I am in the crematorium, Wen Dang A Piao

When I entered, the house was very dark.

The light was not turned on, and the curtains were drawn. Xin Jianran fumbled for the switch on the wall, but there was a voice from the kitchen——

Candlelight and sound spread over, Xin's parents came out with a cake, Xin's mother smiled and said: "I received your news in the group, and your father and I made a cake together to celebrate, congratulations Ran Ran completed the mission successfully, and also praised Ah Zhuo for being such a good teacher for the first time."

Xin Zhuo snorted uncomfortably, Xin Jianran stared at the cake and said softly, "Thank you, Mom and Dad."

Shi Huaixi floated to the cake and looked at it. It was a fruit cake with two layers of small cakes. It was beautiful and appetizing, "Do you want to blow out the candles?"

"No, no, no," Father Lu waved his hand, "Can we take a photo together?"

"Of course you can."

Shi Huaixi waved at them, "Come on, come on."

Both brothers came over.

Mother Xin specially installed a selfie stick on her phone, adjusted the light and angle, and took a photo of their family, the first in her life.

In the warm yellow candlelight, Xin Chuyun smiled with tears in his eyes, Lu Ganlai smiled, but he could tell he was nervous, Xin Jianran looked at the camera stiffly, and Xin Zhuo was expressionless.

They were shoulder to shoulder, and the little puppet was wearing a small shirt and bib shorts, standing on Xin Jianran's shoulder, next to Xin Zhuo's arm.

It is a very warm photo.

After eating the cake, I didn't have much appetite for dinner. Dad Lu made some snacks. The family watched TV downstairs and chatted. They didn't go upstairs to wash until nine o'clock.

When they reached the stairs, Xin Jianran asked Xin Zhuo, "Is there any wine left?"

The evening breeze is blowing, and the terrace has changed a lot. There are tables and chairs under the porch, futons and incense burners in the corner, and two swings outside. A swing, with a yellow sunshade on it, and a small table in front of the swing for putting things.

The astronomical telescope was still in the corner, untouched.

Xin Zhuo took a can of cold beer and put it on the small table, and sat on the small swing first. He opened a can, lit a stick of incense beside him, and Xin Jianran opened a can and sat on the swing on the right , looked up and took a big sip.

Shi Huaixi sat in the middle, swinging slowly on the swing.

"Xin Zhuo," Xin Jianran spoke first, "When I'm not around, how does his... how do his parents live?"

"How do I know?" Xin Zhuo took a sip of his wine, "If you want to know, just ask them. I grew up with my grandpa, and sometimes I don't see them for a year."

"sorry."

"What are you apologizing to me for?"

"You hate me, don't you? I know."

"I hate you not because they care about you and ignore me, but because you treated them...tsk after you were found."

"I know, I'm too cowardly. If..." Xin Jianran looked at Shi Huaixi, "If only I were like you, then our family would definitely not be what it is today. It's obviously the same experience, but I Being so useless will only make people worry..."

"I'm going to be angry." Shi Huaixi interrupted him.

Xin Jianran was at a loss, "I'm sorry...I...I shouldn't compare us..."

"You shouldn't deny yourself like that."

"Uh..." In front of him, the little puppet looked at him, "It's not that you haven't tried to face it. Even after experiencing these terrible things, you have never given up on your studies and can support yourself well. Now You are also learning how to protect yourself.

Xin Jianran was speechless, and Shi Huaixi continued, "Of course our experiences are different. If you have to say it, you can only say that I am luckier than you. Don't deny yourself easily. If I were you, I would also be lucky." You may not be able to do better than you. You are already moving forward, so you don’t need to think about the past. If you have to blame it, it must be the person who stole you. You can't blame yourself, you know?"

"Uh..." Xin Jianran took a deep breath, and a clear smile appeared on his face, "I see, thank you for telling me this."

Thank you for saving me, thank you for pulling me out of my dark life, thank you for leading me home, thank you for saving that child today.

Like saved me again.

Shi Huaixi patted him, picked up the beer can, and moved forward, "Everything will get better and better. Tomorrow!"

Xin Jianran put his beer can over, Shi Huaixi looked at Xin Zhuo, "Come on."

Xin Zhuo hooked the swing with one hand and lazily handed it over with the other. He looked at Xin Jianran, "I don't hate you so much now."

Xin Jianran replied to him, "I will continue to work hard."

Try to get rid of the word "too".

Three beer cans collided.

It is cooler than the evening wind.

When they went back to their rooms, Shi Huaixi patted Xin Jianran, "Do you want me to sleep at your place tonight?"

Xin Jianran held his hand, "No, good night."

"Good night."

Xin Jianran closed the door, listened to his favorite music and took a very comfortable bath. The shower gel was also bought by his mother. It smelled very fresh and lemony. The shampoo smelled like peach. It was a little sweet, but not annoying. Ran dried his hair, nestled under the quilt, and the air conditioner was running quietly. He read a book for a while, and gradually became drowsy, so he turned off the desk lamp, lay down properly and fell asleep.

He slept soundly.

In the other bedroom, Xin Zhuo had just finished taking a shower when he saw Shi Huaixi sitting on his own small sofa playing a game, seeing him coming out, the puppet waved his hand, "Xin Zhuo, I just got wet with beer Come on, wash me up."

Xin Zhuo walked over to pick him up, smelling the smell of beer, Shi Huaixi pointed to his stomach, "This piece is wet, please help me move the soul... Wait, you tear up a little paper man and come out." , I'll try it myself."

Xin Zhuo silently tore it up for him, Shi Huaixi was a little strange, "Why didn't you talk about the reward today?"

"Want to owe me? Then..."

"Don't," Shi Huaixi leaned on his hand, "pretend I didn't ask anything."

Xin Zhuo snorted and put the torn paper figurine over, "here."

Shi Huaixi raised his hand to "pinch" the tactic, of course the round hand can't make any tactic, Xin Zhuo just watched his hands twist and turn, but he was walking very seriously, both feet stepped hard, making a sound , the little puppet fell backwards, and the little paper man stood up energetically, "Look, I did it."

Xin Zhuo applauded appreciatively, and then listened to him say, "I will learn how to tear paper figurines later, so I don't have to bother you all the time."

Xin Zhuo subconsciously thought about the scene where he tore the paper figurine, and then thought, after he can tear the paper figurine, should he wash himself and dry himself?

What is he going to do then?

This strange and abrupt idea came to mind, and Xin Zhuo answered without thinking carefully, "Let's talk about this after you can leave your soul. It's too difficult to tear it apart with this body."

Shi Huaixi snorted, "It also makes sense."

Xin Zhuo picked up the little puppet, looked at the little paper man trying to play with the phone, and asked, "Are you a teacher or a psychiatrist?"

"What, nothing, why ask this suddenly?"

"You're good at comforting people."

Shi Huaixi spread himself out on the sofa, touched his chin, "It's just a feeling, and I have a similar experience with Xin Jianran, I probably know what he's thinking."

"What about me, do you know what I'm thinking?"

Shi Huaixi looked at him, and answered him lightly, "I probably know too."

Xin Zhuo blurted out, "Then why don't you comfort me?"

After he finished speaking, he regretted it. He pulled the curtain and wanted to close it, but he heard a laugh.

Very light, very gentle smile, and the words that came out were like soft water waves, "I'm waiting for the time when you need my comfort."

Xin Zhuo slammed the curtains shut.

He couldn't remember how he fell asleep afterwards, and his thoughts were chaotic.

What kind of person is Shi Huaixi?

What was his past like?Does he have friends?Are you having fun?what does it look like

And... why did he die?

Probably because he thought about it day and night and dreamed about it, he had a dream.

I dreamed of a young man, who was vaguely visible through a layer of veil, and I couldn't tell what he looked like.

He was lazily leaning against the bay window, his whole body hazy, his laughter hazy, and he stretched out a cold-colored hand with sharp bones, also lazily, as if waiting for someone to hold him, he asked with a smile, "Do you want me to comfort you?"

Xin Zhuo couldn't answer, he just stretched out his hand, wanting to hold that hand.

It's like holding a cloud of mist.

It was empty and cold.

Xin Zhuo opened his eyes, his hand was facing the air outlet of the air conditioner, his palm felt cold, no wonder...

He thought about it for a while and suddenly felt embarrassed and uncomfortable. It was obviously not a strange dream, but he was embarrassed to think about it and was a little annoyed. He subconsciously looked at the bay window, and the shadow of the little puppet practicing seriously was reflected on the curtain.

Xin Zhuo felt even more annoyed, and for no reason dared not talk to Shi Huaixi.

He went to wash up without saying a word, and the cold water splashed on his face, suppressing some inexplicable agitation. When he was about to go out, he paused, and said, "I'm leaving."

A voice came from behind the curtain.

"Okay." He replied.

After jogging in the morning, the inexplicable boredom disappeared, and Xin Zhuo breathed a sigh of relief. Sure enough, there is nothing that exercise can't solve.

After taking a shower and changing his clothes, he picked up the little puppet from the bay window and put it on his shoulders as usual, and went down together.

Today is a rest day. During breakfast, Xin Chuyun asked, "If everyone has no plans, how about going mountain climbing today? Stay on the mountain for one night and watch the sunrise before coming back."

After she finished speaking, everyone at the table looked at Xin Zhuo, who finished eating a steamed bun with a blank expression, "Okay."

Mother Xin smiled happily, "Then let's take a nap and set off. Do you want to live camping?"

Both Xin Zhuo and Xin Jianran shook their heads.

"Then I'll make an appointment for a room. Lao Lu, you prepare something to eat, and you pack your clothes."

Shi Huaixi was very happy when he went out to play, especially watching the sunrise. He hadn't watched the sunrise for a long time, and this time, so many people watched the sunrise together, which made him feel more warm and family outing.

His joy was obvious, Xin Zhuo put the doll in front of him, "So happy?"

"Of course it's fun to go out and play."

"Take you out to play more in the future. Come in."

Shi Huaixi became playful, he closed the curtains, opened them after a while, and Xin Zhuo saw the little dolls and paper figurines lying there, "Xin Zhuo, Xin Zhuo, guess where I am?"

Xin Zhuo didn't even take a second look, and decisively grabbed the puppet in his palm.

Shi Huaixi sat on his palm curiously, "How did you see it so quickly, it's so powerful?"

Xin Zhuo thought it had nothing to do with whether Li was powerful or not.

"I just know," he answered him.

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