blowing clouds

The environment of the hospital was quite different from what Chen Xiyang remembered, and it was normal. After all, he had always been in good health and hadn't been to this place for a long time. Maybe the hospital had been refurbished time and time again.But everyone will come here sooner or later, and the more often you come and the longer you stay, the stronger the smell of death will be.

Because he was caught off guard, even the faintest breath of death could make Chen Xiyang tremble.

He is young, and his parents are still young, so he has been able to stay in his own world wholeheartedly. His personal sorrow and joy are all for him. He has not yet realized that his parents are inevitably aging, and may even will leave.

The corridor of the hospital was full of people, most of them came to inquire about SARS or even wailed for hospital examination, so it was noisier than usual. Chen Xiyang, who was in it, seemed to be in an illusion, until a burst of noise was heard from the back of his hand. With a burst of warmth, his out-of-focus pupils regained their gloomy look.

The mother on the side stopped crying, but Chen Xiyang could tell from her continuous sniffing that she was still very scared, but had to force herself to stop crying in front of the child.

Lin Ji's hand covered the back of his hand, Chen Xiyang stared at it for a moment, the delicate skin was still young and fresh as usual, Chen Xiyang realized that he was the one who should stand up the most.

"what did the doctor say?"

On the way to the hospital with Chen Li on his back, Chen Xiyang seemed to be blind and blind. When he handed his father over to the doctor, he was also in a daze, and it was only at this moment that he really came back to his senses.However, when he asked this sentence, Chen Xiyang's voice no longer trembled, and it even made people around him feel calm.

Lu Yan suddenly lost the strength to speak, as if the mother is like this, she is stronger than anyone else when protecting the child, but once the child stands up to help her support the sky, she will become extremely weak.

What's more, her two children are standing.

Lin Ji said softly: "The doctor said that we need to observe before we can draw a conclusion. We don't have a confirmed case of SARS yet, but we can't be blindly optimistic. Before drawing a conclusion, we must be quarantined and we won't be allowed to accompany the doctor."

Chen Xiyang thought for a moment: "We are together with Dad every day, don't we have to be restricted in our activities?"

Lin Ji sighed slightly: "The hospital has received a large number of patients with fever, and they have to be isolated separately. There is no place to care for us. The doctor told us to leave the hospital and go home. Try not to go out."

"That's okay..." Lu Yan said weakly, "The doctor will not be able to take care of so many patients, can you please ask the doctor to let me accompany your father? We are a family and I am not afraid of infection."

Chen Xiyang brushed her mother's messy white hair behind her ears with one hand, and said calmly, "Mom, listen to the doctor, we don't understand anything and don't make trouble. There are too many patients coming and going in this place, let's go."

"Then your father..." Lu Yan trembled her lips.

Chen Xiyang closed his eyes fiercely and opened them again: "The virus is coming fiercely, but the more it is like this, the more we have to believe in the government's execution. Our most important thing is to protect ourselves."

Lin Ji also persuaded him: "The virus just broke out, and the hospital is paying attention to it. The number of patients is relatively the least. At this time, you will definitely get the most comprehensive treatment when you are admitted to the hospital."

Lu Yan looked around in a daze. The not-so-large space was full of noise. Some people were dancing and dancing with masks on, and some without masks opened and closed their mouths like fish, but their brows were all pulled together. together.

Lu Yan clenched her knuckle-protruding hands, as if trying her best to resist the voices of buying medicine, asking for masks, and asking for hospitalization, and tremblingly stood up from the plastic chair.

"go home……"

Since that day, thermometers have become standard equipment in every household, and any building has a long-lasting pungent smell, which is the effect of smoked vinegar. Perhaps some ignorant children will still They are secretly happy because they don't have to go to school, but as the cold winter comes, the frost on the eyes of the adults becomes more gloomy, and the children who are no longer sensible also become sad. The partners meet each other, hoping to stop smelling the smell of smoked vinegar.

During that period, most families lived like this. The topic between people was inseparable from the epidemic. Every time they went out to buy goods, they were worried. As soon as they got home, they couldn’t wait to come to the TV to receive first-hand information. Chen Xiyang’s family also No exception.

Lu Yan no longer searched and searched, the TV at home was never turned off, and the news was broadcast 24 hours a day. Her pale face was reflected on the pale screen, and she didn't know how much she listened to the fast-paced broadcast.Sometimes she would look at the telephone covered with patterned gauze and mutter to herself: "Why is there no news from the hospital..."

At this time, Lin Ji would comfort her: "No news is the best news, and the news from the local station also said that there are no confirmed cases in the local area so far, so it's okay."

It was Lin Ji who stayed with Lu Yan at home all the time, because there was no confirmed epidemic in the local area, Chen Xiyang and his publishing house resumed work like most units.And Chen Xiyang had to go to the hospital every time on the way to and from get off work, but unfortunately he was still not allowed to contact him, and could only occasionally glance at his father through the thick glass.

"Your father has suffered so much in this life. Why is it so difficult for you to be a good person..." Even if he was not facing his own son, Lu Yan's tone was very natural, "He must be safe and sound, even if I eat vegetarian food for the rest of my life. It’s okay to recite the Buddha’s name.”

Lin Ji tightly held her aging hand: "Dad will be fine."

It seemed that everything was silent, and the time came to the third year of 25. On the evening of the [-]th of the Lunar New Year, the phone that had been silent at home finally rang.

Chen Xiyang returned home stepping on the snow under the gloomy sky, and his mother and Lin Ji told him an exciting news.After repeated screening by the hospital, no SARS virus was found in the bodies of all local fever patients. The patients only need to be hospitalized for observation without isolation, and their family members can accompany them to take care of them.

Even though the news of the school opening had already been sent to the mobile phone, Lin Ji still said before Chen Xiyang could speak: "Mom is in charge of cooking, you can go to work at ease, and I will take care of Dad."

Chen Xiyang looked at him, paused and said, "I'll go with you, don't rob Dad of me."

The first joke in the family in the past two months, like the sunshine piercing the dark clouds, brought hope that cannot be expressed in words.

After tossing and tossing in the hospital for so long, Chen Li has become thinner than before. He touched his nose and mouth and asked in a low voice, "Why did you come in?"

The haze in his heart dissipated, and Chen Xiyang felt a little funny: "The doctors even said that there is no need to be isolated. Which patient has no one to take care of?"

"Hurry up!" Seeing him and Lin Ji approaching, Chen Li's eyes became more tense, "When people and equipment make mistakes, in case the virus on my body is not discovered, go home, there is a doctor here The nurse took care of me."

Chen Xiyang pulled Lin Ji forward, and Chen Li said, "Why are you so disobedient!"

The smile on Chen Xiyang's face slowly disappeared. After sitting down on the wooden bench at the head of the bed, he held his father's wrist through the quilt. He was very thin, no different from a bone.

"Dad," Chen Xiyang's eyes were a little red, "I could only look at you through the glass when I came here. You pretended not to know every time, but your expression can't deceive anyone. Don't you want your son to accompany you?"

Chen Li's thin face tensed even more, but under Chen Xiyang's gaze, he gradually lost ground and looked away.

"It's okay, Dad," Chen Xiyang laughed again, "It's a false alarm, and I'll go home after observing for a while. I'll feed you the dumplings made by Mom herself."

"Hey, what are you doing, your dad isn't paralyzed yet!" Chen Li pouted and snatched the lunch box from his arms, "Since you know it was a false alarm, you should go to work and go to school, right?"

Chen Xiyang continued to smile, he seemed to be very happy today: "I'm really busy with work, but Ah Ji hasn't started school yet, let him spend more time with you."

While Chen Li was chewing the dumplings and had no time to refuse, Chen Xiyang quickened his speech and said, "That's it, anyway, if he doesn't come, staying at home will make Mom worry."

Chen Li swallowed the dumplings with difficulty, burning them all the way to his heart.

After the New Year, the SARS virus is still raging, but people seem to be used to its existence. With the blessing of daily epidemic prevention measures, work and life have gradually returned to normal. However, Lin Ji has not gone to school, and has been with By Chen Li's side, waiting for him to eat and drink, but Chen Xiyang seldom appeared like an unfilial son.

Chen Li couldn't be more clear about what the two boys were up to. It was intentional for Lin Ji to act in front of him.But what if you know?No matter how strong a fortress is, it can't be broken from the inside. Lin Ji helps him bring meals, wipe his body, get out of bed day after day, and even helps him pee when he is weak after the examination. Chen Li's heart It wasn't made of stone either, and the resentment that was already in the bottom of my heart was even more precarious now.

Although there will be a comeback cold wind in the middle of the night, it can't stop the fact that spring returns to the earth. Chen Li sleeps peacefully, awakened by the morning sun and the chirping of magpies.

Lin Ji didn't go home last night, so he slept on the small cabinet next to his hospital bed, with the leftover orange peels piled up next to his face.

Chen Li looked at Lin Ji who was curled up like a kitten, and recalled how he felt when he was quarantined.

When he woke up from a coma, there was no family around him, and only doctors and nurses in protective clothing came in and out. The smell of disinfectant sometimes reassured him, and sometimes reminded him of poison.He was calm and calm on the surface, but his heart was beating drums until the test results came out. After all, the virus this time almost acted together with the god of death, so he had to be afraid.

He doesn't want to die, he still wants to live a good life and spend time with his children and the wife he owes the most. This has become his only wish between life and death. Apart from that, all other problems are no longer important. The color-changing waves of the world seem lighter than a feather at this moment.

Every time he closes his eyes, he thinks that he doesn't care about anything anymore, he just wants to live, and spend every inch of the rest of his life with his family.Now that it was a false alarm, he didn't know if it was because he deserved to die, or if God heard his begging and let the net go.

But no matter what, he somehow showed a taste of what life should have, became more open-minded, and was more willing to think from the standpoint of others.

A person's life is fragile and short, and full of impermanence. If you fail to grasp happiness in your hands, you will be so upset at the moment of death.

Looking at Lin Ji's sleeping face, Chen Li frowned subconsciously, then his gray eyebrows gradually stretched out, and the corners of his purplish red mouth curled up.

In the past, his heart was full of compromise and helplessness, but now his heart is full of understanding and letting go.

Chen Li turned to look out of the window to look at the bright sunshine, and said to himself: "If I don't go out for a walk today, what a waste..."

Maybe his prayers had an effect again. The hospital is constantly accepting new patients with fever. Naturally, a risk-free guy like him can no longer occupy the bed. Lin Ji was discharged from the hospital under the urging of the hospital. formalities.

Sweating all over his forehead after busy work, Lin Ji had finished the matter. When he entered the ward for the last time, Chen Li had already taken off his hospital gown and put on his own clothes. Although he still looked very thin, he The sickness faded from his face, and the vicissitudes of his face could not hide the hale and hearty eyes.

"Let's go?" Lin Ji said.

"I've decided to quit smoking again." Chen Li didn't answer him, but looked at him and smiled, "You can supervise Dad, okay?"

Lin Ji froze for a moment, and then a smile like a bright sun bloomed on his face.

This summer, the menacing virus disappeared invisible in this vast land.