Who doesn't deserve it

The living room of the apartment has not been used well, because I live alone, and there is no need to sit idle in the living room.

But today the room is lively, and it is no longer the figure of myself alone after returning. The three of them are sitting on the sofa under the light, and a tired bird is perched on the balcony railing outside, without making any noise. There was a dead silence.

Yi Chen's appearance has changed. After these years, he can't always be exactly the same as before. Ning Yu has also changed. From the inside to the outside, the difference in temperament makes Yi Chen dare not recognize it. His temperament has become much sharper, isn't it? The softness in my arms before.

His pupils were filled with endless grayness.

"I didn't betray you. I explained it to you. You don't believe me." Yi Chen said that after the incident happened, he couldn't see Ning Yu for a while. Ning Yu himself didn't want to see him, anyway he missed the best time, and when they met unexpectedly later, Yi Chen's explanation only got Ning Yu a slash.

At that time... Ning Yu was already in college.

There are a lot of fresh faces around him, a lot of kids from rich families, and the young masters are holding him in their hands. The figure in the nightclub completely overturned the well-behaved and gentle boy in Yi Chen's impression. Yu lifted the fruit knife on the dinner plate on the table, with calm eyes, stabbed the knife into Yi Chen's chest coldly.

His appearance at that time was so eerie, it became Yi Chen's lingering nightmare all these years.

Ning Yu lowered her head and propped her forehead with both hands, feeling dejected and powerless.

He thought about the explanation Yi Chen gave at the beginning, he said he was framed, just this sentence?How could Ning Yu believe him?Framed?He said he was framed?How could there be so many frame-ups and misunderstandings in the world? He couldn't bear to listen to it. In that state, he just wanted to stab him to death. His heart died that night. What's the use of explaining?

"I never go to that kind of place, you know," Yi Chen looked at him, he knew that he was sad now, Yi Chen's voice was as gentle as possible, "But I can't see you, I will give you Texting, calling, I can't find you, four days, I thought... you don't want to contact me anymore, or want to break up, I went to a nightclub that night, I drank a few bottles of wine by myself, I don't know the wine What's in it, the behavior that happened after that...you see, sorry, I can't control myself."

Yi Chen closed his eyes deeply, thinking about the night a few years ago, he didn't chase him out in time, he didn't give him a timely explanation, he didn't know what happened, and even Ning Yu stood in front of him, he thought If he didn't come out, he lost his mind.

"Why did you come to tell me now?" Ning Yu finally spoke out, his voice lacked any warmth, the scene that night was his nightmare, he tried hard to forget it for so many years, but it only became clearer and clearer.

"I didn't want to disturb your current life. Your father is Ning Bolei. I can't afford to offend him." Yi Chen paused: "Ning Ning, these few years... I have thought a lot, I think we are That's it, is it like this for two people who love each other? I can't forget you, I've never liked someone so much, but my slip of the foot has caused you great harm, I don't want to live in guilt forever, and I don't want you to live in the shadows all the time, so I came to you, I don't want you to forgive me, I just want a chance to make up for it."

Yi Chen picked up the scissors on the table and stuffed them into Ning Yu's hands. Ning Yu's fingers were cold, but his body temperature was terribly cold on such a hot day, "As long as you feel better, you can give me another knife. Not wanting to defend myself, I ruined our relationship."

Lu Cong stared at the two, they were attached to each other, the picture was not harmonious, but there was deep affection.

Ning Yu didn't move, he clenched the pair of scissors tightly. After so long, he grew up, and his mentality has also undergone a huge change. He will not stab someone in the chest and want their life.

"I'll do it myself." Yi Chen grabbed his hand and wanted to stab him in the heart. Ning Yu was startled and quickly stopped his hand. The scissors rubbed against Yi Chen's clothes, almost cutting him flesh and blood.

Ning Yu closed her eyes, and there were tiny tears in the corners of her eyes.

Yi Chen stood up and pulled him into his arms. Ning Yu stuck to his clothes. He owed him this hug for a long time...

Lu Cong winked. He knew it was none of his business here. He raised his hand and turned the doorknob. Looking at the two people embracing in the room, he turned his head and walked out of the small apartment.

A car was parked outside the community, and Lu Cong opened the door and got in.

Su Xing sat in the driver's seat. He looked at Lu Cong without starting the car, and said in a deep voice, "He is more terrifying than Gu Ming."

Lu Cong remained silent.

Su Xing continued: "Ning Yu loves him deeply."

Lu Cong put his hands behind his head, unable to hear his emotions: "It doesn't matter."

Lu Cong was most afraid that Ning Yu would be devoted to someone, and now he dared to bring Yi Chen to him, Su Xing actually didn't understand, this person is more deep-rooted than Gu Ming, obviously.

But Lu Cong looked bored, he didn't say much, and drove the car away, away from this place of right and wrong.

Ning Yu couldn't fall asleep that night, Yi Chen was by his side, telling him about the right and wrong he had experienced in these years, the most he said was apologizing, and when he talked about other things, he always mentioned the business in a few words, so he had to tell him Ning Yu apologized.

"... We were supposed to be admitted to the same university, right?" Yi Chen leaned against the edge of the bed, and Ning Yu slept on the bed. In the middle of the night, they cuddled together and recalled their dreams: "Foreign Languages ​​College, I didn't pass the exam. I can only go to another school, but luckily it’s not far from you, how did we agree at the time? We’ll go out to play on weekends, go to the mountains and rivers, and record more of our moments.”

Yi Chen folded his hands together, and his eyes were full of distance: "I also bought a camera with better performance. I think I will go to more places in the future and take more pictures. By then, we will travel more than half of the world. Earth, go to a farther place, in the future we will make a collection of photos and show them to our children."

Ning Yu was lying on his side, his hands were put together, his chin was hidden in the quilt, and he covered himself tightly.

Yi Chen is talking about the dreams of the two of them in the past. They have many plans and many unfinished adventures. They both think that the time of love will be very long, and they have arranged for the rest of their lives.

"I actually dare not come to see you this time," Yi Chen turned his head and met Ning Yu's eyes. He was finally able to look directly at his eyebrows. At this moment, his eyebrows matched those in his memory. Yi Chen Looking at him obsessively: "I know you must still hate me, or after so many years, you may have a new life, should I bother you again?"

Ning Yu lay quietly, listening carefully.

"I came here on an adventure, I think, if you hate me, give me another knife, as my apology, as long as you feel comfortable, if you are willing to accept me," Yi Chen squeezed his hands: "Then I am very grateful, I can still love you, nothing is more important than that."

They had a lot of problems because of the lack of communication. He bumped into the radical Ning Yu's blade back then, and now he is lying here, and he has been able to calm down and listen to him. This is Ning Yu's growth, 24 years old and 19 years old. Yes there is a big difference.

"In the past two years, my life has been very difficult," Yi Chen said of himself, with a bitter smile, "I have been thinking, should I die, I hurt my most important People, I personally ruined what should have been a beautiful future, I and yours were ruined by my own hands, I am unforgivable, I don’t know what to do, all satisfaction is regret.”

People live in regret and guilt all their lives, life cannot see the sun, the past binds the future, Yi Chen can see the distance at a glance, without Ning Yu, it is not worth looking forward to, he does not want to go to those distant places where dreams are broken.

"Later I figured it out, even if I die, I should see you before I die," Yi Chen said, "That's considered death without regrets."

His voice was so resolute, as if he was not afraid of death, just afraid that he would not be able to see him again.

The boy he fell in love with at the first sight was lying in front of him, his eyebrows were exactly the same as in memory, Yi Chen really wanted to reach out and touch his eyebrows, but he restrained himself.

And here in Ning Yu, Yi Chen is not what he remembered.

That clean and fresh boy, that warm and sunny boy, became more and more depressed. His hair grew long and pressed down to his neck, and the hair on his temples was also a little messy. His skin was also much darker. The sun is not repaired, he is not like 24 years old, he is more like a man in his 30s who has gone through vicissitudes.

Yi Chen looked at him affectionately, as if this could last forever, they didn't need too many words, it seemed enough to look at each other like this, just like that year in the library, neither of them spoke, they looked at the book, and then They looked at each other at the same time, and took note of each other's facial features.

They listen to the same song, and the earphones are plugged into their ears. The distance between them cannot exceed two meters, and they can hug each other with their arms outstretched. The hands overlapped, and the palms conveyed the temperature of each other's skin.

Some people's love is vigorous, and some people's love is hidden in the darkness, and the light cannot be seen.They are not inferior to any couple, their enthusiasm belongs to each other, they don't need others' envy and appreciation, that love blossoms in the corner of youth, the more cautious, the more fanatical.

They looked at each other for a long time in the dark under the moonlight. Ning Yu stretched out her hand and touched his eyebrows and nose. During this long listening, she said softly, "You have changed."

Yi Chen smiled slightly, held Ning Yu's wrist, and said, "You've become ugly."

This stroking was a benign signal. Yi Chen followed his arm and touched Ning Yu's face. He finally got his wish all these years and was able to touch the eyebrows of his beloved.

so beautiful.

as before.

That night, Yi Chen kissed his cheek, and Ning Yu agreed, and also agreed to meet five years later, his tears fell on his face.