The guy always wants to be my wife

◎Memories of Hules (beginning with an inverted V)◎

When the new year came, Grandma He stroked the scarf and gloves that had not been woven for a long time, and shed tears quietly again.

He Shan was so obedient, so outstanding, he died at a young age, especially when it was heard that He Shan was killed in a car accident because he was saving a talent, the people around him were very sorry.

After all, that child grew up by their side, polite, sensible, and excellent.

The New Year's Eve came as scheduled, and people walking outside were surrounded by laughter and laughter, and the sound of fireworks blooming echoed in the sky.

Xu Lisi knocked on the door of Grandma He's house. He had no expression on his face, but his eyes were blue and black, and there was no expression in his eyes, like an unformed puppet in the hands of a craftsman.

Grandma He opened the door. She knew that He Shan had saved her boss and that this person also organized He Shan's funeral, but this was the first time Xu Lisi came to visit.

Xu Lisi carried the things in his hand and followed the old lady into the house.

"excuse me."

Xu Lisi sat on the sofa in the living room, the old house was full of traces of He Shan.

He Shan’s award-winning photos and trophies are on the TV cabinet, and there are familiar handwriting on the calendar hanging on the wall. The elderly like to post things on the wall, and the walls are covered with He Shan’s school awards...

Xu Lisi looked at this room, as if his heart had been chopped off piece by piece.

Grandma He made a pot of tea, which He Shan loved to drink. Xu Lisi picked up the cup, looked at the rippling tea in the cup, and opened his mouth, not knowing how to face this grandma.

It would be fine if I came here to face beatings, scolding and scolding, and don't spend too much time thinking about how He Shan left.

"sorry."

Xu Lisi still spoke, but Grandma He didn't answer him directly.

The hoarse voice was not loud, but it hit Grandma He's heart hard.

"He Shan is a very good child. He has never been a worry to anyone since he was a child."

Xu Lisi looked up at Grandma He, his eyes were red, but no tears came out.

"He will think about everything he does, and try his best not to regret it. If saving you is his choice, then he must have thought about it. He will not regret it, and I will not blame you..."

Xu Lisi thought of the seat belt that He Shan had unbuckled in advance while driving, and remembered how he told himself not to cry in front of him.

After Grandma He finished speaking, the two people in the living room fell silent, and Grandma He handed over the knitted scarf and gloves.

Although Grandma He is old, she can still see how important He Shan is to Xu Lisi.

That night, Xu Lisi sat for a long time in He Shan's student room, looking at the snow falling outside the window, watching the fireworks blooming in the night sky, and looking at the room full of traces, he felt that he had died...

After Xu Lisi left, he came to He Shan's cemetery alone. Snow had piled up on the tombstone, and the bouquet sent by whoever it was was frozen to death.

Xu Lisi sat beside the tombstone, leaning his head lightly on the tombstone, warm tears still overflowing from his eyes.

The last time she cried was on the day of the accident, after which Xu Lisi wanted to cry countless times but couldn't cry.

The soft snowflakes seemed to bend his spine, Hules' cry was silent and expressionless, and the liquid seemed to flow out of his lifeless eyes.

"If... I don't provoke you, will I..."

Xu Lisi regretted it, and regretted being too involved with He Shan. If it wasn't for him, his He Shan should still be alive. He didn't see different scenery every day, and he had a different mood every day. He could enjoy everything to the fullest. , instead of lying here by yourself.

This world seems to be so cruel, forcibly taking He Shan away from him, even his body decayed extremely quickly in this cold winter.

Xu Lisi left the cemetery, leaving a lonely bouquet of flowers, and left here with a mortal breath.

Since then, he has never been to the cemetery again, but put all his energy into work, and changed back to the unsmiling and cold-faced president before, but with a bit of decadence.

Two years had passed, and Secretary Yu began to wonder why there was a desk opposite his office area.

Secretary Yu often watered the white calamus on that table, looking at the lush leaves and empty seats, his heart ached, but he was full of doubts.

Was someone sitting here before?

Secretary Yu shook his head, put down the small watering can in his hand and started working again.

Xu Lisi only got off work in the middle of the night. When he left, he subconsciously looked at the empty workstation over there. It seemed that there was a man sitting there looking at him and smiling, but when he came back to his senses, he found that there was nothing there.

Xu Lisi loosened his tie, rubbed his eyebrows irritably, and left here.

"I am back!"

Subconsciously speaking to the empty room, Xu Lisi opened a bottle of wine and sat on the sofa drinking silently.

Have I forgotten something, I always feel that something is missing, the feeling of suffocation and sadness is always buried in a corner of my heart, and it hits my nerves inadvertently.

He must be sick...

The effect of alcohol came up soon, and Xu Lisi tidied his neckline and hair with some anticipation, his face was rosy from the alcohol, and a blurry figure appeared in his trance vision.

Xu Lisi knelt on the sofa, obediently lying on the back of the sofa, watching the man busy at the dining table and the kitchen.

He seemed to turn his head to look at Xu Lisi, and spoke with intimacy.

"Hulles, do you want some fish soup?"

OK!Drink fish soup.

"Hulles, are you secretly filming me again?"

No candid shots, just an aboveboard look.

"Hulles, don't make trouble in the kitchen!"

Don't make trouble, just want to help you.

Alcohol made Xu Lisi drowsy, but he always tried to keep his eyes open and look at the blurry figure.

If you close your eyes, it will disappear, you can't get close to him, you can't answer him, he will disappear, if you disappear, it will be very difficult to see him again.

But in the end, he still couldn't hold on, and fell down on the sofa, but the man in the sleepy eyes seemed to pat his head and covered himself with a quilt.

When he woke up the next day, Xu Lisi saw the blanket on his body, and a thought came to his mind.

Could it be him?

But the nanny's voice sounded behind him.

"Master, you're awake, did I wake you up by covering you with a blanket?"

Xu Lisi laughed at himself, waved at the nanny, and went upstairs to his room.

I am 31 this year, and I clearly say that a man has 31 flowers, but I don’t look good in the mirror no matter what, what kind of person does that person like?

Should not like myself!He looks very young, has a good figure, and can cook. How can he like himself like this?

Xu Lisi looked at the bloodshot eyes and felt that he was very annoying. Why did he feel so uncomfortable?

He clenched his fist and beat his chest, but the depression rushed towards him like a huge wave.

Xu Lisi had no choice. He used all his connections but failed to find the man. He could only attribute all the reasons to himself. He made an appointment with a psychiatrist.

Just on the way to the hospital, Xu Lisi saw a movie theater, and a movie was pushed on the advertising screen of the movie theater.

"The classic "Valley of Love" continues"

Xu Lisi looked at the movie theater and spoke slowly.

"which movie is this?"

The driver who was driving also turned his head to look, a little surprised that the president would ask about the movie.

"This is a movie released two years ago. It seems to have a high box office. This seems to be the second one. Today is the premiere."

Xu Lisi looked at the movie theater and asked the driver to stop. He walked into the movie theater alone and booked a ticket by mistake.

Standing in the crowd in a suit, he stood out very conspicuously. He was like a lost child, with his fingers moving, he could only follow the crowd.

Instead of going to the hospital, he watched a romantic movie in the cinema, which was a tragedy.

"I would like to pay homage to my dead lover with this film"

The film ends with a monologue interrupted by a voice.

"Excuse me, did you come here to see the first part of this movie two years ago?"

The voices of two girls in their twenties came from beside them. Xu Lisi looked at them blankly, and one of the girls whispered something in the ear of the other.

The eyes of the two became more determined. Seeing that Xu Lisi didn't answer, one of the girls took out a photo.

"I'm a detective. I can recognize you. I accidentally took a photo of you before. I'm really sorry."

Xu Lisi did not speak, but just took the photo handed over by the girl.

The memory was recovering, and Xu Lisi saw He Shan's appearance. Under the surprised eyes of the two girls, he clung to the last straw.

"Thank you! Do you have any negatives?"

The girl shook her head, saying that at the end of the year, she suddenly disappeared for some reason.

Xu Lisi finally took the photo and left, got in the car, and asked the driver to take him home, the home of himself and He Shan.

This is the third time he has remembered He Shan, and he will continue to forget in a short time, but it's okay...

He Shan, you see, no matter how long, no matter how many times, I will always think of you. Everyone who has hurt you will die, and now I am the only one left.

He Shan, you have to keep looking at me.

Jiang Runyu stayed in the mental hospital, and his bipolar disorder was worse than before. He started to lose his mind. He forgot a very important person, but he couldn't remember it no matter how hard he tried.

He'd yell sometimes because there was news about Hullies on the TV, and he'd throw all kinds of things at the TV, and he'd gone mad.

Bai Ziqing had a leg broken by Jiang Runyu, and because of untimely medical treatment, she could only live on her feet in this life. Now she is still in prison. The police found out that she monitored the car's hands and feet. Bai Ziqing was sentenced to 15 years in prison.

Xu Lisi looked at He Shan in the photo and smiled.

Jiang Runyu was insane because his medicine was tampered with. It was the same kind of medicine that Jiang Runyu used to make his brother crazy. Bai Ziqing was taken care of in prison, and she would not survive to be released from prison.

He Shan, I am not a good person either, only you think I am a good person, then I am willing to be a good person, but now that you are gone, a good person can no longer be a good person.

When Xu Lisi was 37 years old, his hair was already graying. At the age of 38, Hu Lisi committed suicide in his apartment.

Xu Lisi's life was a bit short, but he couldn't hold on any longer. The repeated forgetting made him collapse. Gradually, he sometimes couldn't remember what He Shan looked like. This kind of life was hell for him, so He wants to be free.

Before he died, Xu Lisite had dressed himself up, he was afraid that He Shan would not like him.

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