Xianmen does not ask about the mundane

When was the last time you felt this much pain?

By the way, it was when Ayan just woke up from a coma.

At that time, Qiu Yan was trapped by Qi Zuo's memory, almost couldn't recognize himself, and kept avoiding Zhu Lingyu.Because Zhu Lingyu is used to Qiu Yan's eyes always lingering on her body, she selfishly and greedily hopes that he can only look at her all the time, and keeps chasing Qiu Yan to find out the truth, and finally realizes that she is the one who makes Qiu Yan suffer All he did before was to keep stabbing his heart with a knife.

If he had listened to A Yan's words on the night of Xixing Pavilion and hadn't forced him, would he have stopped thinking about it slowly, and then wouldn't have accepted the damn inheritance because of himself?

Zhu Lingyou thought in a daze that he had been wrong since then.

No, no, it was earlier.

From the very beginning, he shouldn't have taken Qiu Yan to Xuanqing Mountain with a chivalrous heart on a whim.With Qiu Huijun's status, he is fully capable of sending him safely out of Fu'an and finding an ordinary family to take care of him, so that he can live the life of an ordinary person he dreams of, simply marry a woman he likes, and form a family. A small family.He won't be tortured by Qi Zuo's memory every night, and he won't be in danger again and again.

Since Ayan entered the Tao, this is already the third time, right?

The first time was because he refused to let go of him and escaped by himself, and was almost swallowed alive by a group of living corpses.The second time was because his safety was not confirmed, and he almost bled to death.This time, he actually put his whole life into it just for such a small hope.Every time because of him.

The few months with Qiu Yan were so blissful that he was almost dazzled by the happiness, so much so that he even forgot that he was the source of all Qiu Yan's pain.

Zhu Lingyu suddenly let go of his hands and stopped, and asked in a deep voice without looking back: "Is there nothing you want to tell me?"

Looking at the hand that was let go, Qiu Yan felt as if several steel knives were stirring in his heart.

Ever since he learned the truth from Qi Zuo's memory, he has been preparing for the future.He has thought about what to do if he walks behind the teacher in front in the future, how to persuade him if the master disagrees, who will replace him after he is gone, and what his senior brother will do after he leaves. Who will protect it.He had thought about everything before taking action, except that he hadn't thought about how to face Zhu Lingyu.

He silently withdrew his defeated hand, neither daring to look up at Zhu Lingyu, nor could he say a word.

"You are so capable. A person who has not been in Taoism for less than two years has become the head of a faction."

Zhu Lingyu said coldly as if addressing a stranger.He clearly knew that Qiu Yan was not for the position of head, but all his emotions were suppressed in his heart and he couldn't say anything else, only blame and anger remained when he opened his mouth.

Unexpectedly, there was no answer.

"That's right, after all, it's His Royal Highness the third prince of Dayan. A person who can be an emperor is naturally powerful. A small person like me can play around casually."

Zhu Lingyuan continued to poke his heart.

"If I was with you when Zhou Sijin spread the word, how are you going to trick me, huh?"

Due to the emotional fluctuations, the resentment in Qiu Yan's body began to move a little bit. He gritted his teeth and forcibly suppressed the resentment. He tasted a trace of blood on the tip of his tongue.

"why do not you talk?"

Qiu Yan remained silent, his fingertips firmly pressed into his palm.

"Take one life for me to live a few more years, don't you think you are very infatuated and great?"

Zhu Lingyou deliberately kept talking ironically to provoke him, just to force him to refute herself.He would rather Qiu Yan tell him openly, "Yes, everything I do is for you, you don't know what is good or bad", even if he can only live in an extreme sense of indebtedness and self-loathing, at least he still has a chance Use your whole life to make up for him, instead of being confused and kept in the dark, like a fool who doesn't know anything.

But even after that, he still hid and suffocated alone, refusing to say a word.

"Chun Yuyan!"

Finally, Zhu Lingyu couldn't control his emotions and burst out. He turned around and grabbed Chou Yan by the shoulder and threw him on the uneven stone wall, punched him hard in the ear, and roared at him: " The average lifespan of a monk is 200 years, you tell me you can't live for more than ten years!"

Zhu Lingyu's eyes were frighteningly red in an instant.

"Did I say I didn't need you to do anything for me? Why didn't you listen? If I didn't come out to find you and happened to meet Zhou Sijin, you would have kept it secret and waited until your body could bear it." If you can't hold it anymore, just find an excuse to make an accident and disappear from my face, anyway, short-term pain is better than long-term pain, isn't it?"

Qiu Yan lowered his eyebrows, he dared not face his questioning, let alone look into his eyes, he was afraid that his heart would be burnt to ashes just by looking at him.

"Did you take such good care of that He Changfeng, did you realize that he also has the physique of crossing the spirit, and intends to cultivate successors for yourself? You don't even want to give me the chance to see you in my dream after you die."

Qiu Yan's avoiding eyes kept stimulating Zhu Lingyou's nerves.

"You said you would never leave me for the rest of your life, yes, you have less than ten years left in your life, how easy it is. Now the brother is gone, the master is gone, and even you are going to go... What do you want me to do?"

At the end of Zhu Lingyu's words, his voice was almost trembling.

"How could you be so cruel and let me watch you being tortured to death by resentment consumption every day?"

Tears filled the eyes in an instant, and slid down silently.

"Why do you think I'll be better off if you do this? Talk!"

Chou Yan held back his tears, and said in a barely audible voice, "...I'm sorry."

I am sorry.

Heh, even after that, he still felt that he was sorry for himself.

Zhu Lingyu looked at his eyes that had not been raised from the beginning to the end and suddenly laughed.

Isn't this exactly the same as the day at the hospital?Isn't he afraid to look at himself because the source of pain is himself?Knowing this, why bother to force him?

Zhu Lingyou let go of Qiu Yan's hands, and he finally gave up.

Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, Qiu Yan is right, and he should do the same.

He looked at Qiu Yan and said coldly: "If I had known this was the case, I would rather never have seen you than to be in such pain now."

Then he tore off the jade pendant around his neck and threw it aside, turned his head and left.

Zhu Lingyuan's actions were like a huge wave that instantly destroyed the faith he was holding on to. Qiu Yan's pupils shrank suddenly, and he subconsciously reached out and grabbed Zhu Lingyuan. The resentment that had just been suppressed in his body the next moment He immediately took the opportunity to get restless.

Zhu Lingyu just wanted to turn around and shake him off, but before he had time, the people behind him were forced by the turbulent resentment in the inner palace, and couldn't help but knelt down.

Qiu Yan tightly tugged at Zhu Lingyou's sleeve, and a strong resentment emanated from his body.