Special investigation report from Yokohama

If the siren could sing, it couldn't be more haunting than this silent gaze.Osamu Dazai begged for something unexpected to happen at this moment—anything, even if Majin suddenly decided to launch a sneak attack.

However, his extraordinary brain told him to be peaceful tonight and nothing would happen, so he could only resign himself to facing Hong Yao's attention.

"I...I don't know, Miss." Osamu Dazai replied dryly.As soon as the answer came out, he avoided Hong Yao's eyes with a guilty conscience.

This is the truth, and it is also a lie.Of course Osamu Dazai understood the reason for the flying vinegar, but the deeper reason made him confused.To put it bluntly, it was liking—or rather, love—of course, but it was more than that.

So he didn't dare to look into Hong Yao's eyes - he was afraid that she would take it as a complete lie, and even more afraid that she would take it as the complete truth.The trust and suspicion of a lover are equal fears to Osamu Dazai.

Hong Yao didn't speak, just quietly waiting for him to organize his words.Knowing that this answer was not satisfactory, Osamu Dazai had to try to organize his words again: "I really want to tell you, Miss, but..."

Well, she got it.

Hongyao blinked, then suddenly raised her hand to cover Osamu Dazai's eyes.

Osamu Dazai stiffened slightly.

Restricting the field of vision is a commonly used method during interrogation. Human beings are visual animals, and most people rely on their eyes to understand the world.The instinctive panic after losing sight is an excellent breakthrough for interrogators.Moreover, the unfairness of vision is also a very useful psychological suppression. Under panic and coercion, the psychological defense of the party being interrogated will be weakened unconsciously-no one understands these truths better than Osamu Dazai .

Knowing it is one thing, overcoming it is another.What's more, Hong Yao said such a sentence while his eyes were covered.

"It's okay, since I dare to ask, I'm ready to hear any answer."

——Human beings have the instinct to shirk responsibility, just like at this moment, when Koyaku said such words, Osamu Dazai felt a burst of relaxation for no reason.

It seems that as long as the answer is asked several times, he doesn't have to be responsible for the maliciousness hidden in it.

This idea is really unreasonable, and Osamu Dazai himself knows it.Therefore, he pursed his lips guiltyly, but he knew it was not good just after finishing this action.

...Looking at the darkness will indeed lower people's vigilance.

At the same time, he heard Hong Yao's soft laughter.This made it rare for Osamu Dazai to have an emotion similar to "anger from embarrassment".It's just that Hongyao didn't make him regret this little gaffe for too long, and he spoke first: "Since Dazai won't tell, let me guess, don't you mind?"

Even if he minded to death, of course he couldn't say he minded now.What's more, Osamu Dazai was a little relieved by Koyaku's proposal - even if we know each other well, it's better not to say it ourselves.

With tacit consent, Hong Yao really didn't save him any face, and went straight to the point: "Are you jealous... no, are you angry? Because I put you in the same position as everyone in Honmaru, and normally, a lover Both hold a special place in each other's hearts? You don't think it's fair, do you, Dazai?"

...by default.

After all, the job of a god judge is special, and Osamu Dazai is very sensitive to the weight of emotions, so it is normal to encounter this kind of situation.She had been mentally prepared for this, and she secretly breathed a sigh of relief when she learned the reason.

……and many more.

Dazai would be secretly angry at the unequal emotional status between the two, doesn't it mean that she has already occupied an incomparably dominant position in his heart?

Hong Yao's cheeks were inexplicably hot, but fortunately Osamu Dazai's eyes were still covered by her, so he couldn't see her rare embarrassment.

But when she spoke again, her tone was still subconsciously lighter: "What about after that? Does Mr. Dazai have anything to say?"

"...I have nothing to say." There was a long silence before Osamu Dazai replied, "I have nothing to say, what the lady said is my thoughts. In the eyes of the lady, this kind of thinking must be quite despicable. I haven't been with you for four years. I don’t even know what the lady has experienced, but I ask you to repay me with deeper feelings—if it’s unfair, it’s because I’m unfair to the lady.”

He paused for a while, didn't hear Hong Yao's reply, and continued: "Although I know the truth..."

In the darkness, he gave a silent wry smile: "But I still can't help but feel jealous of the importance that Miss attaches to anyone else... It's impossible to tell you this kind of emotion frankly, right?"

Hong Yao didn't speak.

It's not that she didn't want to respond, she was already stunned.

No, is this such a difficult problem to solve?

Co-creating the future without experiencing the past together, paying attention to each other without knowing each other well—is it such a difficult thing to do?

"There's nothing fair or unfair about this kind of thing. I like you, I'm happy, that's all." Although she knew that this answer is definitely not what Osamu Dazai wanted, but she still hasn't figured out the red medicine to understand Osamu Dazai's thinking. Give him an old-fashioned reassurance first.

Sure enough, after saying this, Osamu Dazai's face did not relax much.It was too obvious—because he couldn't see anything, Osamu Dazai probably forgot that the light was still on in the room, and the change in his expression was clearly seen by the red medicine.At this moment, his lips had been tightly drawn into a line, and because of the force, he looked a little pale.

Hong Yao quietly glanced away.

"Anyway, you should blame me for this kind of thing, right?" she muttered softly.

Osamu Dazai was stunned: "Miss?"

"I mean..." Hong Yao coughed uncomfortably, "I made the request for dating, and it's my fault for ignoring you and making you feel uneasy right after we established a relationship. Fighting is also normal, there is no need to blame yourself..."

While talking, Hong Yao felt guilty: "It's my fault anyway..."

Dazai chuckled instead.

"Sure enough, the lady would have the answer." He said, "It's okay, I understand."

What does he understand?Of course, he understands the intention of Hong Yao to do so.In fact, there is no rush to remove the influence of "books" for other worlds.The reason why Hong Yao wanted to solve it so urgently was because he was concerned about his feelings.

She knew that she didn't like the other Osamu Dazai at all; she also knew that the matter of Oda Zuo was also an unresolved knot for him; she also knew that once this world settled down, it would be difficult for him not to interfere Things—so she chose to make a quick decision, to nip out all the crises before he had time.

but……

"Even so, I want Miss to pay more attention to me..." Dazai Osamu became unscrupulous and pouted pitifully.Hong Yao let go of her hand guiltily, and was about to say something when she was stopped by Osamu Dazai: "Miss must be talking about human nature again...it doesn't matter."

He wasn't quite used to the sudden strong light yet, squinting his eyes and smiling at Hong Yao, looking innocent that didn't match his personality.

"After all, I promised Miss..." he said, "I will also make up my mind about this."

Red medicine: ...

Red Medicine: "Put away your enlightenment."

"Eh?"

"Hey what, it's a shame to use the word "enlightenment" here." Hong Yao suddenly approached him, "Look into my eyes, and then say—'I, Osamu Dazai, have already done this in the next plan." He has avoided all foreseeable injuries and is willing to put his own life first and do his best to avoid all possible dangers that may arise' in the event of a planned accident."

Under Dazai Osamu's evasive gaze, she retreated to her original position, folded her arms and snorted coldly: "I'll believe you after I've said it."

Osamu Dazai: ...

This time it was his turn to turn his head back guiltily: "Miss also knows that no matter how perfect the plan is, accidents are always inevitable..."

She also knew that if she didn't give up on him now, she would see a dying boyfriend when she came back.

...Most of them are the ones whose spiritual power cannot be healed immediately due to various reasons.

"We still have a lot of time to spend together, and there is still a long, long time to understand each other and cultivate relationships. The best way to solve problems is to communicate in a timely manner," Hong Yao said, "In short, bitter tricks don't solve any problems." problem, unless..."

Hong Yao originally said it out of habit, but only with this turning point, she suddenly looked at Osamu Dazai thoughtfully as if she had opened up the two veins of Ren and Du: "Unless you have other, more important things It's not a question, is it?"

No need to ask, seeing that Osamu Dazai was silent, Hong Yao knew she had guessed right again.

This guy is really...

"In that case, let me continue to guess. I'm not as smart as you, so don't laugh at me if I guess wrong."

Osamu Dazai didn't speak, but just looked at her quietly, with a look in his iris-colored eyes that she couldn't understand.

Do you want her to figure it out, or do you not want her to figure it out?

"Half of each." Hong Yao thought for a while and said.

Facing Osamu Dazai's puzzled eyes, she explained: "I originally thought that you didn't want me to guess. After all, this is a very private matter... But thinking about it again, it's probably because of privacy that you want me to guess." Guess it? So you hope that my guess is right and I guess wrong, half of the mood."

If you guessed right, it means that Hongyao knows Dazai Osamu well enough, and the relationship established under such a premise will undoubtedly be more stable, but also, for someone like Dazai Osamu, it should feel bad to be seen through; Osamu Dazai's self-defense mechanism can probably breathe a sigh of relief, as for the psychological disappointment, that is another matter.

By analogy, it seems that this puzzle is not very difficult to solve.Hong Yao looked at Osamu Dazai's dodging expression as if he had guessed his mind, and realized something: "What are you afraid of, Dazai? So...you know that mere possessiveness between lovers will not make me angry, So you made me see that on purpose so that you can hide other things, right?"

"I don't have to know, Dazai," Hongyao reminded Dazai when he saw that he was faintly showing signs of embarrassment, "but I have to know one day."

As long as they are still lovers, as long as they still want to have each other's future, then sooner or later, the red medicine will touch the core of Osamu Dazai.

Instead of waiting until the day of no return to showdown against each other, it is better to solve all problems at the very beginning.

This reason at least partly convinced Osamu Dazai. Instead of dodging just now, he took the initiative to get close to Hongyao, looked into her eyes without blinking, and even wrapped one hand around the back of Hongyao's neck—as if he was reacting. Come here to prevent her from escaping.

"Miss, aren't you afraid?" He asked, "You're right, I do deeply envy those people who bond with you...I'm the only person you can concentrate on watching—I can do this Think, you can do that too. Aren't you afraid?"

Hong Yao raised her hand and patted the back of his hand lightly: "Come on. Do you think I was frightened?"

Granted, Dazai's threat was far more potent than most.Others may just say pretty words to save face, but he really has the strength to do it.

But: "Being capable doesn't mean you will do that."

"Miss really trust me." Osamu Dazai said lightly, "What if I really plan to do this? You know, I used to be a heinous mafia. It’s not difficult to transform the young lady into a person who only sees me wholeheartedly.”

The past is the past, and the present is the present.Hong Yao thought nonchalantly.She didn't think Osamu Dazai would be stupid enough to do such a thing.

and……

"You won't," Red Medicine said. "It's not my trust in you—that reason doesn't convince you, does it? It's your survival instinct that stops you."

"You gain attention from me, compare the importance of you and everyone in this pill in my heart, in the final analysis, you want me to pour all my feelings on you. But you also know that is impossible. Because I That’s why I have grown into what I am now, and the reason why I dare to give you emotions when I’m not sure about giving back is because everyone in Honmaru gave me enough love and taught me how to love someone.”

The more she spoke, the more determined she became: "You want to monopolize my emotions, but you are also afraid that if I leave Honmaru, you will become water without a source, and our relationship will come to an end because of this."

"In the final analysis," Hong Yao smiled softly, but her words still hit the nail on the head, "Only positive emotions will get positive feedback, but you don't have the confidence to love me in the same way."

In the midsummer night, facing Hong Yao's clear eyes, Dazai Zhi shuddered violently.

"Looks like I guessed it right." Hong Yao said without much surprise.This is Dazai Osamu, his character and his experience are doomed his love - no, it is not even what can be called pure "love" - ​​ferments under the abyss and silt.

If you want to wash out real gold, you must be prepared to live with the mud.

Seeing her so calm, Osamu Dazai didn't get used to it.He waited for a while, before the red medicine's sentence was pronounced, he relaxed a little: "Miss, don't you want to say something?"

"What?" She asked back, "Isn't the matter already finished?"

"I will remember to contact you in time when I am on a business trip in the future. You are not allowed to play tricks to hurt yourself, communicate in time, communicate in time, that's it." She concluded the coffin and waved to Osamu Dazai, "Go and turn off the lights, there is still an hour and twenty I have to go there for a meeting in minutes, I haven't slept for four days, let me sleep for a while."

Hearing what she said, Osamu Dazai had no choice but to hold back no matter how much he said, got up and turned off the lights in the dormitory.Hongyao boiled for several days and brainstormed with Dazai Zhizhi for half an hour, but couldn't hold on anymore, and fell asleep in a daze as soon as he lay down.

...there is really no defense at all.

If you ask a question, Osamu Dazai has even thought of how to answer the red medicine.That must be an extremely natural question: "If you can't even trust me, then why should I ask you to be my boyfriend?"

He thought about it, smiled silently, and found out that the air conditioner was carefully covered on Hong Yao.When she is awake, Hong Yao always looks radiant, only at this time, the light blue color under her eyes is particularly conspicuous.

Osamu Dazai stood up lightly, closed the curtains, and the room was completely dark.

In the darkness, the sound of his intertwined breathing with hers was so clear that it was maddening.

He sat down beside Hong Yao, and asked out of nowhere: "How far can you go, Miss?"

In fact, the red medicine did not sleep well, and I was still a little bit conscious, but it was not enough.She heard Dazai Osamu's question and muttered softly.

"What?" Dazai asked subconsciously.

"Don't think about it—" Her voice became a little clearer, she turned over and clasped Dazai Osamu's palm with one hand.

After more than an hour, without Dazai Zhi calling, Hongyao woke up on time like clockwork.As soon as he woke up, he saw Osamu Dazai with a regretful expression on his face: "Hey, I thought I could provide intimate boyfriend wake-up service..."

"But a caring boyfriend can find something to eat for his girlfriend." Hong Yao joked.

It seems that yesterday's conversation worked out, and Osamu Dazai looks much more normal today.

Dazai Osamu went to search for things in the refrigerator according to his words, Hong Yao took a look behind him, and stopped his useless efforts: "I will not only eat things like canned crab meat...It doesn't work with wine either. How about you Move to Honmaru, at least you don’t have to worry about starving to death here someday.”

"Forget it, I'll eat over there." Hong Yao straightened her clothes and bid farewell to Osamu Dazai, "I'm leaving?"

Osamu Dazai seemed to want to say something, but he didn't say it. He just smiled softly under the morning light.

"Wu luck is prosperous, miss."

"I will." Hongyao walked as usual without looking back, Osamu Dazai watched her disappear at the stairs, but his smile deepened rarely.

"It's rare that the lady said that kind of thing..." He said to himself, "I can't lag behind here."

Before Hong Yao left, he wanted to ask her if she still remembered what she said yesterday.

The sentence she said yesterday when she was half asleep and half awake...

"How far can you go, miss?"

"Don't think about it," she said, probably because she was not conscious, so she was very frank, "You are the reason why I first thought of protecting the world besides my position."

In his unbelievable stiffness, she clasped his hand and added in a low voice: "You are behind, how could I lose."

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