Who doesn't deserve it

Well, this is really suppressed.

Ning Yu got down from Gu Ming's body and picked up one of the hats. There was a smile on his lips, like a satisfied customer who had gone whoring. Gu Ming's performance was very good.

"I'm going to wash my hat." Ning Yu said, "You sit for a while."

They had just finished a passionate kiss, and they didn't feel embarrassed when they separated suddenly. Ning Yu took the hat and went to the kitchen, turned on the faucet, and cleaned the dust on it.

Gu Ming sat disobediently, he followed in and stood beside the kitchen.

He hasn't felt this way for a long time. Looking at Ning Yu's figure walking around the house, the stable life has gone away from him. This small house is not their home, but Gu Ming's heart has been left here.

Ning Yu looked back at him, didn't speak, and continued to wash the dust off the hat.

"What are you going to do?" Gu Ming asked.

"What should I do?" Ning Yu focused on two things.

"Harassing your boss," Gu Ming said, "Do you want me to warn him?"

He had to ask about this matter, he didn't dare to mess around, that was Ning Yu's place of work, Gu Ming messed around, what would he do if the other party put on small shoes for Ning Yu in the future, although he had already thought of many ways to solve the other party.

"No need," Ning Yu wasn't afraid at all, he turned off the tap, walked out of the kitchen, followed by Gu Ming, Ning Yu walked back to the bedroom, "I can handle it myself, besides...you warned me today Is it? He should settle down for a while."

Ning Yu hung his hat on the hanger on the balcony, the evening sunlight was not strong, and it hit his cold face.

"You also said that it's been a while. It's best to solve this kind of thing once." Gu Ming stood by the edge of the bed in the room, looking at the people who walked in. "Otherwise, when will the next time be? Where will it be?"

Ning Yu looked up at him, Gu Ming's little expression was very telling, "It's okay, I'm not afraid of him."

"You don't have to be afraid of him, but he has to be afraid of you." Gu Ming came to Ning Yu's side, Ning Yu was arranging the clothes on the bed, Gu Ming was helping, put the clothes into a clean cabinet, and stood aside Make the bed with Ning Yu, "I'll take care of this."

Ning Yu was packing the pillowcase, and he was rubbing the light blue pillowcase in his hands. He lowered his head and fiddled with it, and said indifferently, "What do you want to do?"

Gu Ming pretended to be another, "Take him to dinner."

Ning Yu looked up at him, the scene was very harmonious.

Gu Ming carefully fiddled with the pillow in his hand, his eyebrows were sharp, and he was just doing an ordinary little thing, which made people feel excited. In the past, Ning Yu liked to observe him like this, observing every little expression on Gu Ming's face , but time has passed, and the mentality is different.

Listening to Gu Ming's words, Ning Yu knew that what he was talking about was not just about eating, but about what to do during the meal, such as threats, warnings, etc., so that the other party would not dare to have a next time.

Ning Yu thought it was not feasible after thinking about it, so he rejected the proposal.

"You don't need to intervene, I can settle this matter, and you are far away, so what if you give him a warning? If someone is in a hurry and he gives me small shoes to wear in the company, then I will have a bad life pass."

Gu Ming raised his head: "Are you underestimating me?"

Ning Yu smiled: "No, it's just that you really don't need to intervene in this matter. Believe me, I can settle it."

Gu Ming sighed, put the packed pillow aside, and put on the quilt together with Ning Yu, it was not cold, the quilt was not too heavy, and it was easy to pack.

After making the bed, they went to pack other things. Ning Yu didn't have many things, so it was done in a short while, and it's no problem to move in now.

"What's missing is to make a list. I'll send it to you tomorrow." Gu Ming looked around and said.

Ning Yu couldn't think of it for the time being: "It should be nothing. If there is anything missing on weekends, I can just take it home."

Gu Ming turned his head, the conversation between the two of them ended, he looked at Ning Yu, the little figure sitting in the sofa chair, his brows softened again.

He has a lot of things to say, but none of them can be said. Those words are too ambiguous and intimate, and there are some things that violate their contract that cannot be said, such as: Let's get back together.

Just when Gu Ming was hesitating, his cell phone rang. In the quiet bedroom, his ringtone was very noisy. Ning Yu looked over and was not curious about who was calling, but Gu Ming's cell phone ringtone, which he had set at the beginning "Making a plan".

What were they doing there?Oh, watch an American TV series.

It was snowing outside, Gu Ming didn't go out to work, stayed with him for a day at home, nestled on the bed, Gu Ming leaned against the head of the bed, and leaned against his arms, smiling from time to time, when this song came out, the beginning Ning Yu's heart was captured. At that time, he couldn't find the name of the song. Gu Ming tried many methods, and finally found this song in Du Niang by relying on the majority of netizens.

Later, it was set as the call tone of the two people's mobile phones.

No reason, because I like it.

Ning Yu didn't listen to the content of Gu Ming's phone call, the song was playing in his ears on a loop, and the pictures of us being together were looping in his head.

"I see, I'll be there right away." Gu Ming ended the call, Ning Yu looked at him, and Gu Ming said shyly to him: "Well... I might have to leave."

Ning Yu supported his head, didn't ask anything, nodded and said, "Yes."

He wrestled his thoughts from the memory.

Gu Ming didn't really want to leave, but he had to. In fact, he wanted to hear Ning Yu's persuasion, at least let him know that he needed him, but Ning Yu said yes, he didn't know what else to stay rhetoric.

Gu Ming explained with interest: "It's my friend's birthday today, and I promised him that he would come...I forgot." Gu Ming is deeply sorry for this.

"It's okay, let's go," Ning Yu stood up and said, "I'm going to sleep too."

Gu Ming said: "It's still early."

Ning Yu said: "It's getting late. I watched a movie and fell asleep after a while. After work, I always feel like I can't wake up. I go to bed early every night."

Gu Ming squeezed his fist, lifted the coat he had taken off on the sofa, and said, "Then...you should go to bed early."

Ning Yu nodded again.

He watched him go out, Gu Ming turned his head three times a step, as if parting from life to death.

Ning Yu breathed a sigh of relief when Gu Ming walked out completely, and stood outside the balcony with his hands propped on the guardrail, looking at the scenery downstairs.

Don’t reminisce when you’re free. Just after singing together, the pictures of the past will get into his mind uncontrollably, forcing him to think of the beautiful but bubble-like years.

What are he and Gu Ming now?

Does he still like Gu Ming?

Or... can he accept a life without Gu Ming?

Ning Yu lowered his head and didn't know what he was doing. He and Gu Ming didn't have much trouble, no betrayal and unforgivable feud, what they had was just troubles between lovers, so far, he can be sure that Gu Ming He no longer recklessly believes that Gu Ming likes someone else.

As he said, he once liked Wen Zhixing, but that was in the past, is he going to talk about the past?Before he met Gu Ming, he was on good terms with Yi Chen. If he hadn't betrayed him in the end, maybe he wouldn't have become what he is now.

Ning Yu held her forehead, the past has passed, and it is human beings who can't get over it, how to think, how to understand the past, and how to balance the present are the necessary abilities for every adult.

Are his ideas too radical?Maybe he should try again as Gu Ming said?Maybe the problem can be solved without avoiding it?Maybe……

Picking up the potted plant on one side, Ning Yu lowered his head, held the potted plant in his hands, and remained silent. Countless questions and answers floated in his mind. Gu Ming gave him the stability he wanted, and then what?Should he continue to ask Gu Ming for the stability, or change to another person, get to know each other by name, get along with each other for a long time, finally try to run a family, and then separate because of some conflicts in three views?

It's such a frustrating decision.

"Ningning..."

Ning Yu was sinking, when there was a panicked voice behind him, he suddenly turned his head and found Gu Ming standing in the room, out of breath.

His chest was heaving, as if he had run all the way up, Ning Yu looked at him blankly, not knowing what happened.

Gu Ming walked into the room and walked towards Ning Yu who was on the balcony step by step. His face was full of embarrassment, but when he saw Ning Yu's lonely figure, he was suddenly very grateful for his reckless decision to come back.

"Why are you back?" Ning Yu forgot to put down the potted plant in his hand, and he looked at Gu Ming in surprise.

Gu Ming, who walked to the balcony, lowered his eyes and took in the thin figure. He smiled at him, reached out his hand unconsciously to caress his cheek, and responded, "I'm not going."

Ning Yu asked in surprise, "Huh?"

Gu Ming rubbed his face, and said softly, "I told you I would accompany you."

Ning Yu wanted to put down the potted plant, but was blocked by Gu Ming's body, he held the potted plant stiffly, raised his head and said, "I... don't need your company, I'm going to sleep soon..."

"Then I'll wait for you to sleep before I leave."

Ning Yu suddenly didn't know what to say, he felt very strange, this was a small move, why did he feel a little hot in the eye sockets?Ning Yu looked around, broke through Gu Ming's body, and put the potted plant back to its original position. She didn't know what to say, so she turned her back to Gu Ming.

Gu Ming didn't know what was wrong with him, and wanted to see him, but Ning Yu meant to avoid him on purpose, he didn't see his face, Gu Ming said: "What's wrong with me?"

Ning Yu shook her head: "It has nothing to do with you."

Of course it had nothing to do with him, it was me, when I was making an important decision, that person came back suddenly and gave him an accurate answer, he was at a loss what to do.

It was a foul for Gu Ming to do this.

It can't be like this, it can't be like this, he didn't want to be sure of him, a person can still think rationally, it's different when he's here.

Gu Ming didn't know what happened to him, he thought he had harassed someone, he asked: "Is it because I shouldn't come back?"

Ning Yu didn't speak.

Gu Ming became more convinced, he explained: "I'm sorry, I just... want to stay with you for a while, I promise I will leave after you sleep, it's not easy for me to meet you, I came back halfway because I want..."

"It's not your problem." Ning Yu interrupted his self-blame, he was not in a high mood, it was also inexplicably affected by the environment, there is no family in the new house, only himself, Gu Ming will feel even more lonely when he leaves, he doesn't like it Living alone, Ning Yu adjusted her emotions, turned to Gu Ming and asked, "Are you really not going?"

Gu Ming said: "Let's come to the door tomorrow to make amends."

To accompany him?Because you want to spend more time with him?Not going to celebrate your friend's birthday?How can this 29-year-old man be so incapable of weighing the pros and cons.

Ning Yu didn't know whether to laugh or cry, he didn't know how to face him, he just worried: "Won't your friend be angry?"

Gu Ming put his hands on the guardrail, and said helplessly: "It should be, but it doesn't matter, I have done this kind of thing a lot."

Ning Yu knew it was a joke and didn't take it seriously. Gu Ming was very kind to his friend, although he didn't want to admit it.

Ning Yu asked: "Then... want to stay with me for a while?"

Gu Ming turned his head to look at this calmed face, and said frankly: "I said I would chase you, and staying with you for a while is to create one more opportunity for myself."

"Don't be so frank, okay?" Ning Yu blamed.The two people in front of the guardrail can reach out and touch each other. They used to be close, but now they have to consider whether it is appropriate to even touch when they stand here.

"Who is your friend who celebrated your birthday?" Ning Yu asked in the silence between the two of them.

Gu Ming said: "Students from high school, they used to play well, and they are one of the few friends who are still in touch."

"He's from high school, so I probably don't know him." Ning Yu, Gu Ming's former friend, didn't even know him very well.

"Others can, they often hang out together in high school," Gu Ming said, "If there is a chance, I will introduce you to each other?"

Ning Yu turned her head and looked over, Gu Ming's question is very meaningful, is there a chance?What kind of opportunity?Seeing friends must be something after getting back together.

"I'm afraid he doesn't like me." Ning Yu said, he had never said such a thing. In the past, Ning Yu didn't think he was bad, and maybe he wouldn't say it if he knew it. It's just that he has lived a new life these days. I have cut off contact with many people, and when my life is on the right track, I occasionally think about the past and feel that I am quite corrupt.

What he said was not so much that he was afraid that others would not like him, but rather his own voice over the years. He didn't like his former self very much.

Gu Ming didn't comfort him as expected, but just said: "Why do you care whether strangers like you or not? I brought you to know him, just to let you see what my former good friend looked like, there is no requirement that you have to be Let him like it, choosing you is my own business, it has nothing to do with anyone around me, and you don't need to care about the opinions of anyone around me."

Like he doesn't care who his dad is?

Ning Yu remembered that Gu Ming said that he couldn't afford to offend his Ning family, but he still stalked and harassed him, so it didn't matter who he was or how powerful his father was, it was just because he liked it.

Ning Yu suddenly understood that Gu Ming often behaved inexplicably, and he always couldn't figure it out before, why Gu Ming dared to provoke him when he knew he couldn't afford it, now he finally understood.

Ning Yu said: "But he is your friend, if we are together, I will associate with him."

"Okay, if you like him, or if you have a good communication, you are willing to associate with him, I have nothing to say, this is your freedom to make friends, but knowing that he doesn't like you, you will feel uncomfortable with him, I will Why do you want to see each other often?" Gu Ming said, "I'm not a dead person."

Ning Yu laughed: "Don't say such extreme things, you said I was extreme before."

"It has nothing to do with extremes, I think every relationship should be like this," Gu Ming said: "Isn't it making yourself uncomfortable if you let two people around you who don't deal with each other get along? You don't respect the other half, and you make your friends embarrassing .”

Ning Yu remained silent, he was thinking.

Gu Ming whispered: "Actually...you taught me this."

"Me?" Ning Yu asked unexpectedly.

Gu Ming said: "Well, you, I...didn't realize what was wrong before."

Ning Yu was confused until Gu Ming stared at him and said, "I broke up with Wen Zhixing."

Ning Yu turned her head back and cast her gaze on the passing cars downstairs again.

The atmosphere between them became serious.

"I'm sorry, there are problems in the relationship that makes it difficult for lovers. Before, I always felt that you were making a fuss out of a molehill and looking for trouble." Gu Ming smiled self-deprecatingly, "Because I explained to you, I don't like him anymore. But I was in the wrong direction. The person you once liked staying by your side is not very responsible for the other half. If you don’t mind, there is nothing to say, but my relationship with him makes you uncomfortable I should make a change."

Ning Yu didn't look at him: "Sorry, my request is too much, you don't have to take it seriously."

This sentence is not polite, it is serious. Afterwards, he seriously thought about whether what he did was too radical. If Lu Cong had not betrayed him, suppose, suppose he and Lu Cong were on good terms, but Gu Ming didn't like it. Lu Cong, if you want him to cut off the relationship with Lu Cong forever, can you do it yourself?

Ning Yu would be at a loss, and his answer was no.

Therefore, he shouldn't ask others to do so.

"It's not that you're asking too much, it's my previous words that forced you to go too far," Gu Ming said, "Ningning, let me tell you responsibly that there will be no possibility between Wen Zhixing and I, he has someone he loves." people, and I..."

Ning Yu's ears perked up.

He heard that sentence.

"I have people I love."

They seldom use the word love between them. They used to feel that they were unworthy. No matter how passionate their feelings are, they would never associate and use the word love hastily. Don't say who you love, at most say what you like, and coax the other party and yourself.

Love is something that they can’t come across, love is something that Ning Yu thinks he will never have in this life, love is something that Gu Ming thinks he has already lost, what was lost, what was never obtained, what is still in turmoil, is not called love , love is that you have experienced a lot of quarrels with him, you have seen his strengths and weaknesses clearly, and you have touched the bottom line by him, but you still remember it after you wake up, and you still want to continue to be involved with him.

Ning Yu doesn't understand herself, and so does Gu Ming.

It is true that they can live without anyone, and the quality of life will not decline. There will be another one to replace them, maybe better than the other party, but they cannot fill the regret and emptiness in their hearts.

You will spend countless nights in the future, fantasizing about the possibility that you are still together, what you are afraid of is what if, what if being with him is the best?What if they didn't deserve to end like this, what if they were happy?What if it's just this hurdle that hasn't been passed?

It's not the person I want in the bottom of my heart. To whomever, I will just constantly deny my current self.

Ning Yu didn't know why, suddenly a lot of topics and ideas popped up in his mind, he didn't know where to start, maybe it wasn't necessary.

"Are you really not going to participate?" Ning Yu said suddenly.

Gu Ming was still chatting with him about the problems between the two of them, but he didn't jump out.

Ning Yu explained: "If you don't go, your good friend will definitely be angry."

Gu Ming wanted to say something, but Ning Yu preempted him, "But if you go, you won't have the chance to spend more time with me."

Gu Ming knew that he had thought about it, and this was his answer after thinking about it.

Ning Yu did not accept this answer, he said: "I have a way to get the best of both worlds."

Gu Ming turned around, because Ning Yu was walking towards him.

Ning Yu's hand caressed Gu Ming's chest, along his collar, moved down along the neckline, his smile was bright and charming, and his eyes were full of lingering tenderness, "I'll go with you."