The villain is my brother

The memories of the past were not erased, but deliberately covered up, allowing Qin Moyu to remember roughly what happened, but blurring the details and emotions.

The memory is hazy, and it seems that I have returned to that day in the haze.

There was an earthy smell after the rain washed in the air, and when he drove back, he had already passed the dormitory access control, and Qin Moyu had to drag his exhausted body on the road to find a hotel with vacant rooms.

The city was still brightly lit at night, but none of the lights were lit for Qin Moyu.

In the dim light, his figure walking alone was particularly lonely.

The long-term fatigue caused Qin Moyu to feel pain in his feet every time he took a step, but no matter how painful it was, it couldn't hurt more than when he heard the news of the dean's death.

Packing, buying tickets, going to the funeral home...

Until the dean's body was pushed into the incinerator, Qin Moyu still didn't recover from the bad news. He hugged the dean's ashes and sat there for a long time, until the phone rang to remind him to catch the car. He left like a loser.

The dean's death was like a whirlpool, not only taking away Qin Moyu's only relative, but also swallowing all his passion for life.

Qin Moyu knew that the dean was in poor health. In order to raise the children in the orphanage, she always worked late to maintain the survival of the orphanage. She tried her best to send eligible children to adoptive families, but there were still a few The child was left behind.

All of these children were abandoned due to congenital diseases and rejected by adoptive families. They either died early in a certain winter, or left silently in the hospital wards filled with disinfectant.

——Only Qin Moyu was the only one left among the healthy children.

In fact, it is very simple to find an adoptive family with Qin Moyu's appearance, but when the dean pushed Qin Moyu to the adoptive parents, Qin Moyu just looked at her sadly without crying or making trouble, and made her say no more. The words of Qin Moyu leaving.

That small orphanage was once full of children's laughter and cries, and in the end only the dean and Qin Moyu were left to depend on each other. After learning that Qin Moyu was admitted to university, both of them were extremely happy.

Qin Moyu is happy that he can finally earn money to see a doctor for the dean, so that she can enjoy her old age in peace.

What the dean thought was that Qin Moyu could finally live independently after leaving him.

"Come and see me after graduation."

Qin Moyu said to the dean on the other end of the phone, smiling shyly.

The Dean's wrinkled face also raised a smile - years of exhausting labor made her age at an alarming rate - only the eyes were still as kind and gentle as Qin Moyu saw when he was a child.

"Good, good, good..."

She was as happy as a child, and she reluctantly touched the phone until she hung up the phone.

Just as the dean didn't tell Qin Moyu that his health was deteriorating, and he couldn't even get up after falling down for a long time when he went out to buy vegetables, Qin Moyu never told the dean that he was lonely in his heart.

Because of the poverty in his childhood, he matured precociously. Qin Moyu would do what he could to reduce the burden of the dean early on. He would do odd jobs during the holidays. His busy life left him no time to understand the carefree preferences of his peers until When he was about to graduate from university, he turned his head suddenly, only to realize that he didn't have a close friend by his side.

Loneliness is not a devil that entangles you at any time, but a sourness that suddenly rushes to your heart at a certain inadvertent time.

——Maybe it’s the hot pot eating alone, maybe it’s the movie watching alone, or it’s the smiles on their faces when they travel on the road.

That slight envy turned into a needle, piercing my heart.

It doesn't hurt, but it makes me want to cry.

The graduation ceremony I once looked forward to, without the person who was looking forward to it, seemed not so important.

After the roommate who seemed to get along very well after graduation, no one in the group sent messages again.

No one has ever rejected Qin Moyu. It was he who wandered out of the crowd and became a recognized busy person, so the invitation text message skipped a person from the address book by default.

Qin Moyu hastily ended her college life, found a stable job as the dean expected, and lived a simple life day after day.

He did not build a strong barrier for himself as he thought, but like a leaky balloon, the emptiness in his heart was like a tide, engulfing him between ebb and flow.

When did things start to get out of hand?

Qin Moyu recovered from his daze, and looked at the marks on his arm in disbelief.

One, two, three...

Long-term depression led Qin Moyu to a dead end.

He desperately wanted to save himself, frantically socializing on the edge of the abyss of despair, looking for everything he might be interested in.

However, the short-lived happiness could not cope with the huge emptiness that followed, and instead caused more pain after each ending. The emptiness and loneliness that almost swallowed his whole body clamored for him to surrender.

"You look like you're about to cry."

Qin Moyu's scattered focus regrouped in one voice, and it was fixed on the face of the person in front of him.

Almost subconsciously, he raised a smile: "No, I'm very happy."

The person in front of him rubbed his chin suspiciously, looked Qin Moyu up and down, tilted his head and said, "Then do you want to save the world?"

what?

Qin Moyu was stunned by his sudden turning point, and a pot of plants was stuffed into his arms in the next second.

He lowered his head, and it was a lotus flower in bud.

The blue petals are soft and light, bowing slightly as if thanking someone.

How rare, blue lotus.

Such a sentence flashed through Qin Moyu's mind, and then he reacted abruptly.

etc!Something seems wrong?

He looked up, but there was no one in front of him.

That question can only echo in my heart.

——Can lotus flowers still be planted in soil pots?

Qin Moyu carried the lotus back home in a daze, and put it on the bedside.

Insomnia is already a common occurrence, but he does not want to take those sleep aid drugs, like a sick person who does not give up hypnosis before the diagnosis, I can heal myself.

Qin Moyu turned over habitually, turned on the phone skillfully, and tried to find something that would make him fall asleep after reading today.

With a swipe of my finger, I accidentally clicked into a novel, thinking that I would not be able to fall asleep anyway, and maybe I would be tired after reading it, so I read it chapter by chapter.

This is a very ordinary novel about cultivating immortals and upgrading. The only special thing is that this book is not finished, and the author's name is rather strange, it is called "Huahua, don't die".

Qin Moyu stared at the author's name for a few seconds, turned his head and saw the lotus flower beside his bed, and found that the lotus flower bent over rather than thanking him, looked more like dying.

"save the world……"

He murmured softly, then laughed at himself.

If I can't even save myself, how can I save the world?

Qin Moyu covered her head with the quilt, closed her eyes, and whispered a word before falling asleep.

——"If it can be saved, then let's save it."

Half asleep and half awake, he seemed to hear the voice of that person during the day again.

"Great, my flowers are saved."

Then, there is the boundless darkness.

…………

Forgotten, haunted by emptiness, surrounded by loneliness... all memories and emotions return at this moment.

Qin Moyu opened his mouth, but found that he had lost his voice.

'He's not Gu Jia. '

This realization sent chills down Qin Moyu's spine. The smile in his memory was exactly the same as the smile on Gu Jia's face now, but when he thought about it carefully, he found that apart from the curvature of the other's lips, he couldn't even see his face clearly.

The heart seemed to be grasped by an invisible big hand, and it groaned/groaned under the contraction of breathing. Qin Moyu couldn't bear it anymore, and ran out stumbled.

After he left, "Gu Jia" withdrew his smile. He looked at the door knocked open by Qin Moyu, and when he lay down again, he murmured to himself: "Secretly... it should be fine if you help me."

There seemed to be something silently humming in the dark, "Gu Jia" chuckled lightly, and closed his eyes.

But when Xuan Qing planned to visit his son, he saw Gu Jia who had been in a coma for many days sitting on the bed with confusion in his eyes.

Before Gu Jia asked his father where he was, Xuan Qing quickly walked to the bedside to check his body, but was surprised to find that not only the injuries on Gu Jia's body were healed, but also the red lotus karmic fire that had been flowing in the meridians disappeared. gone.

When Xuan Qing was talking strangely to himself, Gu Jia stared blankly at the door, and a question crossed his mind.

—Is someone here?

…………

Shen Mo has been feeling restless since nightfall, and this feeling has not disappeared with the passage of time, but has become more intense, even making him restless to the point of restlessness.

He thought about the things he had arranged recently, one by one, and there were no mistakes.

If the ceremony is okay...could it be...

Shen Mo's heart tightened, he didn't care about the things he had to deal with, he just couldn't wait to see Qin Moyu.

At first, he thought that Qin Moyu was with Master Xuanjing or Gu Jia, but when he swept over with his spiritual sense, he found no one. He decisively expanded the scope of his spiritual search, and finally found Qin Moyu by a lake.

That lake was once built by a certain southern emperor to please his concubine who liked to take a boat, but because of some things later, the relationship between the two broke up, and this lake became a taboo that could not be mentioned, and it was abandoned over time.

Qin Moyu stood by the lake, calmly as if watching the scenery.

But in the deserted lake in front of him, there were messy aquatic plants and green algae floating on the water surface. Let alone looking at the scenery, it would be torture for most people to stay in such a place for an extra second.

Obviously Qin Moyu looked as usual, but when Shen Mo approached lightly, he could clearly hear his heavier breathing than usual.

With all the emotions of patience, pain, and negativity, Qin Moyu's first reaction was not to go to Xuanjing Zhenren and Shen Mo, but to find a place where no one was around to calm down.

nothing.

Qin Moyu told himself that he has persisted for so long, and he is no longer a lonely person in his previous life, he can survive it.

He thought that he was still an impregnable wall, but the truth was that he was already defeated just by Shen Mo gently hugging him from behind.

"never mind……"

Shen Mo didn't know what happened to Qin Moyu again, he just hugged Qin Moyu who was trembling unconsciously in his arms, and said with great distress: "I'm here."

Qin Moyu couldn't bear it anymore, turned around and hugged Shen Mo tightly.

In the days when the dean just passed away, he woke up countless times from his sleep, looking for something in panic, but he still didn't know what he was looking for.

He didn't understand until now.

—he was looking for nothing more than a hug.

During that loneliest day, if someone could give him a hug, would everything be different.

Fortunately, heaven has mercy.

Qin Moyu, who was gradually losing its brilliance in the gray days, was firmly caught when he fell into another world.

Then tell him.

——It’s okay, I’m here.