try yourself

Wei Lan held the doorknob, lowered her eyelashes to cover her clear blue eyes in frustration, and her heart began to churn.So, are all the current situations caused by yourself?Is it because I didn't think it through in the first place?

As soon as he saw Shinichi at the beginning, he boasted that he would protect him, but in the end it gave him hope and brought him even greater despair.But Wei Lan didn't know, she just naively thought that Shinichi would be able to live well without him.Unexpectedly, the first time she saw him, he was already scarred, which made Wei Lan blame herself.

If he hadn't been so overreaching at the beginning, maybe... no, no maybe, Shinichi still has hope.Wei Lan can see the same innocence in his eyes every time, he is still waiting, how can he retreat?I must become a good sister who can protect him from now on!

How can you leave him alone because of some people's opinions?

There was a firm light in her eyes, and she looked up at Tsuruga Ren, "It's not like this, Ren. Shinichi is the brother I always want to protect, not the relationship you said. He is very important to me. Important people. As for falling in love, I thought you already had some experience."

Isn't that girl in pink uniform your girlfriend?

"Experience?" After listening to Wei Lan's explanation, Dun Helian felt a little regretful, but Bu Poshang, he still knew that the two of them were actually going to make a new drama, and Mr. She had told him when the scandal came out.Hear what she said again.Could it be that the behavior just now started to be blind because of caring?But why?

He stretched out a hand hesitantly, wanting to rub Wei Lan's long brown hair to cover up his mood, but when he stretched his hand halfway, he was interrupted by a voice.

"Azure, why are you standing outside the door?" Shinichi, who was carrying Bess on his back, walked to the door with a cigarette dangling from his mouth, glanced at Tsuruga Ren indifferently, but only asked what Azure was doing.

Tsuruga Lian noticed the punk-dressed minor in front of him, looking from his lip ring and earrings to the soles of his feet, and frowned inwardly, but his face remained unchanged. He still put his hand on the blue On the top of his head, he rubbed it lightly, "I was a little rude just now, your brother is back, so I won't bother you, good night."

"Ah, yes, good night." Wei Lan was taken aback by his actions, bowed to his back, and then turned to look at Shinichi.

"Shinichi, is it this late every day? Have you eaten yet?" Wei Lan worriedly looked at Shinichi's skinny cheeks, touched her with her hands, and frowned even more.

"Well, I want to eat the rice cooked by Azure, so I came back with a stomach." Shinichi tilted his head to the side of Azure's face like a baby, wrapped one arm around Azure's waist, walked in with Azure, and touched her with the other hand. to close the door.

Not far outside the door, Ren Tsuruga who just opened the door looked a little dark. When her hand touched the blue hair, the underage boy named Shinichi really looked at him with a kind of cold eyes at that moment. glanced at him.It seems that even if Wei Lan regards him as a younger brother in her heart, the boy named Shinichi doesn't think so, maybe he is the same as herself.But what do you want?

It was Kyoko who met again when she was a child.Or was it Wei Lan who took care of her when she was sick?

Tsuruga Ren thought of Kyoko's unspeakable state when she saw Buposhang's scandal. Fuposhang and Mogami Kyoko also have a bond that no one can break.Just like Weilan and the boy just now.

He stood at the door for a while, then closed the door as if nothing had happened.

"Shinichi, what do you want to eat? I'll make it for you, and you go change your home clothes. I'll buy you new ones." Wei Lan stood in the kitchen, put on her apron, and spoke to Shinichi outside, about to tie the back Otako Shinichi's fingers suddenly touched her hand, "Shinichi?"

"Let me tie it for you."

Wei Lan felt the sound of Shinichi's fingers and apron strings going back and forth in a daze, and suddenly smiled contentedly, "Thank you, Shinichi."

"Wei Lan is also my most important person." Shinichi lowered his head, Wei Lan couldn't see his expression clearly, and could only react in a daze for a long time.

"So you heard it, haha. Shinichi, you are a very important person to me, you must protect yourself, and I will protect you too." Weilan turned around and hugged Shinichi, her fragile emotions came back Started to writhe inside, wanted to cry.But, you can't cry, how can you say you want to protect others, and cry so sadly at the same time?Wei Lan held back her tears, let go of Shinichi's hand and forced herself to turn her head away, not to look at Shinichi, "Shinichi, go and change your clothes, can I make you the food you loved when you were young?"

After Weilan finished speaking, she stopped looking at Shinichi, she was afraid that Shinichi would see her crying.It is precisely because of this that Wei Lan did not see such a desperate Shinichi behind her.

[I don't want to be your brother. ]

[Even if you say I am important.However, that's not what I want. ]

Shinichi's fingers turned white from the knuckles he pinched, he fought back the pain in his heart and went back to Azure's bedroom to change into the new bathrobe she put beside the bed, took off the collar around his neck and the chain on his lips and put them on the bedside table, Quietly looking at this unusually big bed.He sat on it slowly, popped a cigarette out of the cigarette box, lit it with his Saturn lighter, the warm orange flame stained the cigarette, took a puff silently, and then exhaled a small smoke ring, finally Then he let out the remaining smoke in his mouth in one long breath.

[You won't understand what kind of despair I'm in, expecting you to find out one day. ]

[Hey, Weilan, I'm not your younger brother. ]

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Wei Lan in the kitchen wiped away the tears overflowing from the corners of her eyes with her fingers, with a somewhat stiff smile on the corner of her mouth, skillfully cooking Shinichi's favorite dishes.Forced herself not to think about those unhappy memories, she didn't know why, ever since she met Shinichi, ever since President Takarata reminded her of the promise, the memories in her heart that she deliberately sealed away once again overwhelmed the calmness on her appearance, Humiliated her two years of persistence.

Taking a long breath, I forced myself to think about the energetic Matsushita Doji in school, the calm and calm Sachiko Asakawa, and the Kise Ryota I saw today who was different from the usual seriousness and had sharp eyes. There is Ah Woo, a loyal dog I met on the way home.

These are all your own happiness, aren't they?

In the past two years, I have been carrying the past alone, and I have such a worthy friend.

[Shinichi, still waiting for dinner.I came back hungry, just to eat the food I cooked, what was I thinking! ]

There was a smile on Wei Lan's face again, but it was no longer stiff, it was warmth from the heart.

[Shinichi is so stupid.No matter how you act like a baby, you should eat something outside before you come back. ]

Putting the finished dishes on the dining table, squeezed a glass of juice for Shinichi, Wei Lan washed her hands and took off her apron.

"Shinichi?" With her long blue hair tied on top of her head, she walked into the bedroom and found a few cigarettes folded in the ashtray. Shinichi was like a defenseless, non-aggressive sleeping angel. , lying quietly on that big bed.

Is it because you waited too long, or because you are too tired?

Wei Lan was a little distressed, she stretched out her hand to lift the quilt to cover him, but opened her eyes the moment she touched him.

"Wei Lan?" He blinked his somewhat misty eyes and asked in a daze.

"I'm sorry I woke you up. Do you want to sleep for a while? The meal is ready. If you want to sleep, I'll put it in the refrigerator for you." Wei Lan stood up, sat beside him, stretched out her hand Shun his messy hair.

"No need." Shinichi grabbed Wei Lan's hand, pampering her with an innocent smile, "Pull me up, I want to eat the rice cooked by Wei Lan."

Wei Lan also started to laugh, as if she was laughing at Shinichi like a child, but followed his wishes.Following Wei Lan's strength, Shinichi held Wei Lan in his arms, pressed him on the bed, quietly smelled her hair, and stopped talking.

Wei Lan only thought that he was being coquettish, patted his shoulder funnyly, stroked the back of his head, and said with a slight sigh, "Shinichi is still a child, now it seems to be back in the past."

With his face facing the quilt, Shinichi closed his eyes fiercely, his long eyelashes brushed against the fabric, and he told himself not to listen to these hurtful words in his heart.As long as you ignore what she said, then you can pretend to have her.Holding her like this is like really owning her.

"Okay, Shinichi, since you're not going to sleep, get up and eat quickly. Aren't you very hungry?" Wei Lan supported Shinichi lying on top of her with her hands, as if she was talking to a child.

Shinichi stood up, ignored Wei Lan who was sitting by the bed, went out and sat at the table to eat.Wei Lan only thought that he was starving, and didn't think too much about it.

Shinichi ate quickly, and when Wei Lan came out of the shower, he had already washed all the dishes and was sitting at the dining table smoking a cigarette.Wei Lan was a little helpless, but she couldn't say anything, "Shinichi, go take a shower."

Zhen nodded, did not speak, put the remaining half of the cigarette in the ashtray, and walked into the bathroom.

[Shinichi, you don't look happy. ]

Wei Lan looked at the closed bathroom and heard the sound of running water inside, but she began to blame herself.

[After all, is it because I didn't take good care of you? ]

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