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"Qi Yan..." Ling Muchen was stunned for a moment, his face was a little joyful, but instinctively had some doubts, "Senior, is it true?"

Qi Yan didn't speak.

"Senior... say it again, okay?"

Qi Yan just shook his head.How can you say that?

"Senior, I'm very happy." Ling Muchen stretched out her slender white hand, and held Qi Yan's hand tightly.

"...Even if I only heard you say it once." He said in an extremely small voice.

Qi Yan was stunned for a moment, then looked up at Ling Muchen, and said, "Ling Muchen... which one is you?"

Ling Muchen didn't understand what he meant, so he didn't speak.

Qi Yan suddenly laughed: "I really don't understand you...but, I really like you too."

"Do you like someone and want to understand him completely? ... But I would rather not be like this."

Ling Muchen just quietly listened to Qi Yan saying something that he might not understand, but he didn't interrupt.

"Ling Muchen, do you think it's really possible for us?" Until Qi Yan's eyes widened, he looked at Ling Muchen with some fear.

"Senior... As I said, you don't have to think about anything... just leave it to me." Ling Muchen frowned and said very seriously, "Just leave it to me. Okay?"

Qi Yan nodded in a daze.

Ling Muchen glanced at Qi Yan's expression, but felt as if a heavy stone was pressing on his heart.I don't know how I have come to this point where I can't go back.Maybe as he said, he was completely fascinated by this person in front of him-this ordinary, even weak and incompetent person.Maybe he would have a more comfortable life just being an ordinary person.But now he wants to drag him to take the biggest danger in the world. ...

Ling Muchen didn't know what he did was right, but he didn't want to let go.

From childhood to adulthood, he never let go, as long as it is what he wants, he must get it...Only one time he broke a promise to a couple, and it has been very painful since then...So he swore from then on that his own The way of life is to live only for yourself.So he only does what he likes and lives what he likes.If need be, he tramples on other people's heads...and walks on with relentless brutality.This is his law of life.

Incomparably adapted to this world of the jungle.

But now, what is he hesitating about?

Ling Muchen was stunned for a long time before looking at Qi Yan, and said, "Senior... Then let's give each other the last time. Wait until you really reply. I will prove it to you."

Qi Yan didn't speak, but listened carefully to Ling Muchen's words.

"Yes, what do you mean?" Qi Yan felt his heart tremble.What is giving each other the last period of time?What is really making a reply...

It turns out that no one believed his reply either, right?

... "Senior?" Ling Muchen glanced at Qi Yan.

"It's nothing." Qi Yan shook his head, "...tonight, I have something to do...so."

Ling Muchen frowned and said, "Senior, is there anything you can't tell me?"

"...I just want to talk to you." Qi Yan's attitude was clear, he didn't want Ling Muchen to participate in this matter.

"You don't worry about me?" Qi Yan raised his head to look at Ling Muchen, and suddenly smiled, "You still don't worry about me."

"...Qi Yan, that's your freedom. I won't interfere." Ling Muchen hesitated before saying.

"Thank you." Qi Yan said.

Ling Muchen didn't answer, so is he going to say "You're welcome" at this time?

He glanced at Qi Yan from the corner of his eye, and frowned vigilantly.

Qi Yan happened to see that scene, and said lightly, "Are you really worried about me?"

"...Senior, it's not that I'm worried about you. It's just..." Ling Muchen walked towards Qi Yan, stretched out a hand to hold Qi Yan's arm, "I'm just becoming more and more dependent on you. One minute and one second...I want to know what you are doing." He finished speaking in a weak voice, and then leaned his head on Qi Yan's shoulder, feeling Qi Yan's thin body tremble.Ling Muchen raised his hand weakly, and hugged the person in front of him from behind.

"Senior, I can no longer live without you."

This sentence seems a bit familiar.Qi Yan didn't make a sound, just quietly looked into the distance.It took a long while to turn around and look at Ling Muchen: "...I don't mean to leave."

"I... know." Ling Muchen seemed to be trying to pull a smile.

Qi Yan was stunned for a moment, raised his hand, and when he raised it lightly in mid-air, it fell down again.

——Ling Muchen, I lost.

……

As dusk approached, the sunlight turned into a fiery and golden color, exaggerating the shadows of pedestrians.

On the street with few people, every five to ten meters there is a tree of a small size, the leaves are still green, shiny and black under the sun.

There are two people standing under a very ordinary tree.

They turned their backs to each other, and they couldn't tell what kind of relationship it was, maybe they were friends or something.But there is no smile on the face when staying together.

"You called me out. What's the matter?"

"I thought you wouldn't come."

Qi Yan was stunned for a moment, turned his back to that person, and chuckled lightly: "Why."

"Qi Yan..." Mo Hanqi trembled in his heart, and said, "I thought you didn't want to see me."

"... Between us, we are still ordinary friends." Qi Yan said lightly.

This sentence made Mo Hanqi at a loss.It turns out that if you can't be a couple, you can still be ordinary friends? ——Qi Yan just wanted to tell him that he didn't care about Mo Hanqi in his heart now, did he?

"Qi Yan, I'm glad you're willing to come out to see me today." Mo Hanqi said softly.

"That's because you threatened me." Qi Yan replied lightly.

"If I don't threaten you...would you meet me?" Mo Hanqi showed his usual smile, "Just ordinary friends..." he whispered, his eyes extremely blank.

"No." Qi Yan said firmly.

"So...does this mean that you still care about me?" Mo Hanqi heard himself laughing helplessly.

"Of course." Qi Yan said lightly, but smiled when he finished talking: "We have known each other for many years. We can be friends if we can't be a couple."

Mo Hanqi felt that his chest was very sad, as if he could not breathe under the pressure of a big rock, but he forced himself to smile: "... Wouldn't it be better for us to be friends from the beginning?"

Qi Yan didn't answer, but asked him instead: "Do you think so?"

This rhetorical question made Mo Hanqi unable to answer.He turned to look at Qi Yan, and walked towards him: "Do we have to keep our backs to each other?"

"...Mo Hanqi, don't come over." Qi Yan said lightly.

"Why?..." Mo Hanqi asked him.

Qi Yan said, "Because... I don't want to watch your face."

"Then why did you agree to come to see me?" Mo Hanqi frowned, lowered his head, and heard himself say softly: "Actually until now... I thought we hadn't broken up....I, really...can't You." His words seemed to have no tone, like declarative sentences, without any emotion.

"No," Qi Yan answered him lightly, "We have already broken up."

"Actually... There must be some misunderstanding between us?" Mo Hanqi said.

Only then did Qi Yan turn around and look at Mo Hanqi: "I'm here to see you today, just as a friend... okay?"

The voice was weak, but firm.

"I know." Mo Hanqi said softly.

"You...what else to say." Qi Yan meant that he already wanted to leave.

"You have come to see me, why do you care about 2 minutes?" Mo Hanqi took a few steps towards the person in front of him.

"I came to see you just because I was afraid that something might happen to you." Qi Yan said lightly, and smiled: "But you look fine now."

"Not good, I'm not good at all!" Mo Hanqi walked over abruptly and took Qi Yan's hand, "I told you, I haven't felt that we are separated until now... because I like you until now , and... since you care so much about me, you... still like..."

He didn't finish his sentence.

But it has been interrupted.

"Mo Hanqi, I told you, please don't be too sentimental." Qi Yan raised his chin at him, showing an almost contemptuous smile: "Like me? Don't lie to me anymore? When you like me, what do you do? By the way, how many people do you like? ...Or, I just happened to do it."

"What do you mean by that?" Mo Hanqi looked at Qi Yan extremely puzzled.

"What do I mean, don't you understand?" Qi Yan smiled at him.That smile was so different from the usual Qi Yan.

To be precise, there is not even the slightest similarity.

"Qi Yan, I understand? What do I understand?" Mo Hanqi looked at the person in front of him in a panic, and suddenly tore his face, and smiled: "I told you when you graduated, I want you to study with me in graduate school, We can work and live together in the future... But you didn't listen to me... If you listened to me at that time, we can still live well now."

"Mo Hanqi, that's not the point at all!" Qi Yan frowned and looked at the other party, "Do you still think that we broke up because of that kind of thing?"

"I know...you said you fell in love with someone else." Mo Hanqi smiled, but this smile was as different from his previous ones.

He usually smiles gently, but at this moment, it seems that he has torn off the skin on the surface, revealing a pair of blood-stained bones and flesh, with a ferocious smile.

Qi Yan didn't speak.

Mo Hanqi pressed Qi Yan's shoulder: "...Actually, that's okay? I've thought about it carefully...I like you, only you...I only love you...people Ah, mistakes are inevitable, I don't mind you being with him... I don't mind you having sex with him. Because I was too negligent at that time. But... I hope you come back to me. This time, I'm completely centered on you, okay? I'll do whatever you say."

Qi Yan was stunned for a moment, then smiled suddenly: "I heard that you are going to study abroad."

"As long as you say a word, I won't go." Mo Hanqi looked straight at him, "Did you forget? I could not go for you that year, and it's the same now."

"Qi Yan...I really love you. To be honest, I don't know why you broke up with me, but...it must be a temporary thing...you must have other reasons....If I really Whatever I did wrong, I am willing to change it for you. I really love you."

Qi Yan felt his palms tremble.

Mo Hanqi grabbed his hand tightly: "Just please don't talk to me, don't tell me what you're thinking... I really love you... If I do something wrong, I really love you." It can be changed. Okay? I really can't live without you." He was about to cry.

"Stop talking about that, okay?" Qi Yan said calmly.

"...Yan, I really, really love you."

"I know." Qi Yan said lightly, but raised his chin at the other party and smiled." "Mo Hanqi, but I said so.I don't love you anymore.I just came to see you just because... I'm worried about you.But that is not because of love to worry about you, just because I regard you as a friend. "

"Then have you ever liked me? Have you ever loved me?" Mo Hanqi grabbed Qi Yan's shoulders, "The two of us...we've finally come to this point. Are you going to ruin everything?"

"Who ruined everything?" Qi Yan whispered.

"Say it again, Qi Yan, speak louder!" Mo Han looked directly at Qi Yan with his eyes, and pressed him every step of the way.

"There is no reason! There is nothing wrong with us...it's just not suitable." Qi Yan used an excuse that he thought he would never use in this life.

"Not suitable? Is Ling Muchen suitable?" Mo Hanqi felt that his sanity was about to collapse again.

Qi Yan said in an extremely calm tone: "Yes."

"When I was with you, I really loved you too. But... Mo Hanqi, I thought about it, we really are not suitable." Qi Yan closed his eyes slightly, "Because I can't think of myself anymore. What can I say."

Do you have to make him tell everything?

In the end, Feide gave each other a bad memory. ...Why don't you just break up in a decent seat?

"Mo Hanqi. I used to love you, but I don't love you now." Qi Yan looked at him seriously, "I came to see you this time, actually, I still have a purpose, and that is to tell you for the last time... there is no possibility for us .Now I reject you for the third time... Please don't humiliate yourself any more." After he said these words lightly, he turned around and was about to leave.

"What about us before?...What about our past? Have you forgotten?" Mo Hanqi stood behind Qi Yan and shouted, "Have you forgotten? You really don't love me anymore?"

Qi Yan didn't speak, and continued to walk forward.Soon, hurried footsteps were heard, and then suddenly someone hugged him from behind.

"Qi Yan, I really love you."

"Stop talking." Qi Yan said lightly, "It will only make people more painful."

"But... I really can't live without you."

Qi Yan smiled: "I don't care if you have me or not in your world... Mo Hanqi, you just need time to accept the reality. The reason why you are uncomfortable is because you think you have spent too much effort on me."

"That's also because I love you!" Mo Hanqi's breath was rapid and he repeated the movement of slapping Qi Yan's stamina, once and for all, as powerful as a heartbeat, but the hand he hugged Qi Yan from behind seemed to be blown by a gust of wind can be dispersed.

"Mo Hanqi, do you dare to tell the whole world that you like me? Do you dare to tell your parents... that you like a man? Do you dare to tell your girlfriends that you already have a boyfriend? "Qi Yan lowered his head expressionlessly, "Do you dare to give up everything for me?"

He clearly felt Mo Hanqi tremble while hugging his body.

After a long time, he heard him smile: "Did Ling Muchen dare?"

Qi Yan then laughed too: "You're just not reconciled, right?... You're not reconciled to being robbed of a toy that you thought was entirely yours. This is how much I hold in your heart." embrace, standing opposite him.

With a residual blazing / hot breeze, it seems that the whole body is numb.

Qi Yan felt that it was because he had stood under the sun for too long.

"Mo Hanqi, stop doing such meaningless things." Qi Yan looked at him indifferently, "Now—even if you tell me how much you like me a thousand times, ten thousand times, it's useless. "

——You must have forgotten who did what should not be done in the first place, who personally broke all the so-called futures that should have been beautiful.

Although Qi Yan is not sure that they will be able to reach the end if that is the case...but at least it will not be like this now.

"Mo Hanqi, remember, you destroyed all of this with your own hands. But you are not the only one who made the decision..." Qi Yan looked at him expressionlessly, and said seriously: "Love is two people. things.—Now I don’t love you anymore.”

"You don't need to come to me anymore." Qi Yan said, turned and left expressionlessly.

Mo Hanqi yelled at him from behind: "Qi Yan, let me say... this is the last chance I'll give you. Turn around! Turn around and we'll start again? Okay!"

Will not turn around.

A cautious person is willing to go straight forward with so much determination.From the very beginning, you should know that once you take a step, you will never take it back.How can I turn back?