Young master, he is not hated by everyone

The moment the word "throw away" was said, Wang Shuo was dumbfounded.

"No, darling." He said in amazement, "Abandon what? How could I abandon you?"

"Go to the city!" Song Ning was very wronged, "You said it yourself!!"

From disappointment to acceptance, and now to sadness and unwillingness, Song Ning's psychological journey has been very exciting in just two or three hours.

Wang Shuo was stunned for a moment, then chuckled, and rubbed him in his arms.

"What are you doing..."

He was carried back to the bed by Wang Shuo, only to see Wang Shuo staring at him with a silly smile.

"Why are you so cute? Silly, like a little pig."

Song Ning: "?"

Wang Shuo sat down.

He caught a glimpse of Song Ning's medicine on the bedside and asked him, "Are you taking medicine again?"

Wang Shuo already knew about the illness, and Song Ning knew that he couldn't hide it from him, but he still felt inferior to being bumped into by the other party suddenly.

He was afraid that Wang Shuo would dislike him.

He clenched his fingers nervously, his eyes became misty, and he didn't dare to look at Wang Shuo.

"I...I won't eat it next time."

Wang Shuo didn't understand his nonsensical words, so he became more patient and coaxed Song Ning to talk to him.

"Hey, I didn't mean that, I think we need to have a good chat."

Song Ning's heart skipped a beat. In most TV dramas, as long as one party talks about it, the next sentence will most likely be "We are not suitable." "Let's break up!"

Song Ning spoke in a flustered manner, anxiously pleading, "Can we stop talking, I'm a little sleepy..."

How could he be sleepy, he obviously had a timid cry in his voice.

Wang Shuo shook his head, and moved a little closer to him. He hugged Song Ning into his arms, hoping to comfort him in this way while pulling him into the sense of distance.

Facts have proved that Wang Shuo's idea is correct.

Song Ning's tense body did relax a bit, but he was still curled up wronged, as if he had been greatly wronged.

There is no psychological clinic in the town, so Wang Shuo can only search for Song Ning's illness online.

The first time Song Ning arrived in the village was the peak of his illness. However, after changing to a new environment, he met Wang Shuo again. The care and companionship these days gradually made Song Ning less fearful.

He thought he was cured, and the medicine was stopped.

In fact, Song Ning found that he was not cured of his illness at all, but because Wang Shuo became his own medicine.

When he was at home just now, he suddenly seemed to be sicker.

Wang Shuo seemed to be invisibly controlling his own lifeline, and Song Ning could no longer bear the slightest indifference from the other party.

Every word and deed of Wang Shuo will have a huge impact on him.

As long as Song Ning thinks of being separated, Song Ning even feels that he can't breathe, and tears will fall endlessly. After finally shining a little light into the world, it becomes dim again in an instant.

That sense of oppression, powerlessness, collapse... came one after another.

With a tone full of pleading, he wanted Wang Shuo to stop talking, and wanted Wang Shuo to stay, hug and coax himself as before, and call himself "obediently" to kiss himself.

But Wang Shuo just shook his head and said softly, "No, we need to talk."

The feeling of suffocation seemed to be overwhelming again, as if an invisible wave had been set off, as if it was about to engulf him.

Tears overflowed from the corners of Song Ning's eyes, and his body was shaking violently.

He was like a prisoner awaiting sentencing.

But in the desperate situation, a new dawn is ushered in.

"Hey, tell me the truth, how is your illness?" Wang Shuo burst into tears when he saw him. He didn't know that Song Ning had thought so much in such a short period of time, and he only thought of Song Ning's reaction. It is the helplessness and anxiety after being bumped into.

"What..." Song Ning squeezed out these two syllables with difficulty.

Wang Shuo raised his hand and wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes with his fingertips, still gentle, "Can you tell me?" He was a little helpless and remorseful, "I actually wanted to ask you before, but my mother told me, I pretended not to know, he was afraid that if I said nothing, it would remind you of the sad things in your heart."

Song Ning looked at him suspiciously, in a daze.

Wang Shuo continued: "When I just picked up the phone, I saw the message you sent me. I was really scared to death by you. I thought you were going to break up with me."

"No! I didn't! No!!"

The word breakup seemed to have stepped on Song Ning's warning line, and he immediately denied it.

Wang Shuo's hanging heart was completely relieved by his boyfriend's reaction. He coaxed Song Ning, who was a little excited, "Okay, okay, we won't break up, we will never break up."

Wang Shuo continued: "When I received your call, I really didn't dare to delay for a moment. After I came, I saw you like this, and I was even more anxious, but I also wanted to understand."

"Hey, I can't seem to be a considerate and calm person. I can't ignore you. I care a lot, and I always care, especially when I see you like this, and you hide from me again. medicine."

"I think we should have a good chat, and stop acting with the idea of ​​being good for the other party. I think if I don't listen to your heart, I'm going to die of anxiety."

"Are you willing to tell me?" Wang Shuo asked him again.

Knowing that he is not breaking up, knowing that he still likes himself.

Song Ning returned to the water like a stranded fish. He nodded and asked Wang Shuo in a low voice, "What do you want to ask me?"

Without hesitation, Wang Shuo broke out and said, "What's wrong with your illness? Why did you take medicine again today? I said before that 'the medicine is three-point poison' and I don't recommend you to take it all the time, because I understand that if you always take medicine You go out for a walk, divert your attention, maybe it can also be effective."

Wang Shuo sighed and said with a wry smile: "But your reaction today makes me think that my idea may be wrong. I am too conceited. If the treatment requires continuous medication, then we should follow the doctor's advice."

"No...not." Song Ning took his hand and squeezed his palm into Wang Shuo's.

Following his behavior, the other party circled his hand in the palm of his hand.

Wang Shuo's behavior gave Song Ning great comfort and encouragement, "I talked to the psychiatrist on the phone, and she said that if you feel good about yourself, it is right to stop taking the medicine."

"That's fine, why did you eat it again today?"

"I..." Song Ning was obsequious, as if he was struggling with his own thoughts, as if he was deciding whether to say it or not.

Wang Shuo was very patient, just quietly accompanied him, waiting for him.

After a while, Song Ning rubbed against him, and Wang Shuo naturally stretched out his hand to hug him even tighter.

"You said you were going to the city, and I thought you would be separated from me. I was afraid and couldn't control my emotions, so..."

"When will I separate from you?!" Wang Shuo interrupted him and asked in a daze.

Song Ning felt aggrieved when he thought of this, "You said, go to the city..."

Tears welled up in his eyes, and he looked at Wang Shuo with watery eyes, as if complaining silently, "Isn't going to the city just a separation?"

"What are you talking about, you idiot!!" Wang Shuo finally came to his senses.

Song Ning's thoughts are really too deep, too much, if he doesn't pay attention, he will think too much, and then secretly hide it in his heart, and he refuses to ask himself, so he holds back the sadness and grievance of one person.

The book said that mental illness is not much easier than physical illness, it is just a different way of torturing people.

Although Song Ning's mood improved under his care during this period, it didn't last long and he couldn't fully recover.

Of course, the situation of "relapse of old disease" will also happen.

I still blame myself for today's oolong talk, just thinking about how I plan for the future, and didn't inform Song Ning, which made him feel aggrieved by his stupidity.

Wang Shuo was so distressed that he hurriedly said to him, "I went to the city to not be separated from you."

Song Ning looked at him, suspecting that he hadn't heard clearly, "What?"

"You can't stay in the village forever, you're so young, uncle and aunt won't agree."

Wang Shuo pinched Song Ning's fingers and rubbed the meridians on his hands, trying to relieve Song Ning's tension and anxiety.

"You're going back to Hangzhou sooner or later. I don't want to be separated from you. Naturally, I plan to go to the city."

Wang Shuo smiled helplessly and asked him, "Did you misunderstand me? You thought I was going to another city when I said going to the city?"

Song Ning nodded blankly, both surprised and happy in his heart, but the expression on his face was decided, the corners of his mouth were pressed down, and the little pearls that had been stored in his eyes just now really fell out.

He choked up and said, "You scared me to death if you didn't make it clear, woohoo, I thought...I thought you were going to break up with me..."

Song Ning began to break down and cry, "I don't do good things, and I always do a disservice. I thought you disliked me and wanted to go out to work with other people in the village. I thought... I thought you didn't want me anymore.. …”

"What are you talking about? Boy, how could I despise you?!"

Wang Shuo quickly comforted him, but he said in a lonely way: "The reason why I made this decision is because I am afraid that you will dislike me."

He sighed, "Although our village is not in the poorest valley, it is not very rich. You know the conditions of my family. I just paid off the previous debts, and I am a worthless person. Talent, you can only earn some coolie money."

"Hey, our family conditions are too different. I'm really afraid that one day you will despise me, dislike me for not knowing anything, dislike my low culture, dislike me..."

Before Wang Shuo could finish speaking, Song Ning kissed him.

He was still crying, and the tears on his cheeks fell to his lips, and the bitter tears melted in the lips and tongues of the two.

At first it was Song Ning who took the initiative, but Wang Shuo quickly took over the initiative. He gradually increased the strength in his hand and locked Song Ning firmly in his arms.

He felt that he was so despicable, Song Ning was a pampered young master, and he couldn't give him a good life now, but he couldn't wait to take him as his own. ?