I treat you as a brother "Quickly wear"

Twin Mystery

During the Ching Ming Festival, when it was raining lightly, Qin Muye walked on the road in the mountain town with an umbrella.

The slime was not used to the atmosphere of the Ching Ming Festival in the human world, so he said tremblingly: "Host, why do we still come to visit the grave? Will there be low-latitude creatures appearing on the Ching Ming Festival? In your human storybooks, ghosts are the most Like wandering around in this weather, will I see them?"

Qin Muye's system to soothe fear: "Look for someone, there are no ghosts in this world."

"Who are you looking for?" Slime didn't realize it for a while, "Director Li?"

Director Li is the only person in this world who will visit Grandma Qin's grave.

"Find our old acquaintance."

While speaking, Qin Muye had already stepped on the stone steps to a cemetery, and from a distance he saw a person standing in front of the tombstone under the rain.

The man squatted there, with a large handful of white chrysanthemums in front of him, talking to the person on the tombstone photo.

"Grandma, I'm here to see you. My grandson is unfilial, and I haven't seen you for so many years. Grandma, do you still recognize me when I become like this? You probably won't recognize me either. Take care of me every day." In the mirror, I don't even recognize who I am."

The rain wet the young man's pale cheeks. He didn't know how long he had stood in the rain, and his whole body was already soaked. At this moment, he also let the rain meander from his eye sockets to his chin.

The system was taken aback: "Qin Yichuan? Why is he here?"

"After leaving the Qin family, he will only be here when he returns to China, because today is the Ching Ming Festival."

Qin Muye leaned over and placed the bouquet in front of the tombstone, got up and stood up straight, holding the umbrella above Qin Yichuan.

"Your grandma will also feel distressed when she sees you like this. After all, you are the only grandson she has ever loved."

The figure under the umbrella trembled, and he looked up at Qin Muye with gloomy eyes.

"I haven't thanked you for visiting grandma's grave instead of me before, thank you."

"You're welcome. Did you come back here because you regretted it?" Qin Muye's voice was as cool as spring rain.

Qin Yichuan lowered his eyes and looked at the two bouquets of flowers side by side.

The pure white lilies swayed slightly in the rain, and the light fragrance lingered in his nose. Qin Yichuan raised his hand to catch the falling water drops on the petals, and gave a wry smile.

"Regret, indeed. I probably regretted it when I found out that I was Qin Yichuan. Maybe it was when I saw my original self again that I started to regret it. Who knows, after all, I have lived these two lives well. Not so clear, people don't know who I am, and now, I don't even know myself."

Qin Muye did not speak.

Qin Yichuan has been trapped in the past for too long, obviously he has obtained everything he wanted, but seeing Qin Muye again and again, the memory of the past is disturbed, comparing the present and the past, what he gets is not relief, but stronger jealousy.

Jealous of himself as Qin Yichuan, but also jealous of himself who was abandoned.

There is nowhere to hide from the pain, and the truth cannot be told to everyone. Only in front of another person who knows the truth can one spit it out.

"I seem to have fallen from one abyss to another, and I can't see the end of the darkness every day. Ever since I became Qin Yichuan, I dare not go back to my hometown where I miss day and night, and I dare not talk to my closest friends. I can't meet my grandma, and I have to resent my grandma like my mother wants. Obviously my grandma brought me up, but I really did such a terrible thing. I'm not a good son, nor A good grandson, I want to become what others want, but no matter how hard I try, my life is destined to become a tragedy."

Qin Yichuan's expression was ashen, he hung his head like an old man, letting the rain smear his tears away.

After the system understood it, everything went wrong: "What's going on, what's going on!! Who is he, who is this Qin Yichuan?"

Qin Muye sighed: "As you heard, he is the real male supporting role in the novel. Qin Yichuan is his new life after making a deal with the Lord God."

The system began to doubt its own life: "Didn't the male supporting role leave? He came after leaving you. Why is he Qin Yichuan?"

"The original body gave up his own existence and made a deal with the main god, wanting to have the life he wanted most. Then the question arises, what kind of life does he want most for a person who is not loved and has low self-esteem?"

He wants to be loved.

So the original body became Qin Yichuan, the person he admired and envied the most in the original work, the person who was also trapped in the mud, but finally broke free step by step.

—— Ou Yang.

He transformed himself into Ouyang's appearance.

However, Qin Yichuan still failed. He was good enough and loved by everyone, but he suffered more and more.

It was the love of Qin Yuanshan and his wife that made him never forget who he was before the deal, and also saw more clearly how hurtful his parents' love was.

His life was split into two completely different halves, and each section was hidden in darkness, struggling hard, and in the end, even he himself could no longer love himself.

The system almost cried: "Master, you already knew that, so when Qin Yuanshan came to look for you, you suddenly mentioned Qin Yichuan? You came to visit the grave after receiving the mission, because you knew Qin Yichuan was here, right? ? Woohoo, we get along day and night, why don't I know?"

"Because you're an idiot, Slime. You said that you need to pay attention to the details to complete the task. I just paid attention to the details."

For example, Qin Muye and Qin Yichuan are obviously identical twin brothers with the same gene, why are their looks so different?

For example, task reminders, instead of the male supporting role sweeping the grave.

Replacing two words is very subtle, and Qin Muye figured out the key in an instant.

On the train back to the capital, Qin Muye explored the unclear memory of the original body again and again, watching his hazy face reflected on the window glass, Qin Muye remembered Qin Yichuan's habitual little actions at the birthday party.

So far, the source of the plot of the deviation has also been found.

Qin Muye looked at Qin Yichuan, who was full of remorse, with clear eyes: "You leaked the Qin family's business secrets, right? Qin Yichuan, do you hate your family?"

If you ask for it, you can't get it, because love breeds hatred.

"You are really smart. No wonder you can change my messy life. You must have loved your family unconditionally, which is really enviable."

Qin Yichuan turned his head and looked at him with the familiar eyes of the original body in Qin Muye's memory.

The original body in the memory once looked at his twin brother with such envy and envy.

It wasn't until he made a wish to the general system, became the person he most wanted to be, and was sent to the origin of his birth, that Qin Yichuan didn't know that the one he envied and envied was himself from beginning to end.

Without his wish to the general system, Qin Yichuan would not have appeared in his world, because in the very beginning of the world, Qin Yuanshan and Wei Lianruo had only one son.

It was his jealousy and unwillingness that made his original life even more miserable and formed an inextricable closed loop.

But after becoming Qin Yichuan, did he get his wish?

No.

When he was so wrapped up in the love of his parents, he missed more than once the self who was carefree in the countryside and loved wholeheartedly by his grandma.

He could have told himself that he finally got the love of his parents in this life, he would become happy and come out from the past.

But when Qin Muye came and became outstanding and dazzling, Qin Yichuan found that the love of his parents had shifted again.

No matter how hard he tried and how clever he was, his parents would compare him with Qin Muye and blame him for not being good enough.

What they love is not themselves as a child at all, what they love is only the child who will bring them glory and a sense of accomplishment. Whichever child is better, they will love that child more.And the other is not good enough, it will be discarded.

Qin Yichuan thought of himself who was abandoned in his previous life again and again, and the fear rooted in his soul would overwhelm him like a tide.

He tilted his head, and his tone was as cold as a ghost: "Yeah, I hate them, and I also hate myself. If I am not their son, and they are not my parents, can I end this terrible reincarnation? Tasker, You tell me, why can't they love me even though I try so hard? What should I do?"

"Before I came to you, your father also asked me this question. In fact, the answer has always been there."

Qin Muye pointed to the distance, on the mountain peak at the end of the rain curtain, a ray of sunlight fell through the clouds.

Qin Yichuan didn't know why.

Qin Muye tilted the umbrella to cover Qin Yichuan's sight. When it was dark in front of his eyes, Qin Yichuan heard the indifferent voice of the tasker.

"Because you look in the wrong direction. Everyone's eyes are always covered by messy things, so everyone sees the world differently. If you only look at other people's worlds, you will get lost in your own world. We are born to seek On the way to the end of your own world, even if you are lucky enough to catch a glimpse of the scenery of other people's world in the middle, it is just to take a look, instead of turning yourself into a stubborn stone in other people's world."

Qin Yichuan stared at the black umbrella in front of his eyes for a few minutes before he pushed the umbrella away with shaking fingers and looked at the distant sky.

The darkness disappeared from the eyes, the sun expanded in the distant sky, and soon, the rain stopped completely.

The water droplets on the umbrella fell, meandering all the way from the tombstone, and dripping over the face of the old man in the photo of the tombstone, like tears just shed.

"You're right, I've lost my way a long time ago."

Qin Yichuan raised his hand to wipe off the water droplets on the photo, lowered his head and laughed.

The laughter was hoarse and sad.

"I thought that I would be very happy and get what I wanted, but from the previous life to the present, the only happy day I can think of is that I was completely forgotten by my parents and lived with my grandma. Days. Do you know that after becoming Qin Yichuan, I would dream of my original self every day.”

Qin Yichuan's eyes were a little blurred.

"It wasn't a dream, it was actually a memory that I will never forget. I was walking in the mountains, and my grandma and I drove the donkey cart to the market. On the way back, my grandma said that I would catch hedgehogs for me. Two days later, when I got out of school, she would give me a hedgehog. I caught a little hedgehog with soft spines and several ticks growing on its body. I raised it carefully, burned the ticks to death, and gave it all the delicious food. But--"

"The hedgehog is still dead. Grandma said that it died of anger, because what I gave it was not what the hedgehog wanted."

The last time Qin Yichuan dreamed of that hedgehog, he was horrified to find that he had turned into that hedgehog that had no escape.

Following Qin Yichuan's narration, Qin Muye's memory covered in a layer of black mist gradually became clear.

"You still forgot a lot of things. At that time you were very happy, you liked to play football, you liked to eat persimmons from old trees, you liked to dig mouse holes, you liked to play the guitar, and you thought it was cool to play drums. You wanted to study hard, When you grow up, you bring your grandma to live in a big city. At that time, you only have people who love you and yourself in your life, so you are very satisfied.”

Qin Yichuan, who hadn't eaten persimmons or played football for a long time, stood up and raised his hand to catch the last drop of rain.

"Yeah, I was very happy at that time. In my memory, the sky was very blue, the persimmons had an astringent taste, and the chestnuts my grandma picked up on the mountain were fried and sweet. I was really happy."

He closed his eyes and opened his arms, feeling the moist spring breeze blowing on his face.

Standing in the wind for a long time, Qin Yichuan took a deep breath and let it out.

"I actually forgot those happy memories. My life was not so miserable. I understand what you mean. I will try to only see my own world. Maybe one day, I will find my original self."

At this moment, Qin Yichuan reached a preliminary reconciliation with his past self and his present self.

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