Mr. Lu was heartbroken after I left

Covering up the disappointment in his heart, he picked up Xu Zhuoyang, walked to the bedroom, and gently put him on the bed. Seeing his uneasy sleeping expression, he couldn't help feeling a little sour.

After all, it was a five-year relationship. No matter how I resisted, I still thought about that guy unconsciously in the bottom of my heart, right?

Gently dropped a kiss on his cheek, pulling him into her arms.

The soft body in his arms made him feel at ease.

He also liked him for ten years. He couldn't give up this feeling, from the ignorant admiration at the beginning to the inextricable love later.

He didn't want to be a friend, he wanted to protect him justifiably, since Xu Zhuoyang couldn't get over that hurdle in his heart, and couldn't forget the shadow of the past, then he could only give it a bold try...

Xu Zhuoyang felt as if there was a stove behind him, it was so hot, and there seemed to be something hanging on his waist, he pushed down the thing on his waist impatiently, put it up again as soon as he took it off, and threw it down again, but he was ashamed again Wrap up without skin.

He frowned, repeated several times, waved his hand randomly again, the touch he touched was suddenly different from the previous ones, he was shocked, and instantly withdrew his hand, the person who was still a little dazed at first opened his eyes Eyes, Si Yan's upper body was naked, and he was propping his head with one hand, looking at him jokingly when he got up, and greeted him with a smile, "Good morning."

Xu Zhuoyang, "..."

He lifted the quilt, looked inside calmly, then put down the quilt silently, turned his back to him, without saying a word.

Si Yan noticed with sharp eyes that someone's ears were red...

He hugged him from behind, and Xu Zhuoyang's first reaction after waking up was to leave, but before he could move, Si Yan had already been imprisoned in Si Yan's arms, and Si Yan rubbed his ear, "What's wrong with me? As long as you Say, I'll change everything."

Bringing up this topic again, Xu Zhuoyang's heart sank, "You are good everywhere, but I am the one who is bad, and I can't accept you."

This topic is very heavy for him, and he avoids these questions very much. Maybe Si Yan hasn't brought it up for a long time, maybe it's Lu Beiye's appearance that stimulated him...

He wanted to break the hands on his waist and said, "I'll make you breakfast, you let go first."

Si Yan suddenly pulled him back even harder, turned over and pressed the person under him, looked down at the person below him condescendingly, looked into his flustered eyes, and asked, "Do you not trust me?" ? Think I'll be like him?"

Ever since he revealed his feelings, this person has tried every means to push him away. Even if he was hurt like that by that scum later, he doesn't need his comfort. He always tries to make up for his kindness to him from other places. The intervals are clean, if he hadn't been so shameless until now, he would have been thrown away by this guy a long time ago!

He put his hands on both sides of Xu Zhuoyang's head, stubbornly wanting to ask the answer from his mouth.

Xu Zhuoyang didn't answer his question, but just pushed his chest and resisted, "Get up."

"Get up, I'm still busy, forget it, every time I bring up this topic, you either refuse, or use this kind of words to prevaricate me! It's not that you don't know how to like others, you dare not like others! You have to I've been under his shadow for a lifetime? What's wrong with me? You tell me, I'll change everything, and you'll be with me after the changes are finished!" Si Yan couldn't help but turn red in his eyes as he spoke.

Xu Zhuoyang under him closed his eyes, not daring to look at him.

Yes, he just didn't dare, he didn't dare to love, and he didn't dare to believe, Lu Beiye had already left him bruised, if it happened again, he might even die...

Si Yan was good, but he couldn't like it, and he didn't dare to like him. He wanted to push him away in every possible way, not wanting to waste Si Yan's time, but this guy was like a dog's skin plaster, and he couldn't get rid of it.

He no longer dared to soften his heart.

A high wall was erected outside the atrium, except for himself, no one could take a step further, and no one could hurt him, while protecting himself, he was also rejecting everything.

Si Yan lay on his body with his face pressed against his chest, listening to his heartbeat, neither of them spoke, but undoubtedly both of them were in pain.

Si Yan smiled wryly, and said in a deep voice, "Let's be together, it doesn't matter if you don't like me, as long as I like you, that's enough."

"It's not fair to you." Xu Zhuoyang's voice was a little hoarse.

He couldn't have imagined that such humble words came from Si Yan's mouth, and his heart felt as if he was being grabbed by someone.

Si Yan got up, held his face in both hands, tears welled up in his eyes, but he still pretended to be relaxed and said, "Emotions are not scales, there is no such thing as fair or unfair, I like you, this is what I should do , I am willing, feelings can be cultivated slowly, as long as we are always together, you will like me one day... At worst, I will wait another ten years, two decades, we are still young, and I Can afford to wait."

"Si Yan, I'm sorry." Xu Zhuoyang reached out tremblingly to wipe the tears from the corners of his eyes, but no matter how he wiped them, the hot tears still fell on his face.

His eyes were blurred, and the cotton pillow was stained with tears.

"Ayang, you don't need to accept me, just let me love you, I will definitely make you willing to open your heart again one day, just take pity on me, and don't push me away." His voice was already choked up.

Under his fiery eyes, Xu Zhuoyang finally nodded his head. Just one movement made Si Yan ecstatic. He lowered his head impatiently, and kissed his lips, tender but yet passionate.

At this moment, his heart was trembling.

After waiting for so long, the feelings that I thought were hopeless finally had an echo. The person I liked for so many years finally accepted him.

Xu Zhuoyang closed his eyes, felt his kiss, and wrapped his arms around his neck.

Can he like him?Can they really be together forever?Will Si Yan...will betray him?

I don’t know anymore, let’s take a step at a time.

Now that you have accepted it, be a qualified lover.

Ten years of love and companionship, based on emotion and reason, he should respond...

After work, Si Yan would come to him to grab a meal, rain or shine.

Xu Zhuoyang looked at the man who was helping at the side, not knowing what to feel in his heart, he just lowered his head and boiled the soup silently.

Since that day, there seems to be something more between the two, but it seems that something is missing. Si Yan is not as difficult to accept as he imagined, but no matter what he does... he feels Still just like friends.

Si Yan knew what was going on in his heart, so he didn't force him, gave him time to accept it, but used love words and physical contact from time to time to remind him of their current relationship.

After eating, they nestled on the sofa and watched TV. Suddenly, they did not know what to press. "Shadow" played by Xu Zhuoyang started to play. Si Yan was startled and hurriedly quit. slight change.

No one dared to mention the word Yuan Yi. When Xu Zhuoyang was rescued, he lay in the hospital for nearly a year before being discharged. During that time, once he heard these two words, his emotions would be completely out of control, and even Pulling out the infusion needle in the blood vessel has to pierce the body, trying to jump off the building and touching the fruit knife has to cut the artery.

Xu Zhuoyang clenched his fists forbearance, turned his head away to look at the other side, and tried his best to show the same appearance as usual, but the hatred and fear in his eyes still showed unconsciously.

Si Yan found other variety shows, and he covered Xu Zhuoyang's hand, but after holding it for a long time, he found that it was not hot at all, and Xu Zhuoyang was always distracted.

"Ayang?" Si Yan was a little worried.

Xu Zhuoyang was brought back to his senses by the sound, and said in a depressed voice, "I'm a little sleepy."

Si Yan pursed his lips, looking at this state, he was obviously a little worried, "I saw you walking after falling asleep."

Xu Zhuoyang couldn't resist him, so he had to lie on the bed, and Si Yan stayed beside him without saying a word, looking at his sleeping face, his heart sank.

It wasn't until he heard his steady breathing that he breathed a sigh of relief, carefully checked the doors and windows, secretly hid all the sharp weapons, stood at the door and took a deep look at him, then turned off the light belt, lightly left the apartment.

After he left, Xu Zhuoyang opened his eyes, and his eyes were clear without any sleepiness.

Yuan Yi's name has always been his nightmare, and even his appearance makes him feel scared, and even after seeing it on the screen accidentally, he will have nightmares for several days in a row.

There is also Lu Beiye who can bring him the same effect...

In the year when he was rescued, he was insane under the stimulation of such nightmares almost every day. Lu Beiye and Yuan Yi undoubtedly drove him crazy. Even in the past five years, he has been seeing a psychiatrist. It gradually improved, but it was just not so intense, and the fear in my heart still existed.

Only Yuan Quan knew about his seeing a doctor in his heart, not even Si Yan.

Lying on the bed and distracted, he suddenly heard a "ding dong" doorbell, which made his heart tighten for an instant.

It's so dark, anyone will be shocked when they hear someone outside the door, let alone seeing Yuan Yi's face on TV just now...

The doorbell outside the door sounded like a death call. He wanted to cover himself in the blanket and pretend not to hear it. After a while, the doorbell outside the door stopped. Before he could breathe a sigh of relief, there was suddenly the sound of kicking the door vigorously. !The force was so great that it seemed that the anti-theft door would be broken open in the next second.

Unbearable, he got out of bed cautiously, and asked, "Who? Si Yan?"

The person outside the door sneered, "Si Yan? After leaving for a while, you can't bear to part with him and miss him. Xu Zhuoyang, you really make people angry."

The owner of this voice made Xu Zhuoyang's heart tremble violently, and even his legs felt weak.

The voice revealed anger, and the person outside the door was Lu Beiye. Through the cat's eyes, he could see the man looking at the cat's eyes with a sullen face, as if the two were staring at each other. Xu Zhuoyang unconsciously Taking a step back, his legs went limp and he fell to the ground.

"Xu Zhuoyang, I'll give you five seconds to consider whether you opened the door yourself, or I kicked the door open and went in!"