Rebirth of Ten Thousand Years

Walking to the front of the ward, the elder brother with a paralyzed face waved his hand uncomfortably, and I let go of it belatedly.When I was young, I always fantasized about how happy I would be if one day I could hold the hands of my father and mother and walk through the undisturbed park next to the apartment.However, this can be regarded as the fulfillment of a wish, right?The so-called elder brother is like a father...

With a paralyzed face, I pushed the door open, and I walked in right after him, and finally saw the man she had devoted herself to, my biological father.This man was sitting on the hospital bed with a peaceful face. If it weren't for his pale complexion, it would be difficult to detect signs of terminal illness from his expression.He is different from what I imagined. I thought that the appearance of the big brother with a paralyzed face should be inherited from him; in the end, I was wrong.

In the eyes of that woman, my mother, when I grow up, I gradually lose sight of this man, but I can find her shadow everywhere.I used to think that it was my appearance that deepened her fear of reality.However, looking at the man in front of me who was so emaciated due to illness that his physique was about the same as mine, I seemed to see the dying self in the original life trajectory.

"Are you Mu Zhong, Mu Qin and my child?" The man waved at me, his expression still peaceful, without any change. If it wasn't for the eagerness in his voice, I would still Think you are not expected.

"Yes, my name is Mu Zhong, she chose the name." I nodded, and didn't go forward, but kept looking at the man in front of me, until he put down his hand in disappointment, and looked at me hesitantly. .

"Xiao Mu." The elder brother with a paralyzed face moved closer to me and called me softly, but was interrupted by the man.

"When we met for the first time, Xiao Mu must be a little uncomfortable. It doesn't matter. By the way, Xu Yi, Xiao Mu, you should be very familiar with him, right? He is your elder brother. If I am not around in the future, you can come to him for anything. He will take good care of you." The man sighed and asked, "How are you doing during this time, I asked someone to inquire, and I heard that Mu Qin..."

"It's not bad, it's good to live alone." I looked at my paralyzed face, lowered my head and walked forward a few steps, and came to the man's bed without saying a word.

"Really..." The man took my hand hesitantly, put it in his palm, tears glistened in his eyes, and slightly changed his stalemate expression, "What a good boy."

"Actually, I just want to ask you." I looked directly at the man who was still immersed in pity, smiled self-deprecatingly, and asked, "Have you ever liked her? Forget it, it doesn't matter if you don't answer, She thinks you like her enough."

"Mu Qin is a very nice woman, she can make me feel relaxed and at ease when getting along with her. I like this feeling very much. But I don't want to lie, I don't love her." The man was silent with a stiff face After a long time, I said slowly, "I don't know how to explain to you so that you can understand the difference, and I don't know what kind of answer to give so that you can slowly accept me as a father from your heart. I I'm sorry I never even knew you existed for so many years. I'll try to make up for it with the rest of my life..."

"There's really no need to make up for it. It's her choice." And I, the existence itself, should be grateful to her, even though, from the very beginning, I didn't have the right to choose.I withdrew my hand, shook my head with a smile at the astonished man, and said something that made him even more embarrassed: "Do you know that you were committing a crime? She was still a minor at that time." After finishing speaking, I comforted him He patted the man whose eyes were about to pop out.

"I don't know..." the man replied blankly.

"Well, you just didn't care about it, I understand." I just wanted to narrate this matter. As for the sick and persistent mother, it probably has a lot to do with her immature mind. Therefore, even if there is resentment in your heart, you will forget it when you turn around.

"Okay, don't be so surprised, it's not a big deal, it's been so many years." I sat on the edge of the bed, stretched out my hands, pinched the man's almost skinny face, and lifted it up, "When you laugh Be sincere, learn from me, and open your mouth wider, so that other people will know that you are really smiling, not just smiling! Hey, it’s because you didn’t set a good example, Xu Yi He will follow you into a paralyzed face!"

"Cough cough cough, this is majesty, how can you say facial paralysis. Look, I don't smile very well." The man fake coughed a few times, and looked at his son with distorted facial paralysis approvingly, Instead, he smiled at me stiffly.

"Well, it's improved a lot, keep it up, you can do it." I patted his face with both hands, then stood up and stretched, "Okay, I'm so sleepy after reading it, I'm going back to sleep."

"Can't you spend more time with me?" The man looked at me with a wry smile, and there were many complicated emotions in his eyes.

"But you're boring." I yawned, and said without hesitation, "And I have to go to the production team to rehearse today, so I managed to be lazy, of course I need to catch up on sleep! Or, tell me a story ?” Every child looks forward to falling asleep to a bedtime story told by their parents every day, but that woman will always sing that song and tell me not to be afraid.

"I'll ask the crew to postpone your part, so don't worry about it." The elder brother with the paralyzed face said indifferently, although it didn't match his expression.

"Ha... tell a story, can I read it from the book?" The man awkwardly picked up the novel on the bedside table, shook it at me, and said in a flattering tone, "How about I read it first?" Look, then..."

"Read it, the effect of hypnosis should be good, perform well!" I pulled the nursing chair aside to his hospital bed, glanced at the paralyzed brother who was completely in a state of sluggishness, waved to him, and said, "Well , old man, if you feel tired, just let him stand on top, just don’t wake me up from freezing!” After finishing speaking, I leaned down, half lying on the hospital bed, squinted my eyes, and enjoyed it through the gap between the eyelashes. He carefully observed the face that was almost green with paralysis.

After a while of silence, the man's somewhat weak voice rang in his ears. Although he read smoothly, it was as dull as if he was reporting work. From the beginning to the end, there was no ups and downs.But such a voice made me feel at ease. Is this the feeling of fatherly love?

If that woman could tell him about my existence earlier, what would happen to my fate?Perhaps it was the torment of the illness that made this man soften. From his words, I only heard sympathy, nothing else.This kind of emotion derived suddenly is just a kind of joy that he suddenly discovered the continuation of blood when his life was about to end; I can't think of other reasons.

That's fine, my task is to let him make up for the so-called regrets, and let him take a good look at the world in the last period of his life.Listening to his voice, my hands never stopped trembling. Such strong emotional fluctuations exceeded my expectations.For life, the only wish I have ever had is to have a complete home, a home that can make me feel warm.

After accompanying this man through the last journey of life, I can muster up the courage to go back to that woman's tombstone again and report to her about this man's situation. At least he still misses the time he spent with her. For her, it should be enough, right?

This man thought I had fallen asleep, and gently touched my head, but his voice didn't stop, and he was still reading passages from the book slowly in his flat tone.His movements are as clumsy as the big brother with the paralyzed face, but they are just as warm.At this moment, I suddenly felt that rebirth might be an opportunity given to me by God, even if it was just a dream, it was enough...

"Hey...bad old man..." I raised my head and rubbed his hand back, the man's movements froze immediately, he looked at me with a hint of relief, and looked at me in bewilderment.

"Did I wake you up?" The man who looked like he was in his prime, but whom I called a bad old man withdrew his hand hesitantly and asked with concern.Apart from his surprise at the beginning, he didn't care about my address, and now he just laughed it off.

"No, it hurts too much to lie on my neck, give me some space." I rubbed my neck, which was a little pantothenic, and said with innocent eyes.Since I'm not allowed to go, it's not too much to share half of such a big hospital bed for me, and I sleep pretty well, that guy Jun Hao has never disliked him.

"Of course." The bad old man moved to the side, leaving half of the bed free for me, and finally grinned this time, "If you feel crowded, I'll ask them to add another bed."

"It's okay, I don't take up space." Under their surprised eyes, I kicked my shoes away casually, climbed onto the hospital bed, and lay down directly, "Ah, that's right! Big brother with a paralyzed face, I woke up and wanted to eat Shrimp dumplings!" I deceived myself and quickly closed my eyes, not looking at the expression on the paralyzed face at the moment, the hypnotic effect of the bad old man's voice is good, I feel delirious at the moment, so I called out the name in my heart .

Hearing the old man's muffled laugh, and the answering voice with a paralyzed face, I didn't know whether it was from anger or surprise, I turned over and buried my head completely in the pillow.I can't hear, I can't hear, everything that happened just now is just an illusion...