Only God is left

"De'er, do you plan to go to Beijing after I die?"

It was a sudden question. The young man's fingers were stiff as he was fastening the curtain, his face was hidden behind the mahogany cabinet wall, his expression was invisible, and his voice was very low: "I don't know."

The whole room is full of a strong smell of medicine, the years have taken away the youth of this half-life cavalry general, but not the charming look.Gao Xingzhou's eyes were still bright and his expression was serene: "After I die, the imperial court will call you to Beijing, and some people will want you to work in the imperial army. Things may be urgent. Maybe I will order you to seize love and go to Bian..." Coughed lightly, and continued: "If you don't plan to go there, it's time to prepare to go back to Guizhou."

"...I don't know." The young man never looked up, but his breath was obviously a little uncertain when he spoke.

"Then you'd better think about it from now on, time will pass quickly..."

Raising his head suddenly, the young man's voice trembled: "Father, forgive me for being rude, I don't think I should say these things now—"

"Oh, I think I should say this now," Gao Xingzhou continued to speak slowly, with his tone still as calm as ever: "My journey in this world will soon be over, and you still have a long way to go. I can't make a decision for you, this is just one thing, there are still many things you have to decide for yourself in the future, and the result of your decision will become your life."

There was a long silence in the room, Gao Xingzhou turned his face to the young man and smiled: "Open the window, spring is coming soon."

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In the next few days, Emperor Xuanzu, as the commander of the deputy capital of the Ma Jun, led his troops to the city of Chuzhou in the middle of the night, and called to open the door.Emperor Taizu said: "Although father and son are close relatives, they dare not obey orders at the gate of the city!" At dawn, they were allowed to enter.

When he entered the city the next day, his father didn't mean to take offense at all, but he was a little uneasy.After all, his father caught wind-cold and suffered from an old illness during the march, and he made a special trip to Chuzhou on the way back to Bian.His father didn't care, and before he settled down, he said that he wanted to have a drink with him, and he frowned: "——No, in case you put my mother down and cut me up."

But his father insisted: "She won't cut you, my woman is a good woman, she can understand men's affairs."

What else did he want to say, but his father stared at him: "Why, after two years of wandering outside, the wings hardened, and you dare not even listen to your old man's words?"

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Gossiped about his father and mentioned Gao Huaide again, he casually said that he had heard some irresponsible rumors to test his father's attitude.

His father was silent for a long time, and finally let out a long breath, drank a cup of wine and asked him calmly: "So what if he is gone?"

Speaking completely unexpectedly, he was stunned.

"You also know that his grandfather is General Gao Sijigao of Yandi. Your father and I also came from there. General Gao over there has a great reputation besides the white horse and silver gun. They say that heroes love beauties. He is a hero who loves beautiful women." Heroes, men with outstanding talents make him fall in love with him in bed."

His father's tone was humorous, as if he was telling some old anecdotes, but his eyelids twitched involuntarily—it turned out to be the case, no wonder he didn't mention it when he was asked, the ancestor was a man who slept everywhere, so it was difficult to face Without changing his face, he told people that the people from the Gao family are really strange people.

"At that time, no one really said anything bad. How long has passed now, and people in Yandi admire General Gao with regret. Back then, General Gao formed a white horse volunteer army in Yandi to deal with the Hu people who went south to plunder, and they fought several times. Those bastards who came down to plunder ran away when they saw the white horse. For many years, the area along the border was protected by the white horse team. If General Gao hadn’t died in Youzhou at that time, the border bandits would not have been so rampant later on. You must leave, you may not be there today."

At the beginning of the Jin Dynasty, Shi Jingtang cut Youyun sixteen prefectures, where his grandfather Zhao Jing's government was located. Later, his father ran away from Jizhou by himself because of the war disaster in the frontier area. When he came to Dingzhou, he was recruited by Du's family.Over the years, his father has hardly talked about the family affairs in the north. He heard that his grandfather's family is still in the north, but he never dared to ask his father deeply.

"Li Cunshen, the commander-in-chief of the Fanhan soldiers and horses that your father met in the Hedong Army in the past, is also that kind of person. Back then, the people below him talked about his affairs as if they were drinking meat dishes, and they all said that he had an old relationship with Zhaoyi's servant. The two of them do whatever they say, and no one avoids suspicion, and they communicate in a frank and honest way." His father was especially talkative after drinking, and at this time he poured out all the old stories of the Hedong Army that he had never told before. : "It is also said that when he was young, he had a good relationship with Shi Jingsi, the governor of the Jiufu of the old King of Jin. Later, Shi Jingsi died in the battle at Shangyuanyi, and his son took up the military post. Later, Shi Jiantang was transferred to the side of the outer cavalry army. Personally taught and cultivated, even his own son didn't care so much. At that time, the army said that there were two pioneers, Shi Dudu under Zhuangzong's tent and Wu Yiqi Wang under Mingzong's tent at that time. Back then, your father was in the scattered army How many years have I been doing and I haven’t gone up, and I’m convinced when I say it, but it was really not my turn at that time.”

As he spoke, he slammed the wine cup on the table: "Stand upright and walk straight. You are affectionate, righteous, and courageous. What's wrong with walking the dry road? How many men who walk the waterway can do that?"

After finishing speaking, he glanced at him: "If that child is my son, I'm really happy."

The last sentence instantly exploded a thunder above his head: Does his father know about this?How can it be!impossible!

After emptying his glass of wine and calming down, he was a little unscrupulous for a while, and casually threw out a very sensitive topic to divert: "Now grandpa...is he still in the north?"

"Here, he was later transferred to Zhuozhou. Tianfu died in the second year, and he was buried there with your great-grandfather."

His father's tone was still very brisk, but when he talked about the first years of Tianfu, he remembered one thing, the only time his father came home drunk was probably at that time, in front of his mother, he dragged him to gesticulate and go crazy with alcohol, After his mother dragged his father back to the house, he thought it would be a good day the next day, but afterward it was calm as if nothing had happened.

"That old man has always been as tough as Stone Mountain. Others say he will live to be one hundred and eight years old." After drinking two more glasses, he still didn't use honorifics in his speech. He saw his father's eyes dimmed: "That's it." I did some things wrong, and he did some things wrong, but no one wants to bow their heads and admit their mistakes, and now... now there is no chance."

"Father..." He took a deep breath and decided to confess: "Back then you asked who chopped your treasured sword, and I said I didn't know, but I actually chopped walnuts with it, I'm sorry."

His father slammed the wine glass on the table, pointed at him and stared: "You boy! That knife came from the palace!"

"Also, I did make the hole in the ancestral notebook. I used a human head to paste the Pai Gow. I planned to stick it back after I used it up, but I sweated it out. I'm sorry."

"Good boy! You will pay thousands of dollars for gambling!"

"You hid your private treasury under the shelf in the study, and I told my mother... I'm sorry."

"you--"

"Also..." He dragged on the last sentence a little longer, this is a "mistake" that needs courage to admit: I was with a man, this thing shouldn't have happened, but it still happened, at least he is also appreciated by you man, so if anyone is to blame in this, blame me.

His father interrupted him with a wave of his hand: "Stop it! Do you think your father is going to die! What old millet and scumbag old calendars are all moved out! Let's go home and settle accounts slowly! Drink and drink!"

Maybe it was because of the alcohol, that's when he really decided to confess to his father, but it never happened.

His father had been in good health for decades, but this time he fell ill and became bedridden.A few days later, he received an urgent order to go to Shouzhou to meet the saint. Zhao Pu recommended himself to stay. The situation was urgent and there was no better way.

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