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▍Cuddling at night, okay?

After Luo Xi and Lin Zimo said goodnight, they gently closed the door and left.

Lin Zimo was the only one left in the room.

Lin Zimo heard that Luo Xi had returned to the room, and turned to look at the small lamp on the bedside table.

He took a deep breath, buried his head in the quilt suddenly, touched the switch of the desk lamp with trembling hands, and pressed it.

With a "pop", the light went out, Lin Zimo wrapped the quilt tightly around his head, and tried to close his eyes.

In the darkness, fear flowed into his heart bit by bit like a tide, and finally swallowed him completely.He heard the footsteps again, he heard someone approaching him, and someone was about to lift his quilt——

Lin Zimo panted quickly, and hurriedly touched the switch of the desk lamp. After a while, the soft light of the desk lamp filled the whole room again.

Lin Zimo lifted the quilt and sat up, grabbed two handfuls of matted hair, and showed a helpless wry smile.

For so many years, his problem has not improved at all.

At the age of five, his parents had not divorced at that time.His mother, Zheng Xia, is a career-oriented strong woman, who almost never appeared at home in his childhood memories, while his father, Lin Hai, is an out-and-out scumbag who spends his days outside looking for fun.

Lin Zimo still remembers that it was an ordinary night, Zheng Xia lived in the company again, Lin Hai was at home, but a woman raised outside came to the door, Lin Hai put his arms around the woman's waist, and happily left with her up.

At night, Lin Zimo turned off the lights and got into the quilt to sleep obediently, but at this time, he heard the sound of the door lock turning.

He thought it was his father or mother who came back, so he got out of bed secretly to look, but through the crack of the door, he saw a strange man standing in the darkness with his face covered.

It's burglary.

At that moment, Lin Zimo was so frightened that he fell to the ground. He wanted to cry, but he knew that if he made a sound, he would die.

The gangster held a shining knife in his hand.

The footsteps were getting closer, Lin Zimo mobilized his trembling legs with all his strength, and got under the bed.He desperately covered his mouth and swallowed all the suppressed crying back into his stomach.

After an unknown amount of time, the terrifying sound of footsteps finally disappeared, and he also fainted because of the fright.

When he woke up again, he was already lying in the hospital.Mother still didn't show up, and after a few minutes, Lin Hai walked into the ward.When Lin Zimo saw him, his eyes turned red with fright.Lin Hai often beats him, and the other party has a tendency to be violent, so as long as the anger is not going well, he will definitely take it out on him.

Lin Zimo bit his lip and called out "Dad" timidly, but Lin Hai rushed forward and slapped him with a raised hand.

Lin Hai stood in front of the hospital bed with bloodshot eyes, and said hysterically, "Are you stupid!? Someone came in at home, and you didn't know to call the police, and you just stood there waiting for someone to steal it? Do you know how much money I lost?" He The more he talked, the angrier he got, he pushed Lin Zimo and dragged him from the bed to the ground: "What did I do to give birth to a piece of trash like you! You and your mother are the same thing, annoying Nothing is good enough!"

Lin Zimo was thrown to the ground violently by Lin Hai, knocked his head on the sharp edge of the table, cut a long wound, and blood gushed out all at once.He was only five years old, thinking that everything was really his own fault, sitting on the ground trembling, pain and fear, mixed with regret and sadness, made him even forget to shed tears, just staring at the forehead " Papa pata" dripping blood on the ground.In the end, the nurse rushed in, picked him up and sewed him up.

Since then, he has been hiding a long scar under the hair near his forehead.

Lin Zimo couldn't remember what happened afterwards.He only remembered that from that day on, he never called Lin Hai "Dad" again, and after that, his parents divorced, and Lin Hai took away half of the family's property, and never showed up again.

Zheng Xia soon remarried and gave birth to Le Ran with Le Feng, spending more time on her family.She didn't seem to want to see Lin Zimo, and she didn't want to have too much contact with him.Lin Zimo knew in his heart that every time Zheng Xia saw him, she would think of Lin Hai and that failed marriage.

He is a stain in Zheng Xia's life, with such a scumbag father, he shouldn't have been born in the first place.

He seems to be an existence with a wrong numerical preset, and he is not worthy of being accepted by anyone at all, and he is not worthy of letting anyone pay sincere feelings for him.

Lin Zimo also saw a psychiatrist later, and the doctor easily diagnosed the result as a dark phobia induced by post-traumatic stress disorder, a kind of mental obsessive-compulsive disorder under certain conditions.

But Lin Zimo didn't want others to think he was sick.He just wants to be a gregarious person and be accepted by those around him.Although he knows he is unworthy, he still shamelessly pursues the favor of others.

Only Jiang Shu knew about this situation, and Lin Zimo didn't intend to tell Luo Xi.He didn't want Luo Xi to feel that he was a strange person.

The light must be turned on at night because he is afraid of the dark. Lin Zimo often opens his eyes wide open in the room with the lights on, observing every corner, for fear that a face or something else will appear from somewhere.He was often too scared to close his eyes.

If he had to sleep, he would wear a blindfold.He wears a blindfold to avoid being discovered. As long as he covers his eyes, he feels that others will not find him in the dark.It was a contradictory behavior, but it made him feel safe.

Lin Zimo sighed and smiled self-deprecatingly.He turned on the headlights in the room, sat back on the bed with his knees folded, found an American TV series at random, put on his headphones, and turned the volume up.He was terrified of any sound at night, and he chose not to hear it.

……

When Luo Xi knocked on the door, Lin Zimo leaned against the head of the bed and fell asleep.The video on the mobile phone has long been silent. Lin Zimo opened his eyes a little tiredly, and saw the sky light coming in from the gap at the top of the curtains. Knowing that it was morning, he breathed a sigh of relief and responded to the door. .

After washing, Lin Zimo rubbed his eyes and walked out of the room, and saw Luo Xi wearing an apron, frying eggs in the kitchen.He froze for a moment, seeing the tall and straight back of the other party, suddenly felt a little uncomfortable in his heart.

It was as if no one had ever made him breakfast.

Lin Zimo lowered his eyes and thought silently. When he realized it, he had already walked behind Luo Xi, put his arms around Luo Xi's waist, and pressed his face against Luo Xi's broad and thick back.

Luo Xi put the fried eggs on the plate, turned around and patted Lin Zimo's head, handed the plate to his hand, and pointed to the dining table: "Hurry up and eat, it will be cold in a while."

Lin Zimo obediently sat down at the table, poured orange juice for the two of them, and spread jam on the bread slices.This feeling is like he really has his own home, Lin Zimo thought lightly in his heart.He took a bite of the fried egg and his heart was runny.Lin Zimo narrowed his eyes contentedly.

He likes to eat fried eggs with flowing heart the most.

Uncle Chen drove them to school.

The apartment is about a 15-minute drive away from the school. Lin Zimo originally wanted to hold on to sleep until class, but as soon as he got in the car and smelled Luo Xi's pleasant smell, he became sleepy.

Luo Xi turned to look at him: "Did you sleep well?"

Lin Zimo shook his head: "It's too early, I'm sleepy."

Luo Xi said: "It's still early, you can rely on me to sleep for a while."

Lin Zimo was stunned, then raised his eyes to Luo Xi.

Luo Xi just looked straight ahead, and didn't feel that she said anything extraordinary.

Lin Zi bent his eyes, moved closer to Luo Xi, grabbed Luo Xi's arm, and leaned his head on Luo Xi's shoulder.

He felt like he had never fallen asleep so quickly.

After a while, Lin Zimo fell asleep, and his head kept slipping off Luo Xi's shoulder.Luo Xi looked at the other person's shallow eyelashes under the sunlight, raised his arms, and pulled him into his arms.

Lin Zimo snorted softly, subconsciously put his arms around Luo Xi's waist, and put his head into Luo Xi's arms.After a while, he almost sat on Luo Xi's lap, hugged Luo Xi's neck sideways, rested his chin on the other's shoulder, and lightly brushed the skin of Luo Xi's neck with the tip of his nose.

Seeing Lin Zimo's defenseless appearance, Luo Xi couldn't help tightening his grip.

He felt very satisfied.He likes to be needed.

The car quickly stopped at the school gate, Luo Xi looked at the person sleeping comfortably in his arms, and asked Uncle Chen to drive the car in softly.

Hongfeng Group donated two buildings to University A, so the family car can come and go freely.It's just that Luo Xi doesn't want to make it public, and makes Uncle Chen stop at the door every time, and goes to class by himself by bike or on foot.

The car stopped at the door of the teaching building in the outer courtyard, Luo Xi patted Lin Zimo's back lightly: "Momo, we're here, get up."

Lin Zimo didn't sleep all night last night, sleeping comfortably in Luo Xi's arms, his self-control basically disappeared at this moment.He barely opened his eyes for a moment, and the eyelids were quickly closed again heavily.

Luo Xi had no choice but to open the car door and take him out of the car half-embracing and half-hugging.

On the morning of March, when the cold wind gusts, Lin Zimo shivered, buried his face in Luo Xi's arms like an ostrich, and softly snorted: "Cold..."

Luo Xi took off the scarf around her neck and tied it on Lin Zimo.Lin Zimo rubbed Luo Xi's palm, wrapped his arms around Luo Xi's neck, like a large pendant without a soul, frowned and murmured softly: "Can't you hug me for a while... It's hard to let me hug you."

Luo Xi thought he was too cute, so she couldn't help but smiled slightly.He put his arms around Lin Zimo's waist, and whispered in his ear, "Be good and hug her at night, okay?"

After hearing this, Lin Zimo finally opened his eyes and looked at Luo Xi.There was still a smile in the other's beautiful black eyes, which made Lin Zimo suddenly want to kiss him.

But at this time, the bell for morning reading, like a thunderbolt, brought him back to reality.

He was in a drowsy sleep, thinking he was still in the car, why did he arrive at the teaching building in the blink of an eye?

The most frightening thing was that Lin Zimo heard a few voices beside him that he didn't want to hear: "Baby Mo?"

Lin Zimo turned his head and saw the five giant Buddhas in his dormitory standing on the steps downstairs of the teaching building, smiling devilishly at him.The five people turned their heads to look at Luo Xi, and said in unison: "Good morning, brother Xi!" It was like a group of younger brothers greeting the elder brother they admired, leaving Lin Zimo speechless.

Luo Xi greeted them and went to class.

Lin Zimo was fully awake at this moment, dragged a few people into the lobby on the first floor, and asked fiercely, "Tell me, what did you all see!"

Xia Jingming: "I recorded the video," Xia Jingcheng said, "Go back and watch it carefully."

Lin Zimo was sleepy just now, and actually didn't know what he was doing, so he thought about it, and suddenly said kindly: "Just send it to the dormitory group, I want to buy something." He seemed to have thought of something, and asked again: "What should we do?" Isn't it a model dormitory? Why is everyone late?"

Li Kai, the head of the dormitory, said seriously: "Because you didn't come home last night."

Lin Zimo said, "Then why are you late?"

Li Kai said: "Because we were discussing what posture you and Luo Xi would use yesterday, we talked too late and lost sleep."

Lin Zimo: ...Get lost.

Yu Yao's tongue was still curled: "To be honest, baby Mo, you and Luo Xi are better than you and Ruan Wenyan."

An Jiaze added: "There is a doujin section in the forum. Lonely CP and Wenmo CP have already been pinched."

Lin Zimo: "What the hell?"

He arrived in the classroom, put the book on the table skillfully, took out his mobile phone and started watching the forum.

I don't know why, but the title of the first post on the homepage is: New Year's Eve!

...Didn't the new year just end?

Lin Zimo went in curiously, but unexpectedly saw his own face.In the photo, he was holding Luo Xi's neck, Luo Xi raised his arms around his waist, and the two were standing downstairs in the teaching building of the School of Foreign Languages.

Lin Zimo clicked and saved the picture backhandedly, and admired it for a long time.

Hmm, it's really good.

A tall building has been built under the picture:

1L: Did the young couple doi too much last night, Momo's back hurts?

2L: Momo's waist is very soft at first glance, shasha can be done in any posture, shasha

3L: Second brother, you dropped your pants, pick them up quickly

4L: Is there a possibility that they just finished doing it in the car

5L: oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

6L: No wonder Momo’s posture is because of weak legs

7L: I don't care, I would like to call today a lonely girl's New Year's Eve!Chinese New Year 5555

8L: hug the waist and pull the small hands doi moto moto

……

Lin Zimo: I rely on it.They said I was so happy.I sour myself.

The author says:

Momo's psychological barrier is not a big problem, it can be completely cured, and he has already met his own antidote)