Sente Eiji's Black Friday

It is not an easy task to completely open the heart of a child who no longer trusts the world.

But Tsushima Eiji did it.

He made the precocious child ignite hope for the world for the last time, and he became the only person he put in his heart.

Tsushima Eiji's health is not good—unfortunately, among all the scattered souls, this "Eiji" got the smallest piece, which also led to his soul of a thousand hands with strong vitality to help resurrect This body disappeared after that, leaving him with no other abilities.

But Eiji, who is bold and straightforward by nature, doesn't think it's a big deal.

Even if he judges himself that he won't survive, the optimism and open-mindedness engraved in his soul still exists.Although he can't use superpowers, and can't work for a long time, he will feel dizzy, have heart palpitations, and get sick when he moves a little bit, but he is still Eiji, and he still lives happily.

Later, when Xiuzhi recalled this point, he felt a little strange: when Eiji was repairing the maid Kiko that day, he clearly acted neatly and professionally, and his eyes were full of superior coldness.

Such skill and eyesight are definitely not something a frail and sick ordinary person can have.Tsushima Eiji is a person who would be exhausted to go to the kitchen to fetch three meals for him, and he comes from a small and down-and-out family. Where did he learn to grasp, and where did he train his mind?

But Shuji Tsushima didn't think about these complicated things at that time.When he was young, he trusted Ying Er wholeheartedly, was attached to Ying Er, and at the same time admired Ying Er.

Even though he is weak and sick, Eiji is still the most powerful person in his eyes.The blue-haired boy is eloquent and smart at a young age. Not only can he get Kiko out of the house, he can calmly convince everyone that the sixth young master doesn't like to lie, and he can also make his brothers not bully him.

In fact, the boy seems to be able to get along with everyone.As long as he wants to, everyone will like him and scramble to pay attention to him.

But no matter how kind people outside are to him, he will eventually return to Xiu Zhi and give him all the tenderness he can give.

Shuji Tsushima quietly learned his eloquent speech skills and the means of winning people's hearts, while happily thinking that he will also be a dedicated person in the future, and will always be good to Eiji alone.

In such days of bliss, the summer vacation passed quickly, Xiu Zhi packed his schoolbag, cleverly left someone who was too popular in the yard, and went to the school with arrogance.

After school that day, he saw a different side of Eiji's personality from Tai Liai Liai's, which surprised him--the blue-haired boy is very knowledgeable and never talks nonsense to him.

He will not force Xiuzhi to memorize something that he can remember at a glance like those teachers, nor will he snort when he says "I will".

He took it for granted that Xiu Zhi said he would, and he never forced him to do anything, and he would never fail to answer Xiu Zhi's questions, like those teachers, showing a ridiculous expression of embarrassment and anger.

He knows everything, can do anything, and nothing is too difficult for him.

He is always capable and omnipotent.

Shuji Tsushima believed in this more firmly than anyone else.

——If it was Eiji like this, he wouldn't think he was a [monster], would he?

One day in Xiu Mu, when the young man took him to climb up the crooked neck tree again, and hid in the bushes to play the deduction game of "guess what the passers-by outside are thinking", Xiu Zhi finally said what he had kept in his heart for a long time Mouth: 【"Father said I was a monster."】

Looking at the blue-haired boy in the distance, he paused, turned his head and looked over quietly, the deep and gentle eyes made Xiu Zhi feel that he might have seen everything through.

Start what you want to say, and the rest is easy.

The little soft child lowered his head and twisted the hem of his clothes, and said in a muffled voice: ["Because I seem to be a little different from the people around me, I always feel that everyone is boring, some things seem simple to me, but in others It doesn’t look like this to people…”]

The child's voice weakened little by little, and his head lowered lower and lower.

Until Tsushima Eiji let out a nonchalant sneer, and said in a tone of "what's so great about it": 【"What, is this worthy of being called a monster?"】

【"...Eh?"】Xiu Zhi raised his head in surprise, but he didn't want to be pulled into his arms by the young man, and he messed up his head carelessly, 【"Don't worry, how can such a cute child as Master Xiu Zhi be a monster? ?”]

【"Isn't it?"】Even though he knew that Eiji would not be like the others, the boy still brightened his eyes, confirming happily and eagerly.

【"Well, absolutely not. Master Xiuzhi is an amazing genius!"】

Eiji Tsushima nodded affirmatively, and said the words that made Shuji stunned, and looked at him with a watchful tenderness, 【"Please believe that you are the smartest person in the world, no one is as wise as you I deserve you."]

Shuji Tsushima's eyes widened, and then retorted without thinking: 【"That's not it!"】

【"Huh? Why not?"】 Tsushima Eiji was taken aback.

【"The smartest person in the world is obviously Eiji! I can't compare to you for the time being!"] The child's small hand grabbed the corner of Eiji's clothes and shook it, and acted like a baby in a reproachful tone of "don't you know?" Said like.

Eiji Tsushima blinked, and couldn't help but burst out laughing, being so cute that he couldn't help it anymore, he rubbed the weird child with his hands:

【"Ahahaha that's the case! Well, well, before Master Xiuzhi grows up, the two of us are the smartest people in the world. When you grow up, you will be the first and I will be the second. That's fine. ?"】

【"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu"】The black cat dumpling was rubbed and slurred, her fair and tender little face was flushed, and there was a smug yet slightly shy smile on her face.

【"How about this, young master, if you feel bored, how about letting me accompany you?"】

After laughing and laughing, the boy with a brilliant smile patted the top of the child's hair and suggested unexpectedly.

【"Isn't this a matter of course?"】Tsujima Shuji glanced at him in surprise, and when he laughed and shook his head, he leaned over with a smile, and took the initiative to nest into the boy's arms, hugging him with two cute little hands.

Up to now, the unfortunate young children have been able to do this kind of gesture of closeness and love naturally, but the target is only Eiji, and it will be nauseated or even vomited if it is changed to other people.

【"Hey, does Eiji often feel that this world is boring too?"】He put his ear on the boy's chest, listening to his heartbeat which was much weaker than ordinary people but reassuring, and asked curiously.

【"Boring? How could it be?"】 Eiji Tsushima touched his head, and smiled a little surprised when he heard the words, 【"It's really impossible to do what I said before, but now I have Master Shuzhi?"】

He lowered his head and looked at the child in his arms, with a serious and triumphant smile, his brows and eyes crooked, 【"Master Xiuzhi is everything to me, I said I exist for you. And now, Master Xiuzhi already has Me, so I won’t be bored again in the future, will I?”]

Shuji Tsushima was startled, his rose pink mouth was slightly opened, and he stared at him with round eyes in surprise, his face suddenly flushed a few seconds later.

【"What, what, suddenly said such embarrassing words!"】He stammered, his awkward nature of not being good at dealing with straight balls was fully exposed.

【"But I'm telling the truth."】 Eiji Tsushima raised his eyebrows and continued to attack, looking at the child who lowered his head and covered his face with a funny "owwow", his voice gradually became gentle and soft.

【"I hope Master Xiuzhi can remember that no matter what time you are, you are not alone. I will accompany you in the future, and I will tell you interesting stories, go to interesting places together, eat delicious food, and watch beautiful things. scenery."]

【"The world is big, Master Xiuzhi, don't limit your eyes to this small courtyard, you should look forward to meeting more and better people, and look forward to the vastness and vastness of the world."】

【"Moreover, even though our minds can guess many things, there are more things that human minds can never guess. By then, Master Xiuzhi will feel that the world has become more interesting!"]

【"The... vastness and vastness of the world?"】

The child grabbed his clothes and repeated his words in a murmur, and the eyes that were burning with a cluster of candles became brighter in a trance.

【"Well, that's right."】

The young man responded to him with a smile. On that clear and clear day, he taught the clever children what is yearning for life, what is vision and mind.

At that time, he didn't know who the light in the boy's eyes was burning for, and whether it was because of the beauty he described, which was based on the premise that "Eiji Tsushima still exists".

So at that time, he just changed the subject, and without knowing it, he talked about the next topic: ["Ah yes, besides seeing the world, you can also find things you cherish."]

【"Treasure things?"】Shuji Tsushima tilted his head, staring straight at him with round iris eyes.

Then I already have it.

he said in his heart.

【"That's right, it's the things that are cherished!"】Eiji, who knew nothing about his psychological activities, smiled, 【"As long as a person has something that is cherished, he will feel that everything around that person is Wonderful!——For me, Master Xiuzhi is the thing I cherish the most!"]

He looked at the child with wide-eyed eyes, rubbed his soft, fluffy head heartlessly, and smiled brightly, 【"So as long as I can be with Master Xiuzhi, teach you, and accompany you, I feel that The whole world is better!"]

【“…”】

Shuji Tsushima let out a small, surprised gasp.

...can he too?

...Can he, who has never been loved and has no expectations for life, be cherished by such a beautiful person?

The little child pursed his lips unconsciously, clutching the boy's clothes tightly with his little hands. After a long time of nervous silence, he finally raised the corners of his lips a little bit, revealing a cautious smile, so happy that he seemed to be about to cry. Come out with the same smile.

【"……Um."】

He nodded heavily with a crying voice, and hugged the boy's waist as if he had caught a life-saving straw, his eyes were as bright as falling into the stars.

【"Eiji is also the most precious thing to me!"】He said with a smile in tears, his little nose was red from crying, but his expression was extremely serious, 【"It's the only... the only thing that is most cherished thing!"】

—Yes, the only one.

The word Shuji Tsushima blurted out was not, as Eiji Tsushima thought at the time, the kind of cheap "one and only" that fickle children can say to toys, animations, and friends.

For the precocious and sensitive child who was trapped in a birdcage since he was a child, Eiji, who came to him with hope from the outside world and gave him a smile and cherishment without hesitation, is his Light, his salvation, his whole world.

The blue-haired boy's always crooked smile, with his not-so-broad arms shielding him from all wind and rain, and his reliable appearance that would never let him be in the slightest danger, has become the most solid in Shuji Tsushima's heart, It is also the only barrier.

In that barrier, Eiji Tsushima was the only one throughout his life, and no one could be more important than him.

He is his god, his miracle, all his love.

Time passed quickly, and when the sound of bombing stopped in the distant sky, the war was over.

Although Nihong is a sadly defeated country, for ordinary people, compared with whether they can fill their stomachs in the future, they seem to have nothing to say about the country's defeat.

As the head of the family, Tsushima's father is no exception.

For some political reason, the unwise head of the household invited a distinguished and distinguished guest one day, and asked all the children to be present at the lunch.

Xiu Zhi didn't like such a hypocritical occasion, but seeing that there was his favorite crab on the table, and Ying Er was also helping him with food, he felt that the meal was not bad.

But just when he was eating happily, a familiar feeling of chill enveloped him, causing him to raise his head in panic, and suddenly met the kind but obscene eyes of the man at the top.

——Except for him and Eiji, no one noticed that the honorable guests, who were golden and jade, were as filthy as a puddle of mud.

The boy who had been happy for a long time turned pale with fright at the gaze that looked so much like Noriko, and was even more greedy. He subconsciously grabbed Eiji's hand, and his light would naturally live up to his expectations. Take him away smoothly.

However, before stepping out of the gorgeous house that Shuzhi rarely had the chance to enter throughout the year, they clearly heard the distinguished guest "friendly" chatting with Patriarch Tsushima, and found out the boy's name, age, residence.

A throat-piercing, disgusting urge to yell enveloped Shuji, he grabbed Eiji's hand tightly, and left as quickly as if he was running away.

But what was the use of fleeing back to his unprotected little yard in a home that rotted like an oxidized rotten apple?

The honored guest proposed to stay overnight, how could Patriarch Tsushima not agree?

The distinguished guest likes to repair this child and wants to live in the yard next to him, so why would Patriarch Tsushima not allow it?

For the first time, this father even thought of his transparent son, and sent someone to ask Xiu Zhi to go to him, as if he wanted to tell him a few words.

Shuji Tsushima became frightened when he heard that the distinguished guest lived next door to him, and he didn't dare to step out of the yard.Eiji blocked him behind him, and sent his servant out on the grounds that he ate badly at the banquet.

But the matter didn't end here, the distinguished guest who moved to the next door immediately used the excuse of visiting a doctor and wanted to come to Xiuzhi's room to visit him.

So terrible, so terrible, so terrible, so terrible.

Shuji Tsushima hid in the quilt shaking like a sieve, while Eiji walked out regardless of his stop, and somehow stopped him.

But when he came back, there was a huge red mark on one side of his face.

It was the palm print, Xiu Zhi knew it.

At that moment, unstoppable tears welled up, he stumbled and rushed over to grab Eiji's clothes, crying out of breath in his arms.

Shuji Tsushima was extremely desperate at that time.With his toes, he knew that his father and his family would not care about his life or death. If the fat pig-like man next door really wanted him, his father would definitely send him away as a burden without even thinking about it.

Such facts shrouded his head like a dark cloud. He sniffed the fragrance of grass and trees on Ying Er's body as before, but felt that his past, which smelled like mud, was chasing him again, and this time, the mud might come along with him. The light devoured together.

He will never allow such a thing to happen...!

【"Let's go, Eiji..."】

In the deadly still room, a child's crying voice suddenly resounded tremblingly.

Shuji Tsushima raised his head from Eiji's arms, his eyes were red from crying.

【"In this family——no, you are the only one who truly loves me in this world... Mother is never around, brothers only care about themselves, father... Father can ignore my life or death for profit!"】

【"What love... vomit!"】

The boy didn't know whether he was crying too much or was surrounded by a strong sense of disgust, and even wanted to vomit at one point.

He tightly grasped Eiji's clothes, and his immature voice seemed to be torn apart by despair, so sharp and heartbreaking:

【"I don't want to stay in this garbage dump anymore! As long as Eiji is with me, I don't need anyone else! In this world, everyone except Eiji... makes me feel sick! !”]

【“…”】

Eiji hugged him silently from beginning to end.

Where Shuji Tsushima didn't see, his eyes were calm and indifferent, he looked around as if evaluating something, stretched out his weak palm, and finally looked at the child in his arms.

【"It's the limit..."】

A soft sigh overflowed from his lips, Shuji Tsushima sobbed and raised his head, looking at him with some puzzlement: 【"What?"】

The young man shook his head with a smile, covering up the flash of guilt in his eyes, leaving only the longing for somewhere to go.

He thought for a while, and slowly hugged the boy back.

This was the first time Xiu Zhi had really responded to him since he began to show affection to him.

【"Master Xiuzhi, do you find me disgusting?"】

【"--How come!!"】 Shuji Tsushima's eyes widened, and he hiccupped anxiously, 【"Eiji is not disgusting! Eiji is completely different from them! I like Eiji the most!!"】

Perhaps it was because of the considerable emotional fluctuations at the moment, Xiu Zhi said some things that he would not normally say anyway, but he didn't notice it, he just eagerly pulled Ying Er's clothes, for fear that he would not believe him if.

Eiji naturally believed it.

【"That's good."】He sighed in his heart, then patted the boy's face with a smile, 【"However, it's wrong to say 'I don't need anyone else' again, young master."】

【"What's wrong! It was originally..."】

【"I'm worried that if you keep thinking like this, you will lose the ability to love others. That would be very sad."】

Eiji interrupted him before he finished speaking, wrapped his arms around his thin body, and patted his back with his palms.

His eyes were deep, and he carefully organized his words with downcast eyes, trying to use his last time to enlighten this hurt child.

【"Human beings live in groups. No one can survive on a single relationship. As long as you are a human, you must have contact with many people. Whether it is a friend or a lover, in short, you will always find someone who loves you in the future At that time, you also have to be brave to love them, you know?"]

...Why do you have to say such things to him at this time?

The sensitive and slender child felt uneasy instinctively, but Eiji's tone at the moment was serious, never before serious, so he hesitated again and again, biting his lip and agreed first: 【"...I see."】

After agreeing, Shuji Tsushima subconsciously grasped the corner of Eiji's clothes, as if there was some inexplicable premonition and fear in his heart, lowered his head like a milk cat and whispered: 【"...but I love you the most."】

Forever and ever, I will only love you the most.

Tsushima Eiji laughed helplessly, and didn't try to say anything, just rubbed his hair and said like coaxing a child: 【"Well, I love you too."】

After finishing speaking, without waiting for Xiuzhi to react, he let go of him and put him back on the tatami mat: ["Okay, such a big man won't stay for a long time, as long as he escapes these few days, he will be fine, don't worry. You Are you tired? I will protect you here, do you want to sleep first?"]

Shuji Tsushima did have the habit of taking a nap on weekdays, but when this happened today, how could he sleep?

Even if he believed Eiji's words subconsciously, he felt relieved to some extent, and he didn't feel sleepy at all.

【"I don't want to sleep now..."】The boy was greedy for the warmth of the young man, curled up against his chest and grabbed his clothes, unwilling to leave, blinking his big eyes and acting pitifully like a baby.

【"Eiji, tell me a story! It's the story about the strongest ninja Senshou-sama you made up last time! What happened to his best friend A Fei after he learned the truth about Xiao Lin's death? Are you breaking with Master Qianshou?"]

Ying Er's reaction was very strong when he heard the words: ["I didn't make that up! It's a story that happened in another world! And why did Ah Fei break with Senshou-sama? They are best friends! !”]

【"Yes yes yes, so continue to tell me this, okay?"】Xiu Zhi practiced the perfunctory method, and after being interrupted like this, he felt more relaxed unconsciously, even crying like a bunny The eyes are cutely curved.

Eiji had no choice but to poke the child's head while saying "you", but he didn't tell the "story" following the child's words, but asked abruptly: ["Do you think there is a soul in this world, Xiuzhi?" Master?"]

【"Well... If Eiji said yes, there is."】Shuji Tsushima sat next to him with his legs crossed, and answered in a non-serious manner.

Eiji Tsushima smiled: 【"That's what it is."】

【"Huh? Really?"】Xiu Zhi showed suspicious eyes.

【"Of course it's true!"】Eiji put up a finger and stared at him seriously, 【"Do you know that the soul usually resides in the human body. Once the body dies, the soul will also dissipate. However, When human beings have strong obsessions, even if the body dies, the soul will not die.”]

【"Ugh..."】 Seeing that he was so serious, Xiu Zhi hesitated and didn't know whether he should agree or not.

Before he could come up with an answer, Eiji continued to say: 【"And the most important condition that determines a person is that person is his name."】

【"name?"】

【"That's right, just like my name Eiji, and your name Shuji. The name is the shortest curse. After a person is born, with a name, the soul can be stable and obsession can be generated on this basis." 】

【"So, if I die..."】Shuji Tsushima thought for a moment, turned his eyes to him, put his hands on his face and smiled, 【"My obsession is definitely not to be eaten by Eiji again Grilled crabs, in that case I will go looking for you even if I become a ghost!"]

【"Pfft—Master Xiuzhi is such a greedy cat."】The blue-haired boy didn't think there was anything wrong with such a young child talking about death, so he burst out laughing after being teased.

Shuji Tsushima snorted softly, and asked unconvinced: 【"Then what obsession does Eiji have?"】

【"I..."】 Eiji Tsushima restrained his smile slightly, but the expression between his brows became softer.

He raised his hand to cover the child's eyes, watched him unsuspectingly inhale some kind of powder that he sprinkled on his face, then firmly caught his limp body, and slowly laid him flat.

In his hazy consciousness, Shuji Tsushima heard a voice that seemed to come from the shore across the water, his tone was calm and gentle, with a sense of fate-like certainty.

【"The obsession of "Eiji Tsushima" is Master Shuji. "]

【"Please believe that even if I die, my soul will try its best to stay by your side forever."】

The next day, Shuji Tsushima struggled to wake up from the nightmare and got a message from the panicked servants.

——Tsushima Eiji killed the distinguished guest who "woke up" to his yard in the middle of the night, and then was caught by the guest's bodyguard when he was away from the yard. He was shot several times and died.

Seven days later, the sixth son of the Tsushima family in the Tsugaru area disappeared during the funeral, completely disappearing as if he had evaporated from the world.

——The one who loves me will eventually leave me.

More than ten years later, the young man who has become "Osamu Dazai" walks in the five walls-like buildings. His thin back conveys a signal of resistance to everything. Just looking at him can make people feel his deep loneliness.

He walks alone in this world, using a fake name to replace the real name that he doesn't want to be called by outsiders, covering the skin that he doesn't want to be touched by outsiders with a bandage, and driving away all the love of outsiders with a terrifying name. The single eye is more void than the wilderness.

——Speaking of which, last time Akutagawa mentioned that member of the black-clothed organization named "Eiji", he sent someone to investigate, but it was only after a long time that he learned that the other party had defected.

It seems that he has to think about it, where to find the garbage that faked his name next.

——【"Master Xiuzhi is a good boy..."】

A gust of wind blows, bringing a whisper in the long memory.The young man's eyelashes as thin as a crow's feather trembled slightly, and his expression suddenly became blurred.

If you were still alive, seeing him now, would you still think he was a good boy?

——["No matter what others say, Master Xiuzhi is a very gentle child..."]

As if to respond to him, just as the relevant thoughts turned in his mind, a gentle voice sounded in the next second.

What, what happened today, one after another...

Osamu Dazai pulled a smile uglier than crying, he couldn't help but raise his hand to cover the only exposed eyes, his pale fingertips trembled uncontrollably.

For more than ten years, he tried his best to do what that person said.He tried hard to see the world, tried to find the people and things he was interested in, and tried to make himself as cheerful as that person...

But, no.

No matter how hard he tries, as long as he thinks that there is no one around him who he promised will accompany him, even the most interesting things will become as boring as gray and white silent movies.

What is the meaning of such a life?

As for loving and being loved... ha ha ha ha...

The smile on the young man's lips became bleak and self-deprecating, and there was a faint twist hidden in it, making people feel that he was heading for the doomsday self-destruction and despair justly and without hesitation.

——No, Eiji.

I don't trust anyone and I don't love anyone because no one will ever love me like you.no more.

You once told me it was sad to lose the ability to love, but you know what?I really haven't lost the ability to love, because I'm different from you, I kept my promise, and I still love you the most until today, but you...

But you took all my love away that day.

——Tell me, Eiji, after you left, now that all attempts have been proved to be useless, in this oxidized world, what else is there to cherish?

The young man, who was already as fragile as glass on the verge of shattering, lowered his hands weakly. After a while, he stepped forward again like an old man.

When he came to the noisy recruiting office, he heard his partner's noisy noise like a puppy finding its owner, and when he called that person "Eiji", all of a sudden disgust and hatred that destroyed everything arose in his heart.

Tsushima Eiji belonged to him, existed for him, belonged only to his Eiji.

So, when I see that person who uses the same name as you, with a face that is [-]% similar, calling someone else's name with a doting expression——

The young man who uttered the astonishing words had a false and malicious smile like a mask, and stared at the man who was protecting Zhongye in the Central Plains with his single eyes like poisonous hooks, with a gloomy and distorted coldness in his eyes.

——Isn't it natural that he wants to kill that impostor?