From Zhen Huan

After three days of getting along with Zhen Yan, Zhen Yan and I look like a couple to those who don't know.

However, I have to go home after all. In this era, unmarried women cannot live alone without their families. Although I have this ability, it is not a last resort, and I don’t want to challenge the rules of the entire era.

When parting, Zhen Yan held my hand for the first time and said to me: "Wait for me, please wait for me!"

I didn't answer, but handed him an exquisitely embroidered purse. The incense in the purse was prepared by myself. It was unique. The fragrance was light but long-lasting, just like a person's life, which is plain but so long.

After traveling for more than ten days, the carriage finally returned to Songyang County and my home in this life.

Songyang County is a large county. As the county magistrate, An Bihuai can be regarded as the number two person, but in fact, this man who saved enough money to buy an official position by relying on his wife's embroidery work did not receive the respect commensurate with his status.

No matter in which era, men who rely on women for power are always cast aside,

Therefore, the contempt and exclusion An Bihuai received can be seen.

An Bihuai's response to this is not to reflect on his mistakes, to be brave after knowing his shame, to speak with his strength and achievements, and to regain everyone's respect.Instead, he was depressed, enjoying the suddenly rich and luxurious life, pampering concubines and destroying wives, loving the new and disliking the old, and even the only prostitute daughter did not think of the slightest affection between father and daughter.

Such a heartless and ungrateful father was obviously the introduction to An Lingrong's tragic fate after entering the palace.

Back in An's mansion, only his blind mother was waiting in front of the door with the help of a maid, and An's father didn't even show his face.

"It's good to be back, it's good to be back." An's mother's nagging made me feel a warmth in my heart, so my feelings for An's father dropped from contempt to disgust all the way.

Getting along with An's mother is very simple. This mother who was heartbroken by An's father is unaware of her daughter's changes. An Lingrong is always gentle and kind in front of her. I am very good at being a caring and well-behaved daughter.

Good days not only pass quickly, but there are always people who can't help but destroy them. The biggest destroyer in the An Mansion is Aunt Liu, who is young and beautiful and has a son, cheated by An Bihuai.

Aunt Liu is not the kind, gentle and kind person on Aunt Xiao's side.Under An Bihuai's doting, she almost controls half of the Anfu, and it is best to play tricks, and An Lingrong and his mother are the targets of her bullying, and she does this only because it can give her this brothel-born Women, a strong sense of accomplishment.

I don't intend to condone, let alone accept it.

When Aunt Liu urged An Bihuai to make an engagement for me, and the betrothed object was a bad-tempered dude from the county magistrate's family who abused his wife to death, I completely broke out.

No matter how violent Aunt Liu is, she still needs An Bihuai's support, so I only used a little medicine powder to make An Bihuai weak and bedridden.

After An Bihuai fell ill, I took Aunt Xiao and two servant girls to tie Aunt Liu's five-year-old son back to his mother's yard, and then invited the most capable person in the county, Yazi, to send the rest of the servants. , including Aunt Liu, sold out.I took the initiative to keep the price very low, but the additional request was to sell these people far away and never show up again.

After getting rid of Aunt Liu, the house was immediately clean, and my mother finally got the treatment she deserved as a wife.An Bihuai has been ill for a long time, and he didn't know that there was such a change in the mansion. My mother and Aunt Xiao were worried that I would be punished, so they didn't dare to tell him.

But under the meticulous care of his mother and Aunt Xiao, An Bihuai's body recovered after two months, or in other words, all of his functions except for his male functions were recovered.

After recovering, An Bihuai learned what I had done, and immediately wanted to teach my disobedient daughter a lesson, but before I could make a move, Zhen Yan came to propose marriage to An's family with a dowry.

An Bihuai is the most bullying and fearful person. Seeing that Zhen Yan is the son of the official servant, he doesn't even have the courage to refuse, and he dare not do anything to my disobedient daughter.On the contrary, because of relying on me to climb up a good family, and caring for me and my mother, hypocritical and cowardly.

After talking about getting married, Zhen Yan came to see me, held my hand, and said with guilt on his face, "It's my fault, I'm late."

I shook my head, and said in a gentle voice, "It's not too late! As long as you come, it's not too late!"

Because of their low status, Zhen Yuandao's parents did not agree to the marriage at first, but Zhen Yan kept begging hard, but finally couldn't persuade his son, so he reluctantly agreed.

After marrying into the Zhen family, the Zhen family's parents were not indifferent to me, but they were not very close to me. Fortunately, Yu Yao and Yu Rao were innocent and cute, and they were close and caring to my sister-in-law.

I didn't try to curry favor with Zhen Yuandao and his wife, my low status can't be compensated by temporary curry favor.But under my prompting, after saving the Zhen family from a catastrophe, Zhen Yuandao and his wife finally let go of their knots and accepted me as a daughter-in-law of a lowly family background.

Zhen Yan is an upright and responsible man, he doesn't have Xuan Qing and Wen Shi Chulai's insistence on love, instead he regards family responsibilities and parental affection as the first in his heart.Such a man may not be romantic enough, but he is definitely a man suitable for entrusting his life.

Marrying Zhen Yan inevitably has to worry more about Zhen Huan in the palace. Zhen Huan's honor or disgrace is related to the rise and fall of the entire Zhen family. Fortunately, I have rich experience in dealing with Concubine Hua and Queen.Zhen Huan didn't suffer as much in the book, and finally defeated other opponents with the help of me and many people, and became the queen mother.

Because of this, the Zhen family is very prosperous, but Zhen Yan and I have always maintained a low-key and humble attitude. In addition to the appearance of the scenery, our relatives are more conspiracies and calculations under the scenery, but fortunately, Zhen Yan and I have lived a smooth and peaceful life. .

This is the best ending of my life.

31. Peace of mind

Zhen Yan took me from the inn to Zhen's mansion and stayed with Zhen Huan.Sitting in the small sedan chair, thinking of her husband who was deeply affectionate in the previous life, but in this life has already met a stranger, I feel a sense of sadness and pain in my heart.

The Zhen family treated my aunt and me very well, without slighting or neglecting. The Chunjixuan where we lived and the Kuaixuexuan where Zhen Huan lived were only separated by a wall.All kinds of treatment are also treated the same as Zhen Huan, and I have prepared a lot of clothing and jewelry for me, so that I will not fall into the status of a concubine.

But all this did not bring me much comfort. I was completely immersed in a kind of deep self-contempt and blame, and my whole person was shrouded in negative emotions, unable to extricate myself.

I despise that I am a cold and heartless person, whether it is Wen Shichu at the beginning, or Xuanqing, Xu Yanyi and Zhen Yan later, I have faced them day and night and shared the same bed, but have I really loved them?

The first time she married Wen Shichu was because she had just arrived in this strange time and space, and she was worried day and night that her identity would be exposed.She eagerly wanted to leave Zhen Huan's house, which she was very familiar with, and use his feelings.

Later Xu Yanyi, did I marry her because I love her?No, I don't love her!Even though I have cared for her all my life and really cared for her, I don't really love her!I just need a loyal, gentle, kind wife, because as a man, I need a suitable wife.

Then there is Xuan Qing, meeting him was really an accident, I never had special feelings for him, but after he expressed his heart, I agreed, and finally married him and became his princess.Why do you agree?Because I want a stable and comfortable life, and I know he is a good man who will love me, protect me, and fulfill all my requirements.

The last one is Zhen Yan, I know he has no resistance to such a weak and pitiful woman like An Lingrong, so I deliberately aroused his idea and won his favor, because I am An Lingrong, I have a cruel father, I am confused Mother, unconscious aunt, I can almost see the tragic fate in the future.

I am such a person, cold and selfish, heartless, no matter how good a person was to me in the previous life, I can still treat him as a stranger in this life.My innocence and kindness are false, and my gentleness and consideration are false. For my own well-being, I always take advantage of others. Although I have sincerity, I am not as good as the other party.

I have been immersed in such emotions, and Zhen Huan asked me about my concerns, but I just shirked it under the pretext of missing my parents.

Zhen Huan is indeed very kind to me. On the surface, she has what she has, and I will not lose my share. As for privately, she is the eldest daughter of the Zhen family, and I am just a poor guest living here. To me, it's the utmost kindness.But I don't feel that I owe Zhen Huan anything. Zhen Huan helped An Lingrong at the beginning because of her use rather than her sincerity. She showed her kindness to An Lingrong just so that An Lingrong could be favored in the future so that she could support each other with Shen Meizhuang.

From this point of view, Zhen Huan showed her favor, and I accepted it. As long as I don't become an enemy of her in the future, it will not be considered a debt.

Thinking about it this way, this is how it is between people. When they first meet, who and who are not taking advantage of each other!Who can be completely sincere to a stranger who has just met!

Maybe I have used Wen Shichu, Xu Yanyi, Xuanqing and Zhen Yan, but I really have no bad intentions, maybe I am not with them for love, but all my care and love are true, how much have I spent together in my life For years, I gave them a warm and harmonious home for so many years.

People always have a lot of last resort, some things are not their original intention, and some choices have nothing to do with feelings, but more about interests.But as long as you know your purpose and stick to your bottom line, then this person is not a bad person, and I have never been a bad person.