernatural powers.

... I can't have such extreme ideas as Tuosi.

I pulled my hair, took a deep breath, and gradually calmed myself down.

never mind.It's all a thing of the past.

I might as well think about what to make for dinner tonight.

Luanbu's toe hasn't recovered yet, it's because of me that I kicked it badly, and I should make it up to him.

But this kind of compensation may not satisfy him. He complained to me more than once that he didn't want to drink milk.

On the supermarket shelf, I picked up a bottle of milk and put it back.

——He doesn't like milk at all, so why should I force him to drink it?

What he likes are potato chips, soda and sweets, and it is his pleasure to eat those snacks recklessly.

After marrying me, I couldn't stand my mother's nagging, so I withheld a lot of snacks and toys from him, and he was very angry about it.

He is not happy.

I scanned the shelves one by one, took down boxes of chocolate chip cookies, french fries, and potato chips, and filled the trolley to the brim. These are Ranpo's favorite snacks.

When going to the counter to check out, the line ahead of me was an elderly couple.

The old lady with the feather earrings looked very foreign, she frowned and said, "I'll just take a bite."

Like being coquettish.

The old gentleman next to him was wearing a pair of elegant-looking glasses, and said helplessly, "I haven't paid the bill yet."

"It's not that I don't pay the bill, I'll just take a bite."

The old gentleman tore off the wrapping paper of the ice cream for her, held the side with the barcode in his hand, and went to scan it for the salesperson. He turned around and reminded: "I really can't help you, but your blood sugar exceeds the standard, so you should eat less." , don’t steal it behind my back, only eat it in front of me.”

"Got it." The old lady took a sip of the ice cream, smiling so that the wrinkles on her face stretched out, "After all these years, how have I ever lied to you?"

The old gentleman was happy to hear that, and touched her soft silver hair: "Yes, you have never hidden anything from me. I am very happy and grateful for that. After all, honesty and frankness are the most basic respect between husband and wife."

……

It wasn't until the customers behind urged me to check out quickly that I recovered from the conversation between the old couple just now.

I returned all the veggies, fruit, and meatloaf from the cart to the counter, leaving only a bunch of snacks, and apologized to the cashier.

I recalled the last words of the old couple, honest and frank marriage?

Honesty and frankness - if this is the basic standard of marriage, then my marriage has never been qualified.

I used to think that I was full of deceit unilaterally, but now it seems that it is two-way. My husband also hides many things from me.

For the first time, I didn't buy any food and went home with a bunch of snacks.

After Tuosi came to the house at noon, the house has been cleaned and it is very clean. I put the snacks on the table one by one, opened a bottle of soda, and mixed the wine.

I haven't been to the room on the second floor for a long time. I found the photo album of Ranpo's family in the cabinet.

I call it a photo album, but there aren't many photos left.

His mother was older than what Ango Sakaguchi remembered, but still young in the last photo.

Flipping forward, I saw a photo.It's a photo of Ranpo with a young man.

That man looks a lot like Ranpo, but I know he's not Ranpo's father.Luanbu was still young, held in his arms, holding a blue glass bead in his hand, smiling brightly.

The mood of more than ten years ago can be accurately conveyed through the yellowed photos.

I gently caressed a row of crooked small characters under the photo.

【Wisdom and Chaos】

My intuition tells me that he is Ranpo's uncle, and also the leader of the...expedition team that I killed in Moonying Mountain.

My eyes fell on the side, it was the last bag of biscuits that Luanbu's mother bought for him, and I sealed it with a plastic bag for him before.

I put the glass bead I picked up from Moonying Mountain next to the biscuit—these are precious things for Ranpo.

"Qingxixi, I'm back!"

Someone was knocking on the door on the first floor. Although he had the key with him, he preferred to ask me to open the door and then give me a hug.

Today I turned a deaf ear to his door calls and sat firmly on the sofa. He smashed the door and I didn't open it for him. Finally I heard the sound of keys ringing at the door.

click.

The door opened.

"Qingxixi, you are at home. Why don't you open the door for me - and don't turn on the light." Ranbu turned on the light with a snap, and behind him was Fukuzawa Yukichi who sent him back.

"Mr. Fukuzawa, good evening." I stood up from the sofa and greeted him.

"Qingxi, are you feeling unwell?" It's not the first time Fukuzawa Yukichi sent Ranbu home. In the past, I would answer the door immediately.

"No." I shook my head and looked at Ranpo, "I was thinking that it would be better for Ranbu-san to get used to opening the door by himself."

"Qingxixi, what's wrong with you?" Luanbu wanted to touch my forehead, but I stepped back and avoided it.

His hand was empty and he held it up, the atmosphere was subtly awkward.

"Ahem, I'm going back first." Fukuzawa Yukichi probably thought that we were having trouble again, he didn't care about such things, and wanted to leave first, "Ranbu, you have a good rest. Qingxi, next week The gathering of the detective agency, come and play with Ranpo."

"it is good."

After Fukuzawa Yukichi left, he limped to the dining table and exclaimed, "Is this for today's dinner?"

"Yeah, Luanbu-sang is not happy?"

All are his favorite snacks.

His expression was not happy.

He stood in front of the table for a long time, suddenly raised his face, and stared at me with green eyes.

"Qingxixi, if you are in a bad mood today, then I will order delivery."

"No, I'm in a good mood." I sat down on the chair one step ahead of him, opened a bag of potato chips and handed it to him, "Today we won't eat fish balls that Ranbu-sang hates, and we won't eat fruit and vegetable soup gone."

I usually have to coax him several times before he takes a bite of those things.

And milk.

I threw away all the milk in the refrigerator and replaced it with various sodas.

"Shh, Luanbu Sang." I raised my finger and pressed it on his lips weakly, "Stop talking, sit down and listen to me while eating."

He finally gave face, no longer like a wayward child, and sat down obediently.

He took a sip of the soda I poured him, frowning slightly.

...It is because it is mixed with wine.

"Ranbu-sang, can you drink it up?" I dragged my finger on the bottom of his cup and pressed it lightly.

Probably seeing that I was in a bad mood, he obediently finished his glass of soda.

"Qingxixi, I have something to tell you." His face began to turn red at a speed visible to the naked eye.

"Ranbu-san, I also have something to tell you, ladies first, listen to me first." I took a sip of vodka mixed with soda, thinking that I really don't like soda.

I mixed his soda with vodka and mine with soda.

As a result, he frowned, which made me unhappy.

I slowly finished my glass of vodka and put the glass with his.

"I'm a member of the Rats of the Dead House. I joined it on the first day it was established." I looked at Ranpo, hoping to see a look of surprise or anger on his face, which at least represented his respect for I don't know anything about it.but none.

He is very calm.

"You already knew that, didn't you?"

He nodded, breathing heavily from the alcohol.

But after a while, he lay prone on the table, just pressing on the opened bag of potato chips.

"Ranpo-san, as a member of the detective agency, why are you getting involved with your sworn enemy?" I rested my chin on one hand and looked at him expressionlessly.

He shook his head hard.

Under the influence of alcohol, it was already difficult for him to speak.

Of course, I just didn't want to hear him talk, so I put alcohol in his soda.

"The detective and the criminal are getting together, probably for the purpose of obtaining information. Other than that, I can't think of any other reason."

wow.

Potato chips spilled all over the floor.

Ranbu held out his hand towards me.

My eyes fell on his ring finger, and this time, I forcibly removed the ring from it.

The light on the ceiling was on, and I learned how Luanbu saw the ring for the first time, holding it up high and facing the light.

A few words clearly emerged on the inside of the ring.

Still in Russian.

【Crime and Punishment】

"It really is that guy."

Don't even think about it, you know who carved this.

I carried this ring with me, until it was given to Ranbu, and I never touched it again.As an opponent, he knew a little bit about Tosi's ability name.

No wonder at that time, after seeing this ring, he married me without hesitation.

Do you really think I can bring information about Tosi?

I sighed softly, and put the ring back on my hand for Ranbu.

"Since you like it, keep it." It's not mine anyway.

Luanbu couldn't say anything, only a pair of blue eyes stared at me firmly.

In fact, he had no choice.

If he doesn't finish that drink, I won't say anything.When he finished that drink, he couldn't say anything.

Once these smart people speak, there is no room for me to speak.

I can't guarantee whether what they said is true or not. I was deceived more than once by Tuosi's smooth talk, and Luanbu also concealed many things from me.

But I can assure you that I am telling the truth.

The phone vibrated, and it was Atsushi Nakajima who replied to my email.

【Well, Qingxi-san, it is indeed the president's ability, which allows me and Jinghua to control our own ability. I couldn't control it before. 】

I did not reply.

Luanbuti never mentioned this matter to me.I have been troubled by the ability for a long time, and I am grateful that he is by my side again and again, even keeping it secret for me.

"Ranbu-san, your glasses were trampled, I replaced them for you."

I put the new pair of flat glasses by his hand, and when he moved his hand, the glasses fell to the ground.

...should be angry.

No way, I can't restore the broken glasses to their original shape.

"This is your most precious thing, I can't return it to you, I'm sorry." I leaned over to pick up the glasses from the ground, took out my rabbit wallet from my pocket, and crushed it bit by bit, "As Compensation, I also destroy what I cherish the most, so it's a little fairer."

This rabbit wallet was the last gift my grandpa Xingzuo gave me. He told me that as long as there is money in the wallet, there is nothing to be afraid of. Eating well and sleeping well are more important than many things.

Grandpa Xingzuo passed away very early, the cause of death is unknown, and even the body was not found, but I always remember that sentence.

"Ranbu-san, I should thank you, if it wasn't for you, this wallet would have been stolen a long time ago."

It was he who held up an umbrella for me in the rain, retrieved my wallet for me, and prevented me from killing people with supernatural powers.

He gave me a gentle and peaceful years.

However, the person who terminated my peaceful life was also him.

"Ranbu-san, I'm also very sorry about your uncle." I picked up Luanbu and walked to the bedroom. He needed a good night's sleep to forget this nightmare. "I already know that, you opened it." The box, let me get the power, and then I lost control and killed them, I know it all."

I didn't say the words about being pushed off the cliff by him, because Luan Bu's eyes were already wet.

"I'm really sorry……"

Gollum.

I heard a weird noise in his throat, he wanted to talk but the vodka was so hard in his throat he couldn't speak.

"We've been married for half a year."

Half a year, whether it is long or not, is not short.

The habits between each other have begun to penetrate and influence each other.

In fact, I am clearly out of tune with Luanbu.

I go to bed early and get up early, he goes to bed late and gets up late, and sometimes stays up late reading novels.

I love all outdoor sports, and he wants to be carried by people when he climbs mountains.

I have no interest in eating snacks, but pay attention to nutritional balance, he is addicted to snacks, without restraint, and doesn't care about nutritional balance.

I'm stuck in the black mud, an evil thing.He stands in the light, representing justice.

My ability brings disaster to others, but his ability helps others solve problems.

His motto is "If it suits me, everything is fine." It is a happy and harmonious scene.

My motto is "What doesn't suit me, it all fades away." It's a desolate scene where nothing is left after the disaster.

——The above are actually not the most important problems.

I was reminded of the old couple's conversation.

The most basic respect in marriage is honesty and frankness.

We bonded so quickly that we didn't understand the nature of marriage at all.

I brushed up the soft hair on Ranbu's forehead and pressed a kiss lightly.

"Ranpo-san, let's get a divorce."

Hearing this, he struggled violently, but the effect of vodka was too obvious to him, and he struggled for a long time but couldn't get up.

He only said one word.

Squeezed out trembling in his throat.Like choking.

He said no.

"Kunikida-kun is right. Marriage requires careful consideration. It's not enough for two people to just have feelings. It also depends on whether they are compatible and whether they can go on in the long run." I opened the closet and looked at my row of clothes. Skip above, "Besides, the most basic thing in marriage, honesty and frankness, we haven't even done it."

Ranpo hid many things from me.I don't even know exactly why he married me.

But I don't want to ask anymore, because I don't know if he is telling the truth.

Thinking about that ring, and that bottle cap, makes me angry.But when I'm angry, I'm not angry anymore.When something happened, I would rather discuss it with Dazai Osamu or Liu Renji, and I didn't ask my famous detective husband for help immediately.

I stretched out my hand, and dissipated my clothes one by one in front of Luanbu.

This heavenly ability works surprisingly well when clearing, leaving nothing behind.

This Strawberry suspender pajamas is the same style as Ranbu's pajamas. They were couple pajamas we bought in the commercial street a month ago.This dark gray yukata is new and hasn't been worn yet. It was prepared for the summer festival.

Every time I touched one, one disappeared, and by the way, I remembered the memory of this dress.

The next thing is——

Wedding dress.

My eyes fell on the snow-like wedding dress.

When Ranpo and I got married, it was a Western-style wedding, and this wedding dress was custom-made at a high price.On the day I put it on, I never thought that the day to say goodbye to it would come so soon.

The moment the wedding dress dissipated, the groom's dress next to him swayed slightly, the arms were full of creases, and it looked like the whole dress was downcast.

puff.

Luanbu behind him fell to the ground.

I didn't look back at him, and my eyes continued to scan every corner of the house slowly, cleaning up one by one.

I have a journal, and I flip through it page by page.

It records my daily life for half a year.

Which store has a discount, the big sale on the weekend, which playground you plan to take Luanbu to, how much it costs to buy milk, and a hundred ways how to coax Luanbu to eat more vegetables—unfortunately, only a few have been collected so far. to ten.

When I wrote the first article, I was so ambitious.

There are several small notes in the ledger.

There is a note of apology that Ranpo stuffed in a toy duck, and there is a note that Ranpo sticks on a vodka bottle saying that he failed to make a drink.

Eventually the stuff dissipated in my hands.

It seems to be saying goodbye to the life of the past six months.

The fridge is full of sodas and the cupboards are full of snacks.What it was like before I came here is what it is now.

I say goodbye to every item in my home that doesn't belong to me.

I touched the chair, I sat on it, and I ate and drank tea with Ranbu.

I touched the sofa. I often nest here in a daze, counting my past.

……

I stood on tiptoe and touched the wall lamp in the entrance.The warm orange light spread out and gathered into a beautiful circle.

I stood quietly under the lamp for a while, everything that belongs to me here has been cleaned up.I put the divorce papers on the table.

"Ranpo-san, next time we meet, I hope we can say hello honestly, if you don't want to laugh, then don't laugh."

Although this marriage was short-lived, it had been beautiful, but it was not honest enough because of various concealments.

An umbrella in the rain, a hug before going to bed at night, and a kiss on the cheek when you are happy have all become long-lasting feelings.Marriage is not the beginning of life, nor is divorce the end.

I pushed open the door, walked out, and erased the [Edogawa Qingxi] on the door plate.

Looking up, I saw the stars all over the sky, as if rubbing a layer of gold powder on the dark night.

With so many stars, tomorrow will be a fine day, too.