such as Yue Linyuan

"Whether it is to realize your ideal or to get what you want, it must be accompanied by sacrifice and dedication. The laws of this world are actually very fair. It's just that sometimes, those sacrifices and sacrifices may not be able to get the results you want. From this point of view, it doesn't seem to be really fair." Si Yuanting has long since lost the enthusiasm and leisure of his youthful speeches. If it were another person, he would definitely not say these words, but just with Chu Yuezhi. Sometimes, he is always willing to say a few more words.

Because I know that Chu Yuezhi can understand and understand everything he said, even if they disagree with each other, they will respect each other.

"It was only after I entered the imperial court that I realized that setting things right is never easy. The road to clearing up the corruption is full of difficulties and obstacles. Under the intertwined relationship, there are still many people seeking to survive in the cracks. But I can't save everyone, and I can't Pick up all the rotten festers, because when the water is clear, there will be no fish, and light and darkness are closely related. Whether it is the court or the Daheng Kingdom, I can only choose to keep the majority of people and sacrifice a small number of people. "Holding Chu Yuezhi's hand and holding it in his palm, Si Yuanting has never said this to others for so many years, and there has never been anyone around him to talk about.

"Wanting to save everyone, or eradicate all evils, is an overly good idea. We can work hard to save people and change, but we can't be confused because of this." Chu Yuezhi entangled Si Yuan Ting fingers, said: "I think in this world, no one can say that he is worthy of everyone, but as long as he does his best, a clear conscience is enough."

"Will you be afraid when you kill someone?" Si Yuanting looked at Chu Yuezhi with an inquiring look. Their hands have been stained with blood over the years, "There was a time when I made a decision and thought How many people may die because of my decision, I will feel fear. However, I am the last person who cannot hesitate. If I cannot make a decisive decision, not only will more people die, but even myself may die I can't save my life."

"When on the battlefield, the fear of death is far stronger than the fear of killing people. When fighting with the enemy, in fact, I don't have too many other thoughts in my heart. The only thing I can think of is to survive." Chu Yue Zhi has experienced many battlefields and commanded many battles. These are actually two completely different feelings. "Winning victory and then protecting more people are actually something to do later. On a battlefield full of fighting and mourning, No matter how weak people are, they will pick up weapons to protect themselves. It is the instinct to survive. The red-eye is because at that time, people are not much different from wild animals. But after leaving the battlefield, when alone in the tent, I will be afraid after meeting, I will not sleep well at night, and I will wake up with nightmares. I cherish my fear of killing people. For me, it is a proof that I still have humanity. As long as I am still afraid of killing people, I will I will always remind myself not to kill innocent people indiscriminately."

"I have always felt that I cannot lose the final bottom line. For me, the awe of life is my final bottom line, and the fear of killing is the conscience I must keep. On this point, I and you It’s always the same.” Si Yuanting said, he and Chu Yuezhi had their own battlefields these years, and most of the time the battlefields that belonged to him were bloodless, but he could still feel the weight of not a single life, Whether those he killed or died because of him were good or bad, their lives carried equal weight, and he counted them as sins he must bear.

Si Yuanting is no longer a purely good person, but at least, he will not become one of those wicked people who have lost all conscience.He admits the sins he has committed, and he also remembers not to live up to his father's last words, not to live up to the ideals in his heart when he was young, and always reminds himself that since everything he does and every decision is so heavy, it is even more important to Remember, an individual is always behind the people and the country, and family vendettas must be avenged, but before that he must first save the people and the country.

His bottom line, his sins, kept him awake, and kept him from being completely swallowed up by hatred and pain despite years of ups and downs.

"As for Shi Huai, I know that what you said is correct, and I also know that the forces in the DPRK and China need to maintain a balance, so I will not question your way of doing things. This court is like a game where you can never win or lose. In the endless chess, everyone is a chess piece, and the black and white chesses must always be equal, otherwise the collapse is the country. For this country, perhaps it is true that as long as there is a good result, how much the process is It's not important to use any means." Chu Yuezhi doesn't need Si Yuanting to do the dirty things for him that he doesn't want to do, no matter whether he proclaims himself emperor or not, he can't rely on Si Yuanting for everything, he needs to let Si Yuanting As he becomes stronger, he also needs to become more ruthless, because only in this way can he protect the people and countries he really wants to protect, and even their common ideals.

"Si Jiu, you don't need to take everything on yourself, your burden is already heavy. I said I want to protect you, and I will never let you suffer as hard as in the past, suffering alone, so you Don't be afraid that I can't accept those exchanges and schemes." Chu Yuezhi knew that Si Yuanting was more or less unwilling to let him get involved in these things, so he was so careful when he didn't know anything. Arrange everything carefully, and set up a series of tricks first; he also knows that Si Yuanting doesn't want him to see the side that belongs to the eunuch Si Gong.

Who doesn't want to keep the original beautiful face forever in front of the loved one.

It’s just that they are not ordinary people, just like what Si Yuanting said to him before, now they are princes and eunuchs, and in the future they will be kings and ministers, they will have to face more ugliness, and they will also face more Calculation, utilization, sacrifice and trade-offs.He will not escape from all this, this is what he should realize.

"I used to hope that you would not despise me, but now that you are really standing side by side with me firmly, I have many worries and concerns. To me, you seem to be the one who told me to protect the people of Daheng together. Little Chu Qi." Si Yuanting smiled faintly, more because he was laughing at himself for placing such unrealistic expectations on Chu Yuezhi, perhaps in his heart, he always felt that as long as Chu Qi remained unchanged, Chu Qi's Si Jiu would be Also unchanged.

"I understand, it's just us, after all, we have passed the time of innocence." Chu Yuezhi leaned over to hug Si Yuanting, how could he not understand what Si Yuanting was thinking, "Si Jiu, there are always some things that you don't understand. It's changed, as long as we are together, Chu Qi and Si Jiu will still be there."

Si Yuanting lowered his eyes and remained silent for a while, feeling a little looseness in his heart again, let out a shallow breath, patted Chu Yuezhi's arm to let him let go first, then got up from the chair and said: "At this time It's not too early, let's take a rest today."

Chu Yuezhi didn't have much objection, so after tidying up the official documents and secret letters on the desk, he and Si Yuanting left the study room and went back to the dormitory together.

Walking a few steps along the long corridor, Chu Yuezhi accidentally bumped into the jade pendant tied around his waist. He lowered his head and saw the gold melting between the cracks of the jade pendant. He suddenly thought of something and even stopped walking. down.

"What's the matter?" Seeing Chu Yuezhi stop, Si Yuanting asked with a perceptive expression, "What did you think of?"

"I remember that the hardness of gold is not high, and even the higher the purity of gold, the lower the hardness. But I found the pair of golden walnuts from Shihuai's mansion, and I pressed them so hard on the desk without leaving a trace I didn’t realize it when I was furious at the time, but now I think it’s wrong.” Chu Yuezhi looked at Si Yuanting and said with certainty: “The pair of golden walnuts are not made of pure gold.”

Si Yuanting obviously ignored this point, and only now did Chu Yuezhi mention it to him: "If it is said to be made of pure gold, the color does not match. Normally, the color of pure gold is a deeper reddish yellow. , but the pair of golden walnuts are lighter in color and not as bright as pure gold."

"In addition to the pair of golden walnuts, a lot of gold products were also found in Shihuai's mansion. If these gold products are not pure gold..." Chu Yuezhi's expression froze, and he said, "It seems that we need to have someone identify those Gold items."

"According to Shi Huai's personality, it is indeed impossible to easily put all the greedy money in the mansion. It is too negligent to guard against, and it does not conform to the psychology of people who are greedy for money." Si Yuanting pondered, no corrupt official would Putting all the money in one place, and having such a large amount of gold products in the mansion is too ostentatious to attract attention. No matter how daring Shi Huai is, it is impossible to be so blatant.

"The greedy money obtained by the household department cannot be circulated at will, nor can it be used directly. Although gold can be melted and remade, it can also be exchanged with silver and copper coins. However, the circulation of gold was restricted at the beginning of the founding of the Daheng Kingdom. There is a small amount of gold in circulation, and most of the rest is returned to the national treasury." Chu Yuezhi sneered, he was really almost deceived, "The project funds in collusion with the Ministry of Industry must not be gold, but involved in human trafficking It is even less likely that the money received in it is gold."

"So, the only source is the national treasury." Si Yuanting took over the conversation, and he and Chu Yuezhi both thought of one thing, "It seems that this Shi Huai is not only greedy, but also so bold that he reached into the national treasury. "

The gold in the treasury is stolen and exchanged, and after melting, part of it is remade into alloys and returned to the treasury, and the rest is made into gold products for buyers to trade. 1 tael of gold can be exchanged for 10 taels of silver and 10 copper coins. In this way, The money from the transaction is no longer restricted and can be used boldly.

"It seems that Zhou Ji is going to check. Who has this Shihuai traded with?" Chu Yuezhi said, if the transaction is passed through someone, it will definitely leave traces, but when did the transaction start? At the beginning, just thinking about it makes people startled.

"The transaction of gold products is not an easy task. It is impossible for a wealthy businessman to afford this money. Shi Huai is so cautious, so the buyer must not be easy." .