The Life of 'Core' in Korean Dramas

Chapter 84. Don't be afraid of your own heart

Chengzai, is it Chengzai?Take the slaughter--!

An Hui?Anhui--!

Take the slaughter--!

An Hui!

Take the slaughter!

Anhui, Anhui, Anhui is really you...you, how are you doing now?No, why are you here?Didn't you... Didn't you go to America? "Hula la...Hula!"

Chengzai, I miss you so much. ... How can I live well without you? "Chi Chi! Hula la..."

What did you just say, An Hui, can you say it again, please say it again! "Hula-la...Hula-la..."

I said, I love you--in the days without you, I can't eat or sleep well, and I know that I can't live without you in my life.If I don't come back to you, what else can I do? "Crack! Hula-la-crack!"

You say - you love me!Omg you love me!Aww~ God, did you hear that, did you hear that?She said she loves me, she said she loves me, she finally loves me!Anhui!I love you and I love you too! "Hula-crack! Hula-la-crack!"

The long-lost reunion of the male and female protagonists in the TV series was full of tears and laughter. The love song was sung, and the scene was extremely touching... But at this time, the sounds of clattering, cracking and chirping would spoil the atmosphere too much!

"Cui Xin'ai!" Shun Ren secretly wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, turned his head and glared at the misfit Cui Xin'ai who destroyed the atmosphere with red eyes. "Just now you watched "Persistent Love" and you were crackling, but now you also have opinions on "The City That Never Sleeps". If you don't like watching TV, get out!"

"Who said I didn't watch it!" Cui Xinai threw the book away, pouted her neck and said forcefully: "I did watch it, but this TV series is too nonsense!"

"Bullshit?"

"Yeah! For "Persistence Love", let's talk about the female supporting role first. In the first half, she is obviously a woman who is preparing for revenge and using all kinds of means. She has a very cold attitude towards the male protagonist, okay? How come the second half? When Duan was about to succeed, he fell in love with the hero for no apparent reason? Besides, the heroine, she fell in love with the hero at first sight and did all kinds of stupid things. Love! But what happened to following the hero every afternoon after class to go home? , When I was a stalker? And I didn’t go home in the middle of the night for several months, and I ran out at night just to go downstairs to the hero’s house to see the light in front of his window... Peat, her family members are all unresponsive or dead ?!"

Shun Ren stared dumbfounded at Cui Xinai, who stood up like a cockfight, and Cui Zhongzhe, who was reclined on the tatami, looked back from the TV, and Han Zhenying also put down the snacks.

"The same goes for "City That Never Sleeps", it's so nonsense! This Min Anhui approached Quan Chengzai for money and that man at the beginning, and she did leave Quan Chengzai for money, even in the end despite the repeated attempts of the male lead. Begging and persuading the male lead to go to the United States. Whether it is the first half or the second half, she has always loved the male lead, okay, but now there is no explanation, and she fell in love with the male lead as soon as the wind turned? The same is true for Quan Chengzai, who was treated like this before, this woman said that I can't live without you, I can't do anything without you, and then I love you, so he will accept her again without any grievances?!"

"These protagonists are really all right?"

After bombarding all the incomprehensible parts of the TV series, Cui Xin'ai was happy after finishing speaking, but found that all three people in the family were silently looking at her. "Why? Am I wrong?"

Shun Ren looked Cui Xin'ai up and down, and asked, "Were you bullied at school?"

ah? "No!"

No?There was more suspicion in Shun Ren's eyes. "Argued with a friend? Lower test grades?"

Cui Xinai puffed up her face and said, "I have a good temper, who would quarrel with me, and besides, you have read my report card, mom, and there is no decline." This is obviously asking knowingly.

Shun Ren nodded and asked, "What offended you then?"

"No way!"

"Why don't you eat cannonballs for a few days, and watch TV so angry?! You..." Shun Ren suddenly remembered what her dance troupe said about adolescent mood swings, could it be that thing?He muttered to himself for a long time, looking at the time, the hot water should be boiling, Shun Ren hurriedly stood up and said "Clean up, we will have a family meeting later!" and left the living room.

Seeing the see-saw door slam shut, Cui Zhongzhe pushed Han Zhenying to follow him out. "Don't flip through, that book is almost ruined by you, did you find anything?"

Cui Xinai paused when she turned the page, without raising her head, she replied sullenly: "You don't care about me."

"You think I want to control you, you are the one who is making noise, okay?" Cui Zhongzhe turned to Cui Xinai, raised his eyebrows and asked, "I said that kid Bai Shengzu hasn't come for three days, did you quarrel with him?"

"Leave me alone."

"You read this book every day, what do you want to know? Brother, I can give you some experience."

"Leave me alone."

Cui Zhongzhe sat up with a cold face, the corners of his mouth curled up mockingly, and stabbed: "Huh! If you really don't want people to control you, why are you making such a loud noise? Ah! Do you really think you are three years old?!"

Cui Xinai folded the book discouraged, and the words "Psychological Analysis" were written big and eye-catching on the brown surface. "Hey, I'm your sister, okay, can't you say something nice to comfort me?"

"Hey! Comforting words, right?" Cui Zhongzhe started laughing, Cui Xin'ai just nodded, then suddenly pulled her down, and slapped her on the head viciously: "If you ask, ask quickly! Why do you look dead, say!"

"Aww!" Cui Xinai covered her head with a full face, she struggled and struggled, and finally asked her brother for help. Could it be a wrong decision?But after thinking about it for so many days, she really couldn't think of a reason why she came here!

"Brother, it's just..." Cui Xinai realized that she didn't know how to tell the situation, so she had to roll back to the room and found a pen and paper. "That's right, there's one thing, I've always thought it's just this long." She drew a five centimeter straight line on the paper.Counting the real acquaintance and friendship, the time between her and Bai Shengzu is not too long.

I think they have a crush on each other, but the two of them have never said things like let's date, nor have they talked about love or love, at most they just went to and from school together during this time.

Oh, and they haven't even had an official date!

Looking back now, they spend most of their time together discussing learning issues, books, and their perceptions and opinions after reading the books. When they don’t want to talk, they just sit quietly and drink tea together, or make some small jokes.The relationship between the two of them is extremely simple, to the point of being boring.If the ambiguity when holding hands is not included, there seems to be no romantic taste between them.

Based on the above, isn't their situation not full of lovers above AUO? !

"But there was an incident that made me realize that things were completely different from what I imagined. My level seemed to stay at five centimeters, but the other party didn't know why they went to ten centimeters or even fifteen centimeters!"

"..." This is nothing!Who can understand such an abstract statement like yours!Cui Zhongzhe looked at the two drawn lines on the paper, one short and one long, speechless, and really wanted to hit Cui Xinai's head again!

"Then... things were completely unexpected, and I couldn't think of the reason for the surprise. Another point is that things seem to be developing in a direction I don't know, and I don't know how to control it at all." Although Bai Shengzu The matter of deceiving the police to arrest Yin Junxi was a bit of a loss. Although he changed from a cold but obedient good baby without any warning to a dark devil with a triangular fork belly, it was a bit scary, but Cui Xinai's ability to accept it was still there. Very strong -- but what surprised her was Baek Seung Jo's attitude.

Indifferent to pointless.

She could take this incident simply as Bai Shengzu being jealous for her, or because she was unhappy that she was too close to other men, but Bai Shengzu's eyes on others were too cold.That is not contempt, neglect or even contempt for people or even life, but truly regard life as air!

If Bai Shengzu used to have the potential to be an ice sculpture, then Bai Shengzu seems to have suddenly released the seal and become extremely aggressive—it doesn’t matter if he becomes aggressive, but this kind of reform...

This time it was just to trick the police into arresting people, he has a way to fool him, what if next time?It's fine once, twice, or three times, but who can guarantee that he can escape perfectly every time he attacks in the wrong way?No, you should first figure out why this is the case.No no no!What I want to think about now is, if Bai Shengzu's situation is accidental or...

Looking at Cui Xinai who was at a loss and bewildered, Cui Zhongzhe sighed helplessly.Why is it only five centimeters? The line you drew seems to be inconsistent with what you said... "You are talking about Bai Shengzu, right? Come on, what happened?"

Erasing Yin Junxi's name, Cui Xinai simply said that he went out to drink tea with someone, but Bai Shengzu suddenly called the police and that person was taken away.

"Is that man a man?"

Cui Xinai nodded.

"Do you think Bai Shengzu's behavior has gone too far?"

Cui Xinai nodded again.

"You quarreled with Bai Shengzu because of this? He is too pitiful and you are too fussy! If it were me, if I dared to flirt with my sister or show interest in my girlfriend, I would beat him until he dared not show up!"

Cui Xinai stared.

"Isn't that what falling in love is like? Impulsive, passionate and brainless!"

"Brother!" You can settle the matter even after deceiving the police. Is that something that no-brainers can do? !

Seeing that Cui Xinai was really going to get angry, Cui Zhongzhe quickly raised his hands. "Okay! I'm not kidding, I'm not kidding! This question is too profound, I have to think about it, think about it." He thought for a while, drank a sip of tea, and said in a deep thought: "Speaking of which, Bai Shengzu is not those brats, he It's really not calm for a person with such a personality to do this...but..."

After not seeing Cui Zhongzhe for a long time, Cui Xinai was annoyed, so she could only ask, "But what?"

Cui Zhongzhe, who had regained his senses, raised his eyes, looked at his cute girl, and grinned: "Xinai, you are still too naive! A man is no different from a beast, and a hungry and picky Beasts can't see food." That damn brat who dared to pursue Dugu Min'er, should he break his arm, or cripple his foot?Perhaps, he should make a good plan to let those brats know who that woman really is!

"Hungry beast?" Cui Xinai was taken aback, did this mean Bai Shengzu?

"Everyone has a beast and a demon deep inside, you know that, right?"

After lowering her head and thinking for a moment, Cui Xinai raised her eyes and said, "I don't know if Bai Shengzu has a beast or a demon living in his heart, but I know that Bai Shengzu was not like this before...Although he was cold before, the coldness was pure and without any malice. And the look in his eyes when I saw him that time was equally cold, but inside it was... like he was going to kill people with a knife, but he was absolutely indifferent."

"Think he's scary? Scared?"

"Would it be weird if I said no?"

Choi Jong-cheol shrugged. "Well, since you're not afraid, what are you worried about?"

"Why did he become like this, how...how did he change back." Cui Xinai found that Cui Zhongzhe's expression was weird, bit her lower lip, and said, "I'm afraid something like this will happen a few times. Although he always provokes When people get angry, if you say ten words to him, the most he will give you is just reconciliation, and you always look like you will die if you say one more sentence...Anyway, in short..."

"Cui Xin'ai, you coward!"

"Hey, why are you suddenly..." Cui Xinai glared dissatisfied at Cui Zhongzhe's sudden ridicule, but slowly closed his mouth after seeing her brother's cold face.

"You are not afraid of Bai Shengzu and you don't think he is scary, because you hide here cowardly because what you are afraid of, and what you think is scary is yourself! Calculating the length of each step in fear, always confirming again and again No mistakes, afraid of giving, refusing to change, afraid of speaking, you--" Cui Zhongzhe suddenly fell silent, sighed, and hugged the pale-faced Cui Xinai into his arms.Although in different ways, they are actually the same kind of person, so what right does he have to criticize her?

Calculating the length of each step in fear, always checking again and again that there are no mistakes, afraid of giving, refusing to change, afraid of speaking...Holding in her brother's arms, Cui Xinai silently read what he said, and then smiled wryly.Yes, Cui Zhongzhe is right, she is indeed like this.

When did it become like this?

No matter how well you do it, you will be surrounded by suspicion and contempt; as long as you take a step too far, people will talk about you as a lunatic or a person who has done dirty business; you must always be vigilant against those who are innocent because of your poverty. Water; I can’t easily talk about liking and love because in the eyes of people here, material things can represent everything...Although I am living hard, I gradually start to change. I am afraid of changing others, because I am even more afraid of being changed while changing. ——It turned out that in this incompatible world, she had unknowingly raised her defenses.

The tempering of life reminded her over and over again: the world is so big, but it can belong to her only in this small shabby room.

"Ask yourself, are you really unhappy when he reacts so violently?"

Cui Xinai closed her eyes, unable to deny it.

"Don't believe in this world, and don't give too much affection to people other than your family." Cui Zhongzhe paused, with a bitter taste in his smile. "I believe that we are all the same. We keep this sentence in mind all the time, so we also follow this principle invisibly in our words and deeds. But... sometimes, you can be a little more presumptuous, relaxed, and a little bit, believe Get someone else."

"A little more presumptuous and relaxed?"

"Yes. You know, no matter what happens, no matter what decision you make, my mother and I will only support you and help you. So sometimes you don't have to worry about too many things, just do whatever you want. "

"Even if it's wrong?"

"Yes. It doesn't matter if you make a mistake. If you make a mistake, you can correct it. If you can't correct it, everyone will bear it together." After a pause for two seconds, Cui Zhongzhe said slowly: "Xinai, all the questions you raised are actually not problems. If you are willing, I believe it will be resolved. The most fundamental question now is whether you choose to stay together or separate."

"Separate?" Cui Xin'ai shook her little finger, confusion and panic flashed through her eyes.Recalling every detail of her and Bai Shengzu's getting along in her mind, it seems that they..., yes, they haven't done any emotional cultivation.Under such circumstances, if we talk about separation, we should have no feeling at all.

Such a simple and tasteless relationship...

But she had to admit that even though their relationship was so boring without any romance, she was still nostalgic.Well, not only being nostalgic, but also feeling deeply sad and resentful at the thought of separation.

But when I think about it carefully, even when I told Bai Shengzu that the two of them were calm for a few days, they never thought of breaking up.

"Well. Now that you both have room to maneuver."

"... What if we continue?"

"So are you ready to feed a beast? That's not a puppy, and if you continue, you may not be able to shake him off."

After a long silence, stroking Cui Xin'ai's long hair, Cui Zhongzhe said softly: "Xin'ai, if you are afraid of changing and afraid of the word love, then use another method."

"Another way." Cui Xinai murmured, raising her head.

"Well, another way." Cui Zhongzhe raised the corner of his mouth and said in a cold voice: "If you dare not use love, then--"

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"There are two main things in the family meeting tonight." Shun Ren looked around at the people present, and said, "Zhen Ying is not young anymore, and she will be 13 next year. She has been self-willed for so many years, and she is not young anymore. It's time to take responsibility! He is so I plan to let him go to school like those students in three months tomorrow."

Cui Xinai poured tea for everyone present. Upon hearing the news, she and Cui Zhongzhe looked at each other and asked a question: "Did the doctor say it's ok? Ya Liying's opinion." Anyway, Han Zhenying is a child of the Yin family. He Yazhenying's arbitrariness in keeping Han Zhenying behind has been a bit too much, and what the Yin family said about things like helping him decide to go to school...mainly what Han Jinghui said.

"The doctor said that he is recovering very well. Now that everything is healed, we can't just stay at home lazily!" Shun Ren turned his head to look at Han Zhenying, who was faintly showing uneasiness. "I've inquired about it. You need to register half a year in advance, and you can apply in half a month."

"No." Han Zhenying pursed her lips, her eyes full of protest.

It's a pity that the protest was ineffective, but fortunately, Cui Xinai comforted him: "Now we can only play with Enzu after school and at noon. If we go to school in the future, we will spend more time together than now."

Han Zhenying looked at Shun Ren, but Shun Ren didn't think about it.After thinking about it, she said, "Then you can ask him which junior high school he goes to, and try it then." If the school he goes to is too expensive, she has nothing to do.

The first thing is done.

"The second thing is about the Yin family." When Shun Ren mentioned the Yin family, he couldn't help but frown, because although Yin Yaliying's mother agreed to get treatment and work to support the children, she lost three jobs during this period. , and for such a long time, I haven't even made a phone call.

"I mentioned to her about Zhenying's going to school, and she agreed. I'm afraid you already know Xinai. Yazhenying plans to pass the university in Seoul, and she will come to Seoul with her mother at that time. .”

Cui Xinai lowered her eyelids, knowing that there might be another change at that time.As for Han Zhenying... She glanced at Han Zhenying who was sitting upright from the corner of her eye.His expression was dull, and only when he heard Ya Zhenying's name did his eyes fluctuate.Perhaps the only memory of his mother in his mind is Han Jinghui's face of crying and crying.

Shun Ren stopped Cui Xinai from messing up Han Zhenying's hair, and continued: "But Zhenying's application cannot be delayed like this, so I decided to temporarily close the store for the next two days and go to Hengcheng!"

Hengcheng...

"I went to Hengcheng to discuss this matter with Ya Zhenying's mother, Zhenying, you go with me too! Your mother has not seen you for a long time, and you have not seen your mother for a long time. I must miss you very much. Also, we were not at home during the period , you two should haggle over the price, no one is allowed to cause trouble, you hear me!"

"Wait! I've been busy these days!" Cui Zhongzhe raised his hand to signal.

Doesn't that mean Cui Xin'ai is left alone at home?Shun Ren asked fiercely: "What are you busy with?!"

Cui Zhongzhe expressed his innocence: "I am already in my junior year, and I have started preparing experiments and papers!"

Shun Ren and Cui Zhongzhe looked at Cui Xinai at the same time, Cui Xinai blinked.In fact, she has no problem at all at home alone, not to mention that there are always people opening shops and doing business in this street all night long, even the anti-theft measures at home are also very good.

It's a pity that Shun Ren is worried.

"Let Min'er come and accompany you."

"Forget it, let Xin Ai go to Miner's side. Miner's side is not a community, it's safer than here."

"But there are few people there."

=X= Your worries are completely unnecessary.Cui Xinai rolled her eyes and said, "I'll go to Min'er."

The second thing is over, and what else...

there is none left.Then break up and go to sleep!

The author has something to say: Ouch, classmate Bai can be rough tomorrow! ! !

OTL, I feel like I've collapsed... I'm trying to recover, tears in my eyes