[Comprehensive] First Love Trainee

"Eat slowly, don't burn it." He looked gently at the girl across the table, saw a grain of rice on her cheek, and reached out to help her pick it off without thinking, "Such an adult can still eat it." to the face."

The girl on the opposite side remained motionless as if the pause button had been pressed.

Then, like a slow animation, the tip of the ear was stained with a little bit of blush.

Tezuka reacted belatedly. For the two who haven't seen each other for many years and whose relationship is difficult to define, his action just now may have been a little too close.

Although he didn't mean to.

Both of them were a little caught off guard, and paused for a while, Tezuka looked sideways, retracted his fingers as if nothing had happened, and Maki lowered his eyes and mechanically drank the soup.

The room was so quiet for a moment that only the sound of bowls and chopsticks clashing could be heard.

In such silence, Tezuka quietly turned his gaze back to the side, and his eyes lightly fell on the top of the hair of the girl opposite.

Her hair was fine and soft, with a small, gentle curl at the top.

When she was in school, she often braided herringbone braids and tied them with ribbons of different colors.Now that she is a doctor, it may be for convenience. Whether she was in Brompton 3 years ago or in the hospital today, she always wears a neat ponytail.

In fact, Tezuka feels that Maki has not changed much over the years.

In the past, she was willing to try many interesting amateur activities, and even made a radio program that she liked very much.After entering high school, due to the busy schoolwork and the high pressure of further studies, I have stopped broadcasting, but I used to share some reading experience from time to time on my Twitter account.

Her character has always been considerate of others. She used to be afraid of causing trouble to others. Now that she is a doctor, she also treats patients with a gentle and tolerant heart.Ordinarily, a soft-hearted person like her should be easily injured in a post like first aid, but she still maintains a heart to face life bravely, just like the ever-vigorous Maki Asai in the past.

In the past, apart from worrying about his arm, Maki almost never showed any negative emotions in front of him, let alone the difficulties she encountered.So in fact, seeing Maki's undisguised exhaustion today, apart from the natural love, Tezuka also felt very lucky.

At least, she was willing to show the truth like this because she didn't dislike him in her heart.

This has been proven in the past.

"Did something happen today?" Seeing Maki put down his chopsticks, Tezuka asked.Hearing this, Maki raised his head to glance at the keen man, and sighed softly.

"Hmm..." She was thoughtful, but also seemed a little absent-minded. She lowered her head halfway to digest her emotions, and her tone was still somewhat depressed. "A 7-year-old boy in a vegetative state after drowning."

"Doctor Lan Ze said that there is no way to do this. After all, the drowning time is too long, and even the family members have not been held accountable, but...he is only 7 years old..." Maki understands the truth.When I was studying, the professor would jokingly say that if a surgeon didn't die, it must be because he didn't see enough patients.Under such circumstances, Maki actually has a clear conscience for today's 7-year-old drowning child.

She found him in time, otherwise the boy's drowning time would have been longer, and he might have been declared dead without going through the rescue process.

She didn't waste a single minute, thought of all the ways she could think of, and actively tried all possible countermeasures.

The final result, as Lan Ze said, is not anyone's responsibility.Rescue to the present level under such conditions can already be said to be a life snatched from the hands of death.

But Maki still felt uncomfortable.

She didn't know if this was a hypocrisy, but she also knew that she couldn't confide this feeling to her colleagues—they all persuaded her from their own experience and sincerely wanted to help her avoid some detours.So she thanked them, but she couldn't continue to express any loss.

If no one brings up this topic again, she will be lost for one night at most, and then half-compulsively digest it in the subsequent high-intensity work, and then continue to face new challenges.

But now Tezuka asked.

Even though she knew that even if she said it, it wouldn't change anything, but at this moment, Maki had a strong desire to confide.

Tezuka was certainly a good listener.He knew that what Maki needed at this moment was not someone to tell her the truth—she already understood that.She just walked into a dead end emotionally and needed to be released.

No wonder.Faced with the responsibilities of countless lives every day, no matter how strong a person's heart is, there is always a need for channels to relieve stress.

He quietly listened to Maki's low voice, seeing that her expression didn't change, but her eyes inevitably overflowed with sadness, he felt heavy in his heart.

They sat side by side on the couch, Maki's hands twisted uneasily in his lap.

It was a pair of flexible and slender hands, a pair of surgeon's hands.

Picking up the scalpel, she grasped the true meaning of life.

Tezuka lightly held Maki's cold fingers.

The male's hand is wider than the female's. His palm has a slightly warm body temperature, which is dry and warm. The warmth flows in from Maki's slightly cold fingertips, making her body feel a little hot.

His hand has a hard callus on the metacarpal bone due to years of racket grip training, and her hand has a thin dent on the pulp of the index finger because she often holds a scalpel.

His fingers gently stroked this inconspicuous mark, and his voice was calm and reassuring.

"You told me before that you have to do your best to be the best version of yourself. Now, do you think you are?"

Maki shook her head, then nodded again.

If she is far behind her mentors and seniors when she was a student, compared to those leaders and academic leaders in the medical field, and compared to the skilled and experienced Lan Ze, what is the "best"? None of them count.

But every step she takes is down-to-earth and has a clear conscience. As far as she is concerned, she has not let herself down even a minute.

"I'm still a long way from being a famous doctor, but I won't give up." Shinji thought of all the teachers and seniors who had given him guidance, and said as if to cheer himself up, "I will search carefully in every task, and finally You will find the true meaning of the so-called famous doctor.”

Tezuka looked at Maki's revived eyes, and curled his lips: "Then I'm relieved."

For a while, the two of them didn't speak, but the hands that were held together never let go.Maki's gaze fell on the hands they were clasping, and Tezuka's gaze fell on her shoulder.

After a long time, she heard the other party's deep voice.

"At that time, you said that you hoped that we would be our best selves without any entanglement." Tezuka cleared his throat, speaking tentatively, "If, the best self is to live up to every minute and every second of life's struggle Ourselves, I think, we all don’t have to be humble.”

Somewhat anticipating what he was going to say in his heart, Maki raised his head, turned his face to look at the reserved and indifferent man beside him, and looked into his sharp and firm brown eyes.

"You have always thought of others, and now you have to think of patients. I know you are very hard." With a little force on his hand, Zhenji felt the extra strength, and tried not to move himself, for fear of being careless. He reminded the person on the other side.

It's not obvious on the surface, but this little action has already made Maki aware of Tezuka's nervousness.

"According to the 9-circumference data released by ATP at the beginning of the year, my mental power is [-]." The perfectly shaped phoenix eyes behind the lens looked directly into the eyes of the female doctor. Open a lecture, "So, as long as you want, I can give you as much support as you want. I believe that there are not many people who are stronger than my heart."

That year, at the U-17's base, they hugged one last time and said goodbye to each other.

At that time, Tezuka said that if we can meet again, please let him confess.

At that time, Maki replied - just say no?You're not very used to asking for my opinion anyway.

Although this person is quite straightforward in his actions, his words are completely like writing a thesis.

It really has the style of Tezuka Kunimitsu.

She lowered her head and smiled slightly.

"Do you still remember?" The time seems to be gradually tilted and overlapped, and the fragments of memories are like movies. She slowly reached out and grabbed one of the films that glowed with the color of old photos.

"What is the arc of that θ, do you remember?"

Tezuka was stunned for two seconds, and the stern facial lines softened suddenly.

That afternoon sitting side by side at the coffee table reading a book, that boiling soup pot in the kitchen, that moment when he saw the other family member unexpectedly, he even remembered every sentence of their conversation, and that summer afternoon, there was a low roar in the room The coolness of the air conditioner.

"." He gave the answer without hesitation, "You underestimated the coefficient by 5 times."

"That's right." Maki laughed out loud, and retorted unconvinced, "It's because the first half of the derivative has a confusing term."

"It's not obvious that the result of your trigonometric function is wrong." The man pushed his glasses and broke the stage.

"You remember wrongly." The girl said sternly, "The five-circumference data doesn't measure memory, does it? A guy with a mental power of 9 won't occupy another numerical space?"

The two looked at each other and smiled, and after a while, they both let go of their clasped hands and hugged each other.

"You've worked hard all this time. Please take care of me from now on."

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Adults often do not have a very clear boundary when communicating with each other, they just get together naturally