Don't move the old man's bounty

"If I were you, I would choose the third bottle of medicine." Jiang Juan said when Xiao Shi rubbed the bruised finger marks on his wrist with safflower oil, "Short-term pain is worse than long-term pain. The medicine penetrates into the blood vessels , the lowest pain will be relieved within a few minutes, that is really good for me, it is better than struggling for a lifetime without peace, and finally lingering in the sick bed, dying alone."

Xiao Shi acted as if he hadn't heard his words at all, and asked while rubbing, "Does it hurt? Fuck, why did that son of a bitch hit so hard? Did you offend him before, and he just avenged it publicly?"

Jiang Juan's mood was fairly stable, Xiao Shi rushed to serve him, and he obediently let him toss, even Xiao Shi was a little strange, he hadn't been so honest for many years.

"Did I...yesterday, did I tell you anything?"

"Well, I said it, and I said a lot." Xiao Shi said boldly, "Crying and shouting that you love me and can't leave me, begging me to remarry you. Ex-wife, you said that you are always tense Why, you don’t dare to say it when you need your ex-husband’s love so much in your heart, why, you’re afraid of being laughed at? Why bother, we’re both old couples, why do we care about other people’s opinions? It's not very interesting, if you just nod your head, it will be over after so many years of trouble."

According to Jiang Juan's temperament, he has always disdained to accept Xiao Shi's nonsense, but today he was uncharacteristically, silent for a while and said: "I love you so much, but I don't hate you either."

Xiao Shi's movements paused, his smile froze on his face, and he said in disbelief, "...what did you say?"

"I said, I don't hate you." Jiang Juan withdrew his hand, took the cigarette case Kyle left on the coffee table, took a cigarette from it, lit it, looked up at the crystal chandelier on the ceiling, and exhaled slowly. With a smoke ring, "If I hadn't been self-willed, my brother wouldn't have had an accident. He died for me, so it's only natural for me to do what he didn't have time to complete. Now let's sit down and have a peaceful chat. If my brother hadn't died, would he accept your feelings for him?"

Jiang Juan hadn't looked at Xiao Shi for a long time, so when he met Xiao Shi's eyes, both of them were a little surprised.

As they looked at each other, an indescribable feeling arose quietly, silently planting a seed that might explode at any time in Jiang Juan's heart.

He knew that with Xiao Shi's usual practice, he would find an excuse to divert this topic casually, so as to avoid these sharp questions, so he drew his hands and forced the other party to face him squarely, and asked him the answer with his eyes.

Xiao Shi knew that he couldn't avoid it, lowered his eyes, and shook his head, "This assumption doesn't exist, because I... will never let him know."

Jiang Juan didn't doubt this, although from the first time he saw Xiao Shi's eyes on Jiang Zhu, he knew that this man definitely had some unexplainable feelings for his brother, and almost everyone could see that he had feelings for Jiang Zhu. What kind of thoughts do you have, but Jiang Zhu himself has always been insensitive to feelings, and he doesn't believe that there is a third kind of warm feeling between the same sex besides family and friendship, so he has deep feelings for Xiao Shi. He doesn't know anything about the feelings in his heart, as long as Xiao Shi doesn't admit it, even if the whole world thinks they are in love, he can firmly believe that it is just an outsider's illusion.

So Xiao Shi's thoughts, or past thoughts, are realistic.

"Haven't you ever thought of confessing to him, don't you even want to bet on that one-ten-thousandth possibility?"

Xiao Shi smiled wryly and said, "Jiang Er, I can't afford to gamble. I have nothing, and even this broken body was put together by him. I don't have the courage to lose him."

Jiang Juan seemed to understand his persistence for a long time, even if he knew there was no hope, he still wanted to chase. The desire for light is a human instinct.

For some reason, after understanding Xiao Shi's obsession with Jiang Zhu, he should have been relieved, but he trembled with pain in his heart, and said sadly: "Then what do you want me to give you?"

"I'm sorry... I didn't expect anything from you in the past. After Jiang Zhu left, my world collapsed. The only thing that supported me was hatred. It wasn't until many years later that I realized that what I hated was never You, but the incompetent self who didn't have time to stop you, let alone save you. But I don't even have the courage to face reality. I have hated you for so many years, and I have done so much to you Forgive the bastard, I never expected to get your forgiveness, I just hope to do my best to make up for you, make you feel better, or hate me less..."

"That's not what I want to hear." Jiang Juan looked away, his eyes erratic, "You dare not say it, let me say it for you, you just hope that I can give you the illusion that Jiang Zhu is still alive, and help you together You just lied to yourself. You will repent now, not because of your conscience, but because you feel that I can no longer satisfy your needs for me if I fight endlessly with you. You are tame and obedient, creating the illusion that he is still alive."

"No! No! At least...at least not now."

Jiang Juan sighed, and pushed Xiao Shi who was close to him, "Ten years ago, I would have satisfied you, otherwise you really thought that the 67 days I was imprisoned by you were forced to stay because I couldn't escape. Are you there? Back then, I felt ashamed of you in my heart. Regardless of whether your revenge on me was right or wrong, I felt that I was sorry for you, so I stayed with you for 67 days and repaid you for the rather poor excuses you made with me. The 67 days that my brother lived together—I want to pay off the love debt he owes you."

Xiao Shi looked at Jiang Juan in astonishment. He never thought that Jiang Juan's leaving without saying goodbye had such a deep meaning. All these years, he has never dared to recall everything he did to Jiang Juan during that time. Li has long believed that he is the culprit that caused all the subsequent tragedies, but he is still paranoid in his heart and refuses to admit it.

He felt a strong fear welling up in his heart. He was afraid that Jiang Juan would resolutely leave after making the apology that should not have been borne by him. He desperately grabbed the man's hand, just wanting to win for himself. It was a chance to deny and retain, but facing the man's eyes as calm as water, he couldn't say a word.

He, a predator who only knows how to take blindly, has no right to beg for mercy from a victim who has nothing now?

Jiang Juan silently stared at his hand that was desperately thrusting into his palm, interlocking his fingers. After a long time, he sighed softly and asked, "Xiao Shi, I'm tired of playing tricks like this. When will you be able to play enough?"

"Tired, you believe me, from the moment I realized that my feelings for you are not forcibly taking you as a substitute to grab nutrients, I know that my feelings for you have never been... I have used this process for ten years , It’s indeed too long, but I’m willing to use the rest of my life to make up for you, can you give me a chance? If I don’t do well this time, you can treat me like that, okay?”

Xiao Shi's voice trembled, he was more afraid of Jiang Juan's unspoken decision than ever.

In order to make up for his wrongdoing, he is willing to repay everything Jiang Juan has suffered ten times and a hundred times. All he needs at this moment is a chance.

"Jian, you have recovered your identity, would you like to start a story with me again, or start over?"

Jiang Juan's silence made Xiao Shi feel extremely flustered. He was looking forward to his answer, but he didn't want to hear any results that would make him despair.

Time seemed to be stagnant at this suffocating moment, and the long wait almost dried up his life in this short hesitation.

"But in my life, how many ten years can I wait for your change of heart?"

Xiao Shi fell into an ice cave, and then he hugged him under the drive of fear.

"Don't go, don't go, give me a chance to make up for you, if I don't do well, you can drive me away at any time, but please don't deny me before you start? Tired, please tired……"

Jiang Juan pushed him, but he didn't push him, so he simply saved the effort and let him hug him unscrupulously, sucking up the remaining warmth greedily.

"Why don't we make a deal. In the past ten years or so, I have never taken a step for you. Now I want to give you a chance and give myself another chance."

Xiao Shi, who rekindled hope, seemed to see the dawn of new life at the end of despair, so excited that he couldn't speak, he just nodded.

At this time, Xiaotian, who was full of sleep, walked out of the guest room slowly, looking at the two men in disheveled clothes who were entangled on the sofa, he was a little puzzled, and tilted his head to look at them for a long time.

When seeing him, Jiang Juan swallowed the "two years" that he had planned before, and changed his words: "Let's limit it to Xiaotian's lifespan. I will accompany you for a few more days. If it is gone, you can let me go." Let's go, if I haven't lived it..." Jiang Juan raised his hand, and Xiao Tian came over, rubbed its furry head, and smiled with the corners of his mouth curled up, "...that means I missed the appointment. "

Xiao Shi really wanted to fight for more for himself, but he knew that this was already the biggest concession Jiang Juan could make for him. They had no future in the first place, and the chance to take a step forward was already what that person could give him. of the greatest charity.

If he clings to the ideal future and asks for more greedily, he will only be unable to grasp everything that is right in front of him.

"If the deadline really comes, will you be willing to stay for me?"

Jiang Juan stood up, avoiding Xiao Shi's earnest gaze, and answered ambiguously, "Maybe."

He and Xiao Shi were enemies from birth, and they were destined to collect debts from each other. Once they met, it was a lifetime of delay.

He regretted that maybe he shouldn't be soft-hearted, but he couldn't resist.

Jiang Juan suddenly remembered something, stopped and looked back at Xiao Shi: "Have you ever watched La Traviata?"

Xiao Shi hadn't come out of the shock just now, and he nodded his head because he didn't understand what he said without beginning and end.

"In "La Traviata", the heroine Marguerite left her lover's last words in her diary: 'Besides your insult is the proof that you always love me, I seem to feel that the more you torture me, the more you The day I know the truth, I shall appear all the more noble in your eyes.' We seem a little luckier than these tragic lovers."

After speaking, he went out to the platform, and dialed a number with the cold wind blowing.

"It's me, the target is temporarily stable, what's the next step?"

The person on the other end of the phone gave a short answer. Jiang Juan was not very satisfied with this statement. He was sullen for a long time and didn't follow up.

A smirk came from the receiver, "Why, can't bear it? It's still too late to quit now, heaven and earth, I didn't intend to involve you this time. It's you who insisted on coming to make peace. To be honest, it's not good for me if you stop now. Favorable, do you want to think about it again? I really don't want to be pissed off by that old boy Shen Jinsu. This year has just started, and he went up to participate in several of my books. How will I live in the future. "

"No, I want to participate."

"Could it be... Are you really tempted by him?"

"You're thinking too much, it's just a mission. If you really want to say it, it might be because I want to see you two fight together." After saying that, Jiang Juan hung up the phone.

He looked at the lights of Wanjia under the darkness of night and lit a cigarette again. At his age, no matter where he touched the scene, he would have superfluous feelings.

He knew that no amount of excuses would be useless, if he could deceive others, how could he deceive himself?

He remembered the raving in his dream.

——Xiao Shi, I'm afraid, please stay, okay?

The extremely insecure self deep in his heart actually needs Xiao Shi all the time.

...but why?

Jiang Juan blew out a puff of smoke, and murmured, "Could it be that the crap of feelings is really made?"

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