[Comprehensive] Hello, Junko Fujiwara

Tachibana struggled to get out of her arms, Sunzi let go of her hand, and touched it only to find that piece of fur was very wet.

"I'm so sorry..." She picked up a tissue and gently wiped the water stains on Tachibana Tachibana, apologizing in a strong nasal voice.

Tachibana straightened up, with his front paws on her shoulders, he rubbed against Junko's neck like a comforting hug.The grievance and sadness in her heart suddenly eased a lot.Although Shunzi still had tears in her eyes, seeing this orange cat trying to comfort her, she felt much better than before.

Holding Tachibana Taro in her arms, Sunja picked up the letter paper on the ground and continued to look down.This letter was written when Shunzi was five years old, and probably sent all the way from Japan to Paris.

Shigeru Fujiwara and Toko Fujiwara mentioned in the letter are cousins ​​of my uncle. According to seniority, Junko should call them cousin and aunt.Grandpa went to Tokyo to work hard when he was young, and made a fortune in middle age and settled in the beautiful Kamakura. Since then, the contact with relatives has gradually decreased.But Shunzi still saw them, at her grandmother's funeral.Although the memory is not clear, but it is probably a very gentle person.

That summer, because of various things, the battered mother couldn't spare time to go back to Japan, and the most serious problem was Sayaka's problem.The child who has just turned two years old is weak, often falls ill, and has been found to be autistic.Ximen Chie, who just came out of the shadow of her previous marriage, once again fell into a life crisis.

Ximen's family also took the opportunity to put pressure on her, using various means to coerce and lure her to leave Ximen Ken'er, which caused a lot of stumbling blocks in her career, which made it difficult for Ximen Chie, who had just emerged in the European painting circle.I don't know what Ximen Kenji talked about with his brother who has become the head of the family, but the Ximen chaebol finally made a concession.

The price is to eliminate the existence of Fujiwara Junko.

In the news that the uncle revealed to the grandmother, the arrogant Ximen Zaibatsu could not tolerate the "stain" of Fujiwara Junko.They can let the well-known Ximen Qiane wear a feather woven with Ximen's family crest, and they are also willing to hold a big wedding to show the aura of the wealthy family, and by the way, make Ximen Kenji famous in all walks of life.However, the premise is that the bride must be a perfect woman who is "pure and without any blemishes".

There cannot be any possibility of damage to the reputation of political plutocrats and tea ceremony families for hundreds of years.

The uncle's suggestion was to let Fujiwara Toko and his wife adopt Junko.They live in the countryside of Kumamoto Prefecture, with a wealthy family, kind hearts, and more importantly, no children.

Ximen Chie rejected the suggestion.

But the reality is not so optimistic.Both she and her husband wanted to find the best doctor to treat Sayaka, but it was simply impossible for the two of them to do so at the time, and to let Ximen's family intervene, their request must be fulfilled.

The grandmother wrote a letter to the mother's daughter, earnestly persuading her.Knowing daughter is like mother, if mother is really unmoved, why does grandma need to do so much?In the last sentence, grandma wrote: Sayaka is your daughter, and so is Shunzi.I will raise her.

I will raise her... Sunja sniffed, trying to hold back the tears that wanted to roll out of her eyes.When everyone regarded her as a burden, grandma never thought of giving up on herself.

Sophon once mentioned this matter when he complained that his father was biased and lost his temper at Sunja. "Why didn't Dad send you to the country..." The uncle told her to shut up with a livid face when he heard this, and locked Tomoko in the bedroom for a whole day.At that time, Shunzi thought it was Sophon's unscrupulous words, but she didn't expect to find out the truth until today.

Carefully replacing the paper in its place, she turned to the next page in the album.Six-year-old Shunzi, eight-year-old Shunzi, 13-year-old... Turning to the last page, her eyes widened in surprise.There was a whole page of photos of herself that she had never seen before.

In the summer when I was 15, I took a cover photo for a magazine.The girl by the sea was wearing a sun hat with a wide brim, a strand of broken hair playfully sticking to the corner of her eyes.The wind was blowing hard, and she pressed the brim of the hat with one hand, while the other hand naturally hung on her waist.Wearing a bohemian dress that reaches to her ankles, she smiles very brightly at the camera, her teeth are neat and white, her eyebrows are stretched, and the sun is shining brightly, as if she has the magical power to heal people's hearts.She smiled really beautifully, and no one could ignore this girl with bright eyes and white teeth shining all over her body.

is it really me?She was inexplicably suspicious. Some of the characteristics of Junko Fujiwara in the photo were completely highlighted.There are obviously other people beside her, but as long as they see this picture, their eyes will definitely focus on her.

It turned out that my mother was still paying attention to me.Her finger brushed her face in the photo, which was obviously something to be happy about, but her heart was empty.Thinking about it carefully, when I was a child, I was trembling like walking on thin ice and finally got a reply, maybe it is something to be happy about.

It felt like shouting a word to the valley, and after many years, there was finally an echo.

But, now I have already changed.

Life is like running in a straight line, there is no way to turn back.Needing a certain thing at a certain stage is so important that no one can replace it. If a person gets it at that time, her whole life may be different.But after that period, others will make up for it in the future, no matter how many times it is, the utility will not be much.

Shunzi closed the photo album, ready to put it back into the carton.However, she suddenly saw a photo that had been torn out and re-pasted.Unlike the other photos, it is on the back side up. "...Heaven" is written in a vigorous masculine font, several words have been crossed out, and only the last word is barely recognizable.Shunzi took it out carefully, and turned it over nervously.

This is... a family portrait.She looked at the family in the photo carefully and almost greedily, that was her mother, and her... father whom she had never met.

He looks so handsome. Shunzi looked at the man whose outline was somewhat similar to his own. He hugged his wife and daughter, smiling so hard that his teeth could not see his eyes. There was still a boyish look in his eyebrows and eyes. Is it like this when you wake up?

She tried hard to recall, even though she knew there was no possibility, she still wanted to search for the shadow of this man in her memory.After a while, Shunzi laughed at herself, even she didn't know why she did such useless work.

Putting this photo on the album casually, she touched the cat under her hand repeatedly.Looking up, it was already twelve o'clock.However, Shunzi's mind was in a mess, and she didn't feel sleepy at all.She hugged the cat and started to be in a daze, memories from the past emerged in disorder.

Tachibana Tachibana fell asleep again at some point, snoring and falling asleep holding her wrist with his front paws.Holding the cat in her arms, Shunzi turned on the DVD player and turned off the lights in the living room.

Takeshi Kitano's masterpiece, a trip between hooligans and children, Junzi sat on the sofa and started watching "Summer of Kikujiro" again.

A middle-aged uncle who is ignorant, has nothing to do, has a small mind, loves to take advantage of petty advantages, and is full of scorn, but he doesn't want to see a child unhappy.

The two people sitting in the small station looked at the pattering raindrops under the dim street lamps, felt the night wind with steam and warm tide, and waited for the free car that would arrive in an unknown period of time.Shunzi stared at the screen, watching them meet all kinds of people, and the fun-filled summer.

A group of bored adults gathered together because of a small child.

But in the end, he no longer felt alone.

The movie repeats over and over again, and Shunzi can't help thinking of himself and his mother, thinking of his mother and grandma.What kind of feelings does she have for her mother?Is it love, hate, or resentment?

Thinking again of all the things I got along with my mother when I was a child, it was like looking at the past of a child named "Junko Fujiwara" as another person.The color of the picture fades away, leaving only desolate black and white, all emotions disappear, leaving only empty loneliness.

Already, there is no need to cry for them.

If you can't hold onto something, let it go.After a long time, Shunzi muttered to herself.

Sunlight slipped in from the balcony, and the hour hand pointed to six.Shunzi nestled on the sofa, raised her head in a trance, and couldn't help sighing, "It's dawn..." Tachibana was holding her by her side, still holding her wrist.

Renzu rushed over early, thinking of what happened last night, he felt an inexplicable worry.As it turns out, this worry is entirely valid.Seeing Shunzi's red eyes and bloodshot eyes, and "Kikujiro's Summer" still playing in the living room, he realized that the situation was more serious than he imagined.

"Have you finished your run?" Although he didn't sleep all night, Shunzi's spirit was not bad.Probably because some things finally figured out, instead of saying that it's okay, she couldn't let it go, and a big stone in her heart fell to the ground, and her mood was not too bad.

"Did you stay up late?" Renzu asked knowingly.I'm afraid it's not staying up late, but staying up all night.

"Sayaga gave me a photo album," she didn't hide anything, and pointed to the photo on the album with a calm face and told him, "That's my family portrait."

With a "thud" in his heart, he couldn't help but change his face.

"Can you accompany me to meet my mother?" Shunzi put the paper box back into the bag and rubbed her temples, "Sayaka probably took it out secretly."

"Go to sleep first." He looked at her haggard face and said worriedly.

"I have something to say to my mother," Shunzi shook her head, "I won't be able to sleep if I don't say it clearly."

After a year, the mother and daughter made an appointment at the same cafe.Yushi Ninzu was waiting outside the door with Tachibana in his arms, he didn't know if Sunja did it on purpose.For some reason, he always felt that she was saying goodbye to something.

Ximen Chie opened the door and went in, and saw her eldest daughter at a glance.Because I was too busy yesterday, I didn't have time to talk to her.However, after not seeing her for a few days, a certain change occurred in Shunzi's body. Although she couldn't explain it clearly, Ximen Chie, as a mother, was still very sensitive to this change.

The moment she saw her mother, many thoughts flashed through Sunja's mind.She originally wanted to ask her mother a lot of questions, and most importantly, she wanted to know, was Bai Rizhao's obliterated name her own?The father who has never met, gave himself the name Shunzi?If not, what is that name?

However, the moment he saw his mother, Shunzi suddenly felt that there was no need to ask.

This name meant nothing to Shunzi.In her life, the existence of her father has always been lacking, so why should she construct an image of a nihilistic father in her fantasy?After all, she was just not reconciled.

She used to really want to ask her mother, "Do you love me or not?" When she asked this question, she already had doubts.And doubts about this question actually meant that Shunzi already had the answer in her heart.

She loves me, but not that much either.

Shunzi pushed the paper bag in front of her mother, "This is my mother's stuff, I'm sorry I've seen it."

"You... don't you have anything to ask?" Ximen Qiane was stunned.Sayaka didn't hide anything, and confessed that she gave the photo album to her sister.Ximen Chie tossed and turned all night, she was ready for her eldest daughter to complain tearfully or hysterically, but she never expected that Shunzi would be so calm.

Calm down, like nothing to do with me.

"I don't have anything to ask." Shunzi smiled and shook her head, and asked a little embarrassedly, "Can I leave grandma's letter?"

Once again, it was beyond her expectation, Ximen Qianeben thought that the most important thing for Shunzi should be the family photo that was destroyed and glued again.

"Why worry about something that is useless." She smiled quietly, as if she was simply stating her point of view, but also seemed to have something in her words, "I don't need it anymore, mother."

She doesn't need compensation derived from guilt, and she doesn't need redundant explanations, just like a person who has been so hungry that his stomach hurts, he will always remember the pain that almost digested himself, this deep and profound feeling No amount of delicacies can eliminate the painful nightmare that has entered the body and memory.

How much I hoped to get your attention and care. After countless disappointments, you saw me, but I no longer need it.

What if there is no mother and no father?She has the unconditional love of her grandmother, she has Heizi Tetsuya who has accompanied her since she was a child, and she has a boyfriend who is very obedient and affectionate to her, and the friends around her are also kind and gentle people.

I'm not strong enough to reconcile with the past, maybe I won't be able to do it in my life.After all, Fujiwara Junko is a timid and crying girl.She is weak and small, and will never be the perfect child in Ximen Chie's mind.So, she finally learned one thing.

I want to live for myself.Work hard to complete the goals agreed with grandma

I still know how to draw, but not because I look forward to my mother and win her admiration, but because I like it.

Everyone has his own way to go, and there is no need for people to be considerate of each other.

"Goodbye, Mother." Shunzi said goodbye to her with squinted eyes, "Thank you."

Thank you for giving birth to me.

Here, the smile in her eyes deepened, and I was finally able to say goodbye to my old self.

Walking out of the cafe, Shunzi took a deep breath and exhaled again, as if she had been lurking in the deep sea for a long time, and finally came out of the sea.

"What are you going to do in the few days when I return to Kanagawa?" Ninja put his arms around her shoulders, feeling inexplicably worried.

"I want to go to Kumamoto Prefecture." Sunja looked up, looking at the clouds floating in the blue sky like silk in the summer morning.

The countryside of Kumamoto must be a beautiful place.