[Comprehensive] First Love Trainee

"Doctor Shiratori, you are too polite, it's nothing." During the short visit, compared with Aozawa who impressed Maki with his superb skills and extremely professional and calm attitude, Shiratori seemed much more ordinary.But no matter what, I just borrowed the bathroom for a while, so it wouldn't make the other party say negative things like "I can't do anything well", right?

But Maki didn't understand the situation, so he couldn't talk nonsense, so he took a glass of water and put it in front of Shiraishi: "Sorry, there is no drink at home. Doctor Shiratori worked hard just now, let's drink some water first."

The dejected female doctor thanked her in a low voice, held the water glass but didn't take a sip for a long while.

Associate Professor Asai's team is still communicating in Xiangbei. Megumi Shiratori's father is a famous professor of gastroenterology at Aomori University, so he has heard of some well-known domestic medical scholars, and Yuri Asai is one of them.

In Japan, women can have a place in university-affiliated hospitals, and they are already associate professors at the age of 39, which fully proves their academic and work ability.The girl in front of her is the second daughter of an associate professor. Judging from today's events, at least she has the potential and talent to be a qualified doctor.

No wonder Dr. Aozawa asked her to be his assistant.

In contrast, the same medical family, I am really bad.Can't compare to Lan Ze, who is in the same situation but outshine others in the same period, even a middle school student who is ten years younger.

Sure enough, she was not suitable to be a doctor and would only cause trouble for others.

"I heard that your future wish is also to be a doctor?" For some reason, Shiratori opened the mouth.The thing that had troubled her had been tormenting her all this time, but she did not know whom to tell.Her superiors, teachers, and even her contemporaries all said that she had done nothing wrong, but the consequences were so tragic that her spirit was almost unbearable.She wanted to make amends, to atone for her sins, but she couldn't make up her mind, and she didn't know whether it was the right thing to do.Under a lot of pressure, I unconsciously said these words.

"I think you are more suitable than me to be a doctor, and you will definitely develop well in the future." Her voice was very low, and her eyes kept staring at the water glass in her hand when she spoke, "Like me, you will only cause trouble for others For those of you, it's better to recognize the reality earlier, and don't rely on other people's tolerance to put on a face."

I felt that Megumi Shiratori's wording was a bit strange, and it sounded a bit too self-defeating. Maki carefully worded her words: "Dr. Shiratori's words are too exaggerated. I think you have done well enough. Without you Thanks to your help, the two injured patients probably won’t be able to wait until the ambulance arrives safely, but you saved their lives!”

"That's thanks to Dr. Aizawa, and you. I... I'm just afraid." Shiratori smiled wryly, "I'm always dragging my feet. If it wasn't for me, Dr. Kuroda wouldn't have lost his right hand. I ruined Dr. Kuroda's career, ruined his future, and almost killed two people today because of my weakness and fear."

"How can someone like me be qualified to be a doctor?"

Yuuji Kuroda, the trump card of Xiangbei Emergency Center and the vigorous promoter of flying medical treatment, injured his right hand?

The news shocked Maki, she didn't know what to say for a while.

For a surgeon, his hands are his life. The most delicate operations and the most cutting-edge technology must be realized by the surgeon's dexterous hands. No matter what kind of injury, it is important for a surgeon who pursues precision. It is likely to be fatal, not to mention that the word used in Shiratori's words just now is "lose".

This is tantamount to a death sentence for his surgical life.

And Maki also knows what an excellent surgeon Kuroda Yuji is.

It was rare for her to be tongue-tied, facing the frustrated Shiratori, she lost her words.

Even if she didn't know what happened, she could still imagine Megumi Shiratori's mental pressure. She didn't feel the same way about this kind of thing, and any words of comfort were useless.

It seemed that because he had already passed the most difficult start, Shiratori became honest: "I forgot to abide by the requirements of the first aid code, and entered the scene without confirming safety. Dr. Kuroda's right arm was involved in the factory to protect me Under the steel bars that fell from the top," she said, closing her eyes in pain.

"Being oppressed for too long, in order to save his life, Dr. Aozawa had to amputate Dr. Kuroda."

The teacher was injured because of his own reasons, and the trusted colleague became the executor who directly cut off the teacher's career. Megumi Shiratori's psychological pressure can be imagined, and Maki finally understood the reason for Shiratori's indecision at the scene today.

Of course she will be afraid and not confident.How many people in the world are still not affected after going through such a thing?

In contrast, Aozawa, who cut off the teacher's right hand with his own hands, is still able to save the lives of injured patients decisively and boldly today. Of course, he is qualified enough to say "don't run away" to Shiratori.What admirable courage and psychological quality that is!

Neither of the two made a sound for a long time, and Maki was silent, slowly digesting the heavy message in these few short sentences, and asked after a long time: "Then, what are you going to do? Do you want to resign?" Otherwise, Shiratori would not What would you say "recognize the reality early".

"Minister Tiansuo and everyone comforted me. The minister still insisted on keeping me, but I really have no face to stay." ...don't know what else to do..."

What would you do if you were faced with such a situation?Maki didn't know, and couldn't imagine it.In the past, she only saw the excellence of flight medicine, longing to be handsome and capable as a flight doctor, and was attracted by their high professionalism and superb technology, and she became interested in this branch, but she never thought about it. Doctors may also face such pain and trials.

"I... I don't know what to say to you." Zhen Ji felt very heavy, "I believe that such consequences are what no one wants to see. From an outsider's point of view, Dr. Kuroda's injury is already done In fact, it doesn't matter to Dr. Kuroda whether you continue to be a doctor or not."

Shiratori slowly turned his head and glanced at Maki.There was some disappointment in her eyes.Maki knew that she had heard these words too many times.

"I can also understand your mood. If it were me, I might be so desperate that I could only come up with such a method to make myself feel better." When a person takes something from someone else, there is always a reason for it. Compensation mentality, thinking about what I have lost to be equal. "But I'm not you, and I can't evaluate what should be and what shouldn't be. I just think that some things may not require a choice of 'should', but a little 'want' 's Choice."

If you only talk about reason, then there will be no "two-part battle" in the Kanto competition, and there will be no difficult and long rehabilitation of Tezuka Kunimitsu.He will not foolishly carry the team's victory on his own shoulders, let alone choose protracted battles again and again regardless of the consequences.Once, Maki couldn't understand why a person like him with clear goals and firm beliefs would make such unreasonable choices, which even made her feel so reckless and short-sighted.However, on that torrentially rainy day, Tezuka Kunimitsu faced her sincerely and told her that he was eager to win, to compete heartily with the opponent he recognized, and he was more urgent than the unpredictability of the future. Looking forward to crossing every obstacle in front of him and fulfilling every promise he made.

Because of this, Maki understood.As long as a person clearly insists on the choice he wants in his heart, he will not regret, regret, hesitate or compromise for a moment, he is correct.If you can always make the choice you "want", it might not be another sense of strength.It doesn't matter right or wrong, the most powerful soul is one who can be responsible for oneself and live up to one's own heart.

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The author has something to say:

In the relationship between Maki and Tezuka, in fact, there have always been differences on Tezuka's game style, but for the sake of peace, both sides are delaying the occurrence of conflicts

Now Maki begins to reflect on his own perspective on the problem