After the rebirth, the scumbag went crazy for me

Heart died.

"Let go." Yuhuai Xing said coldly.

"I can't even hug it?" Gu Cinian hugged Yuhuai Xing a little bit tighter, he buried his head on Yuhuai Xing's neck and rubbed it, his hoarse voice sounded a little aggrieved.

"I, I won't stop you from being with Gu Ciyin, just let me give you a hug, just a moment..."

Yuhuai Xing's eyelashes were half drooping, his hands just touched Gu Cinian's chest, Gu Cixu seemed to be aware of his intentions, Yuhuai Xing was hugged before he pushed his hands away.

The body suddenly lost gravity, Yuhuai Xing subconsciously hugged Gu Cinian's neck, frowned and said: "What are you doing!"

Gu Cinian hugged Yuhuaixing back to the bed, he put Yuhuaixing down on the bed, took his hand and rubbed it in his palm.

Stepping onto the bed with long legs, Gu Cinian supported Yuhuai Xing with one hand, and stroked his face with the other hand. His dark eyes were like a deep sea, which could suck people in.

He caressed Yuhuai Xing's face, his narrow and sharp eyes softened at this moment, with some sad emotions, he bent down and lowered his head, and pressed his hot thin lips with the smell of wine to Yuhuai Xing's lips, anxiously He kissed heavily as if wanting to confirm something.

"Don't go, I don't allow it." Gu Cinian pecked and kissed Yuhuai Xing's lips, and said in a hoarse voice, "You are not allowed to go anywhere, you can only stay by my side, by my side... ..."

Yu Huaixing didn't respond at all, and looked at Gu Cinian calmly, allowing him to kiss him predatorily.

Gu Cinian slowly clenched the hand supporting Yuhuai Xing, panting slightly and leaning on Yuhuai Xing, he repeated in a hoarse voice: "Xingxing... stay by my side, stay by my side..."

stay with him?Yuhuai Xing couldn't help laughing lightly.

He turned his head and looked away, but his eyes were loose.

As if he just didn't want to see Gu Cinian.

He had been by Gu Cinian's side for ten years, and he was more sober than anyone else at the moment when he fell into a pool of blood.

There is no disappointment without craving.

"What kind of flower do you like? I'll give it to you, okay? I'll give you whatever you like, and I'll accompany you wherever you want. Like before, no, it's even better than before. I will treat you well. We, together Go to the beach, hold hands and walk on the soft sand with bare feet, enjoy the sea breeze and listen to the waves, if you like us, we can stay at the beach for a while, if you get tired later, then we will go to the north to watch the snow Make a snowman, it doesn't matter if you don't want to go back to Jincheng, let's go to another city, okay?"

There was anticipation in Gu Cinian's eyes, he looked at Yu Huaixing and waited for his answer.

Yu Huaixing remained silent, but slowly lowered his eyelashes.

What Gu Cinian said was his wish in the past. Although it was very small and not even a meaningful thing, he just wanted Gu Cinian to spend more time with him.

Now it is easy to get the extravagant hope of the past, but Yuhuai Xing's heart does not fluctuate at all, calm like a pool of stagnant water.

That's what it feels like to be dead.

Seeing that Yuhuai Xing was silent and didn't even turn to look at him, Gu Cinian smiled wryly twice, he hugged him tightly, buried his head on Yuhuai Xing's neck and breathed greedily.

Breathing the breath that belonged to Yu Huai Xing.

"Xingxing... We can't go back, right?"

Yu Huai Xing closed his eyes deeply: "Yes."

Gu Cinian tightened his arms, as if he was afraid that Yuhuai star would disappear again if he let go, wishing to embed him in his body.

"I don't ask to go back to the past, I just want to be with you, as long as you are by my side is enough."

"I don't want to go back to the days without you, that kind of life..." made him terrified.

He rubbed against Yuhuai Xing's neck, and muttered something in a low voice, "This is enough... that's enough..."

Gu Cinian's capacity for alcohol is very good, it is rare for him to drink to this extent, and he does not know how much he drank.

Late at night, the cool summer wind blows slowly, blowing the leaves in the dark night outside the window, and the rustling sound is slightly sad, which makes people feel melancholy.

Yuhuai Xing slowly opened his eyes, the room was lit with a light yellow night light, and the light was turned on to the maximum, which could illuminate the room without disturbing sleep.

However, Gu Cinian may need to get used to this level. Gu Cinian will turn off all the lights when he sleeps, and even a little light will affect him.

Ever since he knew that Yu Huai Xing was afraid of the dark, the night light had been turned on in the room, and he didn't know how he adapted during this time.

Yu Huaixing blinked his eyelashes a few times, and when he raised his eyes, he saw Gu Ci Nian's handsome and deep face in front of him, and was silent for a few seconds. He was about to get up from Gu Ci Nian's arms, but just as soon as he moved Gu Ci Nian She hugged him tighter as if feeling something.

Slightly frowning, after trying several times, Yu Huaixing stopped moving and let Gu Cinian hug him.

Gu Cinian's body temperature is higher than the average person's. He held Yuhuai Xing's body with a low body temperature all year round, especially his hands and feet that were cold in winter are now warm, even falling asleep faster than usual.

Being hugged by Gu Cinian, Yuhuai Xing also fell asleep not long after.

The next day, Gu Cinian suddenly opened his eyes, subconsciously looked down into his arms, and when he saw that the person in his arms was still sleeping peacefully in his arms, he exhaled softly.

Memories of last night came flooding back, he lowered his head and gently rubbed Yuhuai Xing's face with his cheek, a fleeting thought flashed in his eyes.

When Yu Huaixing woke up, he was alone on the bed, and the soft quilt covered him up to his shoulders.

There was still some temperature in the place next to it, and Gu Cinian had just woken up not long ago.

After washing up and going out to the living room, Yu Huaixing saw Gu Cinian busy in the kitchen, and soon there was a crackling sound.

Then there was the sound of porcelain shattering on the ground, as if the dishes were broken.

Yuhuai Xing looked away, there were many wine bottles scattered around the table and the corners of the table and the floor-to-ceiling windows in the living room, and there was still a third of unfinished spirits in one bottle.

There are still many pieces of broken glass next to the TV, and there is a puddle of unfinished wine mixed with fragments of glass bottles on the ground.

Yu Huaixing watched for a few seconds and was about to walk over when he heard shouts and footsteps from the kitchen.

"Xing Xing, are you hungry?" Gu Cinian came over and paused when he saw the mess on the ground, then pulled Yu Huai Xing towards the room.

"You go back to your room first, and I will let someone deal with it here."

After finishing speaking, Gu Ci read and went out with the door of the room closed, and when he came back after a while, he had an extra cup of hot milk in his hand.

Taking a sip of the milk, Yuhuai Xing didn't intend to ask anything about last night.

Gu Cinian sat next to Yuhuai Xing, holding his chin against his shoulder, and said softly: "Xing Xing, what flower do you like? I'll change the red rose in the yard to a new one for your favorite flower. "

Yu Huaixing stopped drinking milk, raised his eyes slightly, and said softly: "It's not necessary."

The atmosphere was quiet for a moment, and Gu Cinian continued: "How about champagne roses? Do you like them? Roses? Roses? Or something else?"

Yuhuai Xing didn't respond, Gu Cinian lowered his long and narrow eyes, hugged Yuhuai Xing and didn't make a sound, the room fell into silence.

Not long after, the sound of the doorbell broke the silence, Gu Ci read out, and came back with a big bag of takeaway in his hand.

The living room has been cleaned and everything is back to normal, as if nothing happened last night.

Put the takeaways on the table one by one, the fragrant and soft shrimp dumplings were still steaming, Gu Cinian picked one up and put it in Yuhuai Xing's bowl.

"Eat the stars, don't burn them."

The crystal clear and delicious coconut milk cake exudes a faint milky smell. Gu Cinian saw Yu Huaixing biting the shrimp dumpling, the corners of his mouth slightly curled up, and he put the coconut milk cake into his bowl.

There are also cowboy bones, steamed pork ribs, beef brisket, and beef porridge on the table, which is authentic Cantonese morning tea.

Going to the kitchen to get a bowl, Gu Ci Nian wanted to give Yu Huai Xing a bowl of beef porridge to dry, and saw that the failed works that looked like black charcoal and broken porcelain plates were disposed of in the trash can in the kitchen I was relieved.

When he got the bowl, he filled a bowl of beef porridge and put it aside to dry, and then put a piece of cowboy bone for Yuhuaixing, and reminded: "Be careful of burning."

Today, Yu Huai Xing has no role to rest for a day. After breakfast, Gu Cinian asked Yu Huai Xing to go back to the room to rest, and then he went to the study to work.

Although Gu Cinian has gained a lot of power, he has never shown his face, so everyone only knows that the new boss is very mysterious.

Yuhuai Star didn't care how Gu Cinian treated his career, he boarded the penguin idly in his room, and clicked on the photo in the file he had saved before.

Looking at the handsome Gu Cinian in the photo, he began to draw with his fingertips.

The last time he accidentally accepted an order to draw Gu Cinian, even if he didn't want to, there was nothing he could do, so he could only draw in his spare time.

He glanced at the photo and began to write. In fact, he didn't need to look at the photo at all. He had been with Gu Cinian for ten years. He still remembered Gu Cinian's body lines, but he wanted to forget them.

After drawing for a long time, the mobile phone placed on the table vibrated suddenly, and then vibrated again within two seconds.

Glancing in the direction of the source of the earthquake, Yu Huaixing paused and reached for the phone.

The information that popped up on the main page was a push news. Someone was injured in an incident that happened last night. Although the photos taken were not positive, Yuhuai Xing felt a little familiar.

After clicking on the photo and looking at it for a while, he suddenly remembered who the blurry figure in the photo was.

After clicking on the address book, he called Gu Ciyin, but no one answered there.

After hanging up the phone, Yu Huaixing called Gu Ciyin's secretary again, and after ringing for a while, he was finally connected, but the secretary's voice just came from the other side, and suddenly the phone was hung up again.

The sensational news from the previous life flashed in his mind, Yu Huaixing began to clenched his hand holding the phone, he hastily saved the drawing and was about to go out with the phone.

As soon as he went down to the first floor, Gu Cinian's voice came from upstairs, Yu Huaixing turned his head and saw Gu Cinian running down anxiously.

"Yuhuai Star!"

"Where are you going!"

Not in the mood to talk to Gu Ci Nian, when Yuhuai Xing opened the door, Gu Cinian grabbed his wrist: "Are you going to find Gu Ci Yin?"

Yuhuai star replied: "Yes."

He wanted to withdraw his hand from Gu Cinian's, but Gu Cinian held it so tightly that he couldn't pull it away at all.

"Don't go!" Gu Cinian's voice was deep and hoarse, he grabbed Yu Huai Xing's hand hard, Yu Huai Xing dodged and threw himself into his arms.

Holding Yuhuai Xing tightly, Gu Cinian said in a hoarse voice, "Don't go."

"Gu Cinian!" Yuhuai Xing didn't want to argue with Gu Cinian, and struggled and said angrily, "I didn't have the freedom to restrict you before, don't forget our relationship!"

what relationship?Yuhuai Xing once made it very clear that he was just Yuhuai Xing's lover, just like Yuhuai Xing was his canary in the previous life.

In fact, Yu Huai Xing knew very well that their relationship was unequal back then, but he was still willing to stay by his side and wait for him to go home. He was also willing to cuddle with Yu Huai Xing, a soft and obedient kitten, in his spare time.

Now Yuhuai Xing is just treating him back the way he used to treat him, but his heart is unbearable, and even his blood has cooled down and solidified.

It turned out that Yuhuai Xing had been waiting for him with such a sad mood.

But now that he understands how Yuhuai Xing felt, they can't go back, and Yuhuai Xing won't care about him anymore.

What Yu Huai Xing really cares about is Gu Ciyin, he has no place in Yu Huai Xing's heart.

Holding Yuhuai Xing's hands tightly, it took a while for Gu Cinian to say in a hoarse voice: "Okay... I'll see you off."

This is the outskirts, although the environment is very good, but it is difficult to take a taxi, Gu Cinian is the fastest way to send him off.

In the car, Yuhuai Xing glanced at the phone anxiously. There were no missed calls or messages on the phone. He said to Gu Cinian, "Hurry up."

Gu Cinian's hand holding the steering wheel tightened, and he stepped on the accelerator without saying a word to increase the speed, clenching his back molars to suppress his temper.

Sending Yuhuai Xing to Gu Ciyin's house, Gu Cinian turned sideways when Yuhuai Xing unbuttoned his seat belt, and kissed the back of Yuhuai Xing's head.

"Come back sooner."

Looking at Yu Huaixing's hurried back, the veins in his tightly clenched hands bulged, and the joints made a "clicking" sound.

Stepping on the accelerator, the car started quickly, and he was driving like crazy on the road, with the wind passing by his ears, like a wild beast roaring.

He was full of anger and had nowhere to pour out, trying to use this method to suppress his urge to tie Yuhuai Xing back and lock him up.

He didn't know how many times he wanted to chain Yuhuai Xing up and lock him in a room that only he could see.

Then Yu Huai Xing can only rely on himself, and he will only think about him.

I don't know how many times this kind of thought has appeared. It's not that he doesn't want to, but every time he sees Yuhuai Xing's sad and red eyes, he finally compromises.

At this point in time, there is no one or even a car on this road. Gu Cinian walked along this road for a long time. He opened the roof of the car, and the strong wind that hit him made him gradually calm down.

Stopping on a highway, Gu Cinian leaned back on the seat, slammed his fist on the steering wheel hard, and his skin immediately turned red.

A slight sound sounded, and Gu Cinian looked over and saw the cigarettes that Yuhuai Xing had forgotten on the car before falling down below.

Picking up the pack of cigarettes, Gu Cinian held it in his hand and looked at it for a while, then took out one from the pack, bit it in his mouth and lit it with a lighter.

The spark lights up in the already darkened sky, like a star twinkling in the dark night.

He took a deep breath of the cigarette, and the cold peppermint breath filled his mouth, and he was caught off guard and choked.

"Cough cough cough-"

Coughing a few times, watching the smoke gradually dissipate in front of his eyes, he held the cigarette between his index and middle fingers, pressed his elbow on the lowered car window, and took a deep breath.

He has never smoked, and even the smell of cigarettes makes him irritable, no matter what kind of cigarettes he doesn't like.

Everyone around him knows that he hates the smell of cigarettes, and those who smoke will deliberately avoid him, and never dare to smoke in front of him.

Yuhuai star did not smoke in his previous life, and he rarely even drank alcohol, but in this life he started smoking.

He even used cigarette butts to self-mutilate.

Gu Cinian didn't put out the cigarette in his hand, the ignited spark flickered on and off, looking at the burning cigarette, he remembered the scene where Yuhuai Xing wanted to use the cigarette butt to harm himself.

My heart suddenly hurts.

Yuhuai Xing was drunk that night, it was raining outside, and the raindrops dripped on the leaves.

They sat on the bay window, he hugged Yu Huaixing's waist from behind, his chin rested on his shoulder, and his cheek was pressed against his ear.

At that time Yuhuai Xing didn't push him away, it was their rare tenderness, but in fact it was just that Yuhuai Xing was drunk at that time and didn't have the strength and thought to pay attention to him.

I don't know if it was because of being drunk, but he kept staring at the cigarette butts. That scene coincided with the scene where he saw Yuhuai Xing self-mutilate in the video in his previous life, which made him feel suffocated.

Looking back now, he is full of joy.

Fortunately, he found out in time, and fortunately the scorching cigarette butt did not burn Yuhuai Xing's immature skin.

The doctor said that Yuhuai star had dark phobia's voice, and remembered the time when they lived together in Jincheng before he recovered his memory.

He is used to sleeping with the lights off every night, when he hugged Yuhuai Xing, he could always feel the slight stiffness of his body, as if he was trying to control his body.

But even though he was trying to control it, the fear deep in his heart was like a tree with roots, and there was no way to hide it.

Because he hadn't recovered his memory yet, at that time he only thought that Yu Huai Xing was not used to it or was shy, but now the scenes from the past flashed through his mind, like a hand tightly holding his heart.

"Xing Xing, has anything happened to you before?" Leaning on the seat, Gu Cinian muttered to himself.

Lifting the hand holding the cigarette, Gu Cinian put his slender fingers to his mouth, biting the unburned cigarette and taking a puff.

This time he didn't cough like before, although he still didn't like the smell of cigarettes, but thinking that Yuhuai Star also smoked this cigarette, he could continue to smoke it.

Slowly exhaling the smoke, the white smoke spread out in front of my eyes, blurring the just-appearing moon.

Turn the palm that was burned by the cigarette butt upwards, and the traces on it have disappeared, leaving only a little faint trace.

Fortunately, he didn't let that cigarette burn Yuhuai star.

The cool mint melted in his mouth, and a cold breath poured down his throat into his lungs. He tightly held his burned palm and took another puff of cigarette.

When the cigarette butt was about to burn out, he didn't put it out in the ashtray, but pressed the sparkling scarlet light on his palm.

The scorching hot touch penetrated the skin and scalded into the flesh. He lowered his eyes to look at the wound on his palm. The blood and flesh oozing from the wound fused together, and the erosive one turned dark red.

The burning pain spread from the palm to the heart little by little along the palm, causing a big hole in the heart.

What was Yuhuai Xing thinking when he hurt himself before?

There is a thin layer of calluses on the palm of his hand, but the burning of cigarette butts can cause scorching pain, how much pain would Yuhuai Xing's delicate hands feel if they were burned?

Throwing away the cigarette butt, Gu Cinian took out another cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it.

Feeling the coolness of mint, he seemed to be able to paralyze himself with this breath.

After smoking two cigarettes on the side of the road, he drove back. The house was pitch black because no one was home, and only the cold and pale yellow street lights were on outside.

Opening the door and entering, Gu Cinian turned on the light, and the room was completely silent.

Walking in slowly, he suddenly felt uncomfortable.

The incandescent lamp illuminated the living room very brightly, and the champagne roses he bought were placed on the table. Even though there were various furniture in the tidy room, it still seemed empty.

The feeling of waiting for someone alone at home...is it so sour and bitter?

Going upstairs to the master bedroom, Gu Cinian went into his and Yuhuaixing's room.

There is a faint pleasant smell in the room, it is the fragrance of Yuhuai star, even though they use the same shower gel and shampoo, but when used on Yuhuai star, there will always be an indescribable pleasant smell A pleasant aroma.

Sitting on the bed, Gu Cinian suddenly remembered that Yuhuai Xing would obediently throw himself into his arms every time he went home.

At that time, he hugged Yuhuai Xing, and in Yuhuai Xing's eyes, he only saw his happiness and joy when he saw him, but he never thought that before he came back, when he was not at home——Yuhuai Xing alone How one spends the long night after night.

In the later years of his previous life, every time he saw Yuhuai star, he couldn't control it, so he would not go back many times.

The figure of Yu Huai Xing seemed to be rooted in his heart and he couldn't get rid of it. He thought it would be relieved if he didn't look at his face, but it became more and more intense.

Later, he took those things as nothing, and every time he went back and saw Yuhuai Xing's face, he couldn't help asking for possession.

Back then, in Yuhuai Xing's heart, probably the thing he remembered the most was being possessed and taken by him, so it's no wonder he would say that they were just a so-called nurturing relationship.

Nurturing... Maybe it's better than their relationship.

Nurturing is for everyone to take what they need, but they... Yuhuai Xing has always been kept in the dark, he gave his heart, and when that heart was broken, his last hope Then shattered.

But this is not the cruelest thing for Yuhuai Xing. The cruelest thing is that he found that the self-righteous "love" relationship he had been begging for back then was just a game he had been interested in for a while.

He never thought of getting Yuhuai Xing's forgiveness, but he couldn't stand Yuhuai Xing leaving him.

All kinds of intimate and ambiguous images of Yu Huaixing and Gu Ciyin flashed through his mind, he clenched his fists tightly, the wound on his palm burned by the cigarette butt was squeezed, and there were bursts of tingling pain.

Although he plays around in the world, he does have a cleanliness obsession with that aspect. Yuhuaixing was the first person he met, and there were countless people who fell in love with him and even wanted to climb his bed, but even though he knew that the other party was clean, he still felt that dirty.

For so many years, he has never had those contacts with people other than Yuhuai Star, and he is not even interested in those people.

From his student days to those later years, he seemed to be only interested in that aspect of Yuhuai Star for the entire ten years.

He used to think about disappearing, and he would naturally return to normal after he got tired of playing, but the figure of Yuhuai star had grown into a towering tree in his heart like a seed in the past ten years.

But he didn't know it, that kind of strange feeling made him fearful and depressed.

The person who was supposed to be pampered in his arms, but because of his grievance and sadness, he dared not even say it when he missed him, for fear that he would find him annoying.

and……

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顾:独守空闺，猛虎委屈?jpg感谢在2022-02-1922:37:04-2022-02-2021:40:16期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦——

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