last human

I don't know how long it took to coax Shi Yan to calm down, and fell asleep again after crying.

After a few days, Shi Yan's mood was depressed. He blamed most of the responsibility for Jiang Mu's death on himself, and dreamed every night when Jiang Mu let him go.

In the dream, he seemed to want to make up for the fault of not taking Jiang Mu with him. After Jiang Mu refused to go with him, he still insisted on pulling Jiang Mu to go with him, but when his hand touched Jiang Mu's body, Jiang Mu felt ashamed. It gradually became transparent and dissipated, like a dream bubble, leaving only scars all over the floor.

Shi Yan woke up from the dream several times, shouted 'I'm sorry', and then cried with his head in his arms.

Xuanji felt distressed seeing it, but there was nothing he could do about it, he had tried to persuade everything that should be said and persuaded, but Shi Yan still felt that it was his fault.

Emotions were relieved because of Yin Su and Shen Ci's visit.When he saw Shen Ci, Xuanji seemed to see a savior, and without saying a word, he dragged him into the room, making Yin Su think that Xuanji had some thoughts about Shen Ci, and almost started fighting again.

Fortunately, after Xuanji pushed Shen Ci into the room, he closed the door, leaving himself and Yin Su outside.

"What do you mean, you'd better give me a reasonable explanation." Yin Su stood behind Xuanji with a dark face.

Xuanji was not annoyed, instead he said honestly: "Something happened to Yanyan, I can't persuade him, let your family help persuade him."

"Tsk, it's not allowed to eat, is it?" Yin Su suddenly laughed at Xuanji.

"Is this the only thing in your eyes?" Xuanji angrily turned around and walked past Yin Su back to the living room.

"What do you mean I only see this kind of thing? It's obviously because you have 'dissatisfaction with desire' written on your face." Yin Su hurriedly followed, not forgetting to tease Xuanji while walking.

On the other side, Shen Ci was still in a daze when he was pushed into the room, it was Shi Yan who saw him first.

"Shen Ci, why are you here?" Shi Yan sat on the bedside, staring at Shen Ci by the door in surprise with his dark circles around his eyes.

After hearing the voice, Shen Ci looked at Shi Yan. He was taken aback for a moment, and then was startled. He hurriedly ran to Shi Yan, "Why did you become like this?"

"Ah?" Shi Yan was stunned for a moment, why did he look like this, isn't he usually like this?

"Hey, the degree of dark circles under your eyes has caught up with the national treasure panda. What's the matter, Xuanji won't let you sleep? Is he so energetic? No matter what, I have to let you rest." Shen Ci said angrily .

"Uh... Shen Ci, what are you talking about?" Although she asked, she vaguely felt that Shen Ci had misunderstood something, and Shi Yan unconsciously remembered the voice she heard on the balcony of Shen Ci's house that day.

"Isn't Xuanji him..."

"No!" Shi Yan interrupted him hastily, "You...you misunderstood." Shi Yan lowered his head, blushing suddenly.

"Uh... huh? No... isn't it?" Shen Ci was also a little embarrassed.

"Well, I... we don't have that yet." Shi Yan lowered his head, put his hands on both sides of the bed, and dug his fingers on the bed sheet, almost tearing out a world map from the bed sheet in embarrassment.

Shen Ci blurted out, "What? You haven't been there for so many days... Xuanji can really bear it!" Realizing what he said, Shen Ci quickly covered his mouth, "...Um...sorry, I didn't mean that, hehe... "

A bright red flower bloomed on Shi Yan's face, and the originally haggard face was filled with blood, Shi Yan slightly opened his mouth to change the subject, "My savior died."

The atmosphere once changed from red to dark black and white. Shen Ci seemed to understand the reason for Shi Yan's haggardness. He sat down beside the bed, "What's going on?"

The sad mood was rekindled by Shen Ci's "what's going on", Shi Yan choked up and told Shen Ci the whole process.

"Don't be sad." Shen Ci lightly patted Shi Yan's back. How could he not know Shi Yan's sadness? How can a person who cherishes life watch others die because of himself, how can he not feel guilty, how can he not blame himself? Not sad, how can I feel at ease.

"If I had been more persistent then, maybe he wouldn't have..."

"There will be no ifs. Things have already happened Shi Yan. Even if you don't want it in every way, it has happened. You can't go back. It's useless for you to be sad." Shen Ci supported Shi Yan's shoulders, and at the same time seriously Yan said.

"Didn't he think about the consequences? He knew but still let you go, which shows that he has his own ideas. Maybe he really loves that person."

"But…"

Shen Ci interrupted him, "That's his own choice, everyone has the right to make choices for themselves, we outsiders have no right to interfere, and you don't know that he will die, it has nothing to do with you. How do you know him Isn't his death a kind of relief?"

"Relief...relief?" Shi Yan was stunned, he had never thought about such a question, because he felt that the most precious thing in this world was life, and no one would want to die.

"If one day Yin Su becomes like the person you mentioned, then I would rather die, and I will not leave him to be with others, because there is only one Yin Su, but if he changes, he will no longer be My Yin Su is gone, so I too..." Shen Ci sighed, "The life of the blood race is very long, if there are no people who know each other, what is the meaning of the long life? Looking at the former It is a kind of torture for a lover to become like this, so death is sometimes a kind of relief."

"I..." Shi Yan opened his mouth and didn't know what to say.

"Maybe you don't understand now, but you will understand one day in the future. In short, this matter has nothing to do with you. This is his own choice. To put it bluntly, he let you go for their own sake. If you If something happened, none of them could survive. You really thought he was the reincarnation of a living Bodhisattva, and he saved you when he saw you were pitiful. It was a good idea. People have never seen you before, so why should they save you? For themselves."

Shi Yan was speechless, thinking about it carefully, it seemed that this was indeed the case, but without him, he might have died.

"I know you are sad, and I know you thank him for letting you go secretly, but the matter is a foregone conclusion. It is useless to think about it. Instead, it will make your friends worry about you."

"Where did I get a friend from?" Shi Yan muttered casually.

"You can't see my big friend sitting in front of you???" Shen Ci's eyes widened, pretending to be angry on purpose.

"Ah, I'm sorry, I didn't mean that, of course you are my friend." Shi Yan hastily apologized to Shen Ci.

"Don't talk about me, do you know how I came in just now? It was the one in your family who pushed me in. Before changing, do you think he would let us stay together alone? It means he really Worrying about you."

As Shen Ci said, he deliberately looked outside the door, "Maybe they are fighting outside, are you sure you don't want to go out and have a look? If you don't go, I will go. I don't want my Yin Su to get hurt."

Shen Ci got up and made a gesture of going out.

Shi Yan quickly grabbed Shen Ci, "I'll go with you."

"Then go and wash your face quickly, your head can be cut off and blood can bleed, and you can't lose your image."

Shi Yan was amused by Shen Ci, he quickly got up and ran to the bathroom to wash his face, and then went out with Shen Ci.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Xuanji dashed over from the living room with a stride.

"It's okay, Yan Yan." Xuan Ji pulled Shi Yan into his arms without hesitation, and Shen Ci could only look away in embarrassment.

"I'm fine." Shi Yan gently pushed the Xuanji away, he raised his head and asked, "You... didn't fight, did you?"

"Who cares to fight with him? I don't know how happy I am if I want to fight with dissatisfied people." Yin Su also came over at some point, and Shen Ci was already pulled behind him.

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Shen Ci squeezed Yin Su's arm coquettishly.

"Cough...go...let's sit and chat in the living room." Shi Yan ran towards the living room as if fleeing.