I don't want buns in return

Xie Zheng held his face in his hands, kissed him deeply one last time, moved away, and looked at Jiang Bai with a smile in his eyes: "What's wrong? Explain what?"

Jiang Bai wiped his mouth vigorously, took his hand away angrily and said, "Stop messing around, cousin! We, we are wrong!"

"No? What's wrong? Is it the posture or the depth? You point it out and I'll change it." Xie Zheng blinked and pretended to be confused.

"Ahhh——" Jiang Bai turned over and held him down angrily, stared hard at his eyes and said earnestly: "Cousin, we shouldn't, last night, that, we kissed, and—" Thinking that I had to ask Jiang Bai didn't know how to speak, his face flushed with embarrassment.

"What happened last night? Shouldn't it be something? It's not like I didn't kiss before, and you didn't object last time at your house!" Xie Zheng continued to pretend to be stupid, still plausible.

"No! The last time I was at my house was because..." Jiang Bai thought for a while, and decided to skip that paragraph and go straight to the point, "Anyway, we shouldn't have done those things last night! That's what lovers should do, isn't it? Don't Think I don’t understand anything! I’m 24!”

Xie Zheng turned over and pressed him down, lightly tapped the tip of his nose with his fingertips, and smiled: "I know you are 24, you are a big man. Then..." Xie Zheng smiled, "Let's have a field, a dialogue between men and men."

Jiang Bai nodded and sat up, and the two sat cross-legged across from each other.

Xie Zheng held his hand, Jiang Bai pursed his lower lip, but didn't pull out his hand.

"Ah Bai, if I'm gay, will you despise me?" Xie Zheng was more timid, and Xie Zheng was not uneasy, so he hesitated and stammered a bit when he asked.

Jiang Bai's heart shrank suddenly.Sure enough...

Looking up, he saw Xie Zheng not far away from him, eyes like deep sea water, gentle, expectant, even fearful, Jiang Bai didn't know why he could read all the emotions in those eyes, just like his eyes at this time The mood is equally complicated.

Are you gay?

He has never been in contact with it before, nor has he thought about it, but he knows that there are such people.Just too far away from him to care.

If my cousin is, I definitely won't dislike him. A gentle person like my cousin seems to be no different from ordinary people, right?

By the way, homosexuality is homosexuality!That means you like men?

man!

Jiang Bai came to his senses, he is also a man, his cousin kissed him, what kind of things do lovers do with him, so cousin likes him?

If the cousin likes him and is serious, what should he do? !

How to do?

Jiang Bai's thoughts jumped quickly.He thought, he likes his cousin, at least he doesn't reject him, but if he is gay, even if he doesn't care, he will be rejected by others, right?At least the parents will not agree, they still expect to have grandchildren!

no no no!no!

Thinking of his parents, Jiang Bai immediately shook his head: "Cousin, I can't do it. My parents won't agree..."

The disappointment in Xie Zheng's eyes couldn't be concealed, he sighed slightly and said, "Is it because you don't like it, or is it because you are afraid that your aunt and uncle will disagree?"

Jiang Bai shook his head: "It's not that I'm afraid they won't agree. Rather, I can't let them down anymore. I want to do something, get married and have children, and I want to make them happy..."

really……

Xie Zheng was silent.

He couldn't use his methods on his aunt and uncle, they were Jiang Bai's parents, and he couldn't hurt them.But since he wanted to be with Jiang Bai, it would be hurting them.Didn't you think you could take them down a long time ago?When things came to an end, I still couldn't bear it, because hurting them was hurting Jiang Bai.

Xie Zheng pinched his temple in pain.

Well, let's put this aside for now, he can't force Jiang Bai to be nice to him, that would be counterproductive.The future is long, let's take it easy.What needs to be solved now is Wang Rui, and Wang Rui cannot be allowed to come into contact with Jiang Bai.

So Xie Zheng changed the subject: "Okay, let's not talk about this." Xie Zheng really wanted to smoke a cigarette, but held back, without looking at Jiang Bai, he continued, "You won't move away, will you?"

"Ah, no, no, no..." Doesn't moving away mean that my cousin is gay?That would hurt my cousin too much.Jiang Bai decided to live here and take care of his cousin. He can't even cook and is always alone. It's really pitiful.Jiang Bai couldn't bear to leave Xie Zheng here alone.

"Okay." Xie Zheng restrained the expression on his face, and said as calmly as possible: "Then I'll help you find a school to learn things. You don't have to worry about the decoration, I'll just keep an eye on it."

"Oh..." Jiang Bai didn't know what to say.Since he couldn't agree to his cousin, he could only do what he could to help his cousin, even though he knew that Xie Zheng might not need his help in any work, he was so successful.

The atmosphere between the two suddenly became delicate.

In the past, Jiang Bai always acted like a baby because of his young age, but now he doesn't dare anymore. He carried his pillow back to the guest room, looked at a short, thick, black hair on it, and sighed slightly. Zheng's hair, Jiang Bai's own hair is soft and a little brown.

Jiang Bai secretly observed Xie Zheng's eyes, it seemed that there was not much change, he should smile, eat, and didn't say anything about him moving the pillow back.But he just felt that Xie Zheng was sad and disappointed, but he thought he hid this disappointment in his heart and didn't show it. Jiang Bai felt very guilty and distressed.There is also an inexplicable loss, and it feels like there is a big hole in my heart.

Jiang Bai started rushing to cook, wipe the floor, and wash clothes. It seemed that only in this way could he make up for the damage caused to his cousin by his refusal.

The two sleep in separate rooms at night.The door of Xie Zheng's room was still unlocked.

Jiang Bai was tossing and turning the sesame seed cakes on his own bed.

Why so uncomfortable?Why isn't it as fun as playing around with my cousin before, playing foolishly in his arms?

Did he fall in love with his cousin?

Jiang Bai was startled, and immediately shook his head, no, it will disappoint his parents, he can't do this.How much of a blow would it be to parents to cut off children and grandchildren?

Jiang Bai tried hard to convince himself that what I did was right, I couldn't let my parents down, I was right.I want to do things, I want to be successful, I want to earn money, and I want to have a child so that my parents can enjoy family happiness.

But I am so sad, I am so distressed.Jiang Bai put his face on the pillow and scratched his hair in agitation.

Cousin must be very disappointed, his mother died of illness, his father is far away, he is alone here with no one to take care of him, and no lover, he likes me, I rejected him and hurt him, making him as lonely as before.

I don't want to hurt him.

So is there a way to do both?

Jiang Bai thought for a long time, and realized that he couldn't have both, no matter what choice he made, he would definitely hurt one of them.After weighing again and again, Jiang Bai decided in his heart that he still chose his parents.But he felt empty, his nose was sore and his eyes were watery, and he wanted to cry, but he couldn't.

Waking up the next morning, Jiang Bai came out to the living room, and Xie Zheng was on the phone.Seeing Jiang Bai coming out, he smiled and stretched out his hand to let him sit, hung up the phone and said, "Didn't sleep well at night? The dark circles under your eyes are so heavy."

Jiang Bai lowered his head and said, "Cousin, I'm sorry..."

A warm and strong hand was placed on his shoulder, "Don't apologize, it's not your fault. I applied for a culinary school for you, go sign up today, and I'll pick you up in the evening."

On the way, Xie Zheng drove quietly without speaking. Jiang Bai couldn't bear the blankness and felt that Xie Zheng was still sad. He wanted to work hard to brighten the atmosphere, but he still said: "I'm sorry..."

Xie Zheng held the steering wheel with his left hand, stroked his soft hair with his right hand, and smiled softly, "Don't apologize, I said it wasn't your fault. Don't worry, I'm not alright? Just do your own thing well."

He said it was fine, but Jiang Bai still saw the loss in the depths of his eyes.Cousin has to say that, right?To comfort myself.

Once a person like Jiang Bai thinks that he has caused harm to others, the guilt cannot be eliminated in a short while, until he went to that far away chef school and signed up for the class. Jiang Bai looked at Xie Zheng waved and smiled at him at the door, only then did he realize that Xie Zheng wanted to leave.He hurried over, lowered his head and said softly, "Cousin, you don't need to pick me up, I'll just go back by bus." It was too hard to drive back and forth.

"Why, you want to draw a line with me so soon?" Xie Zheng lowered his voice, seemingly unhappy.

"No, cousin, come earlier, I'm going to class..." Jiang Bai hurried back.Cousin really minded this matter.But now there is no other way, so I can only suppress my anxiety and focus all my attention on the matter in front of me.

Xie Zheng asked Zhu Xiaoqing for Wang Rui's phone number, asked him out, and found a random cafe.I wanted to go to the bar, but it's morning and they don't open.

Wang Rui leaned lazily on the table, glanced at Xie Zheng, mixed the flower floating on the coffee into pieces, and asked impatiently, "What can I do for you?"

Xie Zheng remained calm and replied gently: "I didn't expect us to meet again, it's really a coincidence." No matter how quiet Wang Rui was, Xie Zheng still felt a little disgusted, it seemed that he was still resenting himself.

"It's a coincidence." What a coincidence!Wang Rui secretly sneered, it was a coincidence that Zhu Xiaoqing and Zhu Xiaoqing were in the same company, but when he came to decorate Xie Zheng, he asked Zhu Xiaoqing to replace him after asking about it.How can there be so many coincidences in the world?

Xie Zheng didn't believe it either, he was not a fool, there were such things as coincidences, but he still wanted to be careful so as not to fall into the well.

"Are you doing well? Zhu Xiaoqing's company is good. And you are her younger brother, so you should take good care of you." Xie Zheng tried his best to be gentle, polite and patient, although his mood was just the opposite, irritable and depressed, wanting to fight people.

"It's okay, Senior Sister Zhu is a nice person, and she is more friendly than some people." Wang Rui didn't look at Xie Zheng, and took a sip of coffee.Not his favorite taste, he frowned and put down the coffee again.Xie Zheng's elegant and gentle appearance is the most handsome. He was fascinated by his gentleness at the beginning, so that he couldn't extricate himself.But after so many years, he began to hate Xie Zheng's behavior of electric discharge all the time, this dissolute scum!

Xie Zheng was depressed, even if he was a bit unnatural at the beginning, he had made it clear in advance that he would not have a relationship, but Wang Rui wished to force him to be with him, and even cut his wrist to commit suicide.It is impossible for Xie Zheng to succumb to this, so Wang Rui can only go away to avoid it.It's been three years, it seems that Wang Rui still holds a lot of grudges.

But is there any way?Xie Zheng couldn't say, well, I agree.The question now is what is the purpose of Wang Rui's visit here.Xie Zheng couldn't ask directly, but he had to ask, Wang Rui was so resistant, but he couldn't ask.

Xie Zheng touched the cigarette in his pocket, but put it down.

Seeing him touching the cigarette, Wang Rui knew that he was irritable, and chuckled lightly, "What? Are you afraid that I will disturb the situation? Don't worry, I'm not here to disturb you. I have a boyfriend."

Xie Zheng narrowed his eyes and looked at him, studying whether his eyes were real or not, but smiled and said, "What am I afraid of? You just need to live well."

"Young cat cries and pretends to be merciful. Aren't you afraid that I will tell you about Xiao Qinger's past, that people will dislike you? Don't worry, I didn't act like that. People, who can't live without?" Wang Rui sullenly Lean back on the back seat and watch the scenery outside the window.

"It's good if you can see it. My cousin is honest and timid. I dare not scare him myself, let alone let others scare him. Thank you for understanding me." Xie Zheng smiled. , picked up the coffee and raised his hand, "I'll treat you to dinner when I'm free, I have something else to do today. If you don't want to do the decoration, forget it, I'll find someone else." The words are very polite, but the meaning is very rude Wang Rui could tell that it was Xie Zheng who was threatening him. If he dared to scare his little rabbit-like cousin, Xie Zheng would definitely not let him go.

I sneered in my heart, afraid of you?But he said: "I won't mess around with work. But you also have to look after your little cousin, don't be scared by others. It's pure like white paper, and some people want to draw on it Son, these days, there are many painters. Don't you too?"

At these words, Xie Zheng was furious.