Every warm feeling may turn black

"So, what were you going to do?" Kong Lingxuan supported his head, blinking his eyes curiously.

"I'm going to the mall to buy a master-servant contract or something. I want to kill all uncertainties in the bud." I replied like this.

"Tsk tsk, really, the love maintained by the contract is really sad... Wait, it's not right, but in the end, you just came back like this?"

Begonia pollen purple fell all over the ground, the sun drilled through the branches and leaves of the begonia tree, and sprinkled it in a mottled and messy manner. Kong Lingxuan was wearing a nude dress, a knitted gown, long hair and a shawl. Well, the picture scroll of beautiful women like flowers, but the frowning one is not in the same style as her own.

I was able to call out this school-level belle, and my jaw dropped in shock when I was so alone, but I just talked to her lightly.

I said, "Well, yeah."

Kong Lingxuan patted the railing in front of him, and said, "Don't be so light-hearted! Originally, you acted as if you were going to be in a stalemate with him for the rest of your life, but in the end, once you said you could return to modern times, you just came back without hesitation?"

Kong Lingxuan asked back in shock: "Your life—no, should it be said that your thinking needs to be turned to such an extent by God?"

I said, "Yes, that's my choice."

"I can't figure it out!" Kong Lingxuan looked at me with a broken face.

I looked at Kong Lingxuan with a shocked face and thought it was funny.

It has been a few days since I returned from ancient times to modern times.

At that time, I was desperate, but when I was told later that my energy had been replenished and I could come back, I suddenly felt relaxed.

I have to admit that I want to come back, I want to go home, everything in Chu Liuxiang's world is far from what I care about here, let alone——

"I am also the last, just giving Yuan Suiyun another chance to choose."

I murmured softly, and my words drifted away in the flowing spring breeze.

>>>Original Suiyun Perspective>>>

The little uncle disappeared.

My servants just sneaked into the city, I thought about my little uncle's unpredictable means, and I already had some plans in my heart, and then suddenly, my little uncle disappeared.

Without warning, without trace, it disappeared suddenly.

I was at a loss, and then I thought, am I doing something wrong again?

Thinking about it carefully, I probably did too many mistakes, but I never repented, probably because of this, the little uncle was completely disappointed and left without warning.

On the first day, I was still clinging to the hope of being rootless like duckweed.

I started looking for him the next day, but soon I knew it would be futile.

On the third day, I suddenly understood that just like all the strange and chaotic events I encountered because of him, his disappearance was also like ghosts, gods and Buddhas, elusive and hard to trace.

On the fourth day, an indescribable emotion that made me weak and hard to think suddenly gripped me tightly—it was not the first time I encountered this emotion, the last time I encountered a storm, the last time When I suddenly arrived in a strange world, and when Yueniang stabbed the sharp knife into the abdomen of my little uncle, I felt this emotion more or less—but this is the first time I understand it so clearly ——

Is this a kind of despair?

——Is this despair?

Because I can't lie to myself anymore, he is somewhere in this world, going to heaven and earth, I may not even be able to find him.

When I think of this section, I feel that my heart, chest and abdomen are being scorched by the fire and stirred by the sharp sword.My brain, which is often troubled by complicated thoughts, has also become blank.

There are only fragments of memories like dust that flash by from time to time.

When I was held around my neck with a sword—I wasn’t afraid at all, because at that time, I felt the most clearly my little uncle’s feelings for me—this kind of feeling made him not kill me, he would not kill me .

If the little uncle also likes me, then this really couldn't be more perfect.

All my life, I have been pursuing a kind of perfection that I think I think.

Until today, I realized that this is really the most stupid thing.

I always think of my boyhood, the catkins are flying, and the flying flowers are dancing.In the warm wind and rising sun, I can feel my little uncle's body temperature, his gentle low smile, and his soft eyes that seem to have warmth.

All of this is for me, because it is so beautiful that I will never let it go and forget it all my life.

At that time, the sound of the piano was faint, and the sound of the flute was melodious. I treasured my little uncle's old bamboo flute, and in my heart I was looking forward to the repeat of the past, and the return of the old man. Now that I think about it, the one who destroyed all this is clearly my self-satisfied self.

I couldn't help recalling Yueniang's words: "In the end, you are just a child who wants to hold everything in your hands. If you can't hold it, you'd rather destroy it."

What she said was right, this woman has been reincarnated for so many years, and she has indeed recognized me better than anyone else.

Even know myself better than myself.

I calculated in every possible way, trying to cut off all the wings of my little uncle, hoping that when he was completely attached to me, I might not have imagined that the final result of all this would be death—but I did it anyway, no matter what, I would always In making such a choice, I would choose the most dangerous path and be smug.

- This is me.

Even if I know the consequences of this journey, even if Yueniang has told me everything, even if my little uncle himself has backed down and warned me, I still can't control my childish complacency.

Want to control.

Monopoly.

opinionated.

Can't get rid of it, it's stupid.

If someone praises me for being brilliant, young and mature, I will definitely refute it—I may think more than others, I may be able to see the loopholes in a conspiracy, and I may be able to control some people's hearts.

But I can't control my heart, my own restless, insatiable ambition.

From the time I established Bat Island without telling my father, from the first time I imprisoned my little uncle, from the time I tried to control everything in the palm of my hand without remorse, everything has been running along its established track.

When I was thinking about this, Ding Feng spoke in my ear, I raised my eyes to look at him, but found that my eyes were blurred.

I think I'm going to be blind again, I think of the first time I saw my little uncle with my own eyes, I traced in my heart the face I once drew with my hands, the full forehead and the round nose, when I smiled, There are shallow smile lines on the corners of the mouth, warming people's hearts like sunshine.

It's the same as I imagined—but I can't recall what he looked like in my imagination. A blind man who was blind since childhood, what can he imagine.

Thinking about it this way, I was able to get out of the darkness and see everything in the world, and it was thanks to my little uncle—he really brought me a lot, but what I brought to him was always pain.

"Sir, let's eat something."

The darkness in front of me turned into darkness again, which didn't bother me when I recalled the past, but the voice of Ding Feng talking next to me became clearer, which was really annoying.

So I opened my mouth to let him go.

But when I wanted to do this, I realized that I didn't even have the strength to make a sound.

So I only increased my panting and shook my head slowly.

"Young master, you haven't eaten for seven days. If you continue like this, you will die!"

So I haven't eaten for seven days?So the little uncle has been gone for seven days?

How long can a person survive without food or water?

"If a person doesn't eat, he can last about seven days. If he doesn't drink water, he will die in about three days." I remember my little uncle said this. It was the happiest and most satisfying period of time for me. There was no gap in between, he told me some strange experiences, I remembered them in my heart, with his voice and breath.

I hadn't had water for six days and I thought, I'm really going to die.

Ding Feng's voice was no longer in my ears, but I seemed to vaguely remember a strange voice.

The voice was indistinguishable from male to female, and it drifted into people's ears as if riding a breeze.

"Are you willing to give up everything for Yuan Qiyue? You can see him, but everything about you, your glory, your body, your identity, and your wealth will all be taken away. Are you willing?"

--Is this true?

I belatedly thought.

But I'm going to die. If I die, won't I lose all of this?

If this is a deal, it is really a bargain.

Thinking of this, I suddenly seemed to have the strength to speak, so I said, "Of course I would."

I am willing to abandon everything, to beg his forgiveness, to make up for my naive mistakes.

From now on, even if the road ahead is blocked by gods and Buddhas, I will never be willing to part with him again.

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Thank you for accompanying me so far and all the little friends who have accompanied me. Without you, I would not be able to persevere. I will remember your [bow], although this article is written out of love for supervisor X articles [cough], but Later, I couldn’t bear to abuse the characters in QAQ, and the opening of a new article might be a matter of summer vacation, so I can only say goodbye to the rivers and lakes... [What?

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