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After finding Qi Qi, Xiao Qiqi was sent back by Yi Ouhua. Although Yi Ouhua didn't leave, he didn't speak, but walked over and sat beside Qi Qi, and stretched out his hand to embrace Qi Qi. In Yi Ouhua's arms, Qi Qi was obedient and did not resist Yi Ouhua. Instead, he relaxed and leaned against Yi Ouhua's arms, without speaking, and stared coldly at the boundless night sky covered by night.

The bristlegrass in his hand was blown back and forth by the slightly hot summer night wind, sometimes turning east, west, south, and north occasionally in the air, as if responding to the wind that made him dance.

Qi Qi suddenly said, "I'm so sleepy, you can hug me back." Although Qi Qi has a bad face, as a big man, let alone asking others to hug him, even if Yi Ouhua wanted to hug him, Qi Qi still struggled not to let him go. Hug, this time...

I'm afraid I'm really tired.

It's just that it's not the body that's tired, but the heart...a kind of torment.

Qi Qi suddenly remembered an article he had read a long time ago, which said that the new government at that time was carrying out a brand-new revolution—that revolution failed in the end, and from the eyes of future generations, that revolution The essence of it is also wrong and wasteful of people and money... But at that time, the revolution was huge and there were many supporters... The method of dealing with dissidents was almost cruel.

At that time, he knew this, but he still handed over the notebook in which his friend wrote that the reform was not good. Because he had a conflict with his friend at that time, he wanted to show his friend some face.

At the age of sixteen or seventeen, he never thought that the notebook, which he handed over to those reformers, would kill his friend like a green onion.When his friend was paraded as a negative example, when he saw his friend's face that was sallow, emaciated, and bloody from beatings, he regretted it very much, and his intestines were green... He really wanted to rush up and let those people let go He made a friend, but he didn't have the courage in the end.

He was allowed to visit his friends because of the informer. When he told his friends that he gave the notebook to those people and asked them to blame him, the friend only said one sentence, one sentence that he will never forget in his life. , He said: "I know it's you, I don't blame you, I just saw it wrong." This is my fault, and if I make a mistake, I have to pay a price.

It's just that the price of this friend's mistake is too high - the price of life.

That deformed revolution ended in failure, the friend died, but he...survived, with the regret and the condemnation of his conscience, suffering...if he didn't feel that the mistakes he made were not enough to die Forgive me, if he didn't feel that he could only repay one or two of his mistakes by being condemned and tortured by his conscience all day long, he would have died.

A feeling of hopelessness.

Although not the same as him.

But Qi Qi feels that he is just like him living in torment every day, bearing the condemnation of conscience...

The greedy one wants everyone and doesn't want to hurt anyone, but in the end...

Qi Qi didn't dare to think about it.

Speaking of the three-year-old generation gap, there are nearly 21 generation gaps between him and Qi's father; people who were born more than 60 years earlier than him, no matter how open-minded they can go, where can they go...

Qi Qi didn't know what to say if Dad Qi found out about his relationship with Yi Ouhua, and told Dad Qi that it was fake?Tell Dad Qi that he is just playing for fun and don't take it seriously, he will leave Yi Ouhua immediately?Or tell Dad Qi that he likes men, and this man named Yi Ouhua - the first two hurt Yi Ouhua; the third hurt Qi Dad and Qi Ma.

Why can't society be more tolerant towards homosexuality? It has to hurt one of the two?

If it was before, one or two years ago... Qi Qi would definitely choose one or two without hesitation, because at that time, Yi Ouhua was not a must for Qi Qi, although he liked it too. I haven't liked it enough to give up my family and disregard their feelings for him, but now that time has passed... Qi Qi is really confused. If Yi Ouhua treats him badly, it's fine, but the problem is that Yi Ouhua treats him very badly. Good, good, good to the point where he couldn't resist and couldn't bear to hurt...

But how?

How should I say it?

"Yi Ouhua, what should I do?" Qi Qi stretched out his hand to hook Yi Ouhua's neck, buried his face in Yi Ouhua's chest, and murmured.

Although in Yi Ouhua's arms, even though he was listening to Yi Ouhua, Qi Qi looked at Yi Ouhua as if looking at the vast sky in the distance through Yi Ouhua, or he didn't see anything at all. , just opened his eyes in a daze... the murmurs that came out were nothing more than words that he opened his mouth to spit out casually.

Although Qi Qi's eyes were dim and he didn't even have his reflection, but Yi Ouhua knew that Qi Qi was really asking him, what should he do?

But how did Yi Ouhua know what he should do?He only knew through Xiao Qiqi that Qi Qi was in a bad mood, and he didn't even know why Qi Qi was in a bad mood or what happened, so he knew what to do?

But looking at Qi Qi's current appearance, although Yi Ouhua didn't know what happened to Qi Qi, but Yi Ouhua knew that Qi Qi needed him now, so he quietly accompanied him and gave him support. No matter what happens, as long as the two of them live together, it will definitely be resolved—but what Yi Ouhua doesn't know is that this matter is not something he believes and can be resolved with optimism.

In fact, the instinct of things is not difficult, what is difficult is people's attitude towards things.

That is to say, Qi Qi values ​​affection and attaches great importance to both love and family affection; if this matter is changed by another person, he may not be so entangled, or directly choose family affection to break up with his boyfriend, or choose love to break up with his family, but no matter which one Zhong Qiqi feels that he can't even do it—he can't break up with Yi Ouhua, and he can't break up with his family.

Yi Ouhua is someone he loves deeply, and so are his family members; he loves each of them and he doesn't want each of them to be hurt, but the development of the matter.

With the hot wind blowing, the floating tree shadows, and the rustling night insects, Yi Ouhua looked down at Qi Qi, who was nestled in his arms and had no image at all, and sighed softly, coaxing Advised: "Qi Qi is good, don't think about it, okay?"

Several times, Yi Ouhua wanted to ask Qi Qi what happened, but he didn't ask in the end when the words came to his lips. With Qi Qi's personality, if he wanted to say something, he didn't have to ask, and he would say it naturally. If he didn't want to say that he asked instead to annoy him.

Thinking of this, Yi Ouhua heard the muffled voice of the person nestled in his arms: "I'm not Xiaonan." You can't coax me like this.

"..." Yi Ouhua didn't speak, and thought: Sometimes you are more difficult to coax than Xiaonan.

After Qi Qi finished speaking, the two of them didn't speak any more. Except for the sound of insects and cicadas in the air, occasionally there was hot wind blowing across the roadside and the rustling of leaves, making the night sky even more silent and ethereal, with a breath of air. It's indescribably weird and vaguely creepy.

After walking through that section, there are many buildings. The four-story building does not feel very tall during the day, but it is particularly tall at night when the moon is sparse and the light is dim. It seems that the two walls cannot see the top. Even if Qi Qi buried his head in Yi Ouhua's arms, he felt extremely uncomfortable, but Qi Qi didn't say anything.

After walking for a while, Qi Qi's hand hooking Yi Ouhua's neck suddenly dropped, and his slightly deep voice accompanied his movement, Qi Qi said: "My father knows about us."

The already depressing atmosphere became even more depressing at this moment, and the two depressing people were a little out of breath, but in the end it was Yi Ouhua who spoke first, and he said, "Don't be afraid, I'm here."

Saying this, Yi Ouhua actually didn't know what he should say, he just thought that he should say something at this moment, something to reassure Qi Qi, so he just said that, but he knew that what he said was nonsense , Qi Qi also knows...how can he not be afraid if his parents know that he likes a man like him? If this person is usually a naughty "bad boy", that's all. The pride of parents and mothers is what parents and teachers call "other people's children." To a certain extent, he is not allowed to make mistakes like this, let alone such outrageous mistakes in everyone's eyes.

Ignoring Yi Ouhua's words, Qi Qi said, "I'll go home tomorrow."

"I'll accompany you."

"No need." Qi Qi said, after he finished speaking, he turned his head and put his head into Yi Ouhua's arms again, obviously he didn't want to talk anymore.

Yi Ouhua knew that he was upset at this moment, so he didn't say anything else, but he had already made up his mind to go back with Qi Qi... He didn't want to see Qi Qi bear the pressure of his family alone.

From the beginning to the end, Yi Ouhua never thought that Qi Qi would listen to his family and give up on him. He never thought... It's not how confident he is, but because he didn't dare to think about it.

He felt that he could not bear that kind of result.

Already in his 30s, Qi Qi is his first love, the first person who makes his heart beat faster, and is the most important person in his life, not one of them... He I can't imagine my life after losing Qi Qi, it's too cruel.

So he selectively ignored that question.

Back at the residence, Qi Qi took a shower casually and then climbed onto the bed and lay down; although Yi Ouhua didn't think that Qi Qi would leave him, he was a little nervous and didn't have the heart to do other things, so he took a bath Climb on the bed and lie beside Qi Qi.

At night after ten o'clock, the air was so quiet that one could hear each other's breathing.

From night to morning, no one said anything, Yi Ouhua got up at seven o'clock in the morning and went to the cafeteria to buy breakfast as usual, Qi Qi's eyes were wide open when he heard Yi Ouhua getting up Shi Shi suddenly closed his eyes and pretended to be in a deep sleep. He didn't open his eyes until Yi Ouhua left Qi Qi, and then left the base without even washing his face.

——Fortunately, there is no need to go out to work these days.

Yi Ouhua came back and found that Qi Qi was neither on the bed nor in the bathroom, only a piece of paper was placed on the table in the living room, on which was written with a black gel pen: "I'm going out for a walk, don't look for me." Seeing the note , Yi Ouhua was shocked, and quickly called Qi Qi but was told that Qi Qi had shut down, Yi Ouhua hurriedly put down his hands and rushed to Xiao Qiqi's room early, knocking on the door for a long time , just when Yi Ouhua thought that Xiao Qiqi was not there, Xiao Qiqi's door suddenly opened, revealing Xiao Qiqi's delicate and flawless little face.

Seeing Yi Ouhua, Xiao Qiqi asked, "Brother Yi, why are you looking for me?"

"Where's your father?" Yi Ouhua asked directly, too lazy to waste time with him.

"My papa said he was going out for a walk and would be back in a while." Xiao Qiqi lied without blinking.

Although Yi Ouhua still felt that something was wrong, seeing that Xiao Qiqi was there, and except for special circumstances, Qi Qi was usually there where Xiao Qiqi was, so although he felt something was wrong, Yi Ouhua didn't continue to think about it. Instead, he believed Xiao Qiqi's words.

Who knew that because of his belief this time, something happened to Qi Qi, and it almost became a farewell.

Leaving the Huabai Mao base, Qi Qi rushed back to the main house of the Qi family. On the way, he suddenly received a call from the Qi family's father. The voice of the Qi family's father was very calm and the same as usual. After saying: "Ready to go home", the father of the Qi family first said "Yes." Then he said: "Then come back." He didn't mention his investigation of Qi Qi at all.

But because the sixth sister of the Qi family told Qi Qi's father to investigate their affairs before, and before that, Qi's father seldom took the initiative to call Qi Qi, even if he called, it was usually in the afternoon or evening, early in the morning like this morning This is the first time ever.

After hanging up the phone, an ominous premonition enveloped the whole body.

But Qi Qi knew that he had already said the words "ready to go home" and he had no way out at the moment. Of course, even if he didn't say the words "ready to go home", Dad Qi knew that he liked Yi Ouhua. There is no way out, no matter what, Dad Qi will definitely find a reason to let him go home, and even give him orders directly if his temper comes up.

What's more, Qi Qi is also worried about Qi's father's health.

After Dad Qi hung up the phone for a while, Qi Qi received a call from the sixth sister of the Qi family again. The voice of the sixth sister of the Qi family was a little anxious, and Qi Qi even heard a little panic. She said: "Xiao Qi'er, what are you doing?" Her "what?" was obviously heavier than usual.

Qi Qi said: "No reason!" For some reason, Qi Qi didn't want the sixth sister of the Qi family to know that he was going home, because he knew that if the sixth sister of the Qi family knew that he would go home at this time, she would definitely stop him His... But for some reason, Qi Qi really wanted to go home at this moment, really wanted to go home - maybe his head was caught by the door.

Hearing Qi Qi's words, the sixth sister of the Qi family seemed relieved, said "Oh" and said, "Okay, then you don't go home these few days, stay where you are." After finishing speaking, there was a pause It seemed that he was afraid that Qi Qi would be disobedient, so he specially instructed: "Even if your parents, Uncle Liu and Xiao Zhou, call you, don't come back, do you hear me?"

When she was talking about the latter, the voice of the sixth sister of the Qi family suddenly became softer, and then lowered her voice and said cautiously: "You must remember what I just said, no matter what, don't go home, hang up." Without giving Qi Qi a chance to catch his breath, he hung up the phone all at once.

Hearing the busy tone from the phone, Qi Qi was stunned.Just as I was about to put down my phone, it rang again, this time it was a text message notification.Seeing that the person who sent the text message was Qi Haorui, Qi Qi opened the text message.

Impressively written on it: "Little uncle, grandpa knows. You, I still have Xiaoxuan."

It was obviously a nonsensical sentence, but Qi Qi could understand it.

Although the expression on his face didn't change because he was used to the disguise, the hand holding the mobile phone was tightly pinching the mobile phone as if it was about to crush the mobile phone.The other hand was also tightly clenched into a fist. Although the gap was not long, the nails still left four crescent-shaped marks on the palm of the hand due to too much force, especially the place corresponding to the ring finger. Da was gouged out of blood.He obviously didn't bleed much, but because the palms of his hands were soaked in sweat, the blood spread with the sweat, and his hands were covered with blood stains, which looked very creepy.

But at the moment Qi Qi didn't notice it at all.

His eyes stared blankly at the unknown distance through the speeding taxi, without saying a word, and he didn't know what was going on in his mind.

It was not until a long time later that Qi Qi came back to his senses. Looking in the rearview mirror, he saw the curious and worried face of the taxi driver in the driver's seat. Qi Qi nodded slightly and smiled politely at the taxi driver. for a moment.

Qi Qi's smile is pretty, it always has been.

The taxi driver was stunned for a moment, and seeing that Qi Qi was fine, he turned his head around and concentrated on driving his car.

Afterwards, Qi Qi received text messages for a few days, some from Qi Haoxuan, and some from Qi Zhiyan...

Qi Haoxuan said that he was already at home, the eldest brother and sister-in-law of the Qi family, the second sister, the fourth sister-in-law, the fifth brother, the sixth sister, and the sixth brother-in-law... Everyone in the Qi family was called home except Qi Haochen who was going to school. Qi Haoxuan also said that his name was Qi Qi Don't go home, if there is one less person to suffer, one less person will suffer.

But is this what it says?Qi Haoxuan is Qi Haoxuan, and Qi Qi is Qi Qi... Although Qi Qi hasn't figured out how to face Qi's father, mother, brothers and sisters in the Qi family, but Qi Qi knows that he must face this matter, he must, and there is no way out.

Although he wanted to face it, Qi Qi was actually a little scared in his heart.Last time, Dad Qi passed out just because he heard that he liked men and he was not sure, but this time he was sure...

Don't know what will happen?

Qi Zhiyan's meaning was similar to that of the sixth sister of the Qi family, saying that she wanted Qi Qi not to go home these days. Based on the love Qi Qi's parents had for Qi Qi, it would be enough to be angry if Qi Qi liked men. I'm afraid the two elders can't stand the excitement when they go back. After all, Qi's father and Qi's mother are not in good health, so let Qi Qi stay at work.

Seeing Qi Zhiyan's words, Qi Qi really thought for a moment that he couldn't go back.

But when I thought that if I didn't go back, Qi Haoxuan would have to bear the pressure from him and myself alone. As a little uncle, how could I let Qi Haoxuan bear that kind of pressure alone? take it for yourself...