[Comprehensive] Hello, Junko Fujiwara

It's all over, Shunzi told himself countless times, the current self is just as good.

"For such a long life, if you have something, you can't get it," she said with a faint smile on her brows, "It's good to think about it."

Parents are shallow, and there is no way.With an excellent girl like Sayaka in front of her, it is only natural that ordinary Shunzi be ignored.

Are you really thinking about it?Renzu looked into her eyes, trying to see what Shunzi was really thinking.She lowered her eyelashes, avoiding his eyes.

Wanting to cover up, Ninzu Yushi looked away and sighed secretly in his heart.His father Ren Zuyingshi and his mother have a very close relationship, and his childhood without parents, he simply imagined it and knew how difficult it was.Perhaps the melancholy and fragility in Shunzi's character also comes from this.

"It's not as bad as you think," she laughed dumbfounded seeing his expression, "Mother is very good to me." She tried her best to make up for Shunzi, but she didn't know how to get along with her eldest daughter.

Shunzi actually didn't know how to describe her relationship with her mother Fujiwara Chie.As she got older, she gradually began to understand each other, but many things, even understanding was useless.

The failed marriage with Shunko's father was the biggest setback Chie Fujiwara encountered in the first half of her life.Shunzi only pieced together a brief story from the few words her grandmother said.Obviously, it wasn't a happy memory for the mother.

The two fell in love at first sight, and the love came vigorously.Fujiwara Chie and him fell in love for three months and decided to get married regardless of family opposition.When Shunzi was born, she had just passed her 21st birthday and hadn't graduated from university.However, Shunzi was not yet half a year old, and her husband moved on.Although she still maintains the image of a cold and proud talented painter on the surface, the failed love really hurt her, and she was in pain.For nearly three months, Chie Fujiwara locked herself in the studio every day, drawing crazily.All her materials during that time were taken from Japanese legends of gods and monsters.The desperation and madness suppressed in the bottom of my heart can be seen from the hazy and gloomy Japanese paintings.That series of paintings created an extremely crazy and terrifying world of the undead, and the collection of paintings was called "Sura's Flower".This collection of paintings full of Japanese mysterious and hazy colors not only made Fujiwara Chie officially enter the painting circle, but also gave her some international reputation and the opportunity to go to France to study with contemporary oil painting masters.

One-year-old Shunzi was left in China by her mother who was eager to get rid of her emotional injury, and lived with her grandmother in her hometown in Kamakura.Although Shunzi looks more like her mother, her innocent and ignorant traits are more inherited from her father.Shunzi has been well-behaved since she was a child, never crying or making trouble, and her innocent smile looks like a heartless ex-husband in the eyes of Chie Fujiwara.Seeing her innocent and ignorant daughter, she can't help but think of her husband, and her heart is more painful.The arrogant Fujiwara Chie couldn't bear it a little bit, so she left her daughter in China and went to France alone.

During the two years of studying in France, she met her current husband Ximen Kenji.How they know each other and fall in love, Shunzi has no idea.She is still too young, and the only concept of time, apart from worshiping the shrine on the first day of the new year, is the arrival of Fujiwara Chie.A year passed after her mother came to see her twice.

On the blue seaside of Kamakura, accompanied by white fine sand and colorful shells, she grew up to five years old.Even though she doesn't see her mother much, Sunja still misses her uncontrollably.The opportunity to meet twice a year is her happiest day.

She vaguely remembered a certain night in that summer.The weather is fine, to be exact, summer in Kamakura has always been beautiful.

"Why didn't you come this year?" Shunzi sat on the porch, ignoring the twinkling fireflies in the courtyard, and tugged on her grandma's sleeves whether she wanted to cry or not, "Summer is definitely here."

What did grandma say at that time?Probably, you are going to have a younger sister... or something like that.Grandma protected her so well, she was as clean as a piece of white paper, and she didn't even know what it meant to divorce her parents.

Due to various reasons, the mother who changed her surname to Ximen Chie did not return to Japan.The following summer, six-year-old Sunja boarded a plane to France alone.With an "unaccompanied" sign around his neck, he traveled from Tokyo to Paris to meet his long-awaited sister named "Sayaka" and his mother whom he hadn't seen for a year.The dullness and boredom of more than nine hours were all survived by this expectation.

Although she got her wish and lived with her mother, Sunja still didn't get much attention.Sayaka is frail and tends to be autistic.The couple broke their hearts for this daughter.And at this time, Shunzi's existence was extremely embarrassing.Ximen Kenji was very kind to her and fulfilled the responsibilities of a stepfather.However, Shunzi did realize that treating Sayaka was different from treating her.His mother's indifferent expression when facing him, and the gentle expression of Yusa Kaji, seem to be the opposite of each other.Even though she knew she had to be courteous to her younger sister, she still felt sad in her heart.However, she was too docile, not like a six-year-old child. Whether it was Ximen Kenji or Ximen Chie, they ignored the real emotions behind her cute mask.

In this way, winter came and went, until Shunzi set off from his uncle's house to Paris at the age of nine, returned to Japan after staying for half a month, and returned to Kamakura for the remaining half month of summer vacation to accompany his grandmother.

The initial expectations and illusions are shattered, but only a moment.When Shunzi was playing with Sayaka, she saw her smile, and couldn't wait to run to her mother to announce the good news, but she heard a conversation that was enough to make her despair.

"It's okay," she heard her stepfather comforting her crying mother, "Sayaka is fine anyway."

"No matter what she is, she is our only and most precious daughter."

Shunzi heard her mother's vague answer, and suddenly felt that the surroundings were very cold, so cold that she wanted to cry.Although she was young, she also knew that this sentence opened a long and insurmountable gap between her and her mother's family.

At that moment, she suddenly missed the dazzling blue sea of ​​Kamakura, the white clouds in the sky like silk flocks, and the green plum tree that had been planted in the yard for many years. Ome.

She missed the time when she could lie on the outer edge and cry secretly, and her grandma would touch her face and laugh at her. She missed her grandma.

This is mother's house, but not Sunja's.

She secretly called her grandma, sobbing and trying to express her thoughts, over and over again, but only those four words-I want to go home.

Running around barefoot on the beach without any image, eating watermelon in the summer night with red juice all over his face, wearing a beautiful yukata to participate in the firework festival, and making green plum wine with his grandmother.You don't have to worry about your actions not meeting your mother's standards, you don't have to carefully hide your emotions, you don't have to work hard every day to learn how to draw and you still have to face your mother's occasional disappointed eyes.

Ximen Sayaka has shown talent in piano since he was five years old, and it took him less than a year to far surpass Shunzi.Her autistic tendency gradually improved, and Ximen Chie devoted most of her energy to her second daughter after painting.Shunzi, who has ordinary talent and personality, is naturally ignored.Shunzi went to Paris less and less, and she still had little communication with Ximen Chie, and the once-a-week phone call ended in just a few minutes.But she has not been forgotten, maybe she also knows that she has neglected this daughter, Ximen Chie tried her best to compensate Shunzi materially.In addition to the inexhaustible pocket money and the requirement of getting what you want, she will send a lot of the latest clothes, toys, and accessories every year.Although Tomoko Fujiwara picked out most of them first, Shunzi still couldn't finish wearing them.

Just like this, Shunzi also grew up.

Shunzi could indeed understand her mother, but that didn't mean that there was no resentment in her heart.

"Will you be afraid?" Ren Zuzu, who had been silent all this time, suddenly asked her, "About falling in love and getting married."

Sunlight shone on Shunzi's side face, half of her face was hidden in the shadows, when she blinked, her long and thick eyelashes seemed to fly away, and her tone was slightly careless, like a kind of indifference from outside the matter.

"I will," Shunja admits straightforwardly, "every time I fall in love, I want to get more from the other party, and I dare not give too much. I always worry about gains and losses, and I am afraid that no one will need me."

She half closed her eyes, all the emotions settled down, and she was unexpectedly calm and rational.After staring at her with patience, she realized that her understanding of herself was so clear and cold.So the paradox of people is that even if Sunja knows all her flaws, it's hard for her to change.

She needs to be needed by her friends, so try her best to meet all the demands of the people around her, even if the other party's demands are not reasonable.She is afraid of giving too much, but she can't help but want to give everything to hold the person she likes.She wants to get enough security from the other party, but she is afraid to make any demands on her lover.However, once you feel that you can't continue, you are more straightforward than anyone else when you cut off contact.

Fragile and strong, a girl full of contradictions in her personality.Her figure is thin and thin, but she is strong enough.

Ninja Yuuji suddenly wanted to hug her.He let go of Sunja's hand, and stood up.She blinked before realizing that both of them had ignored the matter.

"What's the matter..." She looked up at Renzu with a serious expression, and was startled by his sudden hug.

"Although I know it's useless," Ren Zu put his hands lightly around her shoulders, and the voice in his ear was gentle and peaceful, "I still want to comfort you."

Somewhere in her heart started to burn, Shunja closed her eyes and pressed her forehead against his shoulder, "Thank you."

Before her eyes, the summer of Kamakura and the gentle sea appeared again.