Thousands of people suspect that they have become a spiritual queen

"Your Highness, I didn't believe that anyone in this world could experience the suffering and injustice in the world, and still be full of hope when he died."

Regret... what?

Su Jiao looked at her hand, he seemed to remember everything.

But when he tried to ponder his name, he found nothing.

But he also knew that, considering various details, the "friend" in the dream might not be human.

Even though the person was right behind him, the teacher wouldn't take a second look there.

He will not talk to classmates or anyone other than him.

I didn't see which bed he went to sleep at night.

His existence seems to have only one meaning, that is, Xiao Su Jiao's "friend".

There are so many details that I didn't feel that something was wrong when I was young, but it was very unnatural in retrospect.

And what he said about regret was also very simple, Su Jiao also remembered it.

Little Su Jiao once joked to him that she wanted to be good friends with him for the rest of her life.

Then the other party, who has been silent for a long time, picked up the fairy tale book, turned to a fairy tale, pointed to the "you" on it, and then searched for a long time, pointed to "yes", then turned the page again and found "regret" .

Su Jiao, who was very young, didn't pay attention at that time, but said with a smile: "No."

Then he even began to express childish dissatisfaction: "Why can't you still write?"

The other party maintained the silence he should have.

Su Jiao: "I've taught you how to write for half a month, why do you still only know how to write my name?"

……

but.

Su Jiao thought again, when the fire broke out, she didn't see him stuttering and unable to speak.

Just when he was thinking wildly, the brisk voice of the system sounded: "Good morning, Your Highness—"

This was almost a shock, which woke Su Jiao up from the distant memory.

"What's wrong with you?" The system saw that he was emotionally wrong, and asked suspiciously: "It seems a little absent-minded."

Su Jiao thought for a while and decided to tell the system about it.

It was useless for him to think about it alone, the system might know something.

The thick curtains were not drawn, making the whole room look dim and uncomfortable, and after the system finished listening, there was a long, thinking-like silence.

Su Jiao got out of bed and opened the curtains.

The sunlight seemed to dispel the deep, oppressive feeling left over from the dream.

Su Jiao: "Why, is there something very difficult, you can't tell me?"

The system didn't seem to know how to describe it, and finally said, "No...it should be said, I was just surprised...you actually met...Him so early."

Su Jiao: "Meet you so early?"

Su Jiao suddenly had a bad feeling, because, the existence that could be treated by the system as if it were an enemy...

The tone of the system is also a little anxious, and it seems to be very disturbed.

Su Jiao regained her composure, thinking that she would not be so unlucky, and asked tentatively, "So he is?"

System: "Yes...no, don't offend..."

The system realized that he was not in his illusion now, and immediately denied his words.

He modified it and described him in more accurate terms.

As if he was afraid that he would cause unimaginable disasters if he used the wrong words: "His existence itself symbolizes boundless disasters and bad luck, and it is the same as you. It is the existence of your natural enemy—”

In fact, the system doesn't need to describe so much, Su Jiao already guessed from his tone that he was facing a big enemy, what was the existence that he met when he was a child.

It is a "natural disaster".

……

If he was a god of natural disasters at that time, it would be natural for him to be targeted by such a terrifying existence, but at that time he was only four years old, a child who knew nothing, almost powerless ...Why did the "natural disaster" target him?

Wait, wait, if other world consciousnesses can predict that he is a "God of Natural Disaster", then it seems that it is not a strange thing that the other party who is a "Natural Disaster" can predict his future.

The system is facing a big enemy: "You will meet him when you were young, and you will encounter such a terrible fire. He must have known something in advance-he knows that you are his future disaster, and you will grow up to be his only nemesis. So He wants to destroy you in advance before you become a god of natural disasters!"

Su Jiao shook her head and said softly, "It was he... who saved me."

In fact, he didn't want to believe that the other party was that kind of person.

The system noticed his silence, and said softly: "As a god of natural disasters, your mission is to relieve natural disasters and save the victims, and doing so will allow you to gain faith and become stronger."

"But "natural disasters" want to create people's fear, trembling, and despair. You bring peace of mind and salvation, and you are undoubtedly a thorn in His side..."

Su Jiao hesitated: "But he was very kind to me at that time."

System: "Before you knew that Zheng Feng was not your biological mother, did you also think that she was very kind to you?"

Su Banan stopped talking.

The system said: "No matter what the process is, the final result is that you rushed into the fire, He disappeared, and you were seriously injured, and you were burdened with death all over your body. This is the "result" of your encounter with him. "

"Your Highness, you have come into contact with "Fate". Seeing that Su Jiao didn't seem to want to accept this guess, the system changed to a more gentle way, "Do you still remember how you manipulated the "fate" of mortals?" "

Su Jiao was taken aback.

"You write the 'results' on paper. "The system said softly: "You want Yan Lian to enter a nursing home, you want to leave Yan's house, and you want to see your brother. "

"Once you write down the result with divinity, no matter what the price you pay, you will achieve your wish." The system said very gently: "Your Highness, "Natural Disasters" can also manipulate fate just like you. "

The sun fell from the window, but Su Jiao felt an inexplicable chill.

"His kindness to you...or, what you feel, comes from His kindness." The system said rationally, "Could it be the price he paid for wanting you to suffer misery and death, and hating the world. "

The young man was silent for a while, and said, "To deal with me at that time, I shouldn't need such complicated thoughts."

He was just a child at that time, and if the natural disaster wanted to deal with him, wouldn't it be something that could be done with just a few fingers?Why do you need to make such a lot of calculations and make simple things so complicated.

"Cursing the gods of the future, even for natural disasters, is not easy."

The system said softly: "What's more, what is the "name" you were born with, do you remember it? "

Su Jiao was stunned for a moment, and then listened to the system's statement: "[Standing on top of millions of natural disasters, you are the only god.]"

"Your "name" has "standing on top of millions of natural disasters". The system said seriously: "Name" represents your divinity, your destiny, your history, the beliefs of believers, and the future you will definitely go to. "

"Under the name of the Absolute God, "natural disasters" cannot directly erase you. "

Su Jiao: "If you say that, then am I safe?"

System: "But I definitely want to deal with you, and it's not impossible."

The voice of the system is very cold, "That is to let you go through "disaster" and "suffering", and hate this world from the bottom of your heart. "

Su Jiao's pupils shrank slightly.

"The "Gods of Natural Disasters" who feed on hope will only be born in hope and love, not in misery and despair. The system said softly: "When you die with resentment in mind, there may be another evil god incarnate in despair in this world... No, maybe not." "

The system said: "Perhaps before you become an evil god, you will be swallowed by the "natural disaster" that feeds on despair. "

The system said: "In this way, he can not only make you disappear completely, but also satisfy his own "despair". "

Su Banana's lips clenched slightly, and he suddenly felt very cold.

Could it be that in this world, all the love that Su Jiao feels is hidden and used.

When he was thinking this way, he suddenly heard the system say.

"So your birth is a real miracle."

Su Jiao was taken aback.

The system said: "Your Highness, I didn't believe that anyone in this world could experience the misery and injustice in the world, and still be full of hope when he died."

Su Ban's throat was so dry that she couldn't speak.

hope...

He blankly recalled the memory of that period in the snow, but he could only think of the biting chill. He felt so cold and desperate at that time.

He didn't have the match of the little girl in the fairy tale, and he didn't have the hope of flying to heaven. He was obviously... desperate.

The system said: "The "natural disasters" are evil, cunning, cold, and have no good intentions. They can do anything to achieve a goal... Don't trust him. "

Su Jiao didn't want to recall that period of deep soul pain, and said in a low voice, "Then, am I not very dangerous?"

"No, no, don't worry, Your Highness, they haven't fully awakened yet." The system said: "Although there are natural disasters that continue to occur in this world, He also has a very powerful power of disaster—I guess they want to wake up from a deep sleep. Waking up in the middle of the night may require some opportunities."

When the system said this, Su Jiao felt relieved, and he asked, "Then how can we prevent them from fully awakening?"

The system said affirmatively: "Of course, it is to solve more natural disasters and save more people, so that they will not have fear and despair-these emotions are also the breeding ground for natural disasters to become stronger."

Relying on his divinity, Su Jiao gradually calmed down, and he decided to let himself not think about these things.

After all, he is only C-level now, so instead of worrying about it, he should think about how to find more worshipers, harvest the offering value, and increase his divine power.

He thought of the painting that was always sent in - Gu Xichu.

There is no doubt that the other party is a "player" who has been redeemed by him, that is, a "potential devotee".

Su Jiao was thinking, when the phone rang suddenly, it was Yan Lian's message.

Yan Lian had already woken up, and after waking up, he didn't see that he obviously started to go crazy again, sending more than a dozen messages.

Su Jiao suddenly remembered what Liu Han said to him, Yan Lian pointed at him to force Liu Han to accept an apology.

Su Ban flicked her phone.

He looked at the news that belonged to Yan Lian that kept popping up on his phone, and he could almost see through the screen that Yan Lian couldn't find himself insane.

He calmly waited for Yan Lian's dense messages to be sent, and then he slowly replied with a "hmm".

There was silence for a while, and then——

"Where are you?"

Su Jiao replied slowly: "I went to see Liu Hanyi."

This was undoubtedly an answer that would irritate Yan Lian, but Su Jiao did it on purpose - sure enough, after he sent this message, he heard a familiar mechanical voice.

"The value of the banquet offering is 88%"

And according to the system, if the offering value is maxed out, the restriction of "cannot harm the gods" will disappear—although I don't quite understand why there is such an unreasonable restriction, but Su Jiao doesn't intend to anger him completely, he Planning to brush Yan Lian's offering value to 90 and stop... He wants to become stronger, and he is eager to become stronger.

There was no reply for a long time.

Su Jiao didn't care too much either, and just as she was about to put down the phone, it buzzed again.

"So, does that promise still count?"

Su Jiao paused.

He knew what Yan Lian was talking about, and he had promised to accompany him for a while—it was because he used the soul bell to summon something that shouldn't be summoned, and his divine power was exhausted, and he could recuperate at Yan Lian, so He agreed to Yan Lian's proposal.

But now, he has a sudden realization of the essence of God, and his divine power has been fully restored, and he also has a large inheritance from Zheng Feng. If things go well, the merit value in the temple and the merit value of the small natural disaster world he saved before will also be settled ...

Su Jiao thought quietly.

He probably, soon, will no longer need banquets.

Su Ban felt that she could go back on her word.

And he didn't want to go against his own heart again.

What's more, Su Jiao doesn't think that...Yan Lian is really her "loyal" believer.

A person like Yan Pian, he will not believe in anyone, nor will he love anyone.

She would want his company only because Yan Lian wanted it, not because Su Jiao needed it.

From beginning to end, Yan Lian only loves himself.

Su Jiao then slowly replied: "It doesn't count."

Yan Lian: "Will the gods go back on their word?"

Su Bana pressed the screen, poked a few letters with her fingers habitually, and stopped again.

The reply box is the same as usual, trying to calm the other party's anger or other emotions, a soft and gentle explanation, beginning with [No, just];

just what?Why explain?

He has always been like this, habitually, gentleness and obedience are like instincts engraved in his soul.

But what is there to explain?Yan Lian is just a worshiper, and he needs to make Yan Lian even more angry.

Su Jiao remembered Liu Hanyi's words.

——He is dangerous and not obedient.

The sun was like being cut into dry watercolor fragments by a sharp knife. After dipping in the water, a thick stroke of ink fell on the young man's cheeks, making his amber eyes warm and slightly cold.

Su Jiao deleted the words above, and finally typed a few words slowly: "Yes, I regret it."

He hit send.

And at this moment, he really heard a mechanical sound.

[Feast pity offering value 93%].

[Congratulations, Your Highness, the upper limit of divine power is 100000w, do you want to get it? 】

After Su Jiao gained her divine power, she blocked Yan Lian.

Yan Lian's love and care will only bring harm to people.

Su Jiao thought, the end of Yan Lian, and the "natural disaster" seems to be on the verge of waking up, no one knows what will happen in the future, he has to find new worshipers to obtain stronger divine power.

After doing all this, Su Jiao looked at the garden outside the window.

The villa that Zheng Feng bought was obviously used for investment before, the garden was neglected, overgrown with weeds, withered roses and dodder growing together, it looked messy and weird.

A faint irritability came to mind.

Su Jiao knew that most of the annoyance she felt had nothing to do with Yan Lian, but more because of the roses wrapped around the dodder in front of her eyes.

His divinity is protesting.

Ever since he was upgraded to a c-level god and got more upper limit of divine power one after another, he could feel more and more that conflict, the conflict between divinity and humanity-in fact, this conflict has always existed.

The human nature belonging to Su Jiao has always been cowardly, withdrawn, and tolerant, while the newly born divinity is flamboyant, noble, proud, not to be desecrated, but full of mercy—only after upgrading to a c-level god, the divinity " The "arrogant" side began to become stronger and stronger.

Just as he could not tolerate the driver's surreptitious scrutiny, just as he was disgusted by the instinct of cowardice and flattery, so he also had an instinctive dissatisfaction with the clutter of the garden.

If I have to say it, Zheng Feng's villa is his "temple", and the mess of the "temple" itself represents blasphemy against God.

Without the system's reminder, Su Jiao knew that the consequence of resisting divinity would be a decline in divine power.

But obeying the divinity and communicating with the divinity will become stronger and stronger. This kind of strength is reflected in the fact that Su Jiao can even exert some power in the real world where the divine power is suppressed to the extreme.

And the system explained to him that the divine power driven by divinity will not cause the real world to collapse.

Just like the wind, rain, thunder and lightning produced in the real world are naturally controlled by the world consciousness, and "divinity" is a higher and more natural existence than the world consciousness, similar to the way of heaven.

The changes in divine power under the Dao of Heaven are the result of good communication with the "world consciousness", which is similar to the unity of man and nature.

And if there is no divinity, but relying on Su Jiao's "humanity" to forcibly use divine power, it will undoubtedly destroy the "natural law" of the construction of world consciousness, similar to adding bugs to the real world.

And the world of heavy support can no longer afford this kind of bug.

In order to prevent accidents, when Su Jiao has no divinity, the divine power will be directly disabled.

Su Jiao is now planning to fully accept the influence of divinity.

For him, it's not a bad change.

Just like the different choices a person makes on one thing—for example, when a terrible natural disaster strikes the world, when there are many people behind him who need to be protected—Su Jiao’s humanity will shrink back in fear, while the divinity will retreat. It will make him firm, calm, unyielding, and go forward bravely.

As for the contradiction between "divinity" and "humanity", and whether Su Jiao is still herself after becoming a "god", these are actually not important to Su Jiao.

"The important thing is not what I am." Su Jiao told herself in a low voice, "It's what I want to do."

He wants to become stronger, prevent natural disasters, and save those who are in deep distress like him, and to do all this, he must get rid of the cowardice, flattery, fear, and shrinking in his nature.

But getting rid of these human shortcomings does not mean denying himself, on the contrary, he must fully accept the past, the suffering and sorrow engraved in his memory, and at the same time, he will accept the future that may happen to him just as he accepts the past.

Su Jiao looked at the messy garden, soothing the anxiety and boredom in her divinity—but this had little effect.

So he decided to allocate tens of thousands of dollars from Zheng Feng's estate to hire a skilled gardener to take care of the garden.

Almost at the moment of making this decision, the irritability disappeared in an instant, and a kind of joy from the heart spread from the heart to the limbs.

Su Jiao thought at ease, um, when doing this, she must release Zheng Feng's from the soul-inducing bell, and then under her watch, he will slowly transfer the money - at that time, his Movements should be slow, graceful, reserved, and artistic.

Su Jiao has reason to believe that Zheng Feng's pain of inseparable money will make him happy all day.

I don't know why, Su Jiao suddenly can't understand some people who take pleasure in other people's pain—of course, the "natural disaster" that is said to be evil in nature and caused him bad luck for more than ten years and the perverted banquet are completely ruled out outer.

……

Su Jiao went to a certain company and hired a business driver for herself. The monthly salary was around 1w5-3w, with accommodation and no food included. Because it was not a company, it was just a personal employment, so there was no five social insurance and one housing fund.

Although the treatment is average, the advantage is that the salary is not low, and the employees are still flocking to it.

The driver's job content is very simple, that is, to drive him to and from school, and let's talk about other needs.

Su Jiao checked some precautions, went to a professional lawyer to draw up a labor contract online, thought about it, and generously bought a housekeeper, chef, gardener, nannies, etc. for the villa she lived in.

The chef needs to be able to cook all kinds of cuisines; the housekeeper needs to be highly educated and well-educated; the gardener needs to be proficient in flower arrangement and art;

Of course, this huge expense was paid by the deceased Ms. Zheng Feng.

Because of the generous salary, Su Jiao received a lot of replies very quickly. He picked and picked the resumes, and finally retained a group of people.

When he was doing these things, Zheng Feng stared at his back faintly like a wraith.

Zheng Feng really wanted to say viciously, "You will be punished", "Little monster with a thousand cuts to pieces", "Damn murderer", "Shameless thief"...but she knew that once she opened her mouth, she would become Cheng "I wish you can spend your money happily every day", "You are a noble god with good fortune, please spend a little more" "Your respected person with a long life, I am glad that my money can bring you happiness" "Decent and respectful" Your god of generosity, I am honored by your favor..." or something.

This is the tragic and sad reality she has concluded after many attempts.

in the hospital.

"How did you get such a serious injury..."

The elders of the Banquet chattered: "Let's leave the company's affairs to your elder brother. You are really annoying. If you can't control yourself like this again, I will still send you back to the nursing home."

"Grandpa is getting old, I'd rather you suffer a bit in the nursing home than see your dead body lying in some corner..."

As he said this, he suddenly stopped.

The golden-red afterglow of the setting sun fell from the window, shining on the boy's brown eyes. When he was talking, he had obviously been looking at the phone, but suddenly, he threw it aside.

In his arms was a red-eyed rabbit doll who didn't know where it came from, and a kind of lonely loneliness lingered all over his body.

Yan Changsui: "?"

He suddenly tilted his head like a broken puppet, and said, "Grandpa."

Yan Changsui: "Huh?"

"No one loves me." He stated softly and in a quiet tone, "I'm so sad."

Yan Changsui scowled, "What nonsense are you talking, so many people love you."

Yan Lian gave an "oh" and murmured, "That's right, many people love me."

But he doesn't want to.

If he doesn't want it, then those loves are meaningless, so it means nothing.

All he wanted was Banana's love—very much.

He obviously hates ugly things the most, but now he recalls their first meeting - a luxurious ball, a dance floor with waltz, a quiet boy in a small suit and a mask.

When he was pretending to fall, he came over to support him, his amber eyes were full of embarrassment and uneasiness, and the moment he lifted him up, he let go, as if he was afraid of disturbing him.

Times have changed, and he never cared about other people's petty feasts, but from this little memory, he tasted the sweetness that made him intoxicated.

……

In fact, up to now, he doesn't really understand what love is, and he is destined to be unable to understand this kind of thing.

He just wanted Banana to be like that time.

Yan Lian said in a very light and slow tone: "Grandpa, those people who made me uncomfortable in the past are all dead, but this person, even if he hurts me, I don't want him to die at all, and I don't want him to die. Bad end."

"Even if he makes me sad like this." Yan Lian took a short, unnatural pant, and her brown eyes showed a fragility of confusion: "But, I still don't want him to be bad."

One knife at a time, no matter whether it is poked at himself or someone else, Yan Lian feels it doesn't matter.

But if——if the knife was poked on Su Jiao's body, Yan Lian would feel the pain just by imagining it.

He threatened Liu Hanyi with Su Jiao because it was up to him whether he stabbed him or not.

As soon as Liu Han knew that he was a lunatic——

Liu Hanyi didn't dare to gamble, a calm and thoughtful hacker would not make a decision when he was not fully sure, Liu Hanyi lost his madness, he couldn't bet on him, so Liu Hanyi was doomed to lose everything.

But what did he win?

Tears welled up in Yan Lian's tea-brown eyes, and she would not let them fall, she muttered to herself: "Why...is this happening?"

Yan Changsui looked at his child and finally let out a long sigh. He patted the child's head, showed the patience of an elder, and taught in a gentle voice: "Ah Lian, you love him."

"Love?" Yan Lian opened his eyes slightly, he almost laughed out loud, "Love?"

"Yes." Yan Changsui said: "Love is, no matter what situation you are in, you want the other person to have a good life."

Yan Changsui thought that this would help his mentally abnormal child, but he saw tears falling from the boy's eyes.

Yan Lian said in a declarative, sad tone: "He doesn't wish me well."

He was reluctant to stab Su Jiao even once, he would feel pain if Su Jiao was even slightly injured.

But Su Jiao could watch him stab himself thirty times and watch the blood flow down, just watching calmly and indifferently.

——Each knife did not move.

So Yan Lian panted, and finally said the obvious fact.

"He doesn't love me at all."

……

Yan Changsui has left.

Yan Lian hugged the rabbit tightly and looked out the window.

The sun is approaching, and the blood is in harmony.

His pale and powerful hands were tightly trapped in the rabbit, and the dark brown eyes seemed to light up with the same treacherous blood light as the rabbit.

The author says:

The system (crazy condemnation: Natural disasters are bad things, don’t believe him!! Bad things!!

Su banana: nsdd;

Natural disasters (wipe away tears: Wuwu;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!