Playing deaf and dumb in the hunter world

To say, OrNotTo say? That'sAQuestion.

Responsible or not responsible, this is a question worth pondering.

To be an upright man or to be a scumbag who shirks responsibility and avoids problems and runs away after taking advantage, this is a multiple-choice question that does not require thinking.

Hesitation comes and goes... I grit my teeth and close my eyes, I should be responsible!No matter how much Yun Gu asks me to make amends, it doesn't matter, insulting the master would be a felony that ruins the reputation in ancient times!Even if Yun Gu asked to touch it back and hug it back, it should be done!Anyway, there will be no less meat!

He lowered his head and raised the board: "Master."

○-○: "Huh?"

Swallowing my saliva, I continued to raise the board: "I do have...something to tell you..."

○-○: "Don't worry, you can tell me whatever you have to say."

Taking a peek at Yun Gu's face, he raised his board: "Really, really...?"

○-○: "Of course, as long as I can help, whether it's martial arts or mind power, even personal troubles are fine. I see that you haven't been going well since learning boxing today, and your mind power fluctuates It’s also very confusing. Our Xinyuanliu most emphasizes the consistency of the boxing heart, which means that what a person thinks in his heart will be reflected in his boxing method. So when you punch, I already know what you think in your heart.”

What! ? (⊙0⊙)?

Woooooo...what to do, he already knows what I just thought...(ㄒoㄒ)

Raising the board tentatively: "That...Master...what do you know?"

○_○: "I can see a lot."

Woooooo...~~~~(>_<)~~~~ I also saw a lot! !I'm dead~~~! !

"Your thinking is even more chaotic." ○_○, "This shows that your mind is already chaotic."

Holding up the board dejectedly: "Master, you can see it..."

Yun Gu smiled and nodded: "Yes. However, in fact, this problem is easy to solve. You don't have to be so troubled."

Hey, it turned out to be a good solution?Don't you need me to be responsible?As expected of a master!How magnanimous!I looked up expectantly.

○-○: "From your punches, it can be seen that you have always been worried, unable to make up your mind, and unable to exert force smoothly. Because, you - are afraid!"

That's right!Master, I just dare not tell you~~~!It was not smooth to explain to Xiaojie and the others!I nodded again and again, Master, you are really my confidant~~~!

○_○: "Your own imitation ability is very strong, you can imitate my posture in one pass, but the only way to exert force is arm strength. This is a normal phenomenon for beginners. But when I told you about exerting force The method pays attention to the main points, and breaks down the practice step by step so that you are familiar with the coherence. With your ability, you should never be unable to maintain your balance on the third punch!"

Master... I really didn't mean to take advantage of you~~!I will be responsible for you, just mention any conditions you have... I bowed my head and secretly repented in my heart.

○_○: "This is because you are subconsciously resisting. Although you rationally understand that you need to do your best, your body is constantly resisting! Once something happens, you always want to escape instead of fighting. You always have to keep the greatest strength instead of going all out. The same is true for your thoughts. A large amount of Qi is kept in the body, and only a very small part can be used to achieve normal application effects. Precisely control the Qi Your ability surprised me. But you are equally astonishingly weak in the burst of energy! Such thoughts are the least aggressive in battle. Therefore, even though you have extremely powerful thoughts, you also have the same Matching control ability, but you can't use one-tenth of your own ability. This is the key to your failure, you are afraid in your heart, and your top priority is not to fight, but to protect yourself!"

Eh? ⊙_⊙?

Is this what you see?

Khan... I've been on tenterhooks for so long... I was almost caught out by you... I breathed a sigh of relief.

○_○: "New Fulis!"

I quickly sat up straight with my chest up, raised my board, and said, "Yes! Master!"

Yun Gu stood up with his hands behind his back, looked out of the window with an ethereal expression, his voice was extremely low: "Tell me, your sincerity."

My eyes followed his thin and tall figure, and my heart suddenly moved.

My...really...?

My heartbeat suddenly became messy for a moment, I...

(Pink bubbles are flying all over the sky...)

Yun Gu suddenly turned around and shouted: "New Fulishi! Tell me! Do you really want to become stronger?!"

I stood up in a jerk and subconsciously raised my board: "I want to!"

(The pink bubble burst...it only existed for 3 seconds! 3 seconds!)

Yun Gu asked slowly word by word: "Then why do you want to become stronger?"

Why do you want to become stronger?

I thought of the dead body of Milo again, the screams, and the stench of blood... I thought of the scattered limbs and heads on the airship, the cold murderous look in Ilmi's inorganic eyes, The incomparably sharp blade of beating the enemy Hakka, the tingling pain on the neck, the fear that penetrates into the bone marrow...

I, I want to be able to protect myself, I want to survive, I want to find happiness, I want to be able to protect what I cherish, relatives, friends... I want to be able to help them!The feeling of being regarded as an ant that can be wiped out casually, the humiliation of being controlled by human hands, the horror of being used to scare others, the pain and unwillingness of being a burden to your companions...

Raise the board seriously: "I want to live, to live with a sense of security, to live with security, to live with happiness. I want to protect the people I cherish, and to protect happiness!"

○_○: "Very good. But, I want to ask you, you have never tried your best, you have never tried to approach the limit, how can you go beyond the limit? How can you break through the limit and become stronger?!"

I……

I bowed my head.

It's not that I haven't been close to the limit. The training after the first awakening on Whale Island, those days of sweating and fulfilling, those days of being forced by anxiety to continue training, those days attracted by the magic of mind power, and constantly exploring the ability of mind. day……

After leaving the Whale Island, I never had the kind of concentration that I just immerse myself in and practice constantly surpassing the limit without worrying about the future... I tried to push the door on the gate of the underworld, and I was playing the game of beating the enemy's housekeeper... Accidentally Doomed...

Hiding my strength has become a subconscious behavior, and I am afraid of this still unfamiliar world.

Survive, survive.I was subconsciously avoiding and covering up carefully, but I couldn't see my true heart clearly...

I remember that Bisiji also said that Qiya gave up quickly during the battle.Excessive caution and underestimation.He will unconsciously compare the opponent's upper limit with his own minimum strength, and fight on the premise of being able to retreat completely.It is not a style of play that pursues victory, but a style of play that prioritizes self-preservation and leaves a way out. This is the thinking mode of the lost dog.

But I am not the same as Qi Ya, Qi Ya will not avoid fighting, but I am instinctively afraid of fighting...

Yes...I'm afraid...I'm afraid of fighting, of blood, of pain, of hate, of hurt...

Although I force myself to accept the laws of this world, despite my constant efforts to adapt...even though I gradually integrate with this world, even though I have many caring, cherished relatives and precious friendships...

I am still a kite in this world. Although there is a strong thread that is tied to this world, it is still fluttering in the wind and has not landed on the ground.

That empty feeling of loneliness that pops up in my heart when I'm alone...that empty heart despite having a lot and getting a lot...

Am I sincere...?

○_○: "Only an extremely strong sense of insecurity can cause your unconscious fighting style, Xiaoxin, can you tell me what are you afraid of?" Looking at me who was silent, Yun Gu softened tone.

No one has ever tried to understand my heart.

I've never been asked if I'd like to confide in...

No one has ever cared, what am I afraid of...

Want to speak out?The secret that has never been told, the last forbidden place in the heart that is carefully guarded.

Can you tell me?Will you believe me?Will you protect me from hurting me?Tolerate me at all times and be my reliance, so that I can entrust you with peace of mind?

Looking at Yun Gu's face, I felt that my heart began to beat irregularly again...

Plop, plop, plop...

Soft... warm... a little tingling... as if being gently brushed by a brush... sour and swollen...

Yun Gu asked softly: "Would you... tell me your sincerity?"

That hole in my heart, I seem to know what it is...

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In the end, I still didn't say it.

The matter of crossing is my biggest secret in this world, and I can't tell anyone.

It's not that I don't want to speak out, but that I can't.

Even though I refused to answer Yun Gu's inquiry, he didn't force me,

Before walking out of my room, Yun Gu turned around with a smile: "Xiaoxin, no matter what you want to say, no matter when you want to say it, you can come to me....Then, good night, go to bed early. I gone."

"Good night..." I raised my board lightly.

Even though he didn't promise anything, even though he didn't guarantee anything, the air in his whole body gave people a very reassuring feeling... making people believe him involuntarily.

He won't hurt me, he will protect me, he can make me depend on...

I know……

I know……

In the room, there is the smell of him...sunshine...and the faint fragrance of laundry detergent...

A night without dreams.