blowing clouds

Recently, Xu Donghai's most intuitive view of Chen Xiyang is that this person is bewildered.

Generally speaking, in the public opinion, introverted people are more extreme. The so-called honest people who get angry are the scariest. It is a similar reason. How many tragedies throughout the ages were caused by corners?Seeing Chen Xiyang staring at the manuscript in a daze all day long, Xu Donghai regretted giving him that unlucky advice.

So on a windy and cooling afternoon, Xu Donghai was wearing a coat and smoking a cigarette, and sat beside Chen Xiyang like a loving father: "My brother, if you can't think of it, don't think about it. Come out for a walk with me."

Chen Xiyang was unmoved and didn't bother to talk to him.

"There are so many young and beautiful girls on campus, if you look around, you might be inspired." Xu Donghai continued to encourage.

Chen Xiyang was so annoyed that he could only open his mouth: "It's not that I'm uninspired, on the contrary, I know what's wrong with what I wrote. Is this considered progress?"

Xu Donghai puffed out a puff of smoke from the side of his head: "Then you are playing with me? Pretend to be depressed here!"

"I always feel..." Chen Xiyang's eyes showed some confusion, "My heart is deceiving me. I have emotions that I really want to express, but my brain and hands are hiding them from me. When I write, they will be lost." Blindfolded me and didn't allow me to express it."

Xu Donghai's expression returned to concern: "Brother, I have never encountered such a mysterious idea of ​​yours. Why are you like the great poet Haizi? Don't be too hard on it."

"Get out." Chen Xiyang glared at him, proving that he was very open-minded with evil words.

In fact, Chen Xiyang's hesitation was not because of Lin Ji's unsightly behavior. Although he was quite aggrieved that night, he was quickly forgotten by him. The real reason was what he just said.Recently, the words and expressions he wrote cannot be said to be gorgeous, and the emotions cannot be said to be insincere, but they always seem to be covered up, hazy, vague, and superficial. This kind of story composed of incomplete emotions makes Chen Xiyang feel powerless , but I don't know how to reverse it.

Xu Donghai stood up clutching his collar after stamping out the cigarette butt: "Get out, get out. Since you have inspiration, start writing. I'm not afraid that your writing will be bad, but I'm afraid that you won't write."

"You're such a philosopher," Chen Xiyang glanced back at Xu Donghai, and added without waiting for him to laugh, "Correct nonsense is also a philosophy."

Although Chen Xiyang always maintained this autistic look in the dormitory, he never seemed to give up. Xu Donghai also handed over his manuscripts to him from time to time, without reservation. A few sentences are not against his will, but this kind of narrative text is very different from what he wants to express, and it is completely different.

In this kind of atmosphere, Chen Xiyang was naturally not enthusiastic about going home, and he seemed absent-minded when he was packing his schoolbag on weekends. Xu Donghai took a panoramic view of his expression, approached sneakily, and yelled softly while touching him with.

"Are you sick, like a dealer in pornography?" Chen Xiyang distanced himself from him in disgust.

Not only was Xu Donghai not annoyed, but he also showed a secretive smile: "I see you are like this, and [-]% of you are worried when you go home. It just so happens that there is no one in my house this week, and I got another good movie disc. Go and see it?"

Chen Xiyang didn't say anything, but his eyes were enough to express all contemptuous sentences.

"What do you look at? It's not a movie!" Xu Donghai laughed angrily, "It's a regular Hong Kong movie, a genuine VCD, what are you thinking about! But it's very exciting, you will definitely regret it if you don't watch it, do you want to go?"

Chen Xiyang stopped tidying up, thought for a while and said, "Go now, it will be too late after finishing."

"It's too late to stay," Xu Donghai said naturally, "Anyway, there is no one in my house, so you can live in whichever house you want."

Chen Xiyang pondered for a while, Lin Ji's face popped out in his mind, he picked up his schoolbag: "Let's go."

It wasn't that he disliked Lin Ji, but he felt inexplicably that it would be more comfortable to be alone than the two of them squeezed together on the same bed, especially if he and Lin Ji were squeezed together.

Xu Donghai's home was not far away, but it was in the opposite direction to Chen Xiyang's home. Chen Xiyang seemed to be on a reverse path.The streets and buildings that fell into his eyes along the way were all unfamiliar, but the afterglow of the setting sun was still familiar. Xu Donghai chatted with him about school anecdotes while smoking a cigarette. When the butt of the cigarette caught fire, a two-storey bungalow appeared in front of them.

Unlike Lin Ji's house, there are no vegetables grown at the gate of the courtyard, but a pair of weather-beaten stone lions.

Entering an unfamiliar environment, Chen Xiyang became even more silent, while Xu Donghai greeted with a smile: "There is no one at home, just treat it as if you are in the dormitory, don't be cautious, go to my bedroom to see my collection of books first?"

Chen Xiyang had nothing to do. After looking around the living room with better lighting than his own, he walked around the huge photo frame composed of countless photos and walked into Xu Donghai's room.

Xu Donghai's bedroom is neater than Chen Xiyang imagined. The main reason is that his books are not stacked on the floor, but neatly stacked on the bookshelves, so that it doesn't look messy. The only fly in the ointment is the lingering smoke in the air. taste.

Chen Xiyang walked slowly to the bookshelf to observe, all of them were martial arts novels, Jin Yong's, Gu Long's, Liang Yusheng's, Wen Rui'an's, Huang Yi's, Li Liang's, etc. You can feel the unique taste of old books.

"How?" Xu Donghai said triumphantly, "Didn't expect my brother to be so well-read?"

Chen Xiyang snorted and said, "How many points do these classics add to my college entrance examination?"

"You really don't know how to chat!" Xu Donghai pretended to hit him, "Forget it, let's go to the movies, and after that, let's go to the night market and have some barbecue or something to celebrate the weekend."

Originally, Chen Xiyang didn't have much yearning for watching movies, because he didn't have such experience before, but when he was sitting on the cushion of the hardwood sofa and watching Xu Donghai playing with the [-]-inch color TV, Chen Xiyang was attracted physically and mentally. Qian gently picked up the cover of the CD, looked at the two handsome men on it, and read out the four words: "Happy Together..."

Xu Donghai raised his eyebrows and smiled maliciously: "It was just released in Hong Kong in May, and it's not easy to have a plate now."

Chen Xiyang didn't know that the ones on the cover were Leslie Cheung and Tony Leung, who were only known by their names, but he was touched by their deep and complicated eyes, leaving ripples as if they had been touched by a dragonfly. Because the packaging is not exquisite, the cover looks a little too long. Fuzzy, but Chen Xiyang couldn't guarantee if it was his own dizziness.

When the CD was loaded into the DVD player, Chen Xiyang was inexplicably flustered.

The dim colors, the pale subtitles, everything that appeared in front of his eyes made Chen Xiyang uneasy. The background sound of the movie was not low, but for some reason, he could clearly hear the sound of burning tobacco in Xu Donghai's hand, like Burning the veins in his ears.

There is something wrong with the opening scene, Chen Xiyang's whole body is tense, he even forgets to breathe, Xu Donghai's muffled laughter is somewhere between joking and mocking, when the two same-sex bodies embrace each other, Chen Xiyang His heart seemed to have been punched hard, but his whole body stood up suddenly like a spring.

The scene in front of me was spinning, the two hugging bodies gradually distorted, and the scene changed to that familiar dark place. Chen Xiyang covered his mouth with a retch, and staggered out like a headless fly. He couldn't hear Xu Donghai at all. That panicked cry.

It was evening groggy outside the house, Chen Xiyang didn't know if he was still stuck in the alley, but he couldn't help it, squatted down and vomited out violently.

The sour smell filled his mouth and nose, and his vision was blurred by the suffocated tears. It wasn't until he vomited out the sour water in his stomach that he gradually felt that Xu Donghai was patting his back.

Chen Xiyang stopped him with a wave of his hand, and squatted on the ground without moving for a long time, until his eyes were completely pressed down before he said hoarsely: "Sorry, I spit in your yard..."

"What are you talking about, I should apologize..." From Xu Donghai's cautious tone, it is not difficult to imagine that he was frightened by Chen Xiyang's overreaction, "I just wanted to make a joke, there is no other meaning, who knows You are so disgusted...I'm sorry, I will know later."

Chen Xiyang stood up slowly supporting his weak legs, Xu Donghai stepped forward eagerly: "Go in and have a rest? Wait for you to take it easy, let's go have dinner."

Chen Xiyang nodded, and when he walked to the door again, he suddenly asked, "Can I use the phone?"

As soon as Chen Xiyang entered the house before, he noticed the telephone on the wooden cabinet of his house.

I was afraid that Xu Donghai would have no problem giving him the phone, so naturally he would not refuse. Chen Xiyang called the canteen not far from his home and asked the boss to tell him that he was staying at a classmate's house tonight and would not go back.

Xu Donghai stuffed the disc of "Happy Together" into the deepest part of the drawer, and replaced it with the never-ending "Home Alone", but the two of them leaned on the sofa again, watching the funny content on the screen, neither of them could understand. I can't laugh.

Xu Donghai deeply realized that he had done a stupid thing, and when he was struggling with how to open the chatterbox again, Chen Xiyang stretched out his hand weakly.

"give me a cigarette."

"You..." Since Chen Xiyang had never touched this thing before, Xu Donghai hesitated for a moment, but his hesitation was extremely short, and he did so immediately.

Chen Xiyang is obviously a novice in this respect, that is, he didn't shield Xu Donghai from the wind when he helped him light the fire, and the movement of pinching the cigarette was also clumsy, but he didn't choke after taking a strong puff.

Xu Donghai took a look and knew that he didn't know how to inhale at all, so he also smiled and lit one: "Look at me, follow me, swallow your eyes into your lungs."

Chen Xiyang imitated the opponent's movements, and in an instant, the stimulation of the first burst of inspiration came back, his whole body was light and his mind was blank, and then the smoke in his lungs seemed to solidify, pulling him to step on the ground At first, the unprecedented strange feeling was transmitted along the blood vessels to all parts of the body, and finally the throat and trachea almost burst, transforming into a strange pleasure.

Is this what smoking is like?Chen Xiyang was paralyzed on the sofa, neither listening nor thinking, his eyes staring straight at the messy drawers that were half opened.

Behind the piles of boxes is "Happy Together".

It is not known when the two of them went out for dinner. Anyway, when the lights were on the brows of the moon, Chen Li and Lin Ji were still setting up stalls in the old place, and most of the people in the lively night market stalls were beaming.

But today Lin Ji is a little strange, seems a little depressed, and always stares at one place in a daze.

After being stunned for a long time, Lin Ji suddenly realized that Chen Li had been staring at him for a long time without saying a word, and immediately blushed in embarrassment.

"Is it uncomfortable? How about we go home?" Chen Li asked.

Lin Ji shook his head quickly: "No, this weekend is lively, let's do more business."

"That's right," Chen Li nodded with a smile, "Your brother won't be able to come back after calling, and you'll be bored when you go back, so stay a little longer."

Lin Ji's eyes seemed to be a little downcast, he glanced around, and after seeing an old bookstall inadvertently, he couldn't move his eyes away.

Chen Li greeted a few guests who were asking questions, and suddenly felt anxious. After calling Lin Ji to watch something, he trotted to the public toilet by himself.But when he came back humming a little song relaxedly, there was no one beside his tricycle.

He looked around, and soon saw Lin Ji's back outside the old bookstall.

Looking at Lin Ji's thin but young back, Chen Li smiled with emotion, thoughtfully.