Plant Invasion [End Times]

"Do you think he'll find out?"

"Perhaps he has found out."

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The first time Jin Shao realized that he didn't like anyone was when he was 15 years old.

That year, on behalf of his military/school, he went to the girls'/military school next door for an exchange between the two schools. He stayed for three days. When he came back, a girl sneaked out and handed him a love letter in front of a group of people.

He still remembers the girl's blushing face and the look of anticipation when she couldn't help but secretly raised her eyelids to look at him.

He also remembered how he felt at the time.

He was not shocked, embarrassed, proud or complacent, he took it over calmly, put it in the bag, and then said to the girl who might be a year older than him, solemnly and righteously:

"I understand how you feel. It's understandable to have teenage turmoil or hallucinations caused by hormones. But I want you to understand who we are, who are we? We are the future of this country. We have great years and endless Energy, with the quickest thinking and the strongest learning ability, at this time, we should focus on learning knowledge and skills, and use them to serve the country and protect the people in the future, instead of being obsessed with these small loves, Waste of time, waste of youth!"

He didn't know whether the girl had listened to everything, he only knew that the girl was crying when he was halfway through what he said.

Later, he left rumors in his military/academy and unit/team that he was inhumane and incomprehensible. Of course, some people said that he was a prudish, deliberately pretending to please his superiors.

He didn't take this to heart. After all, some insistences don't need to be explained to others, as long as he knows it himself.

In school, in the army, and even later in the special forces, he was always the most active and the best.

A person's energy is limited. As others get older, they will gradually have other thoughts, which will more or less affect their performance. However, he seems to be born with less growth. Nervous, he doesn't understand the relationship between children and rarely has mood swings, which allows him to maintain the best study and work status in a long-term and stable manner, and become the most trustworthy and outstanding person in the mouth of his superiors.

Sometimes he also has doubts, such as whether he is abnormal?For example, is there something wrong with your emotional center?This made him occasionally plunge into unimaginable fear.

After all, as a person who grew up in the military/army, he always understood the pity of a different kind better.

With doubts, he went to ask his elder brother who was a researcher in a secret base.

Both of their parents died when they were young, and they were orphans raised by the country and the army. Since childhood, his elder brother told him that they were all raised with the money of the country. They are people of the country, so they must study hard. Be a person who is useful to the country and the people, and live up to the cultivation of the country.

Regarding his question, Jin Qi sat on the test bench holding the Erlenmeyer flask and smiled lightly.

"Silly boy, people like us, why talk about our own feelings. The people, as well as the country, are your lovers, isn't that enough?"

"A person's emotion is limited, if it is distributed to an individual, it will be less distributed to the group/crowd. Think carefully, do you want to be this kind of person?"

He went back silently, and never had a similar question since then.

Hearing such private discussions again, he only felt contemptible and ridiculous.

He is a member of the country, his body and heart are all given to the country first, what more bicycles are needed.

When a person is moved by his own enthusiasm and love, he is fearless and reckless.

Jin Shao has been moved by his great love for many years, and has become more and more determined through years of contributions and appreciation from his superiors.

It's just that he met Shen Kuo later.

He didn't know why, he was separated by a door, and he heard someone talking on the other side of the door. Before he was sure if that was his goal, he began to hope that this was the goal.

He said a lot to himself.

The person who can protect a group of children in the jungle must be the person General Wang asked him to find, right?

They said he was the village head, so young and also the village head, he was so special, he must be the person General Wang asked him to find, right?

He sounded very scared and terrified, but he was still trying to scare himself, trying to save the children outside, such a cowardly and brave person, he must be the person General Wang asked him to find, right?

He began to think about how to convince this person, how to make this person believe in him, how to make this person willing to muster up the courage to follow him through the endless green forest behind him again, risking many dangers to meet a group of strangers.

No, he will protect him.He thought, his bounden duty is to protect, with him around, this person will definitely not be harmed.He can protect him all the way, let him reach the base safely, and go to General Wang Yaowu. At that time, he will complete his mission, and the person inside the door can also complete his mission.

He will be at the base, maybe he will enter the research institute, work with his brother, maybe in other places, do other things, he doesn't have to see him all the time, he only needs to go out and take risks to do missions and come back, go to the core When the districts were handed over, I occasionally ran into him somewhere. At that time, maybe he would recognize himself, remember that he had escorted him, and then think that he was guarding the city!

His cold heart, which had been injured by the ruthless expulsion of the base people, became hot again, as if hot lava flowed through his heart, expanding, bubbling, and sublimating.

When he was kicked out, he was really ashamed and silent. The fire that had been burning in his heart for more than 20 years was extinguished by a basin of cold water when the base people rioted and forced his brother to drive him away.

Like a lonely soul, he packed up his things and prepared to leave, looking for a place to watch the city die quietly.

It was Wang Yaowu who found him in private and gave him the task of finding the mysterious target.

Wang Yaowu didn't tell him what the target looked like, age, gender, or personality, let alone the location of the target. All he gave him was one sentence: "It's in our province. This person is very special. You will know him when you see him." I know it's him."

It's not so much a mission, it's more like a joke like searching for immortals and asking for medicine.

But Wang Yaowu was unprecedentedly serious and serious. He solemnly handed over this task to him, telling him that this person is related to saving the entire human race, and if possible, he must be brought back.

He bid farewell to Wang Yaowu and left the base city quietly.

It was a morning when he set off on the dew, freshly wounded and tired, to find someone who might not even exist.

He sincerely thanked Wang Yaowu.

That mission saved him.

he lived.

He needs tasks.

That is the meaning of his existence - to fight for the country and the people.

When the end of the world comes, the country no longer exists, and if the people he guards don't need him, he will die completely.

This mission is his life-saving straw. With this mission, he has the goal of surviving.

He didn't know whether Wang Yaowu gave him such an illusory goal just to give him a reason to struggle to live. If he couldn't find that person, he couldn't die.But Wang Yaowu's expression was too serious, which made him have to believe that such a mission was actually real.

Anyway, that was his goal in getting out of that oppressive city and into the jungle.

He lives to accomplish his mission.

That's what he told himself, the meaning of life.

His mission was to find that person, escort him back to the base, and hand him over to General Wang.

Then, his significance ends here.

He didn't think about the future, he didn't think he had any future.After losing the need for him from the people of the base, he had nothing left.

Only then did he realize that he was not a saint either.

he will hate.

He hated Zhai Wu, and also hated the ignorant, cowardly, timid and impulsive people in that base.

Zhai Wu wanted to destroy him, and those people were his swords.

He becomes a walking machine filled with despair and hatred.

He is counting to himself every day, counting the days he can still live.

He thought that he was also afraid of death.

He was not afraid of dying as a hero for some lofty meaning, but he was afraid of being abandoned as a useless person because he had no reason to live, and then died quietly in a dark corner.

He used to work so hard, so hard, to be a person useful to the country and the people, not afraid of hardships and dangers, not afraid of everything, and risking his life.

Some people also asked him why he worked so hard, but he couldn't figure out why.

At the moment when he was kicked out of the base city, he suddenly understood: it was not because of selflessness, nor because of stupidity, but because he was afraid in his heart, afraid of being abandoned.

He tried his best to please an object. This object was not a certain person, not a specific existence, but this country, the people of this country.

He is a child raised by the country, to please the country that raised him, that is his instinct as an orphan raised by the country.

He tried to please him for more than 20 years, but he still failed.

These people are not worthy of his favor.

The fire in his heart went out.

So, he had no choice but to die.

But the fire was miraculously ignited the moment Shen Kuo's voice was heard.

In this world, there are still people worthy of his protection.He felt that the person inside the door was worthy of his protection.

The way he arrived was not coincidental. It wasn't until he had known Shen Kuo for many days that he knew that a person pretending to be a mobile team had just appeared the day before he arrived, trying to trick the people inside to open the door.

His luck has never been very good, but fortunately he never lives by luck.

He successfully entered the village, and because the other party was worried about him, he successfully moved into his house.He approached the young man named Shen Kuo, well, he was only less than five years older than him.His brother laughed at him for always being old-fashioned, maybe.

He is eager to prove that there is something special about this young village chief named Shen Kuo, special enough to be able to prove that he is his goal.

He has never been so impatient.

He shouldn't be so impatient.

He didn't know why.

His overly impatient behavior seemed to have caused a lot of trouble to the little village chief who was very timid and frightened and tried to hide it from him.

He was always startled and fierce to himself, as if this would make him fearful and dare not act rashly.

He thought he was kind of funny, like a squirrel hiding a pine cone in a tree hole trying to blow up its big furry tail in front of the cheetah, hoping to show its might and strength and protect its fruit.

Whenever he saw the other party provoke him in fear, he couldn't help but sweat for the other party - if he was really a villain, then the other party's behavior really put his neck under the blade.

Sometimes he couldn't help but pity the brain of this innocent little guy, and wanted to get into his head to see what kind of weird ideas were hidden in it.

He is afraid of himself, and he often runs in front of him to provoke him. He is both timid and bold.

He didn't understand how this little guy's thinking pattern went, but he understood the reason why he did it: he wanted to protect the people in this village, those old people, women, children, everyone.

Even though he was as fragile as a ceramic doll in front of him, a murderer with a gun, and even though all his clever efforts looked ridiculous and pitiful in front of him, he understood him.

He also envied him.

I envy him that he has a group of villagers who completely trust him.

Maybe those villagers were stupid enough, lacking foresight, and weak in hands and feet, but they supported him so much, believed in him so much, and they were afraid of him, but when their village chief might be in danger, an old woman dared to demonstrate to him.

He envied this village and everything in this village.

I envy Shen Kuo the most.

Envy him for being soft and kind, envy him for being innocent and stupid, envy him for not having to please anyone.

Such a person is what he wants to protect.

His innocence, his timidity, and his kindness are exactly the meaning of his existence.

This is it, he said to himself, he found a new meaning of living.

He confirmed that this person was his target, and he wanted to take him back to the base.

What happened after that was done unconsciously, and he couldn't figure out when the change happened.He only knew that one day, when he suddenly turned around, he found the village chief staring at him obsessively. He was very familiar with that look. He had seen it in the eyes of many young girls looking at him. Someone told him that those Girls like themselves.

At that moment, his mind suddenly cleared up.

The real torture came.

He couldn't believe that Shen Kuo would fall in love with him, but it did happen.Maybe Shen Kuo didn't know that his eyes were glued to him almost all the time, and when he looked at him, there was much joy and attachment in his eyes.

One of his retired squad leaders once told him a saying from experience: In this world, there are two things that cannot be hidden, one is coughing, and the other is having a crush on someone.

How about other people, he only has one sentence, state affairs come first, careless little love.

But facing Shen Kuo, he couldn't help doubting himself first. He suspected that he had seduced this young man unconsciously.

He believed that his love belonged to the country and the people. He didn't know that he would like others, let alone that one day, he would like a man.

But when he discovered Shen Kuo's secret love for him, he came to his senses. He had already had feelings for him that surpassed what a guardian should have for the person being guarded. Perhaps, he approached this person with selfish intentions in the first place.

At that moment, he felt extremely ashamed.

Not only did he betray the country and the people, but he also seduced a young and kind man.

Shen Kuo's feelings for him were almost ready to come out, and he was too ashamed to forgive himself.

He wanted to protect this young man. He hoped that he would be well and continue to be that kind person, a soft hearted person, and a cute and silly person.

But he himself broke the precept first.

He knew that, there must have been more than one time, he approached this young man unconsciously, seduced him, broke his mind, and made him go astray.

Jin Shao struggled to keep a distance from Shen Kuo, pretending not to understand the emotion and hope in his eyes, pretending to be ascetic and full of love, hoping that he could calm down after being frustrated, and recover from the temptation of this mistake. Emotionally awakened.

He doesn't deserve it, nor should he.

Seeing Shen Kuo relying on and trusting him more and more day by day, it felt like a sweet knife was in his heart.

He was reluctant, but he had to push the knife away.

Because he knew that he was only here to do the task, and the other party was only his target. If Shen Kuo knew that he had come here with a purpose in the first place, the other party would only suffer more.

Fortunately, they finally embarked on the way to the base.

Shen Kuo was always afraid, and when he encouraged him to have nothing, he felt both sad and happy.

He knew that with Shen Kuo's ability, no matter what, the base would treat him well, and he also knew that when he arrived at the base, Shen Kuo should shed the illusion of being fascinated by him.

It was really just an illusion. Shen Kuo was locked in an isolated village and suddenly saw the illusion of a reliable person.

After waking up from the dream, Shen Kuo should return to normal.

Will he hate himself then?

Jin Shao didn't know.

He even hoped that Shen Kuo would hate himself.Forgive him for becoming selfish, even with such a reason, he hopes Shen Kuo will remember himself.

He knew that the credit for bringing back Shen Kuo was enough to offset his previous "crimes", and he would return to the mobile team.If one day he dies in the course of carrying out his mission, he no longer expects the people to remember him, he only hopes that Shen Kuo can remember him, remember him as a ruthless bad guy, and also remember that this bad guy has always been To guard the city with him is to die for the people in this city.

That's enough.

This is exactly what he wishes for in his life, he lives for protection, and dies for protection. It doesn't matter whether those being protected know about it or not, accept his protection, accept his credit or not.

He doesn't need understanding, flowers, or praise, he just needs to be worthy of his own heart and the world.

He can also die silently in a corner, as long as it is for the person he wants to protect, as long as that person is worth it.