Who doesn't deserve it

When Ning Yu rushed to Ji Zhou's address, Ji Zhou himself did not show up. He waited for a long time, and even wondered if he had been let go?But soon he drove this idea out, he didn't think Ji Zhou would dare to do this.

He was about to call Ji Zhou, but the other party showed that he was on the phone, Ning Yu frowned, guessing what was going on.

Because he has been exposed too much, he can't even give the most basic trust, and conspiracy theories from time to time have become his normal state.

Ning Yu intends to give Ji Zhou another 5 minutes. If there is no news from him within 5 minutes, he will be able to make headlines tomorrow.

He didn't like this late-night game.

Ning Yu's waiting was lived up to, someone finally came, it was not Ji Zhou who asked him out, but Gu Ming.

Ning Yu was not surprised at all. He even put this possibility into his guess. Ji Zhou is Gu Ming's friend, and it is very likely that he is in collusion with him. He just thought of the worst outcome, but he did not expect it. The reality is indeed true. That's the worst possible outcome.

Ning Yu didn't know whether he should smile at him or keep a cold face, because he couldn't make an accurate expression, so he decided to just look at him calmly.

"Guess it's me, right?" Seeing his unsurprised expression, Gu Ming knew that the matter had been revealed, but he didn't feel it was a pity, he had already met someone, and that was the purpose.

"The one who still has a little hope, I think it might not be you." Ning Yu said dejectedly: "God is always not on my side."

Gu Ming stepped forward, the place for the date was a quiet coffee shop, there were not many people in the middle of the night, plus them, there were only three or four tables of customers, Ning Yu hadn't ordered anything yet, waiting for the person who invited him to order, Since Ji Zhou is not the master, then wait for Gu Ming's service.

Gu Ming was very considerate and ordered two glasses of latte.

Drinking coffee in the middle of the night is no good, but it's good to wake yourself up so that we can talk later.

"You have something to do with me," Ning Yu knew. The text messages and phone invitations these days all showed that Gu Ming wanted to see him: "It's not advisable to even take advantage of your friends."

"He's not a friend anymore, he's just a rival in love." Gu Ming located Ji Zhou's position. After Ji Zhou's thoughts were known, the two of them had no contact. Today is a special situation. He used Ji Zhou as a gun. make.

For other people's friends, Ning Yu doesn't have that much right to speak, let them collude, he doesn't say anything, waits for Gu Ming to start the topic, he invites him, there is always a lot to say.

Ning Yu couldn't guess, he didn't lie, he really didn't know what Gu Ming wanted to tell him, he felt that there was nothing more to talk about between them.

"Today's account is settled with me, and he was forced." Gu Ming didn't say how he forced Ji Zhou, and got straight to the point: "Are you avoiding me by not answering my calls or text messages these days? ?”

It's obvious to hide from him, but why, Gu Ming needs to know, they can't never meet each other, no one has such determination.

Ning Yu admitted simply, "I don't think we need to get in touch again." It's been so long since it's over, isn't his attitude clear enough?But Gu Ming, time and time again, he doesn't understand what he wants to do.

"Your attitude is clear, so I want to ask, do you want to never see me again?" Gu Ming asked directly. He hoped that this conversation would have some effect. People who have been circled out don't want to return empty-handed, at least they have to make a little progress.

They are in very bad shape right now.

"It's not that far, but it's about the same." Ning Yu seemed to be talking about homework, the most emotional time has passed, and it has been over for so long, if Gu Ming doesn't show up, he can hardly remember staying with him This is probably the love that has been washed away by time. Ning Yu said: "Since there is nothing between us, what reason is there to meet? Do you think we can still be friends? Do you like to be friends with your ex? Be friends?"

People who have truly loved can't be friends, they just haven't really loved, they just had a good time, how can they become friends without any scruples after breaking up?There must be a reaction, but the two of them insisted not to speak.

A lover is a lover, completely different from a friend.

"I didn't come here to be friends with you, nor just to meet you," Gu Ming looked at Ning Yu honestly, "There is only one reason, I want to continue with you."

Ning Yu raised his eyes, but he didn't see the playful expression on Gu Ming's face. He was very disappointed and asked in confusion, "You still like me?"

Gu Ming said: "There is no moment when I stop liking you." Even when arguing, impulsive, or with others, he never said that he didn't care about Ning Yu at all. His emotions were because of him, because of him. Can't let go, can't be open-minded, can't start with another person, and go on for a long time.

"I know what you are going to say again. You don't have to mock my feelings for you. No matter what you say or how you question, I will always be firm on one thing. I like you," Gu Ming's voice calmed down. It's enough for me to think clearly, if you mind, I won't see Wen Zhixing again, is that okay?"

This decision was unilaterally made by Gu Ming, he didn't tell Wen Zhixing, he was just using it to restrain himself, he would not take the initiative to find him, he would deliberately avoid him, in order to meet Ning Yu's request.

"I won't take the initiative to meet him, and I try not to go to any place where he is, but I can't completely draw a line with him, I mean..." Gu Ming's tone was a little anxious, he was afraid of the opposite party People misunderstood him again, "If he needs special help, I may not be able to turn a blind eye, but I promise, other than that, there will be no chance to meet in private, okay?"

He could have said things like never seeing each other, first to stabilize Ning Yu, and to push the result to the process he wanted, but he didn't do that. This was a big deal for Gu Ming, and he didn't want to mess with it. The means, telling lies, what he thinks in his heart, and what he will do, he has truthfully placed in front of Ning Yu, and since he said it, he made up his mind to do it.

But even though Gu Ming made concessions, Ning Yu still didn't let go of his promise. After hearing the result, he just remained silent. The petite person was sitting on the sofa, and the red leather sofa wrapped his thin body. Ning Yu looked at the coffee on the table. , the rising hot air drilled into the sky, Ning Yu's voice was clear and deep, "You misunderstood."

Gu Ming's heart became uneasy again, he became more and more unable to see through Ning Yu, and he couldn't understand what a misunderstanding is.

Ning Yu raised his eyes, his eyes were dull, without any hint of joy, he said: "It might have been his problem before, but now it's not, it's our own problem now, Gu Ming, I'm sorry to tell you, I It seems that... I don't like you anymore."

Whose hands under the table are tightening into fists, whose heartbeat is changing from high frequency to low rhythm.

Gu Ming didn't let go of any slight expression on Ning Yu's face, trying to expose him and say that sentence was a lie.

"You also said just now that we have ended for a long time. During such a long time, my dissatisfaction with you has disappeared a little bit. This is a good thing and a bad thing. Fortunately, I don't have to be sad anymore. The bad thing is that I am no longer I like you," Ning Yu turned to Gu Ming, who was observing him, and he also hoped that his attitude was clear enough, he looked straight into Gu Ming's eyes, "It wasn't peace before, I hope we break up peacefully this time."

"Do you have to force me?" Gu Ming's tone became more serious.

Ning Yu looked out the window, "I'm serious."

Gu Ming stared straight at him: "I'm serious too, look at me, Ning Yu."

He wasn't afraid to meet his gaze, he just didn't want to meet his arrogance, Ning Yu turned his head and met Gu Ming's eyes again.

Gu Ming supported the table, half of his body crossed the table, "I want all the most true thoughts in your heart, I don't want to miss you."

Before chasing and being chased, Gu Ming never said such heartfelt words of love. Now that he is honest, the person on the other side is full of lies. He doesn't understand why he is like this. He can deceive others, but Gu Ming cannot. Those three years were not fake, and they couldn't be easily erased. In those three years, even though Ning Yu had a false identity, he still had his true emotions that could not escape being exposed during the long-term relationship.

Gu Ming could tell the truth of what he said now, so he was angry.

"Be honest, Ning Yu, what do you think is not good enough, and where I need to improve, be more honest," Gu Ming humbled for the first time, his voice began to panic, "Is the method just mentioned not good? It is the way to deal with it." Is Wen Zhixing's method not enough? Then I don't meet him, never meet him, okay..."

"Gu Ming," Ning Yu called him, he felt that Gu Ming's emotions were a little agitated, and Ning Yu rarely saw him like this, but he would not soften his heart, the problem between him and him had already appeared, and took root. In Ning Yu's heart, in the thoughts of one person during this period of time, Ning Yu has already made a decision that will not be easily broken. He said: "I can't tolerate sand in my eyes, I'm stingy, it's not because of you that I'm still a fool." Not enough, even if Wen Zhixing is dead, if you kill him with your own hands, it will not solve the problem between us, because the problem is no longer with you, but with me! Do you understand that it is with me?"

Ning Yu's emotions were infected by Gu Ming, and she also started to go higher, "Didn't you hear it? The story of my first love with me, do you know why he was stabbed? It's because of the explanation, don't explain it to me, when The moment he betrayed me, no matter what he did, he couldn't save the relationship. I won't listen to any of you's explanations, and I don't want to force any of you to make concessions. When the problem arises, the result will be settled, no If there is a change, let alone repeat it.”

No matter what the other party does, he will not feel better. He has a big cleanliness about relationships. The people he has treated seriously have given him a crisis of trust, and there is no room for redemption in this matter.

Ning Yu has always been like this, it's just that Gu Ming doesn't know him well enough.

At this point, they have nothing to say, but two people with different thoughts are destined to collide with more sparks. Gu Ming and Ning Yu have completely different attitudes towards feelings. He can understand Ning Yu, But he would not agree with him, "You mean, in the relationship you are in, once there is a problem, you have to discard it mercilessly?"

Ning Yu raised his head and said arrogantly: "That's right."

He dared to admit it, and he didn't think there was anything wrong.

At this time, Gu Ming finally understood where the difference in age was. Ning Yu was much more indifferent than him, and his attitude towards emotions was not like that of an adult. Gu Ming calmed down a lot. He said to Ning Yu very seriously: "Ningning, if what you care about is here, then we have something to talk about today."

Ning Yu wanted to hear what he had to say.

Gu Ming sat down again, and said: "You need to change your mind, don't question me, I will tell you why."

Gu Ming went on to say: "Whenever you get along with people, there are bound to be problems. Whether it is love or friendship, you can't treat this relationship with the expectation of smooth sailing and no quarrels. No matter how good the relationship between people is, the personality No matter how you look, there must be friction, not to mention love, if you approach your relationship with such an ideal attitude, every relationship of yours will end without a problem.”

Gu Ming didn't coax him anymore, he realized the extreme of Ning Yu's thinking, and wanted to change him from the bottom of his heart, this is a hurdle that must be passed, "If you really care about this relationship, then don't hold on to it. The expectation that there will never be a problem, what you want to think about is that if there is a problem, we must first solve the problem, communicate and find a solution for the purpose of finally maintaining this relationship. Why do so many people love each other or separate? Why do some people have so many disputes and still enter the palace of marriage? The reason is how they deal with the problems that arise in their relationships."

"Don't expect love, learn how to manage love. Before I met you, I had never been serious with others. We have been together for three years. It is something I have realized in these three years. I don't want to be too casual with you, and I don't want to be too casual with you. It’s just a nice way to give you hope, so that when the final problem arises, you will feel that hope is shattered.” Gu Ming walked out from the table and came to Ning Yu’s body. He squatted down and looked up at him, “ If we want to go on for a long time, we must know that something will happen. When a problem arises, what we have to deal with is the problem itself, not the other party. The reason why we are in trouble today is because when the problem arises we It was not resolved in time, and the delay has already spoiled many things."

Ning Yu breathed steadily, looked down at Gu Ming, no one had ever said such words to him.

"But we still like each other, don't we?" Gu Ming stared at him closely, he took Ning Yu's hand and said boldly, "Tell me, do you really want to never contact me?"

He squatted in front of him and touched his hand, as if he was proposing marriage. It was rare for them to have such a calm and honest communication. From the eyes of outsiders who didn't know, they were so compatible and in love.

Ning Yu didn't speak for a long time, he hadn't finished digesting Gu Ming's words, it sounded sincere, but it shook him a bit.

"You don't want to, do you?" Gu Ming stretched out his hand and touched Ning Yu's cheek. Ning Yu who was thinking was a docile cat. He didn't resist Gu Ming's touch, and his appearance was very cute. Wen Zhixing always teased him for looking at Ning Yu like an idiot, now Ning Yu's eyes reflect his own appearance, Gu Ming finally understands what that look is, Ning Yu looks like a child who is not fully mature to him, Although the rumors from the outside world spread him in such a mess, Gu Ming only knew his true nature after being together for three years, "Give us a chance for each other, shall we?"

He is a child who needs to be cared for. He grew up surrounded by compliments, grown up with lies, and lost in betrayal. He seems indifferent, but when he meets the truth, he will also be confused and at a loss. He has a crisis of trust in many people, so he doesn't give up his sincerity easily, so once he receives any wrong reaction after giving his sincerity, he will immediately discard it and reject it thousands of miles away. This is what he has formed over the years. A conditioned reflex, but also an alternative measure of self-protection.

Gu Ming is different from him. Although he wanders in love, he is surrounded by real and sincere friends. There are good examples of love around him, and they will tell him what love is and how to get along. He can tell the difference between sincerity and love. False, so he will not be easily frustrated and disappointed. The person he really values ​​​​has never betrayed him, but Ning Yu is not. He has made many mistakes in distinguishing the true from the false. He must be disappointed. This is how he slowly formed his current thoughts.

"You are very beautiful, do you know?" Gu Ming looked at his bright eyes, coaxing him and said: "You are of noble birth and so good-looking, how many people around you can be sincere? Your identity means that you have to listen to a lot of hypocrisy, and you look like this. The gay circle is cruel and realistic, and there are not a few people who only come to your face. You are also a man, and men think from the lower body animals, do you want me to tell you?"

"Aren't you too?" Ning Yu said resentfully.

Gu Ming laughed, he was very satisfied with Ning Yu's current mood, he said: "Yes, me too, I also came here for your beauty in the beginning, we rolled into bed within three days after we knew each other, what would I do at that time? But I don't have time to understand your heart, understand your personality, just for a moment's refreshment, but now..."

Gu Ming said: "Your father is so powerful, if I harass you again, your father will target me, our Gu family really can't resist, it stands to reason that I should be sensible and stay away from you, so as not to cause a murderous disaster. "

Ning Yu dissatisfied: "My father is not so cruel."

Gu Ming corrected: "I was wrong. I just described it and wanted you to know that the reason why I came to provoke you in this situation is because I really like you."

During the years they were together, they talked so much about love, but none of them moved Ning Yu so much. When he came, half of his steel-like resistance was wiped out. He is very calm now. In this calm mood, Listen to every word of Gu Ming.

"Then tell me, what do you like about me?" Ning Yu began to question him. He never asked the other party what he liked about him. He didn't think there were any advantages in himself that the other party liked.He couldn't let him coax himself away with a few nice words.

Gu Ming looked at him, and his longing for these days doubled at this moment. It turns out that seeing him will not make him feel calm, he will only be more greedy, and greedily hope that he will be with him now, Gu Ming said affectionately : "I like your cynical look. In fact, you can't be timid. I like the cruel and ruthless you are told by the outside world, but in fact you are easy to be emotional. Your arrogance frightens many people away, but in my eyes , you are just a very gentle cat."

Gu Ming said sincerely: "Let's get back together, okay?"

He was very calm, and there was no tit-for-tat between them. The conversation has been smooth until here, but the result is not satisfactory. He listened to Gu Ming's words, and he also agreed with a few places, but this did not prevent Ning Yu from expressing his opinion. He shook his head.

He rejected this reunion.

"Let's not be together anymore." Ning Yu pulled his hand from Gu Ming's. Gu Ming didn't know what was wrong, and there were still some unresolved problems. He just looked at Ning Yu and waited for his answer.

"During this period of time, I have thought about many things, from my love, friendship, family relationship, and many other aspects, I am not afraid to tell you," Ning Yu said: "The only trustworthy person around me is Lu Cong. Take it out, just like the moment I decided to take you off, I grew up with him, and I have known him for so many years, it is impossible for me to completely clear my feelings for him just because he betrayed me once, just like you, I have no feelings for him. You still have feelings, it's just because it's been too long, I can't deal with it so quickly, but I think, if I look back, the decisions I made these days will go wrong, whether it is to forgive Lu Cong or forgive you, That's not the result of reason."

"Because I have new things to do, I want to fully devote myself to a new life, then I need a brand new state, so I can't have anything to do with you," Ning Yu said: "It's not against you, just like As you said, I have been living a life of hypocrisy, since I was a child, I have never been really independent at all, I hope that when there is no one around me, I can also stand firm and live a nourishing life."

Gu Ming frowned and said, "I don't understand what you mean."

"You will understand," Ning Yu said, "You are very independent. During the three years with you, I also learned a lot. I am not afraid of your jokes. I have no pursuits. I just like a stable life. One lover, one child, two are fine, our family can live the most ordinary and ordinary life, just like most people, this is my ideal, but I rarely tell people, because in To others, it sounds like something worthless and incomprehensible."

He also joked with the people around him that their reactions were not very good, Ning Yu especially remembered.

"You know, every day when you go out to work, I'm at home tidying up the quilt, cleaning the house, and shopping for small things. That's my favorite state. It's not pretending. All I hide from you is my identity. Those three years are enough." My wish, so I like you may be because you fulfilled my wish and gave me an ideal state of life," Ning Yu fell silent, "Now that I have experienced that kind of life, I am satisfied. It’s time to pursue the next ideal, which is to be independent.”

Although Gu Ming didn't want him to be like this, he couldn't say anything, he just asked, "What are you going to do?"

Ning Yu said, "Let's find a suitable job first."

Gu Ming closed his eyes: "Then... what about me?"

Ning Yu felt that she had made it very clear.

"How should I understand your words now? Is it a rejection? This time, in the future, or forever?" Gu Ming's voice was no longer stable.

"Today's first here," Ning Yu stood up, "I will answer the rest after I think about it."

"Let me give you a suggestion." Gu Ming stood behind him and shouted. As the number of customers decreased and the atmosphere became quieter, his voice became extraordinarily noisy, attracting a lot of attention.

Ning Yu stopped, he didn't look back, it was Gu Ming who walked up to him.

"I'll chase you, okay?" Gu Ming proposed his idea, but Ning Yu didn't know how to understand it, so he didn't respond hastily.

"It just so happens that I haven't chased you, I haven't chased you formally and openly, can I take my time? Don't be so decisive?" Gu Ming didn't want to be avoided for the rest of his life. He had to meet him and keep in touch with him. From the end to the present, he has not had a happy day, what if it will be like this in the future?He dare not think.

I don't want to have another encounter with you.

Ning Yu originally planned to say this, but he held back. What is the result of saying this sentence?Gu Ming will give up?No, he knows Gu Ming, and he will be tough, so he can't refuse or agree, so he just keeps silent.

He didn't refuse quickly, which was a kind of tacit consent to Gu Ming. Gu Ming said softly: "Time is the best way to prove it. During this period, I won't disturb you, but if you want to meet me, at least not Deliberately avoid me, a phone call, a text message, and you can get back to me when you are free, okay?"

He has been using interrogative sentences today, his posture is very low, the progress between them is all in Ning Yu's words, today is effective communication, Ning Yu can consider it.

"I'll give it a try." Ning Yu let out a sigh of relief. What he said was to try not to agree, but to consider, and to give an accurate word based on the trials in the past few days. It has reached the current point, and the road does not need to be so desperate. Ning Yu said: "That's it, I'll go first."

"I send you."

"No need." Ning Yu had already left the coffee shop quickly, leaving Gu Ming alone.

Looking at the distant figure, Gu Ming was finally able to catch his breath, the progress was much smaller than he thought, Ning Yu's heart was hard to keep warm, after being injured.

Back on the sofa, Gu Ming was sitting alone, no one had touched the cup of coffee, the warm light could not conceal his loneliness, Gu Ming raised his head and leaned against the back of the sofa, his eyes were empty.

A person came from behind the sofa and sat opposite to Gu Ming, his movement disturbed Gu Ming, Gu Ming glanced at him, Li Heng held his forehead and sighed.

He heard it.

"I have nothing else to say, he won thoroughly." Li Heng came here to see how the other party is and how sincere Gu Ming is. There is no harm without comparison. Sure enough, compared to this, his younger brother It's not unfair to lose at all, Gu Ming treats his younger brother less than one-third of this person.

"You can scold me if you want." Gu Ming turned his head and looked at the scene outside the window, only the lonely moonlight and street lamps, few people, it was already late.

"Calling you?" Li Heng shook his head and said sincerely, "I'm going to be conquered by him."

Gu Ming looked at Li Heng with doubts.

Li Heng said politely: "I haven't seen him before. I think my brother is pretty. Now that I see this, I think many pretty boys are weak. He should be remembered by you. I want to find someone who is better than him." Yes, it’s probably going to be difficult.”

Gu Ming closed his eyes.

Li Heng said: "This is the young master of the Ning family? No wonder the rumors are so gaudy. I thought it was just a noble status. So many people lick him, and he looks really good."

"Do you have a problem with him?" Gu Ming said.

"No, how dare you," Li Heng noticed Gu Ming's burning gaze, raised his hand and said, "Don't look at me like that, it's really just a compliment and doesn't mean anything to him."

Gu Ming warned: "You'd better tell the truth, I can see through what he is thinking, and I can also see through you."

Li Heng laughed and admitted helplessly: "Okay, I just think it's unfair. I don't understand what charm he has that deserves your love, except for his face, but who are you? Gu Ming is eaten by a face." So transparent, do you think I can convince you?"

Hearing Gu Ming's words, he was almost moved. It was the first time he saw Gu Ming begging others so humbly, begging for something in a low voice, and discussing something. Li Heng became more and more curious about this person. I really don't mean to be hostile, I just want to know what Gu Ming really likes about him, what is the charm of the other party, and what is there that his younger brother can't reach.

"Get used to it," Gu Ming exhaled, putting one hand on the table, "I'm used to having him by my side."

I am used to waking up in the morning with him sleeping soundly in my arms, I am used to him making breakfast, not only caring about my own taste, I am used to watching movies with him, and someone hides in his arms shamefully and angrily, I am used to being able to watch movies before falling asleep at night. to his sleeping face.

A lot of habits, a lot of points, he can no longer tell why he likes him.

It's because of people, maybe because he is Ning Yu, so he is used to everything he does and likes it.