From Zhen Huan

44. Concubine Hua at the beginning

When I woke up from a good night's dream, what I saw was Songzhi's ordinary and clean face, which was a little immature, looking at me, but there was no arrogance and contempt in my memory, only loyalty and respect.

Smile slightly, now I am her master!

Murong Shilan, this bright and charming woman, lives in this deep palace like the scorching sun in midsummer.She has never had any scheming, whether it is the Queen's forbearance, Zhen Huan's intelligence, or Ling Rong's carefulness, she does not know it. She is not such a smart woman in the first place.

But she is more magnanimous than them, she seems to be born for love, her love for Xuan Ling is affectionate and magnanimous, without any calculation, pure as if it is an unforgettable instinct.Therefore, she is unwilling to share, she is maddened by jealousy, she is vicious and scheming, she will not regret it, her viciousness is the same as her deep love, magnanimous and pure, moving but never annoying.

Tao Zhiyaoyao, shining brightly, there is no other title more worthy of her title than "Hua".

But there was a rare trace of uneasiness and uncertainty in my heart.

There is no doubt that I like a woman like Murong Shilan, and I also long to be such a woman, but in the reincarnation of life after life, I have already forgotten the taste of wantonness.My character has been deeply imprinted by a long time. In order to achieve my goal, I got used to pretending, forbearance, and caution.

I feel deeply lonely because I don't belong to this strange time and space, but I feel more painful that I have to be bound by this time and space.

How can I become that woman who is as dazzling as the scorching sun?

"My lord, what's the matter with you?" Song Zhi asked softly, seeing that I didn't answer, he comforted me again after hearing the words: "Please listen to my servant's persuasion, my lord. I was thinking of the young master, otherwise I wouldn't have stayed with the young master for a few days. What's more, Feng Zhaoyuan's appearance is mediocre, but she can't even match the young master's three-point color. The emperor will despise her sooner or later , why should the young master be unhappy about her!" [Feng Ruozhao has very little information, here we set it as Zhaoyuan]

I came back to my senses, shook my head, didn't think about it so much for now, after washing and dressing up, I took Songzhi to Zhaoyang Hall to greet the queen.

Because I'm quite quiet today, the queen actually gave me a lot of greetings, showing the queen's virtues to the fullest. Fortunately, I am very familiar with Murong Shilan's, and I imitated the exact same expression and tone. I hope I have a headache Can be fooled.

But the empress obviously didn't think so, after asking me, she turned to Feng Ruozhao, "Zhaoyuan served the emperor last night, and came here early this morning to pay her respects, she really understands the rules."

Feng Ruozhao looked shy, and looked at me anxiously, before replying in a polite manner: "I can't afford to be praised by the empress, serving the emperor is the duty of a concubine."

If it was the original Murong Shilan, he must have been extremely sad after hearing this, but unfortunately I was indifferent, and the queen also felt that it was meaningless after saying a few words, so she let all the concubines go away.

After returning to Mixiu Palace, I breathed a sigh of relief, and sat on the soft couch in a daze again.On the other hand, Songzhi thought that I had said something exciting, and was sad, so she became more cautious and soft-spoken towards me.

Murong Shilan had just entered the palace at this time, but with the Murong clan behind her as the backing, and she was a natural beauty, with an undeniably bright and stunning appearance, Xuan Ling loved her extremely.And Murong Shilan also fell in love with this handsome and noble emperor in this short period of time, and couldn't help herself.

Now that I have become Murong Shilan, I am only deeply tired and helpless towards Xuan Ling.To me, Xuanling seems like a nightmare from which I cannot escape for lifetimes.No matter who I have become or what identity I have, he will always be a mountain on top of me, so high that I can only escape by trying to please him in every possible way.But no matter how far I escape, or how much power I have, it is only a lifetime.In the next life, everything returned to the original point, and under the trick of fate, I changed another identity and continued the game.

I suddenly don't want to continue like this anymore, even if I can't stop this game, I have to stop cursing Xuan Ling and run away.Even if I am played by fate, it doesn't mean that I have to compromise with Xuan Ling again and again.

I am not powerless to resist, but whether it is Zhen Huan, the queen, or others, they are all women who are forbearing in the deep palace. I, who was born to be easygoing, was influenced invisibly and became such a woman .Now I have become Murong Shilan, who is flirting with joy and anger, but I don't want to use her identity to endure and pretend. Her love for Xuan Ling is so deep and tragic that I can't bear to tarnish it with hypocrisy. infatuation.

Now that I have taken her body, I must not fall into her beauty.

As soon as I made this decision, I felt a lot of relief in my heart. I have always been wronged and let it go. In this life, I want to see if I can ask for "completeness" if I don't feel wronged.

In the afternoon, a little eunuch came over to send a message, asking me to get ready for bed tonight.

I changed my mentality and accepted the news peacefully. On the contrary, Song Zhi looked happy, obviously happy for me.

In the harem, these loyal slaves are far cuter than their masters, such as Liuzhu, Jianqiu, and Songzhi.

In the morning and noon, I didn't eat because of depression.In the evening, without waiting for Xuan Ling to come over, I ate dinner alone. The food in the palace was not very good, but it was more varied and rich in ingredients. I held the bowl and sipped the long-lost meal. tasty.

Song Zhi was anxiously walking around, after all, it was disrespectful to Xuan Ling to eat without waiting for Xuan Ling to come over, but she tried to persuade her several times, but I insisted on doing so, so she had to worry about it alone.

After I was [-]% full, Xuan Ling came late, and when he saw the food that had been used, he was a little unhappy right away.

I swallowed the food in my mouth slowly, didn't get up to salute, just smiled casually: "Why did the emperor come so late, the concubine couldn't help but eat it first." Then I turned my head and told Songzhi: " Quickly ask the imperial dining room to prepare some more meals for the emperor."

Xuan Ling stared at me for a while with a sullen face, and then stopped Song Zhi: "No need, I'm not hungry."

Then he turned to me again, and said in a deep voice with suppressed anger: "Concubine Hua is a bit different today, she doesn't even remember the palace rules and etiquette, even so, why don't you copy the palace rules a hundred times, and be careful." It’s good to get acquainted with it.”

I put down the bowl and chopsticks and looked at the young emperor, who was only in his early twenties, the anger was evident on his handsome face, far from the state of being indistinct.

On the contrary, Xuanling's anger made me feel refreshed, so I became more and more unscrupulous, and said: "The emperor is kind to my concubine, and I thought I would be punished, but I didn't expect that it was just copying the palace rules. Unfortunately, the palace rules It's too long, and the concubines are too lazy to copy it! Can the emperor tell me what to do?"

"You are so courageous!" Xuan Ling shouted, his eyes burning with anger were directed at me, like a sharp sword, trying to pierce me through.But now, my heart is like an iron wall, and I will not be afraid or shrink back because of his angry eyes.

Do whatever you want, do what you want, I will be such a free person.

I think that Murong Shilan who has an unfettered and free heart, who has not fallen in love with Xuan Ling, is such a woman who is free and easy and knows nothing about fear!

I smiled mischievously at Xuan Ling, who was extraordinarily beautiful and smart, but said in my mouth: "Your Majesty is so wise, you know how bold your concubine is."

Xuan Ling didn't say a word anymore, just looked at me angrily, turned around and walked away.

I looked at his figure gradually moving away in the night, and laughed heartily. In so many lifetimes, this time I smiled the most. I can finally face Xuan Ling upright, treating him as an ordinary person.Rather than being like anyone in this era, who fears his power and position, regards him as the son of heaven, and regards himself as the servant of the emperor.

"Little master..." Songzhi hesitated to speak, looked at me worriedly, but didn't know what to say.

I patted her on the shoulder and said with a smile: "Don't worry about me, I have the Murong clan as my natal family, and Xuanling dare not touch me."

Calling the emperor's name directly, Songzhi was shocked, and almost wanted to cover my mouth, so I had no choice but to stop talking, so as not to frighten her.

After washing and sleeping, the night passed like this, and the news that Xuan Ling left in Mixiu Palace was spread all over the well-informed concubines in the early morning of the next day.I sent the palace servants to the Zhaoyang Hall to say that I would not go there today to pay my respects, so I huddled in the study alone and fought hard.

Songzhi thought that I was copying the palace rules in the study, but felt comforted, and let me not let anyone come in to disturb her.

I picked up the pen and wrote unhurriedly, thinking of Xuan Ling's anger and nowhere to vent, I couldn't help laughing out loud again.

I don't regret my reckless behavior yesterday. Of course I know that I can fight with Xuan Lingxu, and then use the information, contacts, and methods accumulated in so many lives to quietly go out of the palace to live a happy life, or stay Winning the favor of Xuanling in the palace, from the favorite concubine to the queen mother, she glorified the Murong clan.

But since he decided not to be wronged, then why bother to be kind to Xuan Ling, why bother to act like he likes Xuan Ling when he obviously hates it!

If I want to stay, then I will go to the harem, and I will have the same status as Xuan Ling.