Only God is left

During the [-] Reform Period, Li Chongjin and others surrounded Shouzhou under the command of the imperial guards and the pro-army, and returned north from Weikou, Yimao, to Daliang.

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When he returned to Bianliang, he had to face the cold fact, but he didn't even have the time to spend more time on the road.The emperor's truce was only temporary and he was about to go out again soon. Apart from food and grass, the empress was also seriously ill when he came back this time. Every moment he can seize here is more precious than gold. There are many things waiting to be dealt with. He took a rest Can't stop.

"Second brother, it's not your fault." As soon as she entered the mansion, Zhao Meirong stepped forward and grabbed his arm. He saw that the corners of her eyes were still dry, but at this moment her voice was extremely firm: "It has nothing to do with you! Daddy is here!" Ling, glad to see you back safely!"

He nodded and said nothing, turned around to the direction his sister couldn't see, but his eyes were wet: What a woman, strong like a rock, flexible like a reed, with a heart like gold, no man in the world is worthy of it.

When he was discussing his father's funeral with his mother, he only said lightly: "It's the time when there are a lot of things, let's keep it simple."

The Porridge Shed Water and Land Dojo set up on a street boasted for 49 days, allowing his father's old memories from the guards to pour in. This scene makes people think.

This scene seems to be the same as it was twenty years ago. He was still standing at the door to welcome and greet the guests. The burst of crying even made his head throbbing and throbbing. For three or four days without closing his eyes, he leaned on some porridge and vegetables, how could he not have a headache.

can he cryHe still couldn't cry.

"Second brother," Zhao Meirong sneaked up from the mourning hall when there were few people at noon: "You go down and rest for a while, and the third child and I will support you in front."

He thought for a while and then shook his head: No, this place is too important, and the people who came and went in the first three days didn't get along well, it wasn't that he couldn't feel relieved when he saw it himself.

Seeing him shaking his head, Zhao Meirong didn't say any more, and ran down and came back with a bowl of thick porridge not long after, saying that he had eaten early in the morning and should be hungry by now.

He absent-mindedly swallowed a few mouthfuls, but came across something that wasn't rice, and when he looked down, it turned out to be a few pieces of stewed squishy tendon meat.He looked up at his sister, who blinked at him, and the brother and sister immediately understood each other, and when he picked up the contents of the bowl and handed it back to the empty bowl, he showed his first smile in the past few days.

Don't ask whether it's hard or not, just for this bowl of meat porridge, everything is worth it.

It was Gao Huaide's first and only time to enter Zhao's Mansion. On the fourth day, he just came back from Shouzhou in the afternoon and changed his clothes before going to Zhao's Mansion in the evening.Three months after the farce in Shouzhou, we finally saw each other again. Regardless of the crowds around him, his eyes were fixed on Gao Huaide and he couldn't move away. Has it always been like this?He only felt that Gao Huaide's whole body was shining like a dazzling light at this time, which was indescribable in any existing words and languages, and almost made him breathless.

If there is a god, what he sees now is.

When the guests were burning incense, he came back to his senses, stepped forward and said, "Kuang Yin and General Gao are on the same pillar."

He stood next to Gao Huaide deliberately getting very close, and originally planned to confess to his father when he came back, who knew that fate would trick people after all.

This can be regarded as a confession, he thought, anyway, his father is watching.

After the congratulations, Gao Huaide picked up another pillar: "There is another pillar, which was entrusted by Mrs. Han to be placed on behalf of Gao."

At this time, Han Lingkun was still under the city of Shouzhou, and it seemed that he had to stay there until the New Year's Eve. From the south of this pass, the news came that the guards, Ma Bujun, commander Li Chongjin, and the front of the palace were checking Zhang Yongde's wrist. Han Lingkun was trapped inside. I guess it's going to be a good day.

Gao Huaide didn't stop for a long time, and left after completing the basic etiquette. Seeing that there were no guests in the evening, he took off his filial piety by the door: "I'll see off General Gao." He said with a wink at Zhao Meirong, Zhao Meirong understood immediately, and asked his family to close the door early when he went out.

Turning into the familiar back alley, the two walked slowly along the wall of Gaogaofang. Zhao Kuangyin peeked at him for a long time and finally said, "Last time... are you okay?"

After smoothing his temples, Gao Huaide gave him a faint smile: "Who do you think you are?"

"You just came back, why did you come here without taking a break?"

"When I first entered the city, I ran into Miss Er and said that you were dying without closing your eyes for three days. I thought you were really dying."

This girl, he smiled in his heart: "Yes, this time I was completely broken. If you come back two days later, wait to burn incense for me."

The evening wind in late summer passed through the hall, and the sound of cicadas in the wall of the square brought a lot of birds chirping.There are bustling worlds on both sides, and the bluestone path sandwiched by the high wall is like a distant world: "... When my uncle was alive... told me about you..."

"Definitely nothing good."

"Yes, nothing good, he said you gamble, you drink too much, you fight and make trouble, you hang out with miscellaneous people, you don't go home at night, you argue with him..."

Listening to Zhao Kuangyin frowned, shook his head and smiled: "How old was I? Sixteen or seventeen? Fifteen or sixteen?"

"I don't know, but he always smiles when he says it, and I think... he must be very proud of you."

His brows were loose, and his tone was a little melancholy: "He never said that."

"He is not a person who speaks out." Gao Huaide looked at him and smiled: "You are very similar in this, and you are similar in many ways."

He was surprised. People have always said that his younger brother looks like his father: "It's the first time someone said that."

"Haven't you noticed it yourself? You are very similar to him: the way you talk, the way you walk, the way you do things, and...your eyes." Stopped walking and looked sideways into his eyes, Gao Huaide smiled slightly When he spoke, he looked three-pointedly obsessed: "...very beautiful, I think these are the most beautiful eyes in the world." (Clinical case of "In addition to reducing human IQ, falling in love also damages human vision")

No, you're beautiful, he almost blurted out.

Still looking at him, Gao Huaide continued to speak slowly: "My father said to me when he left, now I have to go, I will miss you, if you think of me, just think of the days we were together, I will always be there .”

As she spoke, she stretched out her hand to caress his cheek, and her warm fingers carefully outlined his outline inch by inch. Where they touched, there seemed to be a spring-like warm current seeping into the skin until it melted into his blood and flowed all over his body.It is impossible to describe that feeling, like being surrounded by a peaceful and soft sea of ​​light, the restless heart suddenly completely calmed down: "You are his son, he lives on you, as long as you remember, he will never leave."

When those hands touched his browbones, he closed his eyes. How could he forget that, over the past 20 years, every bit of it came to his eyes, and all the lost people came alive in the whizzing time, so much laughter and sorrow , Joy and frustration, gains and losses, how could so many years of shared experience disappear with the death of the body?

In memory those people live forever.

Suddenly a flash of inspiration flashed through his mind, he opened his eyes and grabbed Gao Huaide: "Wait, what else did my father tell you?"

"There are many things... like..." His father must not drink a few glasses of wine and even reveal the things about him crawling all over the floor. Speaking of which, what did his father say to Gao Huaide?

"...like when you stole his knife for chopping walnuts when you were 12 and cut the blade so useless—"

"He... he said that?"

"And if you refuse to admit it afterwards, he will 'teach' you."

Sure enough, whoever said his father was a rough man, had a bright mind.It has been like this since he was a child, his every move can't escape his father's eyes, every time he waits silently for him to confess on his own initiative, it makes him linger for so many days with uneasy conscience.

Immediately, infinite remorse welled up in my heart: "...I regretted it, why didn't I also stab his private treasury in the woodshed to my mother back then."

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