Juliet Tower

Qiao Yumian skipped class all afternoon, sitting alone on the roof of the teaching building and watching the sky gradually change from cold blue to warm.

It was also here at that time. An Jiayu, who had met for a while, approached silently from behind, wanting to "save him". It's him.

This kind of first love is not good at all, one person is always a drag on the other.

Before the evening self-study started, An Jiayu opened the door of the rooftop with his schoolbag in hand.Qiao Yumian turned her head and watched him walk step by step in the golden sunset.The man didn't blame him for being emotional, didn't blame it for skipping class, but just complained in a low voice: "Why are you running... You don't go to class... I told the teacher that you don't feel comfortable resting in the dormitory..."

"It's my fault." Qiao Yumian would rather he scolded himself than see him begging for perfection like this, "But you really don't have to worry about me, and don't do anything for me... okay?"

He figured it out.

An Jiayu made such a ridiculous decision, all because he messed himself up.So he can't go on like this, he can't continue to be weak, evasive, and blame others.He's already, an adult.

He hung his schoolbag on his right shoulder and went downstairs first.

An Jiayu silently followed behind him, as if he was still pondering the meaning of the phrase "don't do anything for me anymore".

"Go back to the dormitory, or go to self-study. Don't send me off." Qiao Yumian decided to start with these small things, and forced An Jiayu to slowly withdraw her attention from him and return to herself.

"I'll be..."

"If you want to rest, go back and play with Joe for a while, or take a nap, or practice the piano." Qiao Yumian shook off him without looking back.

"Little Qiao, wait!" The man obviously had some indigestion about his tough change.

Plugging in the earphones and turning on the English radio station, he knew that An Jiayu was not far behind him, but he didn't turn his head back until he got in the car.

will get used to it.Their lives will be back on track, and those unrealistic thoughts should be over.

At noon, he stopped going to An Jiayu's dormitory for a nap, and the two of them parted ways after having lunch together in the cafeteria. He spent all his spare time studying questions.

He couldn't sleep at night, and he would no longer toss and turn on the bed and let himself fall into negative emotions. Instead, he got up and continued to study the questions, sleeping as long as he could, and as much as he could.

Time and time again, he made up his mind to pretend that he couldn't understand An Jiayu's worry and sadness.

"Little Qiao, go to the dormitory and sleep for a while..." An Jiayu's posture became lower and lower, and Qiao Yumian's fists on the back were deeply scratched by nails.

"There is still a set of comprehensive questions I haven't finished. I will talk about it in the afternoon."

So after only one month as the second model, he not only recovered his status as the head teacher expected, but even went a step further.

Compared with the series of huge troubles brought by Li Huijun, those problems that have troubled him for a long time seem to be much cuter.

666, this number is very auspicious.

In the self-study class on the day when the grades were released, the head teacher took him as a model of inspiration. Fortunately, he was relieved.

As soon as this breath was exhaled, that inexplicable heart palpitations invaded.

It feels both familiar and hopeless.

Under the eyes of everyone, he saw the faces around him gradually blurred, and his mouth, nose and ears seemed to be blocked by something.He felt that he was going to die again, uglier than ever, harder than ever.

He wanted to escape, escape to a place where no one was around, and he wanted everyone not to approach him, touch him, or look at him.

When he opened his eyes again, he was already lying on the ambulance, and he realized that he was holding another hand with a familiar touch.

"Wake up." The doctor following the car glanced at him and said to An Jiayu.

Anjia fish?

Shouldn't he be studying by himself?Qiao Yumian was a little vague about what happened before, he only remembered that his undiagnosed illness had happened again, the difference was that this time he lost consciousness not long after.

"I'll be at the hospital soon." An Jiayu patted the back of his hand, "Loosen your hand, I'll be with you."

"Why are you here..." Qiao Yumian struggled to get up.

An Jiayu didn't speak, just pressed his shoulders to let him lie down obediently.

"You go back to class, I'm fine, you..."

"Qiao Yumian... Didn't you hold onto An Jiayu yourself and didn't let him go? We had no choice but to let him follow..." The head teacher next to him looked at him inexplicably.

Only then did he notice that the head teacher had also come.

At that time, an ambulance was in the school, and there was no teacher in the self-study class, and the window frames of almost all classrooms were filled with heads.

An Jiayu was in a daze when she heard a commotion, and the two students sitting at the door were talking in a low voice: "It seems that I went to class one."

"No, it's Qiao Yumian again?" The girl put down the summary of knowledge points in her hand, and leaned half of her body out of the door worriedly.

An Jiayu was stunned for a moment, and then flew across half of the corridor. Qiao Yumian's eyes were half closed. Except for the doctor and the head teacher, almost all the students stayed away.

"Little Qiao..." He leaned forward in a panic.

As soon as he finished speaking, the man grabbed his finger tightly.Under the watchful eyes of everyone, the doctor snapped Qiao Yumian's fingers in surprise, but failed.

"An Jiayu?" Qiao Yumian's class teacher looked at him, and suddenly realized that he was in doubt, "I remember you called the ambulance for him last time, didn't you?"

He nodded: "I'll accompany him to the hospital..."

After all, the whole world knew they were on good terms.

It was already six o'clock after the routine examination was completed, and it was the same as the last time I entered the hospital, and all indicators were normal.

The doctor finally diagnosed it as "acute panic attack". Qiao Yumian looked at the description of the symptoms, and almost all of them matched.This is a type of mental illness, not serious, but it will wear down a person's spirit if not controlled.

"You can observe it first. Don't be burdened. Many people will experience this symptom once or twice, two or three times, and only a small number of people will develop into anxiety. If you feel uncomfortable, you should give yourself psychological construction in time. Do some first aid measures, such as relaxing your jaw, find a place to sit, relax your muscles and take a deep breath, find a bag to control overbreathing, and leave places where crowds are particularly dense. In short, the purpose now is not to worry too much about this. Do you think there is a problem? The feeling of near death is actually not, you can see it happened two or three times, and it will be fine after a while."

Considering that he was about to take the college entrance examination in two months, the doctor did not prescribe him any medicine, but only gave him some psychological counseling.

After leaving the hospital, An Jiayu wanted to send Qiao Yumian home.

"No, you can go back to the dormitory." Qiao Yumian put on a relatively relaxed tone, "How about the second model?"

"...Still the same. 570. What about you?" When talking about grades at this time, An Jiayu knew that he had something to say.

"666."

Qiao Yumian smiled, and An Jiayu felt as if she hadn't seen the other party smile so sincerely for a long time.

In April, clothes are no longer bloated.We meet almost every day, although it is not obvious, but he thinks that Qiao Yumian should be thinner again, so thin that he is almost skinny.

Qiao Yumian smiled and said to him: "An Jiayu, I'm fine. You see, the doctor also said I'm fine. Don't act like the sky is falling, go back, don't send me off, see you tomorrow." Call a car.

"...I'm going to take the subway if I don't see you off. This point is too congested, and the train can't move." In fact, An Jiayu was mentally prepared. He expected that Qiao Yumian would not agree. After all, since he knew he moved, he stayed in China to study undergraduate In his mind, Qiao Yumian seemed to have changed into a different person. Apart from being polite to him, he just refused.

But when he was unconscious again, he involuntarily grabbed his hand.

An Jiayu was a little overwhelmed, he watched Qiao Yumian being overwhelmed by life and couldn't breathe.

He didn't dare to approach, and he absolutely didn't dare to leave.

Qiao Yumian sat alone at the dining table, flipping through several crossword puzzles completed by Li Huijun, both in Chinese and English.Doctors say such puzzle games can help her manage her condition.

He almost made it.

He was almost able to make An Jiayu feel at ease with him.

But why at this juncture, he couldn't hold on and went to the hospital again... Although An Jiayu didn't make a sound, his long-term tacit understanding allowed him to understand what the other party didn't say.

He really shook An Jiayu, and made him think that he couldn't abandon himself.

Qiao Yumian watched An Jiayu become more and more forbearing, until those little pride, playfulness, and cunning disappeared one after another. He saw that the precious gem-like boy lost his light because of him, and he even saw the humbleness from that grievance, which made people heartbroken. Cut like a knife.

He didn't dare to get close to An Jiayu anymore, every time he approached was a request, a pass.

He felt that the harder he tried, the deeper he was pulling the other person, causing the person to deviate step by step from the original path and approach the side road.

That's right, he is An Jiayu's fork in the road.

What he wants to live is the same as most people in this world, trying his best to still do nothing, and every day is like a cage.

But An Jiayu is not. He is one of the very few people who can not be bound by these messy things. He has a clean and beautiful distance, which is a dazzling world that needs to be looked up to.

"Baby……"

Li Huijun suddenly appeared in front of him without making a sound, and hurriedly pulled out a tissue and pressed it on his face.Her language function was deteriorating, and she anxiously wanted to comfort her son, but she couldn't say anything, so she could only cry with Qiao Yumian, crying and losing her temper again.

"Mom, it doesn't matter. It's okay." Qiao Yumian wiped away tears patiently, coaxing her while showing her her report card, "Look, I'm enlightened. I passed 94 in the physics test this time..."

He tried his best to coax Li Huijun to sleep, and in the dead of night, he was worried that he would not be able to control the troublesome "acute panic attack", so he barely slept for a while until dawn.

The author says:

in the next chapter. (Reminder for those who want to hoard articles, Xiaoyu left at 68, 69~73 is a transition of six years apart, and 74 starts to pick up wedges)