absurd life

To be honest, after being with Ouyang Ze, I have changed a lot, become more hesitant and soft-hearted.

In the past, I only had red banknotes in my eyes, and thick ones...After experiencing Wu Yao's incident, love is like a trick to deceive children. It has no temptation for me, so that I will never be entangled in love.

But Ouyang Ze happened to be an odd number that appeared in my life. His appearance completely changed my life and thinking at that time.The love for no reason, the care without asking for anything in return, made me have to be moved by his sincerity, and I had to let my heart that had been sleeping for many years be given the right to love again.

Once upon a time, I always thought that Ouyang Ze was the one who could accompany me to go on, the one I was waiting for, the angel given to me that day, everything about him was the best gift for me, and I also vowed to be good cherish.

But after coming to the United States with him, life did not develop as expected at the time.One thing after another made my life rough, stomach cancer, betrayal, all the things tortured me to pieces, but afterwards, Ouyang Ze was always by my side and gave me a warm embrace.

Things are always manipulated by God in the dark. When I knew what Ouyang Ze had done and how unbearable he was at that time, my heart was full of pain, like being stabbed by needles.

I loved him so I couldn't be a real avenger; I hated him so I couldn't be a real partner either.Our relationship has become so complicated that my way of treating him and my attitude towards this matter have become entangled. I want to have a good ending and a good explanation, but every time I meet We all parted ways.

He said he wanted to make up for me, he said he wanted to be nice to me, but I couldn't trust him, and I couldn't give him this chance, because I was afraid that I would be hurt even more by him, and I might die one day without knowing why.

Xu Shaohui and the others said they wanted me to hate him and leave him, but when I really left, all I thought about was him, even if it was a love-hate relationship, there was no other man in my heart besides him.

In the face of our complicated relationship, outsiders have no right to speak. They all let me make my own decision, but even if I was decisive at the beginning, I would become hesitant when confronted with him, and my decision would change accordingly.

Li Man said: This is because you have not been tortured enough, you still have hope for him, and you are still thinking about your marriage that has basically existed in name only.You, you are so bewildered by Ouyang Ze, so you have to hurt your heart so badly before you can give up, and you can really get rid of him...

Yes, my heart just needs such a hard blow, just the needle that pierces the ventricle to bleed out bright red blood, only then can I become decisive and be able to get rid of his love words.

Persecution, harm, calculation; caring, marriage, love... Both parties are in the most extreme situation, one is hated to the bone, the other is lingering in love, they are like ice and fire in my heart, they are evenly matched , no one has defeated the other, so that I have no way to make a choice.

The long-term tug-of-war will eventually have a result. Only those who can persevere can win the victory. Only the party that truly belongs to justice can persevere until the end and stand at the height of victory, while the false ones will show their feet. Let me see it as soon as possible. Find out the truth and make the right choice...