find a man to fall in love with

In the middle of the night, a person accompanied him on the road.

"What's the matter? Talk, don't be in a daze." Xu Mo put his hand in front of Qi Yan and waved it, and Qi Yan came back to his senses.

"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry today. I didn't know you were there, so I asked you to come here."

"What do you mean I came here without knowing where I was?" Xu Mo smiled, "I was playing around here, but I just rushed here because I was too bored."

"Oh. Thank you so much." Qi Yan nodded.

"Then do you want to play with me?" Xu Mo raised a pretty good smile, "How is it?"

"No...no need." Qi Yan never liked places that were so lively,

"Actually, I think you should go back and continue playing. I think it's better for me to go home." He thinks the above is the best way at present, although he feels that it is really embarrassing for Xu Mobai to make a trip , but Qi Yan felt that he should have nothing worthy of the other party's staying.

"That's not okay, I don't want to run around." Xu Mo glanced at Qi Yan, "Since this is the case, let's go play together. What are you afraid of? Are you afraid of playing the same game as last time?"

"Game?" asked suspiciously.At the same time, Xu Mo suddenly stepped forward, and before Qi Yan could react, he suddenly kissed him, and Qi Yan slapped her almost without hesitation.Fortunately, Xu Mo reacted quickly and caught Qi Yan's hand with one hand, otherwise the scene would probably be embarrassing again.

"If you don't kiss, you don't kiss. Why do you hit me?"

"Sorry, I was scared, and I didn't know."

Xu Mo waved his hand helplessly, expressing that he just wanted to play a prank just now, but in the end he sighed: "Why did you run away when I kissed you, but when Ling Muchen did the same thing, you not only let him kiss you, but also made him kiss you?" He stuck his tongue in."

"You, you," Qi Yan stared blankly at Xu Mo, his eyes widened, "What are you talking about?"

"Did I say something wrong?" Xu Mo suddenly stood up straight and looked down at Qi Yan, "You, do you like him? Do you like Ling Muchen?"

Qi Yan raised his head and stared blankly at Xu Mo: "Are you... kidding?"

"Isn't it true?"

"I'm sorry. Ling Muchen and I are just a very ordinary boss-subordinate relationship."

"Don't you like it?" He asked again.

"No."

"So, even if you don't like it at all?"

"...He and I are both men."

"As far as I know, you like men, right?" Xu Mo's gaze suddenly turned cold, but the moment he saw the other party frowning, he returned to his original state, just smiled: "You really treat Ling Muchen , don't you like it at all?"

At that time, the streets were still bustling, they were walking on a dim path with yellow street lights, Qi Yanhu raised his head and looked straight at Xu Mo: "Xu Mo, let me tell you a secret."

Xu Mo was casually looking around at that time, when he heard his words suddenly, he smiled: "Okay."

Qi Yan felt himself trembling nervously, and clenched his fists: "Actually, I'm gay, but I'm not what you think." Qi Yan tried hard to stand up straight, but subconsciously lowered his head, "Actually, I'm gay now. I can't speak."

"Since it's so painful to say it, don't say it." Xu Mo showed him a big smile, "Man, why do you make yourself live in such pain? Just use your way, can you live happily?"

"No, I want to say it. Because I have to say it..." If he doesn't say it, he will die alone in pain and sorrow, "Will you listen to what I have to say?"

Xu Mo nodded.

"Actually." Qi Yan took a long breath, because his head was lowered so that people could not see his expression, "I am different from what you imagined."

"It's not the same." What does this sentence mean.Xu Mo was stunned for a moment, and the hand stroking Qi Yan's head also paused.

Xu Mo withdrew his hand, feeling his hand trembling for the first time.what exactly is it?What's the difference, what's the difference?With some excitement, he walked up and grabbed Qi Yan's shoulder, "It's different from what I imagined, what does this mean?"

Qi Yan looked up at Xu Mo in a daze, startled by his behavior.

"sorry."

"It's okay." He knew that his sexual orientation itself was a joke in the eyes of many people.

Qi Yan began his narration.

When talking about those previous stories, he described everything so beautifully, like a fairy tale.But until now, he couldn't speak anymore.

What should he do?

He always thought that he loved his boyfriend deeply, but in fact he just used him as a plaything for entertainment.For five whole years he was kept in the dark, thinking how much they loved each other.In fact, the only one who indulged in it was himself.

That person was always holding his hand unscrupulously on the street, kissing him secretly when eating in high-end restaurants, but never told anyone close to him about his name.

Turns out it was just a lie?Then why weave such a lie... because he is easy to deceive, because he has a weak personality?Because he takes everything so seriously, should he be deceived like this...

"If you want to know the truth so much, then I will accompany you to see it."

Qi Yan hesitated.

"Don't you want to see what's going on?" Xu Mo stood up straight and looked at Qi Yan: "Or, you don't even have that kind of courage?"

"Or. Or do you want to pretend to turn a blind eye to this matter? If all this is just a lie fabricated by the other party, do you think there is anything worth nostalgic about?"

"Stop talking." He couldn't hear a word anymore.

What he said is right, is he going to let himself be like this all the time?He can't do it, he will die...

But what if it is true?Can he still face Mo Hanqi...Actually...Qi Yan also knows.

"But..." Qi Yan's voice had already started to tremble, "I... am scared."

"Then what do you think in your heart? Don't you want to know the truth? If you care so much, don't look like a bystander and cry like a fool."

He was right.

Qi Yan also knows.

"You know the address." Xu Mo said lightly, "If you are sure that it is the hotel you mentioned, I am sure to find it out for you. Go now, and you may not know anything if it is later."

After he finished speaking, he held Qi Yan's hand straight away, and the latter followed him blankly. They stopped a car at the corner of the road, and then went straight to the hotel.

It was a national chain five-star hotel, luxurious and famous, whether it was in the city of C or the whole country.

When he came to the front desk, Qi Yan nervously followed behind Xu Mo.He is obviously an adult, but he looks like a high school student.On the contrary, it was impossible for Xu Mo to feel nervous at all.

"Help us open a room."

Qi Yan really didn't understand Xu Mo's intentions, so he stretched out his hand and tugged at his sleeves. The latter looked back at him, smiling softly: "You are very tired, take a rest."

Xu Mo took the room card and handed it to Qi Yan: "333 on the third floor, you go up first, leave this to me."

"is this okay."

Xu Mo smiled at him, showing the charming smile that belonged to this handsome big boy, "I will help you arrange it, no matter what the result is, don't cry later." But at the end Added: "If you really cry, I can take your shoulders."

……

When he went upstairs, he searched for a long time before finding room 333, but when he was about to open the door, the doors of other rooms opened.A girl's bright laughter came out.

The voice was even a little familiar.

Before Qi Yan had time to be surprised, he saw in a room not far from him, a young girl in a lady's attire was facing away from him, and the boy standing at the door of the room was not wearing any clothes on his upper body. , also just wrapped in a bath towel.Although his face was sideways, he recognized it immediately.

That person is Mo Hanqi.

It's the hero who he only thinks Sunshine is elegant and handsome, like a prince, and he thinks it's the so-called love story like a fairy tale.

At the same time, Mo Hanqi happened to turn his head to look at Qi Yan.

At that moment, Qi Yan suddenly felt nauseous.

Not that kind of sad, sad, but disgusting...

He quickly took out his room card and entered the room before the other party noticed him.At that time, the light had not been turned on, and in the dark, Qi Yan heard himself sobbing quietly.He remembered the girl.It was the one that pushed him into the lake when he was at school that day...

Only now did he finally understand that there really were no fairy tales.

It turns out that there is really nothing that is so easy to get, happiness.

It turns out that all the tenderness and beauty are lies, there is no love at all.

……

Xu Mo had another room card, and when he opened the door, the room was pitch black, so he turned on the light, only to see Qi Yan curled up by himself.

"I found out, they're at 331, just around here."

"I know."

Xu Mo glanced at Qi Yan, stunned for a moment: "What's wrong? You know?"

"I saw it just now..." Qi Yan raised his head and smiled as much as possible, "I already know the truth, thank you very much, please don't continue this matter..."

Xu Mo thought he would cry.Sometimes it's just a small thing, he is like a very weak animal, crying silently by himself, but this time he didn't, just very quiet, with his head down, not knowing what to look at.He didn't know that this person's tears had dried up long ago, and the pain that could shed tears was sometimes not worth mentioning at all.

Because there is nothing more sad than death.

Xu Mo walked to him and sat down.Qi Yan looked at him and smiled: "Today, I really trouble you."

you?Xu Mo glanced at him: "Actually, I didn't do anything."

"It's enough..." Qi Yan closed his eyes, trying hard to keep the tears from flowing.It turned out that the heart died, but the wound was still there.

Xu Mo reached out and patted him, "Now that you know, let's give up on that person."

Give up, just give up like this?Shouldn't you just give up?

"Since he lied to you like this, it means that he has never given his heart."

"Five years, five years, you are just a plaything for his leisure." Maybe this is too serious, Xu Mo lowered his voice again: "Maybe he really likes you, but you think such a cheap liking is worth it ?"

"I see. In fact..." Qi Yanhu opened his mouth, but his eyes were empty: "Maybe the relationship between me and him is just one-sided wishful thinking. Are you right?" But he was still smiling ?

Xu Mo stopped and looked at Qi Yan beside him.He suddenly turned Qi Yan's head to him, and then kissed him.When Qi Yan came back to his senses, the kiss had already fallen.It was just a simple kiss, lips on lips.

"Actually, I still like you a little bit..." Xu Mo's expression was calm, "We can give it a try."

"Try?" Qi Yan came back to his senses and pushed the other party away: "Please...don't make fun of me."

His feelings are not given casually.

If you give it wrong, if you want to get it back, you will not give it to anyone else.