last human

In the middle of the night, Shi Yan dreamed again, this time it was the day when he was diagnosed with liver cancer.

Every year, the company organizes its employees to have a collective body check. Shi Yan, as an intern employee who has been employed for one year, of course also has this benefit. He followed the team to do the check.

The day before the results came out, the manager notified him that he had become a full-time employee. For Shi Yan, who had suffered from childhood to adulthood, this was undoubtedly a great thing. That night, he happily invited his colleagues from all departments to have a meal.

The moment I got the result, I felt like the sky was falling down. This seemed to be a satire on his life. Could it be that he didn't deserve to live a good life?Or does he not deserve to live?

Abandoned since he was a child, he might have died long ago if a sanitation worker hadn't found him while disposing of garbage.

When he was 5 years old, a young couple adopted him. They thought that a happy life was coming, but the couple didn't treat him sincerely. After taking him home, they beat and scolded him. One was unhappy. Take him out.

It turned out that they didn't really want to adopt him, they just heard that adopting a child can change the pregnancy. The so-called "conceive a child", he is just a tool for the couple to change the pregnancy.

After two years, they still didn't get pregnant. They put all the blame on him. They were so frustrated with the beating and scolding that they even thought it was a waste of food to feed him, so they took him to a wilderness far away from the city and threw him away. up.

He will always remember that night, the howling of wolves and the cries of beasts everywhere... He kept running, crying and calling 'Mom' and 'Daddy', but no voice responded to him.

The closer the sound of wolves was, the more frightened he was. He had forgotten to look at the road under his feet, and just ran forward desperately. His young ankles and wrists were cut by weeds. He didn't care about crying out for pain or fatigue. For if he stopped he would be torn to pieces by the beasts.

Until the moment he rolled off the cliff, he was running forward so hard that he didn't even see the cliff in front of him.

He thought he was going to die, but luckily, there was a meadow under the cliff, and he was rescued by an old woman who lived alone on the mountain.The old grandma took him in and taught him to read and write. That time was probably the happiest time in his life.

But the happy time is always short, the old grandma passed away due to illness in the second year, and he...became alone again.

He took a little money left by his grandmother and went to the city that the grandmother said.He started wandering and slept with homeless people on the street. Later, he saw students leaving school. He also wanted to go to school, but he had no money. The money his grandma gave was almost enough for him to eat, so he could only squat in the bed every day The school gate watched the students coming in and out enviously.

Later, the teacher at the school saw him, felt sorry for him, and called the police. The police took him back, questioned him, and sent him to the orphanage.

The orphanage was quite big, and it was a state-funded orphanage. He got his wish and went to school.Because he is a child in an orphanage, he is often excluded and ridiculed, saying that he has no father or mother, but these are nothing, and he is content to be able to go to school.

After finishing junior high school, the orphanage and the state were not obligated to continue to support him in his studies. He began to look for summer jobs everywhere, and went to school while working.

After three years, he was skinny and out of shape, but fortunately...he was admitted to the ideal university.

He couldn't afford the expensive tuition fees of college, so he started to work harder.Moving bricks and cement, he does everything that can make money.He eats mustard for rice every day, saves food and money, and finally makes up for the tuition fee. Every semester later, he will do various part-time jobs. After graduation, he finally got a job and became a full-time employee. Good times are coming soon. But this diagnosis turned out to shatter all his dreams.

He didn't cry when he got the medical certificate, and he didn't cry when he signed the freezing agreement, but now he couldn't help crying in his dream. Why?He tried so hard to live, why did God deprive him of the right to live?

He couldn't figure it out, really couldn't figure it out.

In the dark night came the sound of whimpering, and the tears fell on Xuanji's arms and got wet. The person in his arms cried more and more sadly, his whole body trembled from crying. As if talking about something.

Xuanji looked down at the tearful man in his arms, trying to hear what the other party was saying.

I saw that Shi Yan was shrinking in her arms, choking and whispering with a choke: "I don't want to die, I don't want to die, oh oh ... why do you treat me like this ... I ... already ... I want to live hard down..."

Speaking of this, Shi Yan cried even louder, the twitching of his voice was very distressing, his nose and eyelids were red from crying.

Xuanji held Shi Yan into his arms, touched his head with his big hand and said softly: "Don't cry, no one wants you to die, don't be afraid." The other hand gently patted Shi Yan's back like coaxing a child, After a while, Shi Yan finally settled down and stopped whimpering.

But the blockage of the nose made him unable to breathe. He sniffed hard and found that he still couldn't breathe. He simply opened his mouth. The snot was sticky and sticky in his nose. He stretched out his hand to rub his nose and woke up belatedly.

Seeing the snot and tears in his hands, Shi Yan was stunned, and seeing that the clothes and arms on Xuanji's chest were also wet a lot, he hurriedly sat up from the bed, and kept apologizing to Xuanji: " I'm sorry, I'm...I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm sorry, don't be angry."

"Wipe." Xuanji didn't blame him, but instead brought a few tissue papers from somewhere and handed them to Shi Yan.

Shi Yan hurriedly took the tissue, and he wiped the clothes and arms on Xuanji's chest in a panic.

Xuanji: "I mean... wipe yourself."

"Uh... huh?" Shi Yan was stunned for a moment, "Oh ok, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." He said sorry while wiping his hands and face.

After tidying himself up, Shi Yan lowered his head and knelt on the bed awkwardly, not daring to speak.

"Raise your head." Xuanji stretched out his fingers and gently raised Shi Yan's face, "Why are you crying?"

Shi Yan shook his head with red and swollen eyes: "I...I don't know either." He didn't remember what he had dreamed at all, and he hesitated to grab the corner of his clothes.

"Are you afraid of death?" This is the second time Xuanji asked this question, and this time Shi Yan didn't answer like last time, he just said: "I want to live."

"I will protect you." Xuanji reached out and wiped away the tears from the corners of Shi Yan's eyes.

At that moment, Shi Yan heard his throbbing voice.He stared blankly at Xuanji and didn't know what to say, this was the first and only time...someone said to protect him.

"Go to sleep." Xuanji stretched out his hand to grab Shi Yan's hand, and pulled him into his arms.

"En." Shi Yan responded in a low voice, and fell asleep in Xuanji's arms.

That night, Shi Yan never dreamed again.