blowing clouds

With bare back, Lin Ji looked at his blurred shadow reflected on the pale wall. There was no response from Chen Xiyang behind the door, but he knew that his brother was not asleep.

After the door was gently pushed open, Chen Xiyang, who was lying on the bed, thought that it would be great if he hadn't gone for an outing last year.

He didn't just care about that embarrassing thing, but he took the initiative to take a step forward, breaking the past peace and harmony, and making Lin Ji start to get close to him.No matter what this closeness of the other party will eventually evolve into, it will not make him happy.

After the door was closed again, neither of them spoke. What broke the silence was Lin Ji's sniffling sound. Chen Xiyang glanced at the only pair of underpants on the other party's body, and leaned back on the bed first: "You are really not afraid. cold."

Lin Ji lay down slowly, and pulled the quilt up to his chin. The quilt was warmed by Chen Xiyang, and they seemed to have returned to the familiar bedroom.

Lin Ji's silence was like a stone pressing on Chen Xiyang's heart. This moment's carelessness was completely different from the initial estrangement. Chen Xiyang had to say something so as not to be overwhelmed by the flood of emotions.

"Why do you have to sleep with me?"

Lin Ji remained silent, motionless, as if reenacting that embarrassing night.

Chen Xiyang repeated the question he had just arrived, even with obvious anger, but he knew that he was just being harsh and inwardly soft. Rather than questioning Lin Ji, it was more like warning himself.

Just when Chen Xiyang was thinking that he would just spend the weekend at school, Lin Ji quietly said: "I don't know what you are thinking, but I want to be with you, talk to you, watch you smile. Brother, don't hate me."

His voice was very low, even without a tone, but every word was trying his best to provoke Chen Xiyang's already messy heartstrings.

Chen Xiyang seemed to be under the scorching sun. He returned to the noon when he first met Lin Ji, auditory hallucinations appeared in his ears, and the sound of cicadas surrounded him impenetrably, and his forehead was soon covered with sweat.

"I don't hate you," Chen Xiyang's voice trembled, as if he was enduring some pain, "I just..."

What is he?Chen Xiyang couldn't answer.

Chen Xiyang knew that one day he would be tortured by that special feeling, but he didn't expect it to come so unexpectedly and be so deeply rooted.Although he admits that, on rare occasions, he can taste a weird pleasure hidden under the pain and depression, but he has no reason to persuade himself that that is what he wants.

That kind of strange emotion should be kept in the dark from birth to death, without sunlight, whether it is pain or unwillingness, you have to swallow it slowly, this kind of feeling can be called "the lack of life". He shouldn't let outsiders taste the taste.What's more, it's his family, what's more, Chen Xiyang doesn't know where his situation started.

Rationally speaking, he has no reason to have deep affection for Lin Ji. The only explanation is that there is only this person by his side, and the target of all emotional interactions can only be him.

If so, he can't listen to instinct.

The lucid experience of his madness became more and more obvious in his heart.Chen Xiyang was able to think clearly about the theoretical part of this problem with his hot brain, but it didn't seem to help. The suppressed emotions had no way to vent, and after realizing his sobriety, he started to make trouble again.

Chen Xiyang gritted his teeth and thought, people, they are afraid of the unknown, but also have a heart that wants to take risks. Sometimes when they look at a fire pit, they want to jump into it and feel the feeling. It is their nature.

That's why, after Lin Ji yelled "brother" in a low voice, Chen Xiyang suddenly turned over, grabbed Lin Ji's shoulder tightly, and almost pressed himself against his side face.

Perhaps because he was frightened and didn't react, Lin Ji didn't move. Even though Chen Xiyang's heavy and chaotic breathing hit his earlobe, neck and shoulders with heat, Chen Xiyang felt that he had really fallen into a fire pit, and Lin Ji's skin was so cold. , like life-saving ice, making him unwilling to let go.

There was only Chen Xiyang's panting in the room for a while, which was frightening and frightening.

I don't know how long it took before Lin Ji slowly raised his wrist, but instead of pushing Chen Xiyang away, he put his hand on Chen Xiyang's arm that was pressing on his chest, and stroked it gently, as if comforting a frightened animal. kitten.

The trembling feeling ran down his arms and spread all over his body in an instant. Chen Xiyang rubbed the tip of his nose against Lin Ji's temples, and whispered in his ear: "Ah Ji, if you don't call me brother..."

Lin Ji remained silent the entire time, and did not push him away. Chen Xiyang didn't know if the other party understood this simple hint, but after saying it, his body became less hot, but the lingering uneasiness and panic were still there. appear more clearly.

He let go of Lin Ji's shoulders as if he was discouraged, and turned over and lay down powerlessly, only to find that half of his body was soaked in sweat, leaving him with infinite coldness and shivering.Chen Xiyang stared blankly at the chiseled ceiling, trying to move his numb arm, but just as he lifted it, his wrist was grabbed.

Chen Xiyang turned his head and met those dark eyes. Lin Ji seemed to have lost his ability to speak, but those peaceful eyes seemed to spit out thousands of words.

It didn't seem dark in the bedroom tonight, Chen Xiyang sat up slowly from the bed, first glanced at the wrist caught by Lin Ji, and then looked down at his face from above.

After slowly breaking away from the opponent's wrist, Chen Xiyang bent down towards him, he wanted to kiss Lin Ji.

Black eyes, straight nose bridge, full and slightly parted lips, scanning all the way down, the fire in Chen Xiyang's heart ignited again, but timidity and fear emerged along with the desire.

Adam's apple, collarbone, chest, everything is so attractive, but Chen Xiyang's eyes are full of entanglement and resistance, the frosted skin is silently inviting, but also silently resisting.

Chen Xiyang fell obliquely on Lin Ji's body as if collapsed, and he was completely forbidden to touch those intimate parts. He turned his head and gently kissed Lin Ji's tight abdomen.

Chen Xiyang could even feel his heartbeat through the vibrating meridians of the other party. He was crazy, as if he was about to plunge into Lin Ji's stomach, sucking harder and harder, and finally picked up a piece of meat on the other party's stomach and gently bit it up.

Lin Ji kept quiet during the whole process, despite the carnivore eating silently, what Lin Ji finally felt was the warm and moist touch, which was not Chen Xiyang's saliva, but his tears.

Chen Xiyang couldn't say anything, only tears fell on Lin Ji's abdomen cheeringly.

I don't know if it's glass or something outside, reflecting the bright light shining in an unknown direction. One can imagine how serious the light pollution in this city will be in the near future.Chen Xiyang fell asleep on the pillow again, turned over, and gave Lin Ji a back view.

If Chen Xiyang turned his head at this time, he would see Lin Ji looking at him with an indescribable expression, but he was still playing the role of a mute, looking at the back of Chen Xiyang's messy hair without saying a word.

After an indeterminate amount of time, Chen Xiyang, who was still lying on his side, opened his mouth to speak, but his throat seemed to be broken, and he couldn't use his strength, so he just moved his mouth in vain.But after he thought about it, that's fine, he wanted to tell the other party that this was a dream, since it was a dream, then don't express any words.

None of them slept that night, and when the white belly was exposed outside the window, Chen Xiyang temporarily lost consciousness in his drowsy mind.