Only God is left

In the second month, Jiayin and Tianchang Wenyun surrendered from the city.

Wuwu, the emperor sent Chuzhou.When Dingmao arrived in Yangzhou, he ordered Han Lingkun to dispatch more than ten thousand Ding Fu, and build a small city in the southeast corner of the old city to govern it.

The night was dark, the fire in the camp flickered, and he was walking alone on the side of the barracks facing the city. In the huge silence, he suddenly felt tired, and he suddenly missed Luoyang very much.

If he could go back to Luoyang again, he must kneel down and kiss the soil and river water there.The thunder makes drums in the sky, and the wind moves the trees to pull strings. The land there is deep, and the rivers there are wide and clear; that is the land where he was born. Every stone and grass there knows him, no matter how far he walks. What to do, that land knows its son.

When he looked up again, he saw a white cloud floating towards him in the distance.

He almost thought he was dreaming, he thought that the main force of the horse guards was still in the Hao Si area.

He forced a smile, and Gao Huaide also returned a somewhat embarrassed smile. After a moment of silence, he said, "Are you okay?"

It's obviously not about physical injuries.

He found a shaded place and sat down, put his elbows on his legs and wiped his face with empty hands: "It's okay, I'm a little tired." Then he asked: "Why are you here?"

Gao Huaide replied very lightly: "Guo Yan said that he just captured Tianchang, and I'm here to report the situation in the southwest."

He didn't speak, Gao Huaide always hated Mian Sheng the most, obviously this time he came here specifically to find him.

Gao Huaide sat down next to him, and said with a relaxed tone, "You've offended all the guards this time. Zhao Huang urged me to go back and complain to Li Chongjin."

He didn't care much, and asked casually, "Really? What did you say?"

"Say you are domineering and arrogant, so let me add another bully, okay?"

Hehe laughed: "It doesn't matter what you say." ——He is clearly Zhang Yongde's "confidant". This time, when he came back from Huainan, Li Chongjin and Zhang Yongde, who had never been able to get along with each other, seemed to have a deeper bond.

Without continuing the topic, Gao Huaide slowly asked him while crossing his knees and looking at the distant night sky: "Have you ever been to Shanbei?"

During the Tianfu period, the ancestors of Jin came out of Youyun Sixteen Prefectures and Khitan. After that, the north of Taihang Mountain was assigned to Hudi, and a large number of Han people moved south.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Gao Huaide went on talking to himself: "Before the Yingyun area was ceded to the Liao people, my father and I stayed there."

Closing his eyes, the scene deep in his memory gradually became clear.The ravines are vertical and horizontal, the mountains are magnificent, and the undulating city walls surround them like a dragon, and the wind is like a roar; the weather there is always sandy and dusty, dry and cold, and white mist will rise in the breath in the morning, and you can hear the armor before dawn. The heavy generals came and went, the heavy clang of weapons at their waists mixed with the sound of golden drums while walking, the smell of horses and livestock mixed with the smell of iron, wood and saltpetre constituted all his childhood memories: five or six-year-old children Knowing it wasn't a good place, but also knowing that he could be with his father there.

"The frontier has always been surrounded by wars, and it is common to see thousands of villages and hundreds of miles of people annihilated and piled up with corpses. The army is often stationed in ghost villages when they are in action."

The border situation is unstable, and the residents who are afraid of war disasters disregard the ban and move their villages and families southward. The abandoned villages have become ghost villages, and the houses and utensils are as usual, but there is no life.

"The Hu people slaughtered the Han people's villages, and the Han army burned down the Hu people's settlements to report. The men escaped, and the slow-moving women and children became prisoners."

The captive women are always a mixture of Hu and Han. The unwritten rule is that the general first picks people, and then picks them up according to their meritorious ranks. The rest are distributed to the camp or sold; soldiers often send women to his father, and his father keeps Make excuses to refuse, and if it is difficult to refuse for a while, he will leave for a while; strange faces will continue to appear and disappear around him, but he knows that his father will always be there; sometimes his father will leave, but it does not matter whether it is three days or five days , For more than ten days, he knew that his father would definitely come back again.

"Once when my father and I passed by the place where the prisoners were being guarded, a very old Tatar woman suddenly jumped up and howled while tearing her clothes. She was obviously crazy. I can understand some northern languages, so I can understand her speech. ",

—Have I not given birth to your father and grandfather!Didn't I breastfeed your brother!I bred them, you killed them!Brothers slay brothers, sons slay fathers, and daughters of Tartars!Tatars are going extinct!The world is going extinct—

"She was about to rush out, but before the guards could move, she was tripped by the rushing cars on the outside. She hit her head on the protruding sharp corner and died."

It was a common occurrence, and the captives surrounded by the car watched numbly as the woman's body was dragged away by the cursing soldiers.He was still young, and he stood beside his father and stared blankly for a long time, unable to recover.

"My father asked me if I understood what she was saying, and I answered yes truthfully, and he said—"

——'No, you don't understand, if you understand, it will become like that. '

After he became an adult, he couldn't have sex with women at all. As long as he saw a woman's body, he would recall the scene of that day: that woman's shriveled breasts shaking in front of her abscessed chest, her blood-red eyes were exposed between her gray and knotted long hair, and she waved her eyes. rushed towards him with arms raised and howling; war was like a huge, looted pit, and all those who passed were dragged down, some climbed out, some did not, some left limbs, some Heart left.

Cutting off his thoughts decisively, he covered Zhao Kuangyin's hand and shook it: "It's not your fault, don't think too much."

Zhao Kuangyin kept looking at him when he was talking, and after a long silence, he suddenly asked, "Why did you join the army?"

Putting his hands together and rubbing them lightly, he was in a daze when he spoke: "At first... it was because of my father, he didn't want to do his job, he didn't want to go to the battlefield, he didn't want to deal with those people, but he has been doing it for my father. I am doing."

King Qi is famous for being courteous and modest, but his reputation in the army is not based on shrinking and avoiding. When he is in charge of the army, he is not soft on killing and beheading the enemy; it's just that his father is such a gentle and kind person. It was as if the generals were drowning; and no matter how tightly he frowned when he came back from the military mansion, he would always show a smile when he saw him.

His father always said to him: Del, I love you very, very much and I wish you the best.

He should have told his father that he wished the best for him too.

"Will you be called to Beijing later?"

At that time, after the death of a heroic general, the descendants used their wealth to ask for the governor, and it was customary for those who had more goods to win the good land of Dazhou.

Gao Huaide didn't make a sound, and Zhao Kuangyin didn't ask any more questions. He took his hand to his knee and clasped it together. He leaned into his ear and said softly, "From now on, it's good for us to be peaceful and peaceful, and everything else will come second. ah?"

The night wind on the river was like chants, and the sound of bangs in the camp could be heard from a distance. After a long silence, Gao Huaide said slowly: "My father was lonely all his life, and he closed himself completely and did not open to anyone. We can't choose who to live. , but at least I can choose to die with dignity.” His voice was very peaceful, without raising his head, as if he was telling some distant stories: “Every time I think of him, I feel very lucky. It is the best day of my life, I am very satisfied to be able to get to this day, and it should be the best ending so far, so that you can also have good memories."

Zhao Kuangyin didn't interrupt, just listened to him continue slowly: "It's time for you to return to normal life, I will be by your side until you get everything you deserve, power, honor, fame, and more, But it's not 'he loves men'," looked up at him, those golden eyes were like the moon high in the night sky, full of soft and cool light: "people will try many things when they are young, those are nothing, but Men don't love men, you're not like me, you can't be like me."

Zhao Kuangyin frowned at him, and asked after a moment of silence, "What do you mean by 'like you'?"

"Like me, a man who needs a man like a woman." Without looking at Zhao Kuangyin, he replied calmly.

He bowed his head in silence for a while, and when he raised his head again, Zhao Kuangyin was smiling, his black eyes shining brightly: "Then do you know what I think?"

Gao Huaide didn't open his mouth but just looked at him, he held Gao Huaide's hand: "You are the most outstanding man I know."

"If I say I need you, then am I the same as you? Or will I become a woman?" As he spoke, he flashed back and looked up and down pretendingly: "If I were a woman , an old lady for a lifetime."

Can't help laughing, Gao Huaide shook his head and wanted to withdraw his hand. He pressed it and moved closer: "I can tell you that I have always been serious, and I can also tell you that I will not let go. Unless you are annoying Me, but I'm sure I can make you change your mind, I ask you, are you bothering me?"

Still not answering but just laughing, he stared closely at his eyes and continued to ask: "I ask you, do you love me?"

Such straightforwardness made him tremble, Gao Huaide forced his tone to be indifferent: "You know."

Zhao Kuangyin smiled persistently: "I want to hear from you."

Gao Huaide raised his head and looked at the person in front of him carefully. Time flies. The young man who walked towards him at the Huaishui Bridge was no longer young. His smile, his hands were hot and powerful, and his black eyes were like coals.Every gaze can burn his soul, and every moment of his wavering can hold him firmly; A layer of thorns pulled him out forcefully.

He was the one who went crazy first, he loved every part of him crazily, even blindly loved all his imperfections, in his eyes this man was perfect.It was he who decided that this was a man who deserved everything he was after, that this was a man who deserved it, that this was a man he fell in love with.

The man he decided to burn for.

He looked up and looked into those black eyes, with a quiet smile on his lips: "I love you."

He took his hand and kissed him deeply, then kissed his eyes: "That's fine, let the rest go to his mother, there are mountains and rivers ahead, let's go all the way."

No one spoke anymore. He hugged Gao Huaide, and the two of them still held their fingers together. From a distance, they could see the sky lantern floating above the city. Brighter than the stars in the dark sky.

There was an indescribable tranquility in such a strange scene at this time.

Surrounded by the familiar and heavy breath, Gao Huaide gently closed his eyes.

Always in a place where the sun does not shine, there is no relationship with an ending, not in the past, not now, and there will be no exceptions in the future.

But if you can hold my hand, look into my eyes, say what I want to hear, tell me everything will be fine, promise you will always be there for me, you might convince me to believe it.

Trust that everything will be fine.

Until the day love isn't enough.

. . . . . .

Fireworks go down in Yangzhou in March. Yangzhou City was just burned by fire in March of that year.Seeing that he had already stood by the Yangtze River and was about to face Jinling City across the river, the emperor, who had always been firm when he received the letter of invitation from the Tang people again, hesitated: there were frequent reports of war in the north, and the Khitan took advantage of the vacancy to invade the invaders.

Whether to withdraw or not has become the center of discussion. At that time, people did not expect that there would be even greater changes in the DPRK and China in the near future.

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