[Kuroko's basketball] Ome

Life and death, which one do you accept more?

"Well, of course it's life and death, because as long as you are still alive, you will meet again one day. If you die, you really have nothing."

He remembered the rare and solemn expression on the girl's face when she said this, as if she was discussing a major event in life. Midorima, who asked her this question casually, was stunned for a moment, and then closed the computer in front of him.

"Then go to the movies by yourself."

It’s almost faded out of memory. The neighbor’s girl who always does things as she pleases will become extra righteous every time she celebrates her birthday. In the first year, he was pestering him to eat everywhere. In the second year, Disney had a crazy day. In the third year, she got two movie tickets and asked him to accompany her to the movies.

Originally, he wanted to refuse. The boy who was only thinking about victory and only lucky things had no interest in this kind of cradle of ambiguity, especially the two tickets in the girl's hand that seemed to be a love drama?After searching online, I found out that it is already an old movie, and it is said that it has made many young girls cry.The ending of the story is that the male protagonist who had cancer died, and the female protagonist was traveling alone on the train. Just watching the screenshots of the movie was full of indescribable sadness. Thinking of the surprisingly well-developed tear ducts of the girl next door, he suddenly turned his head. The two earths refused.

"No, I don't dare to watch it alone..." The girl's face suddenly changed, "They all said it was very touching, I'm afraid I'll cry until I pass out..."

"...It has nothing to do with me." The corner of Luma's mouth twitched, but the scene of someone crying in a movie theater had already begun to appear in his mind.

Chihaya loves to cry very much. Although she may not feel it herself, girls actually understand the philosophy of crying almost by nature. It is not unreasonable to cry blindly. She always knows exactly who to cry in front of and when to cry , and how to cry.

Just like when she heard that he refused the invitation to watch a movie, she didn't cry immediately, but just stared at him with wide eyes. He held a book and pretended to review it seriously, but she didn't speak. He suddenly picked up Midoritarou who was dozing under the table and walked silently to the balcony.The night wind was a bit cold, and the little guy struggled in her arms and wanted to jump out. She immediately grabbed one of its tails and choked up.

"Well, I also know that I hate it... I am ignorant and always cause trouble, I get lost when I go out, and my tears are not obedient..." While speaking, he stretched out his hand and wiped his face vigorously. There was a slight sobbing sound, and I looked over subconsciously, and saw the girl sitting on the balcony curled up, holding Lu Taro's tail stubbornly with one hand.The little guy who couldn't break free kept roaring angrily, but the girl didn't seem to notice it, and kept thinking nonstop.

"But... even if I am like this, I am full of longing for things like love..."

Lu Jian was taken aback.

"I also want to go to the movies with the person I like..."

She said the last sentence in a very low voice, and Midorima didn't know if she heard it clearly, but when he finally struggled and opened the balcony door, she had already fallen asleep in a squatting position.He watched the girl's drooping head flickering, and suddenly felt extremely irritated in his heart.

Yes, he is very irritable, this irritability has never left since it entered his heart three years ago in the summer, it always pops up from time to time to tease his fragile heartstrings, threatening to invade his stubborn last line of defense.

His room has been occupied by her, so he had to subconsciously put up a barrier in his heart, not because he was afraid of being hurt, he never thought she would hurt him, but he couldn't imagine that one day he would forget everything around him, full of love A situation where the brain is completely occupied by one person.Like a virus that invades the mind, people become anxious about gains and losses and even lose themselves. What a terrible and destructive emotion that is.

He remembered that he once asked Akashi about this question, and the young captain who was sitting opposite him at that time, holding a chess piece and smiling, raised his eyebrows with interest.

"What? Will Shintaro also be afraid?" Afraid of losing himself in love, afraid of a series of negative emotions brought about by liking the other party too much, afraid of himself, afraid of her he likes.

"No..." He subconsciously wanted to refute, but his voice lost his confidence for no reason. Seeing that Akashi was still smiling, he pushed up his glasses uncomfortably, and his eyes fell on the chessboard. But suddenly dropped the chess piece, and crossed his hands to support it on the chessboard.

"I thought you should have understood." He reached out and picked up an infantry from the chessboard and played with it in the palm of his hand, "About two years ago? Before Qiu'er left the United States, what May said, that was actually Talking about me."

【I know why you don't let Xiao Qingmei get close to us, you are afraid that after she has more friends, she will no longer rely on you...】

If you like someone, you will definitely want to possess them. I hope that she will watch you all the time, and hope that she only sees you. For a person like Akashi who is used to controlling everything, that is a matter of course, but Midorima is not.Such a desire to control is really unreasonable to him who is a rationalist, so the young man subconsciously resisted such a mood, and also resisted Chihaya who made him become like this.

"Little Green is a coward."

A long time ago, Momoi girl's sudden accusation came to mind, and Midorima suddenly didn't know why she kept doing such things that put the cart before the horse.Is it because of his awkward nature?It was because more often he was always afraid, afraid that he would like Chihaya more and more, afraid that he would eventually lose all protection in front of this person, and become the most unreserved but also the most vulnerable state.

In fact, in the final analysis, he was still afraid of getting hurt. Momoi Itsuki has always been the person who understands the nature of miracles best.

He still didn't go to see that movie with her in the end, I heard that she took Momoi to accompany her, and when she came back, she closed the door and cried for a long time, the eyes of Momoi who sent her back were also a little red.He found that movie on the Internet and watched it inexplicably, and occasionally turned his head to look at the balcony, always imagining that she would jump out the next moment and say with red eyes, "Xiaozhen Xiaozhen, that movie is so touching" or "The heroine is so pitiful" or something like that. Yes, at that time he would immediately turn off the screen and despise her for being too stupid to be tricked into tears by such a messy story, and what would she probably say?

"Xiao Zhen is a hard-hearted fool."

He thought she would say that, but in fact she didn't show up on the balcony for several days. Instead, he was inexplicably sad for a long time because of this gap.Then one day, he returned late from training, and when he returned to the room, she had already arrived, squatting on the balcony holding a cat teasing stick to tease Lu Taro, opening and closing her small mouth, muttering words, as if to say something, he subconsciously Walking forward, it was only when she was approaching the balcony that she finally heard that she was scolding herself.

"I'm an idiot, I shouldn't read such a story... It made me feel bad for several days...Xiaozhen is right, I'm an idiot..." She simply dropped the teaser Mao Bang picked up Lu Taro and rubbed it vigorously in his arms, his voice unconsciously weakened a little, "Hey, Lu Taro, Wuyue actually said that Xiaozhen likes me, will you believe it?"

Green Taro naturally didn't answer, it probably just wanted to go back to the house to find something to eat, but Midorima, who was about to walk over, had a face, and hurriedly stood sideways behind the wall to cover himself.Unconsciously, Chihaya continued to ignore the little guy's true wish, her face seemed to be looking forward but vaguely disturbed.

"But what should I do? No matter whether it's true or not, I really like Xiaozhen. Even if he hates me, I still have to keep liking me until he has to like me..."

I like until only myself is left in this person's eyes.

"Meow~" Lu Taro yawned lazily to indicate that it had nothing to do with it, and Chihaya couldn't help laughing out loud.

"Ha, I'm really an idiot. What's the use of telling you these things... I'll be a cat in my next life, so I won't worry about these strange things."

The troubles about falling in love are not unique to him.

The girl who seems to have never thought about anything is actually more likely to fall into a state of worrying about gains and losses than him. Compared with him who has been wrapping herself up all the time, she has almost no room for turning around when she spreads out everything from the moment she comes out.

If you love, please love deeply, if you don't love, please go away.

It's one thing to know that you are deeply loved, but it's another thing to accept such a relationship. Midorima doesn't want to give up her inherent persistence, but she also doesn't want to admit that she is the child of Akashi and Momoiguchi. A coward, so he unknowingly changed his attitude towards her, slowly.

From the beginning of having to wait for her to cry for a long time before she was willing to act, it gradually changed to compromise as soon as she opened her mouth, and finally it became a habit of always thinking about her reaction and how to make her happy no matter what she did. ...

When he came back to his senses, he realized that he had fallen into it without knowing it. Facing the occasional teasing gaze from Akashi, he often couldn't help being embarrassed, but every time he saw Chihaya's happy face, he felt inexplicably excited.He feels that he is sick, a kind of duplicity is the inability to say what is in his heart, this disease will become more serious in front of the person he likes, Momoi calls this disease "tsundere", while Qingfeng will be straightforward Call it "deadly awkward".

"Xiaozhen! I'm so scared!"

He heard the girl's cry, trembling mixed with panic, the girl's hands around his waist were tightly tightened, he could clearly feel her rapidly intensifying heartbeat, intertwined with his irregular heartbeat to form a dense A web from which he cannot escape.

"Xiaozhen...Xiaozhen...it's great to see you again..."

She kept repeating his name, and there was a hot soaking feeling on his chest. The boy couldn't help but began to think whether she had been calling him silently like this before he arrived. The irritability finally broke out completely, he suddenly withdrew his hand and raised her forehead, stretched out a hand and slowly wiped the tears on her face.

"Don't cry." He said, then slightly lowered his head and pressed his forehead against the girl's wet forehead due to cold sweat, his deep voice echoed in the shortened space between the two, Chihaya blinked, and the big tears were still flowing Rolling down the corner of her eyes, she heard the boy's clear voice, "You are fine, this is better than anything..."

He still has a lot to say, and there are still many things he wants to take her to do. He has already unknowingly added a figure to the future he planned. It must be so hard to lose the heroine before he can implement it. matter.The fear that I felt so deeply when I heard the original housekeeper say that she was attacked was more afraid of losing the person who changed me than the fear of losing the person who made me change. She will completely withdraw from her own world.

Worried that it would be too late to say what she wanted to say, she ran out desperately, and was so lucky to find her who was still intact.

Life and death, which one do you accept more?

Neither.

why?

Why die when you can choose?Since they survived, why should they separate?

It is clear that it is not enough to be tied to this person for the rest of my life, why should I be obsessed with those irrelevant problems now?

self-esteem?pride?persist in?what is that?

Midorima Shintaro likes Minagawa Chihaya, this is not something shameful, is it?

Just like it.

A liking that is more important than one's inherent persistence and pride, a liking that is so unwilling to be separated from her, a liking that only wants her to see her liking.

"I'll just say this once, you have to listen carefully." His voice was so low that it was almost imperceptible, Chihaya blinked suspiciously, and saw that the boy's fair cheeks were slightly flushed, as if he had said something, but her panicked brain had already I can't understand it at all.

"I like you."

It's an auditory hallucination... right?