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The memory became distant. After closing his eyes and thinking carefully for a long time, Zhou Sui realized that he hadn't been back for a long time.

Things are twists and turns, how did it become like this...

He frowned, very puzzled.

Is it too depraved?

crunch--

The door opened.

The person on the bed lifted his head up, and his eyes met.

"Young master, we can't fit your things in our house soon." She leaned against the door frame and looked towards this side.

Zhou Sui suddenly felt a little shy, then put his head back, and continued to lie on the bed and pretend to be dead.

"Uh... not that much." There was a guilty voice.

Shen Ling looked at the man and frowned slightly, still feeling that the man had nothing to say.

It looks heartless...

Why are you so clingy lately?

I can't wait to put everything in his place.

Not long after Zhou Sui finished speaking, he heard footsteps, and then opened his eyes to see that Shen Ling looked straight at him.

Uh……

Turn your head aside.

"Are you losing your temper with your family?" Inquiring tone.

When Zhou Sui heard this, he was a little irritable, and directly covered himself with the quilt.

Refuse to communicate.

"1, 2..."

The person on the bed suddenly stood up, and looked at the person next to him resentfully.

"What's the matter?" He straightened up, feeling that he still had to ask clearly.

Usually, he is good at pretending to be good with Aunt Li, but now he is acting like a tortoise.

After knocking on the shell for a long time, he poked his head out once.

Zhou Sui thought this was a bit strange, why did he just listen to Shen Ling's words?

It wasn't...

Besides, he is also very heroic, right?

"I don't want to fold clothes, don't count down..." She pursed her lips and said unhappy.

Because he has been surrounded by aunts and part-time workers since he was a child, and he knows nothing about housework.

In addition, he "carried"... a lot of things.

So Shen Ling tried to teach herself to organize.

but--

He folded it so ugly, ugly, and tired.

dislike……

"Depressed?" He adjusted his glasses on the bridge of his nose, planning to coax the emo puppy.

Hearing this, the person on the bed lowered his head, not knowing what he was thinking, and finally just crossed his legs and looked out the window.

There are small purple flowers climbing outside the window. Aunt Li came up to plant them during the Chinese New Year, saying that it was too dull for the house, and it would be appropriate to get some flowers.

Now it's spring, but I climbed from the balcony to the bedroom.

At this moment, there were humming and chirping sounds outside the door, and the sound of dogs scratching the door.

After a while, a white tail began to circle around Shen Ling.

Zhou Sui withdrew his eyes and turned to look at his dog.

At this moment, she was frantically arching Shen Ling's hand, obviously wanting to touch it...

"..."

Sure enough, no matter where this dog goes, it doesn't kiss its true owner, right?

I asked my elder brother to help raise it for a few days before, and Gisa stuck to his elder brother almost every day, and couldn't even pull it away.

Later, he put it in Qin Sheng's place, but the dog only saw his beautiful owner. If it hadn't been snowing, he would have brought the silly dog ​​back in person, and he wouldn't have froze it to death.

just now……

"Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Shen Ling looked down, rubbed it perfunctorily, then bent the back of his hand and tapped the dog's head, and said warmly:

"Get out, don't go into the bedroom."

When Zhou Sui heard the words, he just wanted to say that this would definitely not work, it's no wonder this silly dog ​​can understand!

Then--

Giza, with drooping ears, walked away with her tail drooping, looking a little depressed, but very obedient.

"!!"

Zhou Sui suddenly stopped being depressed, and looked at Shen Ling in shock.

"Why? I bought such expensive dog food for it, and I took it for a walk, and I brought it back in the snow. Does it know how heavy it is? Why is this dog so heartless!"

"Tell me, did it look at me just now? How can it look down on people with dog eyes..."

"I……"

Among the incoherent.

He wanted to go down and beat the dog's head violently, so he turned over and was about to get out of bed, but his head was held down.

Touched reassuringly.

The technique was skillful, and sure enough, the other party's eyes were turned away, and he was not so angry anymore.

"Are you going to duel with it?" asked slightly amused.

"It's despising me! Why does it always dance with me when I talk to it?" Zhou Sui couldn't understand, shouldn't a dog be very human?

Every time he wants to be sensational, he goes to give Giza a hug.

This life-or-death bastard started to flee crazily, looking at it provocatively with dog eyes, and swayed from side to side.

He ran to chase, but he couldn't even touch the hair. This dog can circle the coffee table ten times.

He's so fat, why is he so flexible? !

"Don't change the subject, I'll chase after you later, tell me first, what happened to you at home?" Seeing that the person's mood has stabilized, he stopped comforting him, and planned to ask clearly.

Last time, this person went to the house quietly and got out of the closet, and came back as if nothing had happened.

When I came back, I saw a man holding a big dog while looking back at him. It was not too pitiful.

I had no choice but to indulge people a little bit to occupy his space. Think about it, it’s okay, and it’s not too troublesome to raise more large dogs.

It's just sticky.

But if a person is unhappy every day, he will also be very concerned about it.

The young son of the Zhou family was abducted by him.

You still have to continue to be heartless.

"Actually, it's just..." He sighed, not knowing what to say.

Zhou Sui also knew that he was wrong, but he just wanted to cover himself up and isolate himself from the world.

"It's my mother's memorial day in a few days. I don't want to go home. I'm not welcome there." She lowered her eyes and seemed to be unable to think of any good solution.

He is indeed unlikable, and he has been unlikable since he was a child.

Wasn't he the nemesis of his mother...

Only my aunt liked me when I was a child, but my aunt also left.

Going around, so few friends, family members... can't find where they belong.

"Uh, actually that's not what I meant, I just..." The person sitting on the bed was eager to explain, trying to make the atmosphere less cold.

But because he wanted to moderate what he said just now, he was a little at a loss and his eyes were a little wobbly.

in a state of extreme uneasiness.

"I don't want to...I..."

"So it's your birthday in a few days?" The voice was still very gentle.

Zhou Sui was stunned, opened his mouth slightly, and then said dumbly: "That's not my birthday, that...that's the day my mother passed away."

His tone was dazed and downcast.

If it wasn't for giving birth to him, the mother would not have passed away, and everything that followed would not have happened.

It was he who killed his mother, and everyone around him said so.

"They don't like me. They never liked me since I was a child." Zhou Sui actually understood this truth very well, and he also understood his situation better.

The Zhou family didn't actually plan to have a second child at the beginning, they just thought that the eldest son might be lonely, so they went for one.

So from the very beginning, his existence... was for another child.

Zhou's father loves Zhou's mother very much, which is known far and near, because the two are childhood sweethearts, and they agreed to be together for a lifetime as early as when they were teenagers.

Nobody thinks they won't last.

Until the second child was due to give birth, the wind and rain were about to come, and there was no chance for people to breathe...

"I, I didn't do it on purpose... I didn't intend to come to this world, no one told me it would be like this..." Zhou Sui's voice was choked and hoarse.

He actually didn't want to get emotional, which was a bit too embarrassing indeed.

But when he thought of his childhood memories, he felt that the world was gray.

Zhou Sui was actually taken away at the funeral, because he was too young and no one took care of him.

Perhaps the whole family is grieving over the loss of their wife, and they are really not interested in the birth of this "stranger".

Furthermore, if the wife hadn't insisted on protecting the child at that time, she wouldn't have come to this point.

Everything was disrupted by this baby.

This kind of inconspicuous malice and rejection shrouded the baby who was still in the swaddling position. When Bai Xu hugged him, he even muttered, "Why are you wearing such thin clothes, won't the baby be cold?"

For a while, Zhou Sui was happy, but because he was too young, his consciousness was hazy.

He thinks it is very happy to have an elder brother who plays with him and a beautiful aunt at home.

It's just that he didn't understand the address...

"Auntie, why, why am I called Auntie?" He stuttered and asked, pointing at the "brother" beside him.

"Brother, brother, why can I call you mother, I also want to call you—"

Bai Xu tried to explain to the child, but looking at the other's dark eyes, he didn't know if he understood, so he could only think about the child's heart, and he would forget it after sleeping.

It shouldn't be a big deal.

But she heard—

"So...so they don't want me..."

"That's probably why they don't like me." People who are still a group obviously can't think too much, their thinking is one-way, and they just ask innocently, "Being hated...I did something wrong. I will change it."

Try to think hard about what the tutor is saying.

"But what did I do wrong? Auntie, if I, I go to correct it, they will want, want me, right?" He tilted his head and laughed foolishly.

Zhou Sui later figured it out, he was indeed wrong, but this mistake is not easy to correct.

He should not have been born.

As long as I am not born, then the Zhou family is a perfect family, the couple are harmonious, the son is well-behaved and sensible, and the aunts in the family are also gentle and amiable.

They are a neat family, and their own appearance... well, maybe it's not good.

"How do you know they don't like you? I think they like you—" Shen Ling frowned, feeling that from the outside world, the Zhou family doted on this "little son" in front of him very much.

"But if you like me, why would you throw me to your friend for nearly seven years?" His eyes turned away, and he continued to look at the little flowers climbing on the window.

I don't even know what to think.

"I haven't seen them in the past seven years."

"I don't know why they took me away later." He murmured to himself.

Zhou Sui was still a child at that time, and he couldn't understand why a stranger could just take him away when he came, without any room for refusal.

Obviously he is doing well with his aunt?

As he grew up, he slowly accepted that strangers were his "family".

"I'm really sorry for my mother. It was because of me that she had an accident. If I hadn't been forced to force me, I wouldn't—" Turning her head, she said very seriously.

"No." He was interrupted directly.

Zhou Sui looked up, his eyes were a little dazed.

"Your mother won't dislike you, she just doesn't have the chance to accompany you." Shen Ling moved her eyes to look at Teng Man outside the window, thinking that she was actually quite pretty.

Also brings some aroma.

"How do you know—" he retorted suspiciously.

"She took a life to let you come into this world, how can you say she doesn't welcome you?" Drooping Eye explained, and raised his hand to touch it again.

Tsk, it's a bit tricky.

There are still a few white dog hairs, and he went to fight the dog again?

"But if I wasn't born, she would be fine. Or if she didn't protect me at the time, then there would be no problem, and she could be reunited with her family." Her thinking remained unchanged, and she felt that this path was correct.

It seems that it has long... taken itself away.

"But that's what if." Concisely stated the fact.

Shen Ling never expected that the person in front of him would have such a side, such low self-esteem, such self-pity, and such hatred of his own birth.

Didn't you have a strong desire for sex at the beginning?

The phone note, I guess it hasn't been changed until now...

"I know...so I..." I scratched my head with my hands, still feeling bored.

That's why he has been assuming the fact that he doesn't exist for more than 20 years.

Staying far away from them may bring less bad memories?

After all, every time they recalled their mother, the cause was themselves, and it was unreasonable to bring dull emotions to the family every day.

If he is far away.

That might mend the wound a bit, and that counts as a good thing?

"That's why you have to go home and pay homage to your aunt. She sent you here with all her strength." She continued to enlighten.

When Zhou Sui heard this, he was startled, as if a stone had been thrown from his heart.

Make a hollow sound.

"But will my family like me? They love my mother very much, and so do I...but I haven't even seen her..." He muttered to himself in a low voice.

"But in fact, I can feel it." I tried hard to adjust my mentality, stretched my arms, and tried to relieve it.

His eyes looked over, looking at the person standing beside him.

"They are making up for me. Maybe it's the seven years when I was a child? Or maybe it's the malice when I was a child? I can't remember clearly."

"But I really don't like going back to that... home." He paused for a while.

His eyes flickered, but he was still not very happy.

"so?"

Zhou Sui suddenly felt that he had nothing to be depressed about, forget it, he is fine now...

He slipped off the bed, patted his clothes, and the old god took a look at Shen Ling.

Tsk, still so personable.

"So, I'm going to duel with Giza!"

He slapped away in his slippers.

The sound of ding-ding-dong-dong-dong-bottles came from the living room, and the sound of paws rubbing against the floor...

It’s not lively.

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Just one more chapter~

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