After breaking up, I accidentally counterattacked [E-sports]

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Yi Chuyang stood in front of that unfinished building, the phone in his hand was ringing non-stop...

He looked down and finally accepted.

"Hey?"

"Oh, my ancestor! You finally answered the phone!!" Jiang Mingming's voice sounded very anxious, "Where have you been? We are all waiting for you to come back for training."

Yi Chuyang looked up at the unfinished building in front of him, feeling very disturbed, "You guys start first, I'll go back later."

"No way..." Jiang Mingming immediately complained, "I said Yangshen, no matter how powerful you are, you didn't make it like this. It seems that the global finals will be less than half a month away, why are you still doing it all day long?" Are you thinking of running outside?!"

"No, Xiao Chuyang, this doesn't look like you at all..." Jiang Mingming suddenly became suspicious, "You are much more nervous than me about things like training, when do you need me to remind you? To be honest ,what happened?"

"I'll take a leave of absence."

At this time, Yi Chuyang had already walked upstairs.

"Is this a question of asking for leave?" Jiang Mingming still bit him to death and refused to let go, "No, Xiao Chuyang, you won't really guess it for me, right? You shouldn't, really go back to find him, right? "

"..."

Yi Chuyang remained silent, and the hand that had just put on the doorknob stopped involuntarily...

silence for a moment,

"I'll go!" Jiang Mingming was stunned, "Aren't you? Yi Chuyang? Are you still the decisive Yang God in the arena? When people posted upside down before, you didn't even look at it. Now they You gave up, and you tried your best to catch up? Is there something wrong with your mother?"

"The situation has changed."

'Click——'

The door was screwed...

"Where can it change?"

Yi Chuyang suddenly lowered his head and called him, "Jiang Mingming."

"do you know?"

He murmured, as if he was saying to himself, "It's not me that he gave up, but himself."

"Ah, ah?"

Before Jiang Mingming could react, Yi Chuyang hung up the phone directly.

Pushing open the door of memory that has been dusty for a long time——

He looked at the still dilapidated room,

Resolutely, stepped in...

he must,

Must find!

We must find the long-lost truth...

……

In the small room, Yi Chuyang touched the black mottled wall, he couldn't imagine that Xie Qingqi would grow up in such a small nest...

There are so many awards on the wall...so many that Yi Chuyang almost lost count...

Is it all his?

Why can't you see clearly?

In such a small room, anyone who wants to find anything can find it...

Yi Chuyang easily found a diary in the small desk cabinet.

Made of black leather, new and heavy.

The delicate cover texture is out of tune with the shabbyness of the whole room, as if it came from another world by accident...

only……

too weird.....

There is no date attached to it? !

As far as he knows, every diary of Xie Qingqi will be marked with the year, even the latest one is no exception.

And this one, why not....?

He slowly turned to the first page, the date was when they first met,

But Yi Chuyang has already read the diary of this period!

It is also because of that diary that they will...

Yi Chuyang remained silent,

It's just because this memory is so deep, so deep... that he still remembers the lines on the cover.

It must not be this!

Not even the color of the cover! !

He read the first page carefully, and it was clearly the same thing, but even the content inside was different.

This whole book seems to be just recording some things between them...

'Today, I met a teenager in No. [-] Middle School.He is very good, and his smile is very sunny. Just looking at him can make people feel warm.He was surrounded by everyone and looked very popular.I don't know, will he notice me like this?Shouldn't have noticed it?After all, he is really dazzling...'

'In the afternoon, I met him again, Yi, Chu, Yang...a really warm and sunny person.However, I can still clearly feel that between me and him... from two different worlds.He and li xuan are the same kind, equally confident, free and easy, so proud that people can't help but feel excited... suddenly feel sad.Why is there only me in my world? '

'I also want to try to be a person who can be seen by others, and I also want to be a sunshine.But those guys at GayClub just want to sleep with me.I loathe my body so much, just like what my father said, no matter how hard I try, I will always be so dirty with my mother's blood.Maybe that's the difference between us, and why he and I can never stand together. '

'That day, I drank so badly that another person came to pick up the corpse.Fortunately, I still have some consciousness, and in a daze, I seem to see my sunshine again.Still a lost sun.It may be that I want to have such a warm sunshine too much. This is the sunshine that I have been longing for since I was a child...but the sunshine did not want me.But he seemed to finally notice me. '

'In the Internet cafe, when I saw him again.He is playing the game, his hand speed is very fast, and his operation is also amazing.Rao is a confident and warm person like him. When he is framed by others as cheating, he can pick up the stool and confront them without saying a word. He is still a high-spirited sunshine.He was so kind that I couldn't help the throbbing in my heart, but...what should I do with me like this? '

'I couldn't help it after all...but he seemed to like me, like me like that. '

It seems that I haven't written any more after a long time.....

'He appeared.Just like I never planned to open this diary again, everything was not in my plan... I suddenly became a little scared, he just broke into my life like this.But he's the same as it said in that letter, and he doesn't want to have anything to do with me anymore....'

'His attitude was so determined, it made me very angry, and even for a moment, I really wanted to destroy him.If he got dirty too, wouldn't he.... wouldn't hate me so much? '

'But I can't do it, I can't watch him like me, living in a bottomless ditch all his life.So I can only try to control myself, don't lose my mind.At times like this, it seems that only pain can make me extra sober...'

'That day, Pan Hao found me.Turns out.....I really messed up the sun.He.....shouldn't have been contaminated by me, everything seems to be caused by me.As my mother said, I am really a broom star.Now... Should I let go? '

' He said the breakup letter was not written by him.I don't know what kind of attitude I should show?This is something I didn't touch in my psychology class.He is obviously so sad...but why?I'm so happy?He... doesn't seem to hate me, does he? '

'When I touched the sun, my heart began to try to possess him.But after I took possession, I tried to make all the intruders disappear for me! !Am I...too greedy? '

'As expected, I was discovered... When he asked me about Xiao Ran, I didn't dare to say it.Because his relationship with Yi Chunuan is so good that I can't even imagine how angry he will be when he knows all this... Will he stop them from being together?Will he really... break up with me? '

'The misunderstanding is getting bigger and bigger...it's so big that it seems that no matter how I explain it, no matter how I try to please him, it's useless.He already... doesn't like me anymore...'

'I tried to force him, in an attempt to protect my last bit of ridiculous self-esteem.But Yi Chuyang is still Yi Chuyang...how could he stand the threat of others?He just, just seemed to be disappointed in me...well, he should have been disappointed in me long ago.I would have... had nothing anyone could be proud of.Since you are already so disappointed, why not hate me more? '

'I might be really crazy that I really... really brought him here.Since there is nowhere to go, let's die together!Sure enough, I am my mother's child...'

'This should be a must-have.....almost, just that little bit.I really want to take him...but why...why let him go?Maybe it's just that I'm afraid that Huang Quan will be too cold, that he won't be able to bear it.Or maybe, people like Yi Chuyang should go to heaven.Like I'm doomed to hell, I can never take him or anything with me. '

"It's really bad luck, I didn't die...but forget it, cutting your wrist, it hurts too much..."

There is a blank space behind...

"..."

Yi Chuyang hasn't recovered yet...

What the hell is going on here?

What kind of past was it?Only then can Xie Qingqi be so cautious that he even has to write two copies of his diary to cover up his true heart?

The bookcase is small,

So small, apart from this diary, there is only a rusty iron box left.

This seems to be... the box used to hold mooncakes during the Mid-Autumn Festival?

It's a pity that after a long time, the paint on the iron box has almost fallen off.

After Yi Chuyang opened the box, there were naturally no mooncakes inside.

Yes, just some scattered yellow paper...

'Today, Dad hit Mom again.My mother told me that only if I looked better, more docile, and had better grades, could my father be happier. '

'I'm obviously obedient, I haven't been surpassed, I can take the first place every time.But why does Dad still beat Mom? '

'When I first protected my mother, I thought I was going to get spanked by my father, but no...because my mother did it for him...that was the first time I was beaten and cried .I thought that I was no longer afraid of pain...'

'Afterwards I was really not afraid of pain anymore.I was the best kid, but... they all called me a monster... I don't cry, I don't make noise, I don't laugh anymore...'

'Should I learn how to smile? '

"..."

Yi Chuyang's breathing became short of breath...

He...doesn't have the courage to read it...

He has always been afraid that angels will be stained with dust, but he never thought that angels also crawled out of the abyss of hell...