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mom.

Yi Heye suddenly felt extremely sad for the name on the note.

"Mom" has been dragged to mandatory scrapping for many, many years.

The "mother" who raised Yi Heye single-handedly is an old-fashioned household robot. She does not have a body similar to that of a human. She is a machine that looks like a cart.

Yi Heye still doesn't know where his mother picked him up, and he doesn't know who is driven by what kind of program to make her behave like "take in herself". He only knows that "mother" is indeed a Very typical machine, even called artificial intelligence is very reluctant.

Such a dilapidated machine that could break down at any time, with a human baby, life is destined to be very difficult.

Yi Heye has no memory of some too early details, he just heard it mentioned by other aunts in the slum later.

When he was brought home by his mother, he was probably less than two weeks old, and looked wrinkled. No one believed that his mother could support him.

Facts have proved that mother is indeed not a good mother, but Yi Heye's vitality is really strong.

He didn't cry very much since he was a baby, unless he was too hungry, and when his mother heard the child sobbing softly, it seemed as if she had received an order to feed him the milk powder borrowed from everywhere.

An aunt who lives nearby told Yi Heye that although the mother doesn’t understand the child’s condition, she knows how to take care of the child—probably because she has downloaded a lot of information from the Internet, and she knows what stage of the baby is most suitable for drinking. What kind of milk powder, what kind of vegetables, fruits and staple foods are most suitable for growing children.

Every day, she draws up a special menu for Yi Heye, puts him in her car, takes care of him, and takes him to work nearby to earn food for her children.

As long as Yi Heye can remember, he has been living with his mother.

He is used to all the dullness, dullness, and impersonality of his mother, and he is also used to the inherent language habits and behavior patterns of machines.

In such an environment, Yi Heye also subconsciously lived like a little robot——

He has not received any emotion-related education, and those instincts unique to human beings have been exhausted by his mother's incomprehensible feedback time and time again.

Gradually, he forgot the meaning of crying and laughing, and didn't know the difference between liking and disliking. He called "hungry" "lack of energy" and "sickness" as "failure".

A normal child knows a lot of words at the age of four or five, but he didn't read the books his mother borrowed from others until he was seven years old.

He couldn't understand any of the words in that book. Seeing his embarrassment, the kid next to him read the words aloud as if showing off, and then laughed at him as a fool raised by a fool's machine.

This is probably the first time he has felt anger, that kind of human emotion is like a cluster of fire bursting from his chest, and the billowing heat wave surges up, completely uncontrollable.

He pushed the child to the ground and knocked out two front teeth. Afterwards, he must have been picked up by the other's father and beaten violently.

In my impression, my mother also went to fight, but was kicked off by the opponent, and the mother and son were thrown out of the door together.

Later, his mother came home and told him that he shouldn't hit someone, but he couldn't make any sense back and forth. Yi Heye cried aggrievedly. She didn't know how to comfort him, so she made him a glass of milk and said that she was going to send him off. read.

Because of this bad start, it seems that Yi Heye's reading ability has not been very sound since then.He couldn't bear to read long passages of text, and some commonly used words seemed unfamiliar even after reading them for a long time.

He hates reading, which means that his academic career will not be smooth, but what really shocked him was that he didn't realize the environment in which he had been growing up until he entered school and met his peers. different.

When school was over, Yi Heye heard the most words, "Yi Heye, your robot is here to pick you up."

Every time Yi Heye said "she is my mother" to them, he would get all sorts of strange reactions and answers.

"How can a robot be a mother?" "I see, it's your nanny, right?"...

On campus, Yi Heye's near-disabled emotional abilities also caused him a lot of trouble.

He can't read other people's emotions, and he can't beat around the bush when he speaks. He has offended many classmates invisibly, and has been ridiculed and attacked a lot.

Similarly, he can't express emotions - most of the time, he is like a vacuum person without emotion, and once the surrounding environment exceeds his tolerance threshold, those human emotions will be like a broken bank. The water was just pouring out completely uncontrollably.

Fighting, swearing, and losing his temper, his life seemed to be either blank and frosty, or burst out of nowhere.

There is also the test that has tortured him for ten years. Every time he failed the test, the researchers would surround him with cameras and shoot frantically, leaving evidence for future prosecution.

——That's why Yi Heye has always been afraid of the camera, and the feeling of being stared at like this has always reminded him that he is an unqualified alien.

Questioning again and again, and failing emotional tests year after year, made Yi Heye's character extremely irritable and inferior. In order not to be bullied and beaten, he started exercising. In order to pass the exam, he even Actively learn from human emotions to save yourself.

But even his self-help method is not very human-because he missed the best period of learning expression and understanding, the process of learning emotions is as difficult as an adult learning a foreign language.

He can't judge by "feeling" like others. He can only disassemble a person's facial expression into many components like learning "grammar"-facial muscle direction, eyebrow height, eyelid position The degree of exposure, the direction of the corners of the mouth...

He summed up the mistakes over and over again, and he was still trying to understand the deep meaning of the other party's speech when others had already been admitted to prestigious schools and made great achievements.

But even with repeated studies like this, when he thought he was no different from normal people, he still almost failed the basic human test.

Yi Heye hugged the phone in his arms, thinking of this, his eye sockets became hot and pantothenic.

Being raised by a robot is a very hard work.

He had thought countless times that it would have been better if he hadn't been taken in by his mother. If he had been allowed to die outside in the first place, it seemed that everything would not have been so bad.

But whenever he was sick, his mother used a mechanical female voice to help him measure his physiological values, judged that he was "faulty again", and then fed him medicine and water, and he couldn't help curling up in her cold bed again. Seek comfort in the mechanical arm.

Every time he tried hard to learn to understand human emotions, although his mother couldn't understand, she would cheer him up and make sweet milk powder for him to warm his cold hands again.

So he likes pain and illness, which will make him realize that he is indeed a human being, and in return for his mother to take good care of him like a human being; he also likes to drink milk, which is a rare warmth and warmth he can feel medium.

When he was five years old, during the period of great pollution, Yi Heye, who was suffering from pneumonia, happened to encounter his mother's failure. This was the first time he was hospitalized without anyone accompanying him, and it was also the beginning of his fear of being hospitalized.

Every time his mother was sent to be checked because of a malfunction, he couldn't help worrying that she would never come back, and he would never see her again.

But he thought that his mother would not understand feelings in this life, and taking care of him was also out of some kind of procedural control, and scrapping him was also an inevitable destination for her, so parting was nothing painful for them.

But that night, he watched his mother being forcibly taken away by the staff of the recycling station and scrapped in the factory. He still sat by the electronic waste pile, hugged his mother's removed wheel, and cried all night.

He wasn't sure if the sadness he saw in his mother's eyes before parting was his own illusion, but at this moment, he looked at the message on his phone that his mother sent him before leaving, full of grievances and sadness. It turned into tears, which could not be restrained from gushing out.

He curled up into a ball, holding the phone in his arms, and the message was in his arms, as if he was hugging his mother's cold arms again.

Yi Heye was crying silently at first, but the more he thought about it, the more he felt sad. He gradually began to sob softly, and then he couldn't help shaking, and finally he cried out loud, as if he was forcibly taken away from his mother. child.

"I can't do it, mom..." Yi Heye cried and said, "I obviously, obviously worked very hard..."

"...but human society never seemed to welcome me."