After the rebirth, the scumbag went crazy for me

Please don't leave me.

Gu Cinian has always longed for Yuhuai Xing to smile at him, but now seeing Yuhuai Xing's smile he froze.

The moment he saw Yuhuai Xing's smile, the bitterness and distress in his heart melted away, and he felt a dull pain in his heart.

Yuhuai Xing's smile carried a sadness that he could not embrace, just like his past that he could not touch or change.

"Xing Xing..." Gu Cinian hugged Yuhuai Xing tightly in his arms, his voice was slightly hoarse, "Don't be sad, don't laugh when you don't want to laugh..."

When he saw Yuhuai star looking at the brightest star in the sky, he knew that Yuhuai star was thinking about his grandma.

He only knew a rough idea of ​​Yuhuai star's past. When Yuhuai star lost his memory, he could have asked all he wanted to know about Yuhuai star's past.

But he was reluctant.

Every time Yuhuai Xing mentioned the past, a trace of panic flashed in his eyes, like a wound hidden deep in his heart that he didn't want to mention again.

He knew that every time Yuhuai Xing talked to him about the past, it was Yuhuai Xing who deliberately endured the pain and tore the wound to show him his past.

But even if he wants to know again, he is not willing to let Yuhuai Xing hurt.

Suddenly being hugged into a warm embrace, the scorching body temperature enveloped him, Yu Huaixing closed his eyes deeply, and slowly clenched his fingertips.

"Gu Cinian..." He said softly, "I'm sorry."

Putting his hand on Gu Cinian's chest, he slowly pushed Gu Cinian away, leaving the embrace that once gave him warmth and pain.

"Actually, you don't have to feel guilty. You paid off everything you owed me that day." He looked into Gu Cinian's dark and deep eyes, and smiled at him, "When we meet in the future, maybe we all have a new life. , can smile at each other and pass by—"

"Xing Xing!" Gu Cinian interrupted him, "I know you won't believe me, and I also know that I used to be an asshole, I can promise you anything, but I can't do it if you want me to be strangers with you from now on!"

No matter in the previous life or in this life, it is impossible for him to let go of Yuhuai star.

After the death of Yuhuai star in his previous life, he almost went crazy. How could he exchange his life for this life just to be a stranger who may not even be able to remember Yuhuai star?

He can give up everything, he can endure everything, even if Yuhuai Xing doesn't love him, maybe he just uses him as someone's substitute, everything is fine, but... he can't lose Yuhuai Xing.

Even if it is death, he will accompany Yu Huai Xing.

Seeing the panic that flashed in Gu Cinian's eyes, Yuhuai star turned around and looked at the brightest star in the sky with his long eyelashes half down.

He said: "In my previous life, after I died, I might have also turned into a star, but maybe at the moment I became a star, I fell into an unknown small pit."

The evening wind was blowing, stirring his soft hair, he looked at the star and smiled, rubbing the red string on his wrist with his fingertips.

"At the moment when I fell into a pool of blood, I seemed to see my grandma smiling at me, and thought maybe it would be good to leave like this. At that time, I never thought that I would be reborn, let alone you."

He looked down at the red rope twirled in his fingertips, and smiled, "The moment I found out that I was reborn, I thought that everything in the past would be over, our beginning was a mistake, but unintentionally The truth that I heard in a short time made me feel ridiculous."

Looking up at Gu Cinian, he bent his mouth, but there was only a pool of stagnant water in his eyes, he smiled and said: "Did I do something wrong again, should I leave the moment I learned the truth, if at that time I If we leave, maybe we won't be like this now. You are still Gu Cinian, and we can return to the original ending that we shouldn't have met."

It has been more than three years since he was reborn, and all the things he has experienced have made him tired. Before, he just wanted to live, but now he feels very tired even to live.

Staring at the brightest star in the night sky, he remembered what his grandma said to him when he dreamed of his grandma. Grandma said to him: "Star, you have your own life, so live it well."

Have your own life, live it well...

His life... has always been a darkness, and it is really difficult to live in the muddy abyss.

Growing up in the dark, he always thought he was used to it, but every time he still felt very tired and painful.

Living...is it so difficult?

"Xing Xing, you, don't say that..." Gu Cinian choked in his throat, his heart seemed to be cut by a knife that was shining with cold light, the pain caused him to breathe heavily.

He knew how painful the injury he had caused Yuhuai Xing, but he couldn't bear the assumption Yuhuai Xing said.

No matter how many lives he starts over again, it is impossible for him to let go of Yuhuai star.

Even if Yuhuai star left before he recovered the memory of his previous life, he would go to Yuhuai star later, even if he searched all over the world, he would not let go of Yuhuai star.

"Xing Xing, you did nothing wrong. It's my fault. I'm an asshole. I'm not human! But please don't say that... It was never a mistake for us to meet. My life and my life are all because of you. Only then did I finally have flesh and blood, and learned about warmth and coldness."

His hand was trembling a little, he stretched out his hand and wanted to hold Yuhuai Xing's hand, but when he stretched out his hand in the air, he stopped trembling slightly when he remembered Yuhuai Xing's sad look just now, and then slowly clenched his fist and put it down.

The inhuman things he did in the past flashed before his eyes one by one, turning into sharp blades that were inserted into his heart one by one.

Indescribable pain spread in the tip of his heart, and he took a deep breath amidst the dripping blood, his hoarse voice was unbelievably hoarse at the moment: "Xing Xing...meeting you is my greatest luck."

Yu Huai star closed his eyes, just smiled and didn't speak.

Gu Cinian's heart was swollen, with pain and bitterness gushing out, like a sponge soaked in water was constantly squeezing his heart, oppressing his trachea, making it difficult to even breathe.

He knew that he was not qualified to say anything, even the words just now might be extremely hypocritical and ridiculous to Yuhuai Xing.

In his previous life, because of his love, he didn't know that he had brought countless harms to Yuhuai star. In this life, he knew how important Yuhuai star was to him, but he never used the right method.

He deserved all these things.

But... No matter what, he will not let go of Yuhuai star.

"It's late at night, Mr. Gu should go back to rest." Yu Huaixing smiled at him faintly, took off the clothes he was wearing and returned them to Gu Cinian.

The clothes in his hands were still stained with the temperature of Yuhuai Xing's body, looking at the back of Yuhuai Xing leaving the rooftop, he lowered his eyes, hugged the clothes in his arms and pulled the corner of his mouth with difficulty.

It was late at night, and the cool breeze was infected with chills. Gu Cinian didn't dare to stay on the rooftop for too long, even though he knew that the temperature of the clothes in his hands would dissipate, he still loved it.

Even if it is one more second, at least he can have the temperature that belongs to Yuhuai star for one more second.

……

Not long after returning to the room, there was a knock on Yuhuai Xing's door.

"Yezi?" Yuhuai Xing stepped aside to let Ye Zi enter.

After eating just now, seeing Yuhuai Xing go upstairs, Gu Cinian also went upstairs, the two of them haven't come down for a long time, Ye Zi was a little worried.

He waited for a long time below to see Yuhuai Xing come back before knocking on the door.

"Are you okay?" Leaf asked.

Yu Huaixing shook his head, the matter between him and Gu Cinian cannot be explained clearly in one or two sentences, and the matter of rebirth is very strange.

Not wanting Ye Zi to worry about himself, he said, "It's nothing, I just chatted with him."

"I accidentally saw the doll in Gu Cinian's room before, you gave it to him, right?" Ye Zi was a little worried when she saw Yuhuai Xing's state, "Gu Cinian said before that he forced you, If you don't want to get along with him, I'll help you."

The matter of Gu Cinian holding a press conference has been on the trending search for a long time, even if he doesn't pay much attention to the trending search, he has seen it.

The reason he told Yuhuai Xing about him and Brother Kan was because he saw the magnetic field between Gu Cinian and Yuhuai Xing, and he didn't want them to be like himself and Brother Kan.

Every time I see the way Gu Cinian looks at Yuhuai Xing, even an outsider can really feel the deep love. I thought that what was said at the press conference was hidden, but now it doesn't seem to be the case?

Hearing the rabbit doll, Yu Huaixing paused.

He shook his head lightly: "It's okay, Ye Zi thank you."

"He and I..." Yuhuai Xing looked at the stars in the night sky from the window, "From the beginning of the entanglement of mistakes, no one else can help."

In front of the door of Yuhuai Xing's room, Gu Cinian stopped for a long time, he raised his hand to knock on the door but he held it down tightly.

Slowly lowering his eyes, he took a deep breath and turned back to his own room next door.

The rabbit doll on the bed is leaning against the head of the bed, smiling happily while holding a red love heart.

Going to the bed and sitting down, Gu Cinian stretched out his hand to hold the rabbit doll in his arms, and gently stroked its head and ears.

The rabbit doll is fluffy, soft and comfortable to touch. Gu Cinian lowered his eyelashes, but his eyes were very gentle.

At that time in the amusement park, after he taught Yuhuai star how to shoot, the doll Yuhuai star got from shooting was given to him immediately.

Under the warm sunshine, Yuhuai Xing's beautiful and clear eyes shimmered, and when he smiled, his eyes were crooked, like the moon falling in the mountain spring.

It was given to him by Yuhuai Xing, he has always cherished this rabbit.

This rabbit is as soft and beautiful as Yuhuai Xing, but Yuhuai Xing who would smile at him has been lost by him.

He is very afraid of seeing Yuhuai Xing's smile now, under Yuhuai Xing's faint smile, it is like a deep pool hiding endless sadness.

"Buzz buzz buzz—" The sudden vibration of the phone broke the existing silence, and Gu Ci Nian's eyes dimmed.

Glancing at the incoming call on his cell phone, he picked it up after a while.

Listening to Secretary Li's report on the phone, Gu Cinian's eyes were indifferent, and the coldness in his eyes fully showed the ruthlessness in his heart.

After this week's filming ended, Yuhuai Xing said goodbye to everyone and left here to return to City B. On the way, his phone vibrated a few times and a message popped up.

[Why is the love-hate relationship between NX and Gu's so...]

The eye-catching headline Yuhuai Xing didn't have any interest in, his phone vibrated when he was about to swipe the push, he clicked on the message that Fang Zihuai had just sent him, and his fingertips accidentally clicked on the push to share.

Fang Zihuai was stunned as he read the sharing he had just sent.

Gu Shi has been playing around for a long time as if being suppressed by NX, and has always given Gu Shi a sigh of relief before killing him.

In a project a few days ago, NX went against the norm and stopped playing with Mrs. Gu, and directly killed him. Father Gu was so angry that he passed out.

Fang Zihuai knew the news a long time ago. Even though he had seen Gu Cinian go crazy in his previous life, he still never thought that Gu Cinian would be so ruthless and ruthless.

Every time I think about it, I feel a chill down my back.

For Yuhuai star, Gu Cinian can really do anything.

"Crazy!" Fang Zihuai cursed in a low voice.

Yuhuai star withdrew it within a few seconds of sending the news, Fang Zihuai didn't want Yuhuai star to know about it, although he wanted to ask, but in the end he held back as if he hadn't seen it.

"Buzzing."

Fang Zihuai: [Brother Xingxing, what time is the plane? 】;

Fang Zihuai: [I'll pick you up. 】;

Fang Zihuai: [Cute cat? JPG];

After getting off the plane, Fang Zihuai was already waiting at the airport. The moment he saw him coming out, Fang Zihuai ran towards him with a smile.

"Brother Star!"

Fang Zihuai hugged Yuhuai Xing: "I miss you so much!"

They haven't seen each other for a few days since Yuhuai Xing went to record the variety show. He watched the live variety show, but it was because he watched it that he felt more and more angry.

Other people who don't know the variety show may feel that Yuhuai Xing is not together with Gu Cinian, but as an insider, he is laughed at.

Can he pay off Gu Ci's debt to Yuhuai Star?

Although when the mountain collapsed, Gu Ci Nian risked his life to protect Yuhuai Star to meet the life of Yuhuai Star in his previous life, but how can he pay back the sincerity he owes to Yuhuai Star?

"Let's go, let's go eat." Fang Zihuai took the luggage from Yuhuai Xing's hand, and before Yuhuai Xing declined, he directly took it without giving him a chance to refuse.

At the moment Fang Zihuai took the luggage, he saw a tall figure looking at him not far away, he quickly turned his gaze back to Yuhuai Xing, hugged him again and said, "Brother Xing Xing, hug him for a while, I may have low blood sugar because I didn't eat today."

From the corner of his eye, he saw the tall figure standing still not far away, and he deliberately rubbed against Yuhuai Xing's neck, with a smile on his lips.

"Why haven't you eaten all day? Are you uncomfortable?" Yuhuai Xing asked worriedly, "I'd better go to the hospital."

Fang Zihuai said with an excuse: "It's okay, just take it easy."

Fang Zihuai let go of Yuhuai Xing after the figure not far away left, and left the airport with Yuhuai Xing in a good mood to go to the restaurant he reserved.

"Zihuai, are you really okay?" Yuhuai Xing was still worried, "Don't eat yet, buy something on the way and eat while going to the hospital."

Fang Zihuai wanted to use this to get closer, but Yuhuai Xing said so, so he had no choice but to return to his original appearance and smooth things over: "It was just a sudden hypoglycemia just now, I'm fine now!"

Bringing this party over as soon as possible, he quickly called the waiter to take an order.

After eating, they took a taxi back. On the way, Yuhuai Xing saw that Fang Zihuai was no longer as weak as he was at the airport, so he gave up the idea of ​​sending him to the hospital.

"Zihuai, go back, I'll just go up by myself." Yuhuai Xing said at the gate of the community.

Fang Zihuai originally wanted to stay longer with Yuhuai Xing, but Yuhuai Xing was already very tired after getting off the plane, and his face was obviously tired.

After the two parted at the gate of the community, Yu Huaixing entered the elevator, and when he reached the 18th floor, he replied to Fang Zihuai's message while walking towards his newly rented house.

After answering the message, he looked up and saw the tall man squatting at his door, he paused.

The author says:

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!