Only God is left

The flickering light of the suet lamp illuminated one foot of the felt tent. Several women sitting on the blanket feet lowered their heads to mend their robes. In the middle of the blanket sat a man with a beard and a red beard, holding a knife in one hand. Speaking to the children sitting around: "...so you have to fight, if your left arm is cut off, fight with your right arm, if your left leg is cut off, stand with your right leg, fight until you defeat him."

A woman glanced up at them as she turned her gown over, then lowered her head and resumed her work.No one among the children spoke for a while, but the man with the red beard was about to continue, when he suddenly spoke to one of his children: "Then what if I still can't defeat him?"

The man with the red beard looked at him, and replied without hesitation: "Then you will be killed by him, with a smile on your face, because you are a good day to die, and that is your day, a good day to die, people say You will also say that you are good to die."

The child listened carefully and nodded, probably because of the dim light, one of his eyes was slightly squinted as if he couldn't open it, while the other eye was a bright green.

That was the memory of Li Keyong's great-grandfather Zhu Xie Chiyi when he took advantage of the civil strife in Tubo to escape his control. Zhu Xie Chiyi died in battle at the hands of the Tubo people who came after him. Tang people.

Li Ke spent almost all his youth and adulthood in fleeing and hunting. Maybe he himself sometimes has the illusion that fleeing is a normal life. As for the stability in the middle, it is only for the preparation of the next escape, so he seems to be They are all preparing to burn all the temporarily obtained and flee on the road.

Everything is temporary.

Just like in Daibei, like in Tatar, like now.

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Very occasionally, Li Keyong would have a flash of the thought of seeing him again.

But now Li Keyong only thought about why they would meet again.

It is obvious that Liu Rengong does not have enough prestige to control Lu Long at present, Li Keyong had to temporarily assign the most popular member of the Gao family in the Youyan army to be the commander of the front, middle and rear of the Yan army to calm people's hearts.Soon he saw Gao Siji's style of work again. His reputation as a martial artist in the mighty and powerful Yandi was indeed well-founded. He dealt with the Hedong Army who had always been unruly and indulgent under his command according to military regulations. Save face for Li Keyong.Liu Rengong couldn't intervene in this at all, and could only complain to Li Keyong that Gao's behavior was tyrannical and he didn't pay attention to Hedong at all.

Before Li Keyong returned to Jinyang, Liu Rengong's intention to complain to him was obvious, urging Li Keyong to get rid of the Gao family's forces in the Yan army as soon as possible.Li Keyong was not very concerned at the beginning. He arranged Gao to take charge of the Yan Army to contain Liu Rengong so that his family would not be difficult to manage in the future. Have the face to ask Lulong Jiedushi?

But on the eve of returning to Jinyang, a sergeant hurriedly came to Li Keyong, saying that Gao Siji had taken nine gambling soldiers from Wansheng Camp and would be executed tomorrow.Li Keyong immediately became angry. The Wansheng Battalion was the army he left in Youzhou. Now Gao Siji killed nine of them, and he was clearly against him.In fact, Li Keyong himself is very clear, but because he has always been concerned about the change of the military's morale, he always turns a blind eye to the style of these people on the battlefield-that is to say, but he can let Lu Long's surname be Gao ?

He immediately took people to Gaosi Jiying.When it was time for Haishi, Gao Siji did not rest. Seeing Li Keyong who was full of anger, he smiled and greeted him very calmly, as if he knew he was coming.Li Keyong was not in the mood to tangle with him, so he suppressed his anger and asked him directly about the camp.Gao Siji's expression didn't change, he just said nonchalantly: "Li Sikong is busy with things, why bother with these trivial matters by himself."

Seeing that he avoided talking about this matter, Li Keyong felt even angrier. A few people drink and gamble in the middle of the night, is it a big deal?Do you have to kill all the people?

"General Gao might as well tell it and listen to it. If it is really a heinous plot, this commander is not a person who tolerates traitors!"

Gao Siji sneered and didn't speak directly, but sent someone to the small guard guarding the Youzhou military prison: "Li Sikong wants to hear the story of those people who were just admitted to the death row today, so you can tell me."

That small school is a veteran of Lulong, and he didn't know what to look at, and he said it simply and clearly: "Nine soldiers from Zhang Yansi's troops at the east gate of Wansheng Camp gathered for gambling in the middle of the night, and because of the dispute, Zhang Yansi used wine to fight. He brought his own soldiers to Pingding and refused to listen to them, but was wounded. Now they are all in prison, and they will be executed at the front of the army at noon tomorrow."

Li Keyong's face became more and more ugly. This is no longer the heinous thing he said verbally, but the heinous thing that is clearly listed as the heinous thing.It didn't end here, so Gao Siji didn't look at him, and asked the schoolboy again: "What are these people betting on? Let me tell you."

Hearing this, the dental soldier next to Li Keyong who sent him a message turned deadly, and the junior still spoke clearly: "General Hui, she is a woman who robbed the city."

It's so fucking shameless to lose your ancestors!After listening to it once, Li Keyong's face became a little dry, and he cursed even more in his heart.He gave the tooth soldier next to him a hard look, but he couldn't speak for a while because of what he said earlier.

Gao Siji sighed deliberately after dismissing the little school, and then turned to Li Keyong: "Li Sikong, you heard it all. According to the prohibition of Yandi, this kind of thing will be cut in front of the army. , I mean, since these people were originally under Li Sikong's command, I'm afraid they are not familiar with our army's tight contract. If they want to leave a whole body for the first offense, I don't know what Li Sikong wants?"

There was a faint cold light in Li Ke's single eye. He looked at Gao Siti and was silent for a moment, then slowly said: "General Gao, let's take a step to talk."

Gao Siji still had a calm attitude, stood up and made a gesture of invitation to the back room.

As soon as he closed the door, Li Keyong's voice sounded thickly behind him: "Why did you do this?"

Gao Siji turned around with a sneer on his face: "I've been doing this all the time, don't you know?"

"I know you did that when you were 20."

"Yeah, now I'm still—"

Before he could finish the second half of his sentence, Li Keyong jumped up and grabbed his wrist and forced him against the wall: "—Listen, I can only warn you once because of the past, "Li Ke Ke Yong had a grim expression on his face, and his teeth were grinding: "Be smart, don't mess around, we can all be fine, otherwise—"

"Otherwise, don't blame you for being ruthless—" Gao Siji smiled: "Just because of this sentence, you have to come here in person, and you are going to tear yourself apart in front of the people below, is it worth it?"

God, what else in this world could make him laugh like this?Why can he still laugh like this more than ten years ago?Even his eyes were the same as when they first met—they were so cold, bright gold that he had never seen before.

Li Keyong always thought of himself as a cold and tough person, but every time he faced those golden eyes, he would feel an inexplicable feeling.That feeling made him uncomfortable, and he didn't want to admit that he was actually afraid of this strange feeling.

That feeling made him feel weak—weak, stupid, confused.

And he couldn't resist the feeling.

When the distance between the two of them was so close that they could even feel the ups and downs of each other's breathing, long-lasting memories flooded back.The smell of sweet cheese and mutton in the Monan felt tent couldn't cover up the refreshing freshness of his body, and the sound of Dutar's jumping strings still rang vividly in his ears.He had been so young, too, so young and laid-back that he would think to himself some stupid questions without thinking: What a strange instrument!How come there are so many ups and downs on the two strings?That kind of voice is as fickle as it can manipulate the human heart; and the human heart, a mass of flesh and blood that is indistinguishable from an animal's, has so many fickle emotions?

Or in the end, the heart is just a mass of flesh and blood growing in the body, so how can it "change"?

When those episodes flooded down, no one could close the floodgates.Li Ke looked deeply into those eyes, and tremblingly stroked Gao Siji's side cheek with his free left hand.His fingers touched Gao Siti's temple hair, which was still shiny in brown and was neatly gathered on top of his head by a hair crown.Li Keyong remembered that when he was in Monan, he never tied his hair like this. He always tied it loosely in a bun and let it fall over his shoulders.The thick and slightly curly chestnut-colored long hair is like a waterfall in the sun. People you meet on the road, male or female, can't help but look back a few more times, and he will always look back with a polite, bright smile. laugh.

He is so fascinated by this Gao Siji, the proud man who does what he thinks is right and will not change for anyone or anything.

No one, including him.The only way to change him is to eliminate him completely, which he has been clear from the beginning.

But what a shame that would be.

Gao Siji seemed to be in a daze for a moment, then took a deep breath, struggling to push Li Keyong away: "...Damn it, let me go."

Li Ke's response was to press his wrists tighter against the wall and put his whole body up, with his shoulders firmly pressed against his right arm, and his hands stretched into his clothes from under his belt.It was the winter moon, but Gao Siji still only wore two layers of unlined clothing under the quilt, and his body still carried a familiar temperature and smell, so familiar that Li Keyong could burn his whole body immediately.Kissing Gao Siji's neck, Li Ke's hand went deeper and lower, he could feel the slight trembling of that body in response, and he could even feel Gao Siji's gradually changing breathing and heartbeat.Everything was so familiar, when he bit Gao Sji's earlobe in his mouth, he was clenched into a fist by the hand that was pressing on his chest.

As if giving up, Gao Sji closed his eyes and raised his head. He whispered in Gao Sji's ear: "...Go back to Guizhou," his tone was completely pleading, so earnestly that even he himself Surprised: "Go back to Guizhou, huh? Please, go back..."

"—I said let me go!"

Gao Siji suddenly opened his eyes, raised his knees violently, and focused on Li Keyong's vital points. Li Keyong let out a muffled grunt unprepared and was relieved, and was immediately thrown away by his chest palm.

"What are you doing?" Frowning at Li Keyong, Gao Siji's usual smile disappeared, replaced by a sadness deeper than anger: "What are you doing, eh?"

The atmosphere froze in embarrassment for a while, Gao Siji stood there looking at him for a long time, he sighed and squatted down against the wall, covered his face with his hands, buried his head in his knees and did not speak again.

It was a completely closed posture, vigilant, imprisoned.

Fragile.

Stepping forward in silence, Li Ke tentatively put his hand on his shoulder with one knee, but was blocked by his arm: "Don't touch me, get out!"

His head was still lowered, not looking at his expression, but there was a clear sob at the end of the sentence.But this is a person with a joking smile under any circumstances, as if nothing in the world is enough for him to worry about.Li Ke was stunned and tried to catch him again.Quickly dodged to the side, still didn't raise his head, his voice was suppressed but couldn't hide the hysteria: "—Don't touch me! You can't fucking understand human speech, right?"

Then there was a dead silence. After a while, Gao Siji stood up again with a blank expression on his face. He tidied up his clothes and didn't look at Li Keyong again. He stepped to the door and opened it with a bang.

"It's late at night, take Li Sikong back."

When Gao Siji said this, his tone was very calm, as if nothing had happened just now.

But at this moment, a tooth soldier brought up the old story again: "General Gao, what about these military criminals...?"

Glancing at Li Keyong, Gao Siji's face had returned to his usual demeanor, and he was still relaxed and calm with a provocative smile: Yes, Li Sikong, what do you think about this matter? "

Like pouring cold water on him, Li Ke's confusion was swept away in an instant, and then he looked at Gao Siji with only a gloomy gaze: "These ignorant officers who don't know what's good or bad can be killed ten times and they won't die! General Gao is decisive. Awesome!"

As if he couldn't hear his subtext, Gao Siji gave him a chin and smiled: "Where, Li Sikong doesn't play favoritism for personal gain, and he will eventually be moved."

With a cold snort, before leaving, Li Keyong turned his head back and said, "I will remember this favor from General Gao."

Striding towards the torch-lit King Jin tent, Li Ke used his feet to get faster and faster.The matter in Youzhou must be dealt with as soon as possible. He spent a lot of energy to settle Lu Long, and now he must pay close attention.Gao Siji was quite capable, but he was definitely not able to suppress it. Although Liu Rengong was not capable, it was much easier to manage.

This is just another thorny problem for him to solve. There are no golden eyes and bright smiles, no soft words and hot temperatures, no memories and no perceptions in this problem-love is only two words, and it will never be here. To be spoken; love is only two words, which can never be spoken here.

But the memory lives on forever.

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